my old life

Chapter 3452
In the past, Mike liked playing the piano very much. He liked to use the piano to tell those thoughts in his heart, those voices that he never revealed.

If you can read the voice, you can understand Mike. The strong are destined to be lonely...but Izaki Tenshin is different.

Not only did she speak her heart with her voice, but she was more direct than Mike, because she told me many unknown things, and I have never been able to understand her intentions in doing so.

I tried to figure out the melody of the cherry blossoms at this moment with the state of mind I used to figure out about Mike, trying to figure out the heart of Izaki Tenshin.

The melodies of the pieces are basically the same, but the people who play them are different, and the emotions injected into them are naturally different.

In fact, sound is another way of expressing emotion in many cases. The same song is sung by different people, and there will be different feelings. The same melody is performed by different people, and the charm of it is naturally different.

I don't know if the melody of the cherry blossoms is sad in the first place, or it was performed by Izaki Tenshin. For the first time, I felt a strong loneliness and sadness in this melody.

It seems like a person who is about to die, like a person who has seen through everything in the world, like a person who has lost all the precious things, silently telling the past.

In this melody, I can feel a state of mind. I tried to empathize, I tried to figure out Izaki Tenshin's inner thoughts, but the gap between my growth experience and hers is really too big!

I have no way to put myself into it, and I have no way to figure out her mind, because I don't know what she is going to do from the beginning to the end...

She never clearly expressed her purpose to me, and I didn't understand what she did, which made me speculate constantly. The more speculations and guesses, the more clueless I would be.

In other words, Izaki Tenshin is a master of insight into people's hearts, as well as a master of layout and play, proficient in routines and various means.

She knows how to hide herself, but she also shows her flaws sometimes, because tigers also have naps!
If Izaki Tenshin hadn't revealed her true colors when she raised Chihiro, I really couldn't see her flaws, her disguise was perfect!

In the melodious and soothing melody of cherry blossoms, the scene in the dream appeared before my eyes again, a little girl holding the only doll standing alone in the snow, standing under the cherry blossom tree.

I don't know what she is looking up to, what she is waiting for, but it can make people feel a strong loneliness.

In fact, everyone's life is not perfect, and there will be some shortcomings more or less. If there is no defect in life, then it is not called life.

Looking back at the roads I have traveled, looking back at everything I have experienced in the world of rivers and lakes, how much is right or wrong?How much good and bad?

The animations and comics in my memory, the all-night sitting in my memory, and the boy in my memory are still so clear after many years!
The boy who was kind and kind, the boy who was timid and afraid of getting into trouble, and the boy who was a little slippery were all who I was and what I was.

But time took him away, just like the youthful time in life, gone forever.

Even if I had nothing at that time, even if I was full of confusion about the future and could not even see the future and hope, but that was the taste of youth!
Thinking of all the past, my heart became very peaceful at this moment, as if looking back at my life.

I didn't even feel that way when I was facing a desperate battle with a whale shark, and I didn't look back on my life.

Now I seem to be living again, re-tasting the road I have traveled, without intrigues, thrilling contests, and dangerous games in the rivers and lakes.

At this moment, some are just calm and calm, and some are just a heart full of holes, and all the hardships of the whole life are buried in the heart, never mentioned or forgotten.

Maybe other people will be like me, after seeing too much darkness and pain, seeing any light will feel extra kind and easy to be moved!

In fact, what moves people the most is not others, nor their stories, but one's own past, and only one's own past can make oneself truly moved!
Isaki Tenshin was intoxicated by her playing, and I was also immersed in the melody of this music. At this moment, we were speechless.

We are immersed in the same thing, and I can feel her inner emotions, which is different from Mike's loneliness and loneliness, hers is like silent telling and silent crying.

Mike's piano sound more needs others to recognize him, to get closer to his inner world to understand him... But Izaki Tenshin's piano sound is different.

What she needs is not for others to understand her, nor for others to walk into her heart and recognize her. She seems to be looking for a bosom friend, someone who can understand her heart.

This is a very complicated feeling, some like being alone, but also like singing and crying to vent your heart.

Unknowingly, the sky gradually darkened, and the light in the room became a little dim, but the melody of cherry blossoms did not stop.

Suddenly at this moment I felt a different feeling, the melody changed subtly!
I feel that this melody is full of killing intent, and I feel the tenacity in this melody, which seems to represent the inner attitude of Izaki Tenshin.

I don't know what kind of personality Izaki Tenshin is at this moment, and I'm not sure what she's thinking in her heart. I can't guess her at all... I can only guess her thoughts through my experience.

I have thought about many kinds of results, but I can't imagine what she is thinking in her heart now. If it were me, if I wanted to express my inner emotions, why would I play the melody in front of other people?
She can find a place where no one is around, she can play for herself, and dedicate her favorite tunes to herself...

Wait, dedicated to myself?Could it be that Izaki Tenshin has always played for herself?Or did she take me for herself?
If she wants to play the cherry blossoms for herself, then she doesn't need to be here at all, she can go anywhere, but she is here!

When she plays, she will occasionally look at me, and occasionally our eyes will meet in the air, and her eyes always make me puzzled...

If she thinks of me as her other self, that's a very crazy idea, and a very ridiculous idea...

But any madness and any absurdity can become reasonable in front of Izaki Tenshin's multiple personalities!

May I ask what kind of relationship can make her take good care of me for half a year?If it's love, I wouldn't believe it even if I was killed!

After experiencing so many emotional ups and downs, I no longer easily believe in women's feelings, because women are fickle!

Before that, Izaki Tenshin and I were opposites, tit-for-tat and endless opponents!
Started a life-and-death contest with each other, although I lost a mess, I bit off one of her fingers, I pointed a bloody gun at her head, and I asked her to drive me away from the prince dragon man...

I penetrated into her heart through her pulse rate, and broke the game that she and Prince Long jointly set up. It can be said that we are equal opponents!
Although I achieved my goal and rescued the women and children, I still lost in the end, because it was too late to understand at the last moment.

May I ask what is the reason for her to take care of my daily life with her own hands?Don't even want to use other people's hands?
She herself said that other people are not worthy to serve me, but what do I rely on?

I have never figured out why she did this, why she did so much to me...

I would like to ask Izaki Tenshin, who has so many people, why should he serve me?Or even do something low-key?
I once guessed that among her multiple personalities, there must be a traditional woman's personality, a kind of personality that she wants to become an idealized virtuous wife, take care of her husband's daily life, and live an ordinary life.

But I never thought that if she regarded me as her, as her other self, wouldn't everything she did to me be logical?
(End of this chapter)