my old life

Chapter 396 Despicable Me
When I woke up, I found that the sky outside the window was dark, and I could faintly hear the pattering rain outside, and my mind felt dizzy and dull, like a headache after drinking too much alcohol.

I haven't had a drink for a long time, because I'm afraid that drinking will numb my nerves and expose a different side of me, and I'm afraid that I will get into trouble here, and now I'm starting to behave with my tail between my legs.

Dimly, I saw that the oil bottle was being cleaned, and I seemed to be afraid of disturbing me with light hands.

I took out a cigarette and lit it, and saw that she was wearing a pink apron, her straight long legs were so charming, and a pair of house slippers on her feet showed round pink heels. For some reason, I watched her throat feel a little dry.

After seeing me, she smiled, her eyes were still so pure and bright, but I saw a different her, and I didn't even know her at all.

"Charlene, come here, haven't seen you for a few days, do you miss me?" I looked at her with a smile, but I felt an unprecedented sense of strangeness, or sense of danger.

She obediently took a glass of warm water, sat quietly by the bed and looked at me. After the warm water entered her throat, she felt inexplicably hot all over her body!
I don't know if it was the warm water that warmed my chest, or my heart became raging, and the repressed emotions piled up in my chest, only one fuse broke out!

"What time is it now? Is it raining outside?" I slowly regained my consciousness after taking a puff of cigarette, and hooked her quietly.

"07:30, it's been raining outside all day." She was slightly lost in thought. Rainy days always bring people a different kind of tranquility.

The moment she was distracted was my chance, and I yanked her arm to face her!
"Did someone come to me when I was sleeping? Or did they come to you?" I looked at her straight, trying to see through her inner world.

I don't know why she hesitated when she faced me, and there was a flash of panic in her eyes. I think I have got the answer I want.

She was caught off guard without any psychological preparation. She needed time to think about my question, and she needed time to think about how to answer it. Her hesitation was the result of my temptation.

"No one has been here..." She lowered her head, not daring to meet my gaze.

"Did you remember it wrong? How do I remember that someone came?" I looked at her with a smile, and the nameless evil fire in my heart burned more and more violently, almost gushing out!

Her fingers kept touching the corners of the clothes. I knew that she would only touch the corners of the clothes when she was afraid. The panic in her heart was clearly revealed at this moment!
The first time I met her in the reservoir, the first time I ate, the first time I stayed in the Little Park Hotel, the first time I left her in Shanghai...every time she would fiddle with the corners of her clothes.

"No one has really been here..." Before she finished speaking, I threw away the cigarette in my hand, stretched out my hand and pulled her to the bed, and without a word, I covered the quilt and jumped on it.

"It's better that no one has been here! I haven't seen you for a few days, I miss you so much! I miss you every day and night!"

Her expression was a bit unnatural, she knew that I was talking nonsense with my eyes wide open, I did think about her but not all the time!
"You haven't answered my question yet, have you missed me since I haven't seen you for a few days?" I licked my dry lips, and the evil fire in my heart had already begun to spread.

"Ah."

"Hmm, what the hell? I didn't even think about it. Is there anything to be ashamed of?" I looked at her coldly, and I could even see my ferocity in her eyes.

"I, I thought about it..."

"Oh! I knew you missed me...you want me to want you, right? Tell me if you want to now!"

I will never force a person at any time, even now I wish I could put her to death on the spot, but I still want an answer hypocritically, even though I know it is hypocritical!

After hesitating for a while, she nodded, but I insist on letting her speak out, no matter how embarrassed she is!

"I think..." I have already got the answer I want, even if the means are so despicable and unbearable, so what can I do?

The light rain outside the window gently knocked on the window glass. At this moment, I was in a trance in the storm, facing the lightning in the sky and the turbulent sea alone.

I never trusted Tuoyouping but I never wanted to play with her, let alone treat her as a dispensable person, she occupies a place in my heart, one of the few places!

Maybe it's because the more you care about it, the more suspicious you will be. Now there is no evidence that she was bribed, but I can see the complexity in her eyes.

Tuoyouping is no longer as shy as usual, she gritted her teeth and closed her eyes, perhaps because the more she loves and hates, the more I love and hate her, at this moment I have brought out my despicable humanity to the extreme!

This is the most despicable time I have ever experienced, and it is also the time I regret the most. To this day, I still cannot let go, cannot forgive myself, let alone forget her tears that night...

After 10 minutes, everything became quiet again. Unknowingly, Tuoyouping's tears had already moistened the pillow. There was a twinge in my heart, but I got out of bed indifferently.

I lit a cigarette but couldn't calm down, I didn't even dare to look back at her, the slight convulsions and crying stimulated my nerves, I put on my clothes and left the room upset.

I fled like a deserter. After I calmed down, I felt that I was a scum, a complete scum, who was full of benevolence and morality but did all despicable deeds, despicable enough to bully a woman who had no resistance...

There was unspeakable complexity and guilt in my heart, and for a moment I wanted to go back to the room and say sorry to her...

But now even if I want to stand outside in the rain, I can't do it. I can't leave this abyss of hell. All the stimuli make me crazier.

I kept telling myself in my heart, if it wasn't for me, the oil bottle was still in the reservoir, if it wasn't for me, she wouldn't know what kind of life to live, if it wasn't for me, how could she get dignity and freedom.

But if it wasn't for me, how could she come to Wucheng? If it wasn't for me, how could she be controlled by others?
The inner struggle made my face burn. I couldn't convince my heart, let alone finish all this with peace of mind...

I turned my head and ran into a person, a person who looked familiar but unfamiliar, but I knew she was a fox.

Her gaze was fixed on me all the time, but she walked over without stopping, and threw a ball of paper in her hand the moment I passed by.

I walked over and squatted down as if to tie my shoelaces, quietly put the ball of paper in my hands and left. There were surveillance cameras everywhere in the corridor. I have to say that the fox has more experience in anti-reconnaissance than I do.

I didn't go back to the room with the paper ball, turned around and entered the bathroom on the floor, and slowly opened the paper ball in the bathroom.

The ball of paper was an ordinary deposit slip with an unfamiliar name and deposit amount on it, as well as a phone number and room number.

I understand what the fox means to meet. Relatively speaking, it is safest to meet only in the rest room in the entire casino.

I memorized the phone number and room number in my heart, and threw the ball of paper into the toilet to take it away. I once again admired the power of the fox. Even if the ball of paper was found, it would not reveal anything, because it was just an ordinary room deposit slip. .

This information is useless to others, but it can be found for me. It seems that the fox has already noticed my situation here.

I deliberately dawdled for a while, and after leaving the bathroom, I went to the first floor and walked around. When I saw Su Yurong, I was completely relieved.

He is still a welcome at the door. I have been a welcome and know what it is like. When we welcome and send off, we always have a smiling face. If it sounds good, it is a welcome.

The unbearable feeling in my heart is stimulating me, I really want to rush to hug him, but I know I can't do it.

On the one hand, I hurt the oil bottle, and on the other hand, my friend's affection for me. The entanglement in my heart made me very painful, and it also made me feel more and more despicable!
For the first time, I felt so unbearable and ashamed, but I didn't even have the courage to say I'm sorry...

(End of this chapter)