Le Xiaomi youth sadomasochism collection

Chapter 139 Indus is So Hurt (2)
Introduction: The Lost "Master Bai" and Those Painful Fragments on May 2005, 5 (5)
I often think about what kind of vicious woman that would be, and what kind of vicious hand it would be. At that moment of grabbing the hair, it pulled a lock of hair from Huang Xiaoshi's little head!I also thought about what kind of raw pain and blood dripping from Huang Xiaoshi's head when the hair that was almost attached to the scalp was peeled off from Huang Xiaoshi's head!At that time, Huang Xiaoshi must have embraced her thin body with her thin arms, slumped on the ground, weeping silently, like a crushed rag doll.I even wondered, when Huang Xiaoshi faced the heart-piercing pain at that moment, did she suddenly hate me, hate my boredom, hate my stubbornness, hate that I insisted on buying those outrageous pairs slippers!
From then on, Huang Xiaoshi had a round bald scar with a diameter of one centimeter on her head.Therefore, she never loosened her hair again, but always tied her ponytail tightly to hide the scars that a girl would least like to be known.

For this, I am so guilty and sorry.However, I dare not say anything to Huang Xiaoshi, although we are such good friends.I'm afraid that if I mention this scar again, it will remind her of that night again, and the overwhelming sadness again.

Every time, after Huang Xiaoshi finished washing her hair in the dormitory, she would sit by the window and comb her hair quietly.At this time, the faint sunlight diffused over the flower vines outside the walls of the dormitory, and the light and shadow fell on her fine hair through the window, and the bald scar on her head would stab into my eyes sharply and clearly like a dagger.

I didn't tell anyone, not even Michael, not even my dearest grandma.I didn't tell anyone, as long as I saw the bald scar on Huang Xiaoshi's head, I felt a pain in my heart.

And at this time, Huang Xiaoshi, who was combing her hair in front of the window, would be very sensitive to find that I was looking at her, and then hurriedly and frantically tied up her wet hair, a gentle stubbornness flashed in her beautiful pupils.

However, I know how big a scar this bald scar is to a sixteen or seventeen-year-old girl.

Even when she sleeps at night, she keeps her ponytail tied so tightly.I think she must be afraid, if her hair is loose, that old bald scar will make her whole dream full of pain all over her body.

Seeing this, will you hate me?Hate me for letting a girl, such a close friend of mine, be hurt like this?

Yes, on the day I bought "Master Bayi" and "Avanti", I clearly knew that she had a fierce stepmother!I clearly know that her stepmother is always doing everything possible to torture her and embarrass her!I clearly know that if she goes back too late, she will most likely be reprimanded!However, I thought of reprimanding, scolding, and embarrassment, but I never thought that there would be such a cruel scar!
If I knew, I would never hurt Huang Xiaoshi just to buy "Master Bayi" and "Avanti".

I would rather walk barefoot for the rest of my life. If there is a scar on Huang Xiaoshi's head, thick and beautiful hair will grow back.

03 Search on the asphalt road.

But at this time, the "Master Bayi" who indirectly hurt Huang Xiaoshi died on the Ferris wheel.

Looking at the traffic on the road, I thought that "Master Bai" might be crushed by the rolling wheels and "brain burst", and suddenly I felt an inexplicable sadness - I thought of the bald spot on Huang Xiaoshi's head again. Bald scar.

I wishfully believed that the combination of this pair of slippers was the cause of Huang Xiaoshi's bald scars.Now, they are so inexplicably separated.So, from this point of view, does the scar on Huang Xiaoshi's head exist too funny and inexplicable?

Originally, there was still this pair of slippers to be my scapegoat, to share the guilt in my heart.And at this moment, the scapegoat suddenly disappeared.I became the only remaining sinner in this world who caused the scar on Huang Xiaoshi's head.

Do you hate me even more?
Because, from the beginning to the end, I am such a girl who dare not take responsibility!Just pretending to be relaxed and saying some irrelevant big words.

That day, when I got off the Ferris wheel, I rushed directly to the road, looking for the shoes that I had on my feet amidst the traffic.On the hot asphalt road, with bare feet, I just went back and forth like an anxious field mouse, looking back and forth for my own fruit.Or, like a murderer, eager to find his accomplice to mitigate his crime.

However, I did not see again, my dear "Master Bai".

It has indeed disappeared from this world, so inexplicably.

"Avanti" was alone on my right foot, silent.I stood alone on the side of the road, looking very literary and artistic, and said something to it, you miss it very much, don't you?

Mai Le said that the reason why I cherish "Master Bai" and "Avanti" so much is not only because of the bald scar on Huang Xiaoshi's head, but also because of the entanglement deep in my heart.

She said, Mo Chun, you always imagine that two contradictory characters like Master Bayi and Avanti will love each other, as if you always want to resolve the contradiction in your heart-you hate your father, but , but you still miss him like that!It's just that you don't want to admit it, you don't want to believe it.

Mo Chun, you miss him so much!

04 Missing in the mirror.

You miss him a lot, don't you?

I have said this sentence countless times in the mirror.

Every time, I look at myself in the mirror and ask, you miss him a lot, don't you?Then, he shut his mouth tightly and didn't answer.In the mirror, only the girl's aggrieved eyes and a strong expression remained.

This struggle started when I was eight years old.

When I was very young, I became very beautiful, and I often smeared in front of my mother's vanity mirror.For this reason, he once secretly bought me a small mirror, round and wrapped in a rough green plastic shell.At that time, his big hands were rough and full of cracks left by running around for life, but he was the most warm existence in this world.

That day, he held me on his lap and put the mirror in my little hand.Then, he smiled contentedly, and said to grandma, look, our girl knows beauty.After finishing speaking, he wiped the sweat off his brow and laughed.

I always remember his smile, and remember his smile blooming like a flower along the smile lines on his face.The impression is so deep, so irreplaceable, and cannot be forgotten.Because, I once called him, Dad, with my younger brother, the lovely Mo Fan.

Of course, this is only limited to before I was eight years old.

Mai Le said that sad memories tend to make people old, and it is not suitable for us girls.So, I try to let myself remember this unhappy past as little as possible.

However, on May 2005, 5, after I lost "Master Bai", I couldn't help but think about it again.It turns out that Master Bayi and Avanti will never be able to love each other, just like, if I hate my father, I will never be able to forgive him.

Forgive him for leaving when I was eight years old.

It's just that when I was eight years old, I had a serious illness, and this man left.I often wonder, is he afraid of taking on the responsibility of being a father?That's why, back then, he just walked away.

05 The snake kept in the bottom of my heart.

May 2005, 5.What else happened under the sun?
Oh, that day, after Mai Le and Huang Xiaoshi vomited with the administrator, they walked to the side of the road and found me.Mai Le probably remembered those "last words before death" that I cursed her and Huang Xiaoshi.

She said, I didn't expect it, I didn't expect it, Mo Chun, so you have so many vicious thoughts in your mind!It turns out that you won't let me and Huang Xiaoshi go!You are too dark, too dark!How about you, a friend in adversity sees the truth, I have seen you as a villain today!After she finished speaking, she shrugged her shoulders and looked at me with feigned contempt while spitting out her gum.

Beside her, Huang Xiaoshi, who had stopped crying, said something very philosophical. She said, in fact, in the dark part of everyone's heart, there is a poisonous snake coiled that she can't even perceive.Some people's poisonous snakes fell asleep forever, while some people's hearts suddenly woke up, spitting out bright red letters, and hit those who perhaps they didn't want to hurt.

Mai Le answered with a big mouth, your stepmother tortured you so much, probably because the poisonous snake in your heart has begun to awaken!

In this way, Huang Xiaoshi, who had already forgotten her sadness in the shocking storm of the Ferris wheel, began to feel sad again.Mai Le and I had to comfort her again.

I looked up at Mai Le and said, it's all your fault!Where can I change this time to let her forget her worries?Bumper cars?seesaw?
Mai Le took a puff of cigarette, threw the cigarette butt on the ground, and said, why not move her to Mars!
I laughed, if we want this technology, we need to move her stepmother to Mars first!
Mai Le scratched his messy hair, frowned, and said, yes.

06 Those things that I may never know in my life...

May 2005, 5.Key sentences in my recollection:

The door of the Ferris wheel opened and we were terrified.

"Master Bayi" is lost, and "Avanti" is very lonely.

I thought of the unhappy past he left me, but I still miss him because he used to be me and Mo Fan's father.

So, you guys, what memories do you have of May 2005, 5?What else happened?Who is it that quietly walked through your life during this thin date?And who is waiting piously at the next intersection of fate, quietly waiting for you to pass by again?

If you remember, be sure to write it down quietly.Because, I fear, some of these tiny details will be important to me.

Actually, I also know——

Perhaps, you will tell me.

Or maybe you don't say anything.

(End of this chapter)