my old life

Chapter 1400 Be loyal to yourself
Seeing Shiliu's red eye circles made me feel very uncomfortable. I have rough skin and thick flesh, it's okay, but I hate seeing girls shed tears the most.

After I finished talking about all my encounters, her silence made me at a loss. I don't know if she couldn't bear it or something else, but the two rings on her hand were particularly dazzling!
"Don't talk, don't talk, I was just joking with you just now, hurry up and drink fish soup!" I quickly smoothed things over, if she cried, I would really be helpless.

"Sanming, what are you doing all this for? Is it worth it?" She raised her head and looked at me directly, her hazy eyes looked distressing, and for some reason I felt a little sour.

Because her words fell into my ears, I could hear two completely different meanings, but I didn't want to believe or think about another meaning...

"It's not worth it, it's already like this... Life can only move forward and look forward, everything that has passed is also gone, and it doesn't matter anymore."

I waved my hand to indicate that it was all right, as if something was blocking my throat, I asked myself, can I really let go of the past?

As the saying goes, people are more ruthless than grass and trees. It is not easy to forget the pain of the past, but people cannot always live in the pessimism of the past. No matter what, we must face tomorrow and the future with a straight chest!
Even if you have lost something, even if you have no hope for this world, as long as you live, you can see tomorrow, and as long as you are brave, you can usher in a brand new tomorrow!

If the heart has been living in the storm, no matter how beautiful the world is, it will not help. Everything depends on the inner world, so please bravely declare war on the pain!
The fish soup is very smooth in the mouth, and the feeling of filling the stomach is very comfortable, at least it will not make people feel hesitant and helpless!
"Sanming, do you have any trouble with Mr. Du? I heard that you want to find him..." Shiliu whispered, and I feel more at ease!

This feeling is like a big rock hanging in my heart has finally landed. I am not surprised by her question at all, it just feels a little uncomfortable.

I have never forgotten that she called to say that she wanted to study abroad, and I have never forgotten being blocked in the ward in Midtown, and I have never forgotten everything that happened in the corner downstairs, but I don’t want to mention it and don’t want to recall it. ...

Looking back now, she called me in the morning to ask me if I was up. It seems that she already knew about the entertainment city in Seoul last night, and she couldn't hide the fact that she was in Shencheng...

I didn't say anything but touched the cigarette on the table, lit the cigarette and turned to look at the empty reservoir. The calm water surface was sparkling, and I felt an indescribable feeling in my heart!

"I just heard what others said. Is it true?" She asked, with a tentative and cautious tone, which seemed to be a little guilty.

"You don't need to listen to others, just ask me directly! Why should I ask him? I don't know him very well..." I said something ambiguous on purpose, and I didn't answer her question directly.

I don't want to mention any issues about the surname Du with her, and I don't want to mention any interests, because my instinct tells me that her heart is not bad!

"Oh! I'm quite worried, that's fine." Shiliu was obviously relieved, but I was a little curious instead.

"What are you worried about? Worrying about me or about him?" I asked nonchalantly, but Sixteen immediately gave an answer!

"Of course I'm worried about you!"

Faced with such a happy answer, I feel a lot more comfortable, but I know that it is useless to ask such a question, she is so smart, she will definitely not have any hesitation...

Similarly, her answer was also ambiguous. She was worried that I might be worried about my safety, or more likely that I would not be able to fight against someone surnamed Du... because in anyone's eyes, I would not be an opponent surnamed Du.

"I don't know if you like the taste of the fish soup here." I immediately changed the subject, and now I don't want to mention the word Du again!

"Fortunately, I don't usually like to eat fish, so I'll just eat a little."

"Oh!" I nodded to show that I understand, after all, I know too little about her living habits.

"Sanming, I hope you won't be impulsive, I'm doing it for your own good too!" Shiliu looked at me calmly, these words made me feel more and more awkward!
"I'm not impulsive. Isn't it good that I'm back in Shencheng? I can't understand what you said." I pretended not to understand, and these words also ended the topic invisibly.

"It's good that you know." Sixteen nodded without saying anything, I drank a sip of tea and smoked quietly, followed by a short silence.

Although I don't want to think about other things, the current silence makes me very uncomfortable. I know very well that she came to me just for the surname Du!

It's ironic that she didn't even want to say anything to me other than Du!

Similarly, I still remember what Huizi told me, people who really treat you well will always stop your impulse, even if I know the truth that good advice hurts ears and medicine tastes bitter, but I still can't avoid it!
Think about it briefly, Sixteen kindly told me not to provoke Du, then she must know that Du wanted to kill me!If she wants to consider Du, then she must know why I take the initiative to make trouble!

Shen Cheng is so big, why didn't I go to trouble others?Kyushu is so big, why didn't I seek revenge from other people?There are some things that don’t need to be explained too clearly, I can understand them after simple scrutiny, even if I don’t want to understand, but my mind is full of this...

A cigarette was burned out, I continued to take out a cigarette to smoke, Shiliu glanced at the cigarette in my hand, but she didn't say anything.

In fact, now is my most relaxed state. Smoking can keep me calm. Similarly, when I am addicted to smoking, I will always become irritable and my mood will become complicated!

Unknowingly, the sky darkened, and the hot wind became much cooler. Sitting next to the reservoir was a good enjoyment, but there were some subtle changes in mood.

The meal was eaten unexpectedly quickly, and we talked about various things for many days, but I felt that the atmosphere was very stiff, but I felt that it was a bit deliberate!

In fact, the subtle changes between people can always be reflected in speech. Sometimes it is better not to talk when you have nothing to say. In a truly intimate relationship, even if you don’t talk, you will not feel awkward. Forcibly finding topics will only make people feel unfamiliar.

After eating, I immediately told Huizi to drive away. On the way back, I leaned on the back seat of the car in a daze. I didn't fall asleep but I didn't know what to say...

Similarly, Shiliu was also very quiet, there was a gap between us unknowingly, and there was a kind of strangeness after not seeing her for a long time. In fact, the relationship between me and her was not too close.

From the beginning to the end, I couldn't express my feelings for her, and I don't know if this feeling can stand up to scrutiny now, but I believe this is just the rust caused by time!

I don't know how long the car stopped, I squinted my eyes and didn't speak, Shiliu pulled my shoulder.

"Sanming, I'm going back."

"Well, it's here so soon? I'll ask you to have dinner with me next time!"

"Hmm! I hope I can eat crayfish next time. Don't make me wait too long... okay?" Sixteen's words were very meaningful, and I could understand what she meant.

"Of course! I will definitely take you to eat crayfish next time!" I readily agreed, but I don't know when the next time will be, and whether there will be a chance next time...

"Then I'll wait for you, and I'll prepare a gift for you next time we meet!"

"it is good!"

After Shiliu got out of the car, I told Huizi to drive away. After the car left, I watched through the rear window. Shiliu's gaze was always watching the car leave.

I can still see her figure until I am far away, and I can even feel her reluctance, but now I have to make a choice!

"Brother Hui find a place to park in front, let's take a taxi back."

"Taxi?" Huizi looked at me in surprise, and I nodded to show that he heard correctly.

"Yes! Don't drive the car for now, I'll buy you a better one later!" I made a joke on purpose, and Huizi immediately smiled heartily.

"That's a good relationship! Everything depends on the boss!"

In fact, I just followed this joke and changed cars. Because of the long separation, I don't know how Shiliu's situation is now, but I dare not take the risk easily!
I believe in the truth that only being careful in this world can make a ten-thousand-year ship. Maybe I am too careful, but I would rather be more careful in everything!
(End of this chapter)