my old life

Chapter 214 The Battle of the Lost Mind

Time passed slowly, and it was already eight o'clock in the evening in a blink of an eye, but there was no sign of the second uncle yet.

I don't know what his disguise looks like, but I can be sure that his watch will never leave his body. More and more people came in, and my heart became more and more excited.

At this moment, I am wearing sportswear, black-rimmed glasses and a belt watch, like a hunter quietly waiting for the prey to appear. No one knows who I am, and no one knows how dangerous I will be.

Looking around, the whole chess and card room is very lively. Now unless I don't want to win, there is no money that I can't win!
At 08:30, there were more and more gamblers, and while I was waiting for my second uncle to appear, I suddenly saw a person who shouldn't be here!
The iconic Sassoon short hair, sneaking up at the door of the chess and card room and looking in, I never dreamed that Seventeenth Sister would come!
For a moment I was so nervous that I was almost suffocated, but her eyes swept over me without stopping. I was sitting at the door near the bar, and she couldn't recognize me because I was very close.

She kept looking around in the chess and card room, with some anxiety in her eyes.

I can see that she is very afraid of coming to this kind of place, and I can also feel the panic in her heart. At this moment, it seems that she has returned to the dark alley, just like she used to look for me in the dark in fear!
For a moment, my heart seemed to be blocked, and I wanted to say it but couldn't.

She breathed a sigh of relief after searching the entire chess and card room, but my heart was stung severely. I knew she was looking for me, and my heart was indescribably complicated.

When she turned to leave, her back was so relaxed, and my eye circles were a little sore. She was the only person who could look for me, and the only person who could take me seriously besides my second uncle.

I don't know how much courage she used to come here, and I don't know how many places she has searched, but I know she must be very anxious, she wants to find me but is afraid to see me here...

After all, no girl would want her boyfriend to be a gambler in a casino, and no girl would want the person she likes to stay in a casino full of desires. At this moment, my heart feels as uncomfortable as a needle prick!
I immediately stood up and went out to chase her, feeling indescribably sad that I ignored her!I failed her!
She has already walked out of the gate of the casino, she came by electric bike, her figure was so thin in the night wind, my eyes were sore and I couldn't help the tears from falling down.

I want to rush over and hug her, I want to take off my coat and put it on her, I want to tell her my guilt and embarrassment, I want to give her a little warmth, just like she once gave me warmth...

But I couldn’t do it. I had a human skin mask on my face, and I tried my best to tell myself that I couldn’t do it. I could only see her leaving on an electric car with tears in my eyes.

The moment I passed by, I saw her trembling body and her lonely expression, like a silent knife piercing all my nerves, and the last line of defense in my heart collapsed.

All excuses and reasons disappeared, and I felt unspeakable sadness in my heart. I was swallowed by guilt and self-blame, like falling into a bottomless whirlpool and slowly suffocating.

Looking at her figure getting farther and farther away, I felt unspeakable sorrow and pain in my heart. I already realized how much I owed her, and I also knew that I was really getting farther and farther away from her...

In a trance, I thought of her smile, her capricious domineering, her searching for me in the dark, her hugging me through countless flying fragments, and the light kiss she gave me under the moonlight...

She is like a warm sun that has warmed my helpless heart countless times and given me firmness and hope in my heart. She is like a flame that once melted my heart!

At this moment, the tears burst completely, and I cried silently, like a poor person who was forgotten in the corner of the world. I looked up at the stars in the night sky, tasted the bitter taste of tears at the corner of my mouth, and let the cold wind tear me away. break my heart...

At this moment, I have asked myself countless times, is the path I chose right?Ask yourself how can I cry so embarrassingly?Ask myself why my heart hurts so much...

No!I'm going to find her!
For a moment, I was running on the street like crazy, trying my best to chase the direction she left. I desperately tore off the camouflage and mask on my face, and ran wildly on the street with my teeth gritted.

At this moment, my heart is full of hesitation, my heart is full of bits and pieces of being with Shi Qi, I can't live without her!
I ran like crazy, but facing the messy traffic and the vast world, I couldn't find that lonely figure at all. I shouted her name desperately, ignoring the strange eyes cast by people on the street.

Running and running, I couldn't run anymore, my hands were trembling, tears kept falling, my heart was getting colder, the cold wind easily tore me to pieces, I stood in the wind and let the messy wind dry me Tears on the face.

"Ah! Ah!" I raised my head and shouted in pain. The voice echoed in the cold night sky. Only the stars in the night sky looked at me quietly, looking at me like a dog.

I never thought that I would cry so badly, and I felt unspeakable pain in my heart, like thousands of sharp knives piercing my heart. At this moment, I finally understand the choice I should make. The people I can’t live without are ten seven!
But with my current state, how can I stay by her side well, and how can I give her the promise and protection I once had?

Sitting on the side of the road smoking one cigarette after another, the pain in my heart slowly dissipated, as if all the suppressed emotions left with tears, turned into dust and disappeared in the busy traffic, disappeared in the vast night sky.

Until my heart became completely cold, there was only one thought in my mind, which was to use my way to vent everything in my heart!
I went back to the apartment to pretend, and looked at my red eyes in the mirror. I don't remember ever having such indifferent eyes, and I have never seen hatred in them.

I don't know why my hands are very steady, and the camouflage was perfectly completed without any mistakes from the beginning to the end. The peace of mind even exceeded my expectations.

Seeing myself indifferent and crazy in the mirror, I walked out of the apartment and went straight to Dynasty Entertainment City.

When I entered the chess and card room, I looked it over carefully. When I saw the sapphire blue flash, I saw the face I saw in the afternoon, and I knew it was Xiong Jiudong.

There are two gamblers beside him. I don't know if they are with him, but I don't care at all. What I care about is that four people can win the game.

When I sat across from him, he glanced at me, perhaps out of intuition, I could feel his inner confusion, and I didn't look at him deliberately.

But I can see his habitual movements when he bites his cigarette, and I can also see his extremely familiar hands, pretending that what he changed was his face but nothing else.

A gambler brought a deck of poker to play baccarat. He nodded and I nodded. We didn’t speak from the beginning to the end, because we are too familiar with each other. Once we speak, no matter how we change our voices, we will be seen through.

The game started in a calm atmosphere. It was the first time I was the banker when I drew the cards. His eyes flashed a hint of surprise, because I used tricks when I drew the cards.

I put 500 yuan in the first hand to sit on the dealer, and I shuffled four cross hands. I remembered all the arrangements of a deck of cards. I put the cards on the table, and then took turns send out.

Seeing my way of dealing cards, he smiled nonchalantly, lit a cigarette, stroked his watch lightly, and waited to see the cards.

In fact, he can't win no matter what. I showed my best shuffling technique and didn't have any fake hand washing techniques, because the person I was facing was my second uncle Xiong Jiudong, who taught me thousands of tricks!

In the first hand, I lost two and killed one. When I made cards, I only chose to let me win him. For some reason, I wanted to prove myself, and I wanted to take all the anger in my heart on him!
If I don't know how to perform a thousand tricks, I won't bear a heavy psychological burden, and I won't become what I am now. I don't know what my purpose is. Now I just want to fight him!
He lost the second and third hands, but his expression was still calm, he played with his watch lightly and looked at me playfully.

I still didn't choose to shuffle the cards for the fourth hand, and dealt the cards directly from the deck. Just after the first card was dealt, I immediately retracted my hand, and my hand was almost burned by a cigarette butt.

He didn't say anything, just threw the cards back, and the cards were revealed when they landed, just a small movement broke the way I dealt the cards...

I picked up the cards again and began to shuffle the cards. When I was shuffling the cards, I counted the number of cards and confirmed that there were 52 cards, one of which was not a lot. A battle without gunpowder began again...

(End of this chapter)