my autistic boyfriend

Chapter 52 I made you as big as my loneliness
Yan Zheng felt a little uneasy. Tang Hexing didn't lose his temper at him, nor did he swear to arrest Sheng Zhaoxi.It's not his style to just stab him with words.

He has stayed by his side for more than five years, so he knows what kind of person Tang Hexing is.

He is obviously two years older than him, but at the age of thirty, he always likes to pretend to be harmless to humans and animals.A typical smiling tiger, easy to talk face to face, but eats people's bones behind his back.

When Tang Hexing first came out to take over Tang's for his father, he really deceived many veterans in the mall.The big crocodiles all regarded him as an inexperienced kid playing tricks, and no one took him seriously.One big nephew yelled at each other, taking him for being taken advantage of.

He is not angry that he should eat or drink, and he should not let it go.Putting on the appearance of a dude makes people relax their vigilance.But often three or two meals can figure out the opponent's hole cards clearly.

In the end, it was always the opponent who came to beg him as the "big nephew" with a shy face. After several times, his name as a smiling tiger also became famous in the circle.

Tang Hexing's city is very deep, and his endurance is also very human.It can be seen from the incident when he was surrounded and beaten in the No. [-] Middle School.

His family background is prominent, and the young master usually has a bad temper.To be humiliated by a group of people silently and without resistance.

Everyone knows that resisting will only get you beaten harder, but there are a few who can really bear it.Tang Hexing always knows what choice is best for him under what situation.

This is why Yan Zheng always thought that he would let go sooner or later.With his temperament, he should not understand that giving up is the best choice between them.What he asks, he can never give.

But Tang Hexing acted willfully and recklessly, able to stretch and bend.After so many years of turning a blind eye to Yan Zheng's refusal, he was able to manage it skillfully so as not to make him explode.On the contrary, it made Yan Zheng feel uncomfortable.

Feeling his conscience, if Tang Hexing hadn't exhausted all means to rescue him back then, he would have already turned into a smear of mud on the ground.

So it's not without gratitude. Five years ago, he escaped death in prison, and Tang Hexing took great risks to replace him.He was seriously injured, and Tang Hexing signed the responsibility letter for him when he was notified of critical illness several times.

Later, under the arrangement of Tang Hexing, he completed plastic surgery. After several operations, he could not take care of himself for a long time.It was Tang Hexing who patiently taught him step by step from tying his shoes to talking.But Yan Zheng had no motivation to survive at that time.

His autism became more serious during that time, and the doctor said that sooner or later he would develop depression.

Tang Hexing sent him to a special laboratory of Tang's, and he told Yan Zheng that this is the place where the best autism experts in the world conduct clinical trials.

For more than a year, Yan Zheng spent in the dark laboratory.Strangely, no matter how he recalled what happened during that time, his memory was very vague.

He vaguely remembered that a doctor gave him medicine every day, and someone would take him to different rooms.

But specifically what was said and what was done.He couldn't even remember.The only thing that can be confirmed is that his original autistic and inarticulate character has indeed been greatly improved during that year.

At the same time, he also completely lost Jin Siyu's identity, from the inside out.

Then Tang Hexing took him out of the hospital and arranged a new job for him with a new identity.From then on, there was no Jin Siyu in the world, only Yan Zheng.

To some extent, Tang Hexing gave him a new life.So he is willing to take a step back in everything, and let him toss.He also tried his best to help Tang Shi and Tang Hexing, preferring to go against his own heart and make a living in the business world full of wolves and tigers.

He learned to smoke, he learned to drink, and he learned to talk and laugh with others in a hypocritical and obsequious manner.He was always smart, even in a field so unfamiliar to him.

After he became what he hated the most, he met Sheng Zhaoxi again.Fate is so absurd and involuntary.

Yan Zheng fell into an unprecedented bewilderment and retreated, he didn't know what kind of face he should face Sheng Zhaoxi.I don't know how much harm my self-assessed parting brought to her.

He silently hid in the dark and looked at her, caring about her.But still can't take that step.

Until he read the French poet Paul that night.Eluard's "I have no other wish but love you".

"I have no desire but to love you
A storm fills the valley
a fish fills the river
I made you as big as my loneliness
the whole world so we can hide
Let's get to know each other day and night
In order not to see anything else in your eyes
only see my imagination of you

only see the world in your image

And the days and nights controlled by your eyelids"

At that moment, it was as if a hand pulled out a thread from a mess. With a pull, all the entanglement and boredom disappeared.

I have no desire other than to love you.

Zhao Zhao, I made you as big as my loneliness.What a romantic confession, no one understands the meaning of this poem better than him.

(End of this chapter)