The artistic rebirth of engineering women

Chapter 6 Firmness
Now what Yue Wenjing looks forward to most is the weekend.On those two days of the week, she always got up extra early, and even washed up more quickly than usual.Then he waited for Yue Lu to get up, and gave him a thorough baptism of eyes the moment he left the room.As a result, after repeating this for a few days, as soon as she stepped out of the room in the morning, she could see her father sitting on the sofa neatly dressed, resting his head on the armrest of the sofa, trying to catch up on sleep.

When she saw this scene for the first time, she was a little surprised.With an apologetic smile, my heart softened.Then in the following days, I got up early and went to the piano hall more firmly.

After living again, she knew exactly what she wanted.

In her previous life, she didn't have too many ideas of her own, and she just tried her best to fulfill the expectations of her parents and teachers. Sure enough, she became a good child and a good student praised by everyone in her parents' social circle. "Friends" also mentioned her with ostentatious pride.I often shake my head when I talk about the children of "friends" with my mother, and then sigh: "In comparison, our Wenjing is really a rare good boy."

In fact, she always felt that her father didn't really think how good she was, because her "goodness" was his conclusion based on comparison.

Zhu Guangqian once talked about his understanding of "beauty" in the book "Talking about Beauty": beauty is intuitive, not introspective.She has always taken it for granted.Similarly, experiences such as "goodness", "happiness", and "moving" should also be intuitive.Maybe when you look back in the future, you will feel "actually this is nothing", but if you really have the experience of "really good", "really happy" and "very touching" at that time, then it is good and happy. is touching.

This is true for introspection, not to mention comparison.

Regardless of extremes, she never thought that her father was really proud of her, and his satisfaction and praise for her was only based on a sense of superiority over others.

After that, she finally understood what she wanted belatedly, but she always had too many worries and lost the courage to pursue it. She just wanted to keep Guqin, the only self, on the premise of living up to the expectations of her family. the only salvation.Every time she touches the strings, she can always relax her body and mind in the busy schoolwork.She is deeply obsessed with this feeling.

Because of her hindsight, in her last life, the people she envied most were those who knew what they wanted very early on.

But this finally aroused his father's dissatisfaction. He said to her with a little blame: "Learning the piano is just an interest. You can't let it take up too much of your time and energy. It's just playing with things and losing your mind!" Tell her: "You are a girl. Although I don't want you to work too hard, I also hope that you will master a skill and not ask for help."

Maybe that was right, but her father couldn't understand what Guqin meant to her.If she really did that and only regarded guqin as a kind of entertainment, what would be the difference from letting her personally crush the last bit of her remaining self and become a walking dead?
Father, you really are not satisfied with her, right?

Fortunately, at that time, she didn't have too deep feelings for her father. Although she was a little sad when she came to such a conclusion, it was not unacceptable.

Now that she has the chance to do it all over again, she wants to be willful again.She wants to see how far she can go with the self who has persisted in her lifelong faith and has not lost the courage to pursue.Even if she falls to pieces, she is willing to fall into the wreckage of her body and smile, rather than completely becoming a puppet who destroys her own thoughts with her own hands.

Perhaps her parents in the previous life left too deep a psychological shadow on her. In the early morning of that day, she saw that she got up earlier than her in order to send her to the piano hall, and then fell asleep on the sofa due to lack of sleep. Yue Lu in this life was so moved that he wanted to cry at that moment.

Now, I also have a father who loves me so much!He will indulge my love, and will give in for my liking.These are all mine, my own!

What a blessing!

If, at first, she chose to persevere in order to realize herself when she returned to this age, now it is the silent but ubiquitous support given by her parents since her rebirth that made her more determined.

Because she knows that in this life, she will take good care of such a day, and behind her, there will always be their figures.Silent, but extremely firm.

In this cycle of anticipation, emotion, and lectures, Yue Wenjing's nails grew day by day.The day of learning the piano is getting closer and closer.

(End of this chapter)