my autistic boyfriend

Chapter 135
After the Mid-Autumn Festival, people will realize that autumn is really coming.

Not only the sudden cooling of the temperature, but also the chill of withered life.The big trees on the side of the road have lost their spring and summer greenness, and the withered leaves have fallen to the ground bit by bit.

Some people say that autumn is a season suitable for parting, because autumn is so cool that even loneliness has become a normal state.

Sheng Zhaoxi put on a turtleneck sweater, a white sweater, and a long gray skirt early on, like a Chinese teacher in the Republic of China.She walked out from behind a maple tree, overlapping with Zhou Huaijin's image of her mother. .

When my father left, so did my mother.At that time, my mother was not even eligible to attend the funeral.He took him far away and kowtowed towards the cemetery.No crying or fuss, just like losing your soul.

"I'm sorry to trouble you." Sheng Zhaoxi smiled at him.

"It's my honor to be bothered by you." Zhou Huaijin opened the car door.

Entrusted by Sheng's mother, Zhou Huaijin drove Sheng Zhaoxi to Yan Zheng's house to pack up the belongings.In her current state, her parents dare not let her drive by herself.

She brazenly begged for the key to Yan Zheng's house from Tang Hexing.

"It's useless to keep this house when the person is gone. You can dispose of it as you like." Tang Hexing threw the key to her like throwing trash.

"Does Yan Zheng's death have anything to do with you?" Sheng Zhaoxi held the key tightly in his hand.

Tang Hexing raised his head and glanced at her mockingly. "I hope he's safe and sound more than you do, he's a villain."

Sheng Zhaoxi bit her lip, and it took a long time before she could say a word. "It's better if you let me know that you are involved in this matter. I will not let anyone who hurt him go."

"Oh. Then I'm afraid you have to be careful about the people around you."

Sheng Zhaoxi carefully discerned the truth and falsehood in Tang He's jargon, but she couldn't tell.

The car drove downstairs to Yan Zheng's house, Zhou Huaijin wanted to accompany her in, but was declined.

"He doesn't like outsiders coming into the house."

"...Then be careful yourself. I'll wait for you at the door."

Sheng Zhaoxi carried a few empty cardboard boxes into Yan Zheng's house, and it was no different from the last time he came here.

The special luminol reaction lamp was still on the coffee table, and Sheng Zhaoxi carefully put the lamp into the cardboard box.

When she approached the bookcase, they were all original English books.If she had been more careful, she would have discovered that they were all professional books related to biochemistry.It's the same as what Jin Siyu read at the beginning.

Many books have his notes and notes on them.Sheng Zhaoxi turned to an English romance novel "P. S. I Love you", with a heart drawn in pink highlighter on the title page, and "Joyce's" written underneath.

This is what she read after class when she was bored in the United States. The novel tells the story of Gary, a husband who died of cancer. Before he died, he arranged everything to help his wife Holly get out of the shadows and face life again.

When she saw it, she had runny nose and tears, and Jin Siyu laughed at the little girl.After leaving the United States, many unwanted books were given to Lee.I don't know when Jin Siyu asked Lee to send these books back to China for collection.

Sheng Zhaoxi flipped through a few pages and found that he had marked some sentences with fluorescence.

"Loving you is always an ongoing tense."

"I don't expect you to remember me at all."

"We are afraid of getting old, and we never realize how happy it is to grow old with someone."

"People will grow old and die, but the heart-pounding experience they once had, as long as they are reawakened, they will look new again, and the beautiful memories will always be stored in the corner of the heart, so as to embrace other possibilities of life."

The book has been flipped to the point where it has rough edges. It is conceivable how many times he has read this book in the past few years.The last page of the book is the only note written by Jin Siyu.

"J, I MISS U." The beautiful Trajan font, the traces of the pen deeply penetrated into the paper.

Sheng Zhaoxi suddenly closed the book and hugged it to his heart, not daring to take another look.Precious and precious put into another carton.

There are also many labels on the shelf where the discs are placed, and almost every disc has a small note in it.Some are his comments about movies, and some are his favorite lines.

Another category is "Joyce likes it" Or "Joyce will like it." He specially marked the movie discs she once liked and what he thought she would like.

Perhaps in my heart I hope that one day I can watch these movies with her slowly.

But their chance is only for that night, for that one movie.

Sheng Zhaoxi cried and put all the discs he had specially marked into the cardboard box, and took out every note and kept it away.

His shirt, his pillow still vaguely left his unique cool fragrance.Sheng Zhaoxi hugged her tightly, feeling the thin connection.

The hug tightened, and she felt a rectangle of hard object inside the pillowcase.

She opened the pillowcase only to find that it was a long letter in English.

"To My dearest:

Joyce, I don't know who I am. Steven or Zeng Yan? (Zhao Zhao, I don’t know who I am now. Jin Siyu or Yan Zheng?)
Whatever I am, I am yours. (But no matter who I am, I'm yours.)
I am so sorry I don't have much time to accompany you. I even cannot like Gary to make a perfect plan to help you forget me. (I'm sorry I don't have much time for you. I can't even make a perfect plan to make you forget about me like Gary helped his wife.)
I believe you can take care of yourself without any help from me, because you are such a smart girl. (I'm sure you can take care of yourself even without my help because you're such a smart girl.)
The only thing I want to tell you how much you changed me. You made me become a real human being by loving me. (Just one last thing I want to tell you, you changed me, your love made me a real person.)
I was so awkward until met you. I am eternally grateful. (I was so clumsy before I met you. I am forever grateful for your presence.)
But when I leave, please promise me you will try your best to accept another guy. I am just a little part of your life. Don't make me become an obstacle of your life. (When I leave, please promise me that you will do your best to accept the other person. I am just a small part of your life, don't let me become a hindrance in your life.)
Finally, you must remember I will always love you. (Finally, you must remember that I will always love you, regardless of life or death.)”

Letter to "P. S, I Love U's line ends.

"So all alone or not, you gotta walk ahead. Joyce, thing to remember is if we are alone, then we are all together in too." What you have to remember is that even if we are all alone, at least I will be alone with you.)
If we will end up alone, I will accompany you.

(End of this chapter)