my old life

Chapter 491 Inner Persistence

When we entered the small restaurant, the owner immediately recognized us, and warmly greeted us to the only single room, with old walls and dusty electric fans, and nothing changed with full of memories.

Shi Qi still has a passionate personality, and ordered almost all the dishes he had eaten. Su Yurong brought two boxes of beer, and the atmosphere reached a climax before it even started. This moment is precious and unforgettable!

I can't even bear to enjoy this moment, because the beginning is destined to have an end. How I wish that time can be frozen in this moment, in the beauty of indifference to the world...

But the reality is cruel. The once beautiful reunion will always be separated by a gap, a gap that cannot be easily crossed. This is the strangeness brought by time.

Seventeen said that I have changed, I am no longer as stupid as before, she can see maturity and prudence in my eyes, this is a fact that cannot be changed.

When I knew Shi Qi had a new boyfriend, I felt very calm, and I could bless her calmly, even though the love at this time often couldn’t go to the end, I still wished her sincerely...

Shiliu's eyes are always calm, she can chat with us as if nothing happened, she can be as calm and generous as before, but she can't hide the loneliness in her eyes.

I have never seen such lonely eyes, never seen such a lonely Shiliu, if her loneliness was outstanding before, then she gives me the feeling that she has closed the whole world.

Even if she is smiling, but her heart is cold, even if she is listening, her mind is not here at all. A look in her eyes in a trance can make people feel distressed, and the desire in my heart is even stronger.

But I will not confess to her at this moment, because I know that she is under too much pressure, and she can't take a breath easily, let alone put her mind on other places.

In fact, I don't want to take advantage of other people's danger. My second uncle said that a man should be a man, he should be upright and unrestrained, and he should be upright and clear of his heart in doing things!
In the midst of drinking and drinking, I vaguely saw the smiles on everyone's faces, enjoyed the relaxation of this moment, temporarily let go of the heavy shackles on my shoulders, and gathered together at this unforgettable moment!
The happy time always passes quickly, and a meal ends in laughter in a blink of an eye. I can see the reluctance in everyone's eyes, and I can also feel the heavy pressure after the short-term indulgence.

In life, everyone is more or less under pressure, and everyone's life is different and bears a different fate. At this moment, all the hatred in my heart flashed before my eyes.

But with these friends in front of me, I have no fear. Some choices cannot be changed once they are made, some friendships will last a lifetime, and some people are destined to be unforgettable forever!

When sending everyone home, Su Yurong deliberately sent Shiliu last. He could understand my thoughts and leave room for me... After Shi Qi and Xiao Shiwu left, the atmosphere in the car became very depressing.

Su Yurong deliberately drove the car very slowly, and deliberately let the single song in the car repeat a Jiangnan...

The wind and snow still permeated the night, and the air conditioner in the car was fully turned on, but I could still feel the coldness and loneliness in the car while sitting in the co-pilot.

I can feel the intense loneliness of Shiliu, and the fear and helplessness in her heart. This feeling does not come from the surface but from my heart.

"Stop the car, I want to drink a glass of water." I said to Su Yurong.

"Okay, I'll go buy it." Su Yurong got out of the car immediately after parking, and I took out a cigarette from my body and put it in my mouth.

After hesitating for a while, I still lit the cigarette. When I opened the car window, a gust of cold wind blew into the car, and the icy wind also shocked me.

Neither of them spoke to each other, just quietly listening to Jiangnan, which is on a loop, and waiting for Su Yurong's return, but I have so many things to say in my heart, but I don't know where to start.

Time passed by every minute and every second, and Su Yurong didn't come back after a cigarette was burned out. At this moment, Shiliu should understand what I mean.

"We haven't seen each other for a long time." I took the initiative to start the conversation, I didn't even dare to look back at her in the back seat, I didn't dare to look into her eyes.

"Yes, it's really been a long time... You have changed a lot and matured a lot." Sixteen's voice was calm and indifferent, and I could see her lonely side face in the reflection of the car window.

The way she looked out of the car window was extraordinarily lonely, extraordinarily lonely.

The wind and snow outside the car window seemed to block the whole world, as if there were only the two of us left in the whole space. I understood her previous intentions... but she didn't know the perseverance in my heart.

"Is there? In fact, you have changed a lot..."

One sentence made each other silent, her side face became more lonely, and her inner world was already covered with thick ice and snow like the wind and snow outside the window.

"Do you remember the movie we watched together? July and Ansheng." I smoked quietly, my eyes were full of memories.

"Actually, you and I are very clear that everything is different now, and some things cannot be changed..."

"Is it like the ice and snow outside the car window? I don't know when the ice and snow will melt, and when the sky will be clear again."

As a metaphor, I think she can understand what I mean.

"Frozen three feet is not a day's cold. Maybe this heavy snow will stop, but the covered ice and snow will never melt."

"No! No matter how thick the ice and snow are, they can melt. As long as you believe in the hope of seeing sunny days again, you will definitely be able to melt them all!"

"Maybe, but how can people believe that it will melt in this snowstorm? Just like the current darkness, there is no light."

Her words are extremely sad, I can understand her inner feelings, she is also inadvertently borrowing things to describe others, the wind and snow outside the car window is the truest portrayal of her heart now!
"Actually, I just want you to know that when there is no light or hope in sight, there is still me in the corner..."

"Sanming, I understand what you mean and I can understand your heart, but some things are destined to be unchangeable."

"I know, but how can you know that there is no hope if you don't try? You will never know what the result will be until the last moment when the card is opened. As long as you are alive, there will be hope!"

"Many people once said to me that this snowstorm will stop and the ice and snow will melt...let's go with nature."

"I would like to melt with my chest! I, Xiong Sanming, am different from others! You know it!"

"No, you and I are destined not to be from the same world, you are still too young."

"I have faith, I have persistence, and I have unchanging giri! Why can't I!"

"You drank too much, let Su Yurong come back."

"How can I drink too much! I'm so sober now! I really..."

"Do you have the qualifications! You, Xiong Sanming, are just the scum of the casino. Can you and I be in the same world? I come from a famous family and can still marry beautifully. I can take back everything that belongs to me!"

"What!? What era is this, and you still want to betray yourself? This idea is too ridiculous!"

"Are there any other ways for me to sell myself? You tell me! Is there anything else?"

Her tears completely broke my heart, but she still has a strong face, she is still the sixteenth sister, and Chen Jiaxin who will not give up easily!

I know that no matter how much I say now, it is powerless and pale. I will use practical actions to prove myself. I am not just a person who has nothing but gambling!
Soon Su Yurong came back empty-handed, the car continued to drive forward, the wind and snow were still in the air... It seemed as if nothing had happened just now, and the inside of the car was still as cold as the tide.

But the fire inside of me was already burning, and it couldn't be extinguished because I couldn't bear to see her betraying me.

The car stopped next to a community, she got out of the car and said goodbye, I immediately rushed out of the car and took off my coat to catch up, protecting her from the wind and snow at this moment.

Walking step by step in the wind and snow, all the words I wanted to say were speechless at this moment, but I couldn't forget my inner persistence, and I couldn't forget the promise I made to her on this special night.

The icy cold wind became no longer sharp at this moment, and the flame in my heart almost made me boil. If I want to melt the ice and snow in her heart, I have to face a powerful enemy, and face a more difficult challenge than Wucheng Maobai!
But I am not afraid, I am fearless because of the obsession in my heart, from the moment I saw her, I was destined not to be able to forget the passionate emotion in my heart!

"Sanming, you are different from others, no matter what, I thank you for your comfort, no matter if it is true or not, it has warmed my heart."

She gently left a kiss on my cheek, with a hint of bitterness in the cold...

(End of this chapter)