his little cutie

Chapter 24 Postscript I'm sorry, I lost you this time
One day in early August, I posted a Weibo post about my ex-boyfriend D, and the editor yelled in the comment section, asking me to write an article, long or short.Nowadays, joke books about love and affection that record real experiences are very popular, but I think no one wants to read a joke book that doesn’t end in a happy reunion, so I decided to use the campus as the background to write about a pair of cute couples. With this "His Little Cutie" you are seeing now.

Many plots in the book come from the real stories of me and D. For example, Xia Ji and Chen Anan were together because of the "one-day couple plan". For example, Xia Ji cleaned the table for Chen Anan in high school. ...Chen Yu'an's personality and traits are the same as mine, confused, road-crazy, fried kitchen... She has nothing to fear when Xia Ji is there, and at that time, because of the existence of D, I didn't worry about the wind outside at all. Rain and rain.

D and I are also childhood sweethearts, we have known each other since we were very young.At that time, he fit all the words to describe the youthful atmosphere. He was clean and handsome, often wore a white shirt, and picked up dust when riding a bicycle on the road. He was a young man shining in the hot sun.

But D, who looks harmless on the outside, is actually very poisonous. He often laughs at me for being fat, for being a bad gamer, and when I get angry and want to hit him, he will use his eloquence to make me lose my temper , Then he continued to laugh at me for being so deceitful, and fought and bickered with me over and over again.Yes, I'm really easy to deceive, but at that time I wanted to be deceived by him for the rest of my life, who knew that a lifetime would be so long, and we were separated in the middle of the walk.

Just like Xia Ji has guarded Chen An'an for many years, D has been by my side for many years, and has liked me for many years.It's just slightly different from Xia Ji's secret love, D's feelings are very straightforward, he never hides his good intentions for me.My naturally awkward personality made it difficult for me to change him from a good friend to a boyfriend for a while, so in the grassy high school, he always stood one step away from me, waiting for me not too far away .

We studied hard, prepared for the college entrance examination, and occasionally met on the way to school, and the classmates who walked with me would consciously abandon me.For a short distance, we said a few words briefly, and we separated when we reached the door of the classroom.Everyone knows he likes me, everyone knows he is waiting for me.

After the college entrance examination, D told me that he didn't expect too much, he just wanted to be a couple with me for a day, so that he would have no regrets in his high school career.In fact, there are not many memories of that day, and there are not many differences. We still met on the road and chatted with each other as usual, but at night, he said that he regretted it. He not only wanted to be my boyfriend and girlfriend for a day , he wants to be with me all the time.

Teenager's love is green and touching, and we are officially together.

Because our respective universities are in different cities, we started a long-distance relationship.In this relationship, he has always paid more.He has waited for so many years and paid for so many years, so he hopes that I will treat him with equal love.But I am naturally cold and unwilling to rely on others, so he always feels that this relationship is unequal and always sad.

We were both busy, and we didn't have time to tell each other many things in time, so we were worried about gains and losses, anxious and anxious, and we were always questioning each other.In fact, my memory of what happened later is very vague. I can't remember exactly what happened, and I can't remember how many times we quarreled. I only remember one day a long time later, he asked me: "Have you ever liked me?"

I felt questioned, so I went back sharply: "I may have liked it, but it was worn out in the day-to-day quarrel."

We never said the word "break up", but we never connected again.

In this way, D and I ran around in our busy schedules, pushing each other far away step by step.

Afterwards my college life was boring, I felt as if a spine had been taken out of me, and I just lay there lazily, not wanting to socialize or see the outside world.It's not that I haven't met very good people, but I always felt that something was missing, until later I saw a sentence on Weibo - "Don't meet too amazing people when you are young, otherwise you will not be able to spend the rest of your life in peace .”

Yes, after meeting him, I feel that everyone is like him, but everyone is not him.

We met again the year we graduated from college.

We ate together, chatted together, and looked mature to each other.He drove me home and the car was parked halfway while driving.Just after the new year, the winter in the north is still very cold.There is a bleak wind on both sides of the street, and people rushing by with their coats tightly wrapped.

He asked that question again, stubborn and persistent: "Have you ever liked me?"

This sentence is like a key, easily opening the door of memory.We were still boys and girls back then, fearless for love.

I smiled: "If I don't like you, how can I be with you?"

When I got home that day, I had a dream.

In the dream, I went back to high school, went to school with two friends after lunch break, and saw D walking ahead from a distance.Someone called him, he turned his head, stopped, stood at the intersection and waited for me with a smile.

My pride, my stubbornness, let me refuse to admit that I like him.

Our quarrel, our distance, let us completely separate.

In the book, Chen Yu'an and Xia Ji walk into the distance hand in hand, while D and I separate at the intersection and go away separately.

In the end, I used "His Little Cutie" to commemorate the shining teenager in my memory. In that parallel world, we finally had a happy ending.

It's just that in reality, I don't have a magic wand, and I can't turn back time, go back to the past, and hug you and me who are suffering.

My boy, I'm sorry, I lost you this time.

Xiao boat

2018.10.5 at home

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