my old life

Chapter 413 The Real Society

I smoked a few cigarettes in a row and tried my best to suppress the anger in my heart. This is how I am. I don’t care what others do to me, but I can’t hurt the people I care about!

The appearance of Su Yurong being beaten kept appearing in front of his eyes, and his fists were already clenched in pain...

I know that now I don't have the strength to engage Ah Jin, let alone Maobai... Without the strength, everything is empty talk. I can't change anything by impulsiveness and recklessness, and I can only make friends around me suffer together.

Su Yurong's miserable appearance stimulated my nerves, I knew I couldn't go on like this, I could wait but others couldn't, there was no revenge at all if I continued like this.

One more day in Maobai's US high casino will bring me more danger, this time it will poison me, and the next time I don't know what is waiting for me, I can escape once, but how many more times can I escape?
Quietly smoking a cigarette in a trance, the monstrous flames in my heart are slowly subsiding. When my heart is completely cold, it is the most dangerous time for me!
I want to do everything I can to struggle in this dark world, I want to do everything I can to make myself stronger, I can't waste time and I can't continue to be weak, because now I have no way out...

Now Maobai mistakenly thinks that I have become an addict, which is an opportunity for me!I want to start my own plan while he relaxes his vigilance. If I can't infiltrate other people in a short time, I can only kill them!

A plan slowly took shape in my mind. In this plan, I am ruthless and inhuman. I will make the damned pay the price, even if it makes me fall into the abyss of crime.

Do you regret it?From the beginning of my determination to revenge, there is no word "regret" in the dictionary.

Is there a way out?Ever since I got close to Maobai, I have never retreated. I have never been so determined to do something in my life, and I have never hated someone so much to take revenge...

The night comes quietly, standing on the balcony overlooking the brightly lit city, only one step away from this bustling night, but it always seems like a world away.

The cold wind entering the knife stimulated my nerves and made me more awake. Watching the cigarette in my hand gradually burn out, memories and thoughts slowly occupied my heart.

Looking up at the deep night sky, letting my thoughts roam under this vast night sky, I feel like I am relieved at this moment, and I want to travel freely in this splendid galaxy...

Quiet nights are always easy to make people feel a lot of emotion, and it is easy to be remembered by people in the past. Everything I once had flashed in my mind, making me return to that time in a trance and return to that world.

Maybe what the second uncle said is right, people are animals that like to express emotions and pursue memories, worry about gains and losses when they don’t get anything, and become hypocritical and sensitive after they are really lost, full of longing for things that can no longer be obtained...

In fact, I want to end everything and go back to Shencheng. I want to go back to the environment I used to be, even if I hang out in the chess and card room and mahjong parlor every day. I can laugh heartlessly with so many friends, eat and sing together. What's not to like?
I don't know what Shiqi is doing at the moment, nor how Shiliu is doing. I haven't heard from them for a long, long time. I don't even have the courage to watch their dynamics, just because I'm afraid that I won't be able to hold on here alone.

Some things must be endured by oneself, some hardships must be experienced by oneself, and some hatreds must be done by oneself, otherwise one is not worthy of being a man.

As the saying goes, only by bearing the pain that others cannot bear can one reach a height that ordinary people cannot reach.

When others are enjoying coke and French fries, I am suffering. When others are enjoying the night and relaxing, I have to worry about my own life and death. Only an extraordinary environment can create a person's character.

I am constantly growing and maturing. I don't know what I will grow into in the future. I am even afraid of leaving the original life and world at my age. It is not a good thing for me to see through this society too early.

Going through too much darkness will blacken my pure heart, make me lose the most basic trust in my friends, and also lose more and more youth that should belong to me...

I don't know how long I stood there, I feel a little chilly in my heart, I don't know if it's because of the cold weather, it's already late autumn in a trance.

I have no chance to see the falling yellow leaves, no chance to see migratory birds flying south, or even a chance to see the sunset sky in late autumn.

I really miss the autumn days. At that time, I could stand on a high place and overlook the scenery, face the endless farmland, walk through the willows by the river, and watch the sunset quietly. dusk……

The weather unknowingly turns cold, as if I haven't been able to get out of the enthusiasm of summer, as if traveling to late autumn overnight, everything has quietly disappeared, leaving only the bleak autumn wind blowing on my face.

I patted my face hard to cheer myself up, turned around and put away all my inner thoughts. I walked out from here in a ruthless way. With a kind heart, I would be killed sooner or later!

Even now I have a companion, Fatty, but he and I will never become true friends, at most we have common enemies, so we left the room and went straight to the basement.

Maobai deliberately let the fat man approach me, and I have a good reason to blend in, but would someone as smart as Maobai think that the people who got together would hate him?

When I came to the underground casino, I saw the fat man in the rest area from a distance. Now I feel that he is different from before... I used to always think that he was staring at the female gamblers for eye addiction, but now I think he must have other purposes.

"Brother Fat." He greeted him and sat down, took out a cigarette and lit it.

Ever since I went to Maobai's villa and came into contact with No. [-], the fat man never smoked my cigarettes, and I didn't need to make trouble for myself.

Just like the fact that he doesn’t know how to smoke when he gives me cigarettes now, everyone is afraid of being cheated in the sinister world, afraid that he will fall into a white nightmare without knowing it.

"What is fat brother watching here tonight? Are there any beauties?" I glanced around and there were no beautiful female gamblers. There are few people in the casino hall at this time, and the most crowded time is after ten o'clock in the evening.

"I'm thinking of a trick, a thousand tricks that are extremely hidden but not easy to be discovered by others." The fat man said thoughtfully, as if he was still immersed in this thousand tricks.

As soon as I heard Qianshu, I immediately regained my spirits, and touched my nose in a thief-like manner. In fact, I don't need to pretend to be fat to know what I'm thinking.

"This method is very strange. I have only seen it once but it is still unpredictable." The fat man is obviously willing to share it with me.

"Oh? Let's hear it, it can't be Brother Jinshui and Boss Ai, right?" I asked meaningfully, and it was the first time he took me to gain experience.

"Those two unlucky guys died a long time ago." Fatty's words made my heart skip a beat. I clearly remember betting together!
"How did you die? When did you die?" I thought of the Queen of Spades and their affair, but I never imagined that they would die.

"How else can I die? The car accident, it looks like you know something inside..." The fat man immediately understood the meaning of my words, and I knew that I couldn't hide any details from him.

What a cheater pays attention to is eyesight. If you don't have eyesight, you don't want to be fooled. Fatty, the guy from Chu County, is very shrewd.

"I gambled with the Queen of Spades once before, and they were caught cheating. This matter..." I told the story of the Queen of Spades gamble, and I suspected that she did it.

"That's right, that must be her, this is her usual style." I didn't expect that the fat man's bite must be made by the Queen of Spades, and I was at a loss.

The fat man took a puff of cigarette and said slowly: "It's the most common way to disguise by accident. If the car has insurance, it's fine to pay a little money at most. People who offend her never end well."

I nodded to show that I understand. Fatty's words are implying that I stay away from her. Fatty once warned me to stay away from the Queen of Spades. I didn't expect her methods to be so ruthless!

I also remember that there used to be a guy named Da Jun, who caught me so desperately that he couldn't die. Although the second uncle didn't deal with him face to face, that guy was also paralyzed for the rest of his life.

Perhaps it is a good thing for a person like Dajun to be paralyzed for a lifetime, at least he can still live...

I used to think it might not have been done by my second uncle, but with my current mentality and experience, it is [-]% arranged by my second uncle!

The rivers and lakes are sinister and unpredictable, kindness to the enemy is cruelty to oneself, the second uncle would let the army go without reason...

(End of this chapter)