The artistic rebirth of engineering women

Chapter 167 Monologue
Yue Wenjing arrived in the capital in October.

On the anniversary of Xiao Qian's death, she deceived herself and didn't go with other people.She didn't know what she was insisting on.She didn't deliberately try to escape this established fact, and she had already accepted that Xiao Qian was no longer in her heart.However, she still has an indescribable aversion to the association of words like "worship" and "grave sweeping" with her superficiality.

She is still so young, and she will stay at that age in her life. If she sees a group of people who are either similar to her age or older than her, kneeling together in front of her, respectful or nostalgic ...Just thinking about that scene gave her goosebumps all over her body.

Therefore, she chose to visit her alone on her birthday a few days later.

It means "to see".Just like an old friend who hasn’t seen him for a long time, he brings a jug of fine wine, leans on a goosebump stick, walks through mountains and rivers under the breeze and bright moon, and comes to the door that is half hidden, and drinks inside: “Hey, old man! Here we come!" Afterwards, we chatted happily over the wine, not knowing when it will be.

Will she like it?

Most definitely.How well does she understand her shallowness?I'm afraid she can't even see herself so clearly, right?
So, she brought her favorite tea and tea set, and also her favorite piano.In this way, I stayed on the mountain all day, playing the piano, cooking tea, and talking to myself.

The fire was gradually extinguished, leaving only charcoal that had not yet burned out, and red light could be seen dancing in the cracks.Listening to the singing of birds all over the mountains and plains, she felt desolate.

Birdsong Mountain is even more secluded.Even though Xiao Qian likes to be quiet, she will be tired after staying in this quiet and deserted place for many years, right?Even though the tomb of her biological mother Tang You is not far away, the solitude of a mother and daughter whom she has never seen before... I am afraid it will only be more embarrassing than two complete strangers, right?
So, why not just stay here with her?

Even if it's only for one day, at least, on her birthday, don't leave her alone on this desolate mountain.

"I'm right here, today, I won't go anywhere, I'll just stay here with you, okay?" Looking softly at the tombstone, he murmured, "Hey, if you don't speak, I'll take it as if you agreed .”

Covering his lips and chuckling: "Okay, then I won't go."

After speaking, I no longer care about the cold tea.She is still here, so why bother to say the frustrating words of "people leave the tea cold"?

However, Xiao Qinghan's arrival broke all her plans.

She just thought that when it was getting late, the Xiao family would probably send someone to look for her, maybe it would be Cen Xi.At that time, she just persuaded him to go back with a few words.In such a day, even if he was worried, he would not be willing to care about her.Besides, she is no longer a child, nor is she a weak person with no power to restrain a chicken, so she will not put herself in a dangerous situation.

Be proud of being favored?That's right, she made sure that Lao Cen would not choose to go against her will today, that's why she was so unscrupulous.At most, it was just to guard her overnight on the mountain in case she had an accident.She noticed that maybe another fire would not do him any harm.

However, Xiao Qinghan came.

He was probably the only one who dared to curb her waywardness so forcefully.Unfortunately, she couldn't help him.He couldn't beat her, couldn't scold her, and he was determined to take her away again.What power had she left to protest?

In fact, she didn't intend to stab him with words at first, nor did she want to be tit-for-tat.Even, because of that ulterior motive, she hoped that the two of them could sit down and have a calm talk.Of course, it would be great if they could reconcile as before.

It's just that, after a day of wind, her mind is a little muddy, her emotions are already a little out of control, and he has such a soft and hard attitude... The gap between ideal and reality is too big, of course, she is angry.As for the last sentence, it is purely outrageous.

She is not such an ungrateful person, even for Lao Cen, she would not wish to have nothing to do with the Xiao family.Not to mention, after so many years of getting along, she is not careless. Even without Xiao Qinghan, they are the family members she has long recognized. They may not be comparable to Yue Lu and Wen Li, but they will never be better than Wen Xu and Song Qiongzhi. Worse.

No one wants those words to spread more than herself—it hurts others and hurts herself, it is of no benefit, it is just words spoken casually for a short time.When she returned to her senses, she hoped so much, she had never said such a thing.

It's just that it's hard to get over the water, she understands this truth.

After such a toss, the relationship between her and Xiao Qinghan had been at a freezing point since Wang Yan returned to the incident, so maybe it should be even more difficult?

How can it be so easy to lose control?He clenched his fist in frustration, and knocked himself on the head with some force.

In front of people she cares about, she always seems to be so disappointing... In the past, when she was thinking about Feng Yue, she always wanted to show him the best side of herself, but things always backfired. Self-restraint, there is no room for display in front of him, it's just ridiculously clumsy, Feng Yue must be there when the few stupid things in her impression that she wants to remake herself happen.

In the eyes of others, how can she be outstanding in this life?Even she herself sometimes feels that her life is too smooth, doing what she wants to do, living the life she wants to live, becoming the kind of person she wants to be, getting almost everything she wants, and being loved by everyone. People dote on and envy... However, in front of him, all her reason and self-control were destroyed to pieces.

Really, too weak...

Therefore, her silence, rather than sulking, might be better described as "speechless".

In his mind, she probably needs to be labeled as "willful and reckless" again, right?What should I do now?Touching her forehead with a headache, what did she do? Who will tell her how to solve this situation?
Her mind was always entangled with this question, and gradually, gradually, she embraced the chaos and fell asleep.

It is not unreasonable to say that Yue Wenjing is a person who is very good at superficiality. The next day, when she left the room, she was still as humble and polite as before. A star and a half?
After staying at Xiao's house for another two days, she was ready to go to Penglai Prefecture.

Walking out with luggage, when passing through the hall, he was called by a voice.

"Have you made up your mind that from now on, except for these few days every year, you won't come back at ordinary times?"

Following the sound, Xiao Qinghan put down the book in his hand, picked up the glass of water on the table, and took a sip, looking very focused, without moving his eyes in her direction, as if he didn't say that sentence.However, how could she not recognize the empty room and the voice that haunted her dreams?

I don't know how to answer, stop and be silent.

"So, you really don't want to see me so much that you want to get rid of everything related to me?"

(End of this chapter)