The artistic rebirth of engineering women

Chapter 146
Listening to Yue Wen Jingkong's absent-minded, but seemingly all-encompassing song "Tathagata Treasure", Cen Xi wanted to say something, but before he could say it, he swallowed it back.

When Mr. Cheng Xiuyu created the suite of "Pao Xiu Luo Lan", he once described: "Earth, water, fire, wind, space, view, and consciousness all return to the Tathagata, just like all rivers return to the sea." Tathagata Tibet" is such a peaceful place after going through vicissitudes, with no waves on the surface and no waves inside, but it breeds all things.It is to read thousands of mountains and rivers and achieve "seeing mountains is still mountains, seeing water is still water.".

Mr. Cheng's interpretation is warm and bright.And this song of hers, hidden under the tranquility, was not even noticed by herself, and her heart was ashamed.Depressed, depressed, and empty, it makes people feel that life is unloved.

It has been nearly half a month since she woke up and maintained this state.It's not that they didn't persuade her, but they were all at a loss when she smiled softly and said "I'm fine" in a soft voice.

"Qin Ke." Unable to bear to listen, he finally interrupted someone's piano sound for the first time.

She didn't feel angry in the slightest, she folded her hands and looked at him with a smile, there seemed to be a slight question in her eyes, but the coldness in her eyes showed that she had no interest in understanding what had happened.

Sighing heavily, he suddenly felt powerless.

"Come with me." He got up and waved to her.

"Wait a minute." Slowly picked up the piano cleaning cloth by the table, wiped it carefully from the body of the piano to the strings, hung the piano on the wall, and refolded the slightly messy cloth. Putting it back to its original position and straightening out the skirt, she came out from behind the piano table.

She has always been a bit of a vigorous temperament, even if her patience has improved a lot in this life, sometimes she is in a bad mood, or in some details, she can still feel her impatience.Until this period of time, she seemed to be a different person, completely reborn, no matter when, no matter what happened, she was always so lazy and slow.

Cen Xi had no doubts at all, even if the house suddenly ran out of water and the fire was serious, she would still be able to take a leisurely walk in the courtyard and say to others: "Please first!"

People who used to be so lively, like a living spring, bubbling clear streams, people who showed infinite vitality, now turned into a pool of stagnant water.

It would be a lie to say that I don't feel distressed.

The changing scenery along the way and the unfamiliar environment couldn't make her feel a little bit emotional, even if it was just curiosity and doubt.

After arriving at the destination, he led her and walked slowly up the mountain.There are a few stone tablets scattered around, with neat inscriptions on them, and occasionally a few photos pasted on them. It is self-evident where this is.

Cen Xi stopped in front of a stone tablet whose surroundings seemed so empty that it was almost isolated.He broke off a few branches from the nearby low bushes and made a bunch. He approached and dusted off the sand on the tombstone.

Yue Wenjing also followed his example and helped clean up.Taking a casual glance, it was simply engraved with the words "Tang Youzhi's Tomb".No modifiers of any kind, no who erected it, no date.Above the solitary column of words is an old black and white photo of a young girl smiling like a flower, whose appearance is five points similar to Xiao Qian.

In front of the grave, there are no flowers, no candles, and no offerings.Nothing at all.

Seeing this, she finally had some waves in her eyes.

Tang You, she has heard this name more than once... From the words of other people, she probably knows the identity of this person - the biological mother of her best friend Xiao Qian.

The two of them cleaned up the surroundings of the tomb together. Cen Xi stood quietly in front of the tomb without saying a word, his eyes were blank, and his thoughts seemed to have drifted to a rather distant place.

Yue Wenjing couldn't touch that place.

Even so, she didn't show the slightest bit of impatience or distress of being ignored, she just stood silently at the side half a step behind him, her mind was empty.

As if after a century, his voice came from the front.

"Tang You, who is she, you should have already guessed it?"

"Hmm." She responded in a low voice.

"Qianqian's biological mother, after giving birth to Qianqian, she only had time to leave the word 'Qianyi', and she passed away before she even took a look at her." He paused for a while, as if wandering for a moment, before saying: "It is also true. My fiancée."

Hearing this sentence, she looked at him in surprise.

Sensing her questioning, and even a little questioning, he smiled helplessly: "Qianqian is not my child."

"Her father was a good friend of mine, Lu Jiangming. He passed away before Qianqian was born. I won't tell you about the entanglement back then, and it's not a glorious thing.

"Qianqian's mother thought too much during her pregnancy and didn't have a good rest. She was diagnosed with congenital heart disease when she was born, and, unfortunately, inherited her hemophilia.

"Tang You's father and the old man had a lifelong friendship, a very talented person, but unfortunately passed away very early. Her mother also passed away when she was very young because of hemophilia.

"She grew up in Xiao's family since she was a child. Later, some things happened, and she had Qianqian. However, no one expected her arrival except Tang You himself. At that time, Jiang Ming also died in a mission. Yes. His family blamed Tang You for his early death, and avoided this child even though his blood was running down his body.

"At that time, the second sister-in-law adopted her because the chance of pregnancy was very small, and although Tang You had done absurd things, Qianqian was innocent, so she adopted her and called her his child, and named her 'Xiao Qian'.

"After that, I left the capital and went to Tanzhou." Seeing the pain in her eyes, he smiled slightly.

"I don't have a deep relationship with Tang You, and I have my own considerations for going to Tanzhou, so don't feel sad for me."

He leaned down, put his hands on her shoulders, stared into her eyes, and stretched his voice: "Qianqian, she was not the one who was expected to come, and she has always known her background. But, she never She has never been sentimental about this, she has no inferiority complex, she does not underestimate herself, and she does not feel that she is superfluous. She lives a frank life. At first, the second brother did not agree with the second sister-in-law to adopt her, and has always been indifferent to her. What about now?

"If she knows what you look like now, even if you toss your life and see her in another world soon, she will not recognize you. Because you are not worthy of her like this Treat each other wholeheartedly." Unexpectedly, his words were so sharp, Yue Wenjing's heart sank, and then bursts of stinging pain hit.

These words are not pleasant, but she knows that what he said is the truth.

He even sensed her secret thoughts of seeking death, what else did he not know?So what hope did she have of surviving?Why don't you just live like the person you miss?

However, at the moment when she seemed to find a way out, she was interrupted by him sharply: "You don't need to die for anyone, and you don't have to live for anyone. No one likes a person who is exactly like yourself, Qianqian also There will be no exceptions! If you really want her to feel at ease, just for yourself, for you, Yue Wenjing, and live a decent life!"

His words, every word, were deeply pierced on the tip of her heart.Could she really, still live for herself?
But, if she didn't do this, Qianqian would definitely not recognize her again, right?

She closed her eyes and locked the tears that were about to burst into her eyes. She bit her lips in pain, and then let go, leaving a deep tooth mark on her lips. Opening her eyes, she said in a trembling voice: " I'll get out as soon as possible."

Seeing the relaxation finally revealed in his eyes, her heart softened suddenly.

"You, don't worry."

"Okay." As before, he rubbed her hair and nodded her nose, "That's good."

(End of this chapter)