The happy life of living with the best school girl

Chapter 162 About Shangguan Yan's Death

"Chuchu, if you don't take the medicine, your health will never get better." I poured out the medicine and brought it to her mouth, but she still shook her head.

"Chuchu, do you remember? You used to take medicine when you were sick, because you promised me that you don't belong to you, you still belong to me, so for me, you took medicine every time. Today, can you take the medicine for me again?" I put the medicine near her mouth, and she finally opened her mouth.

———————————————————————— "Su Tong, I am actually quite happy now, and Lu Qinghua loves me very much."

"Well, as long as you are happy." I remembered what I said to me while lying under the cherry tree: When one day I tell you that I am very happy, you must remember that I am lying.

Chu Chu, your lies are like soap bubbles in the sun, shining with colorful light, but they are so easy to break.But I don't want to expose it, I can't be so cruel and trample your only self-esteem under my feet.You know, you have made me an executioner for too long, today, let me atone for myself, okay?
"What about you? Are you happy?"

"I'm very happy." I smiled.I wish I could show her all the smiles in this life.

When Long Lei called, Lu Qinghua was telling me and Chuchu a joke.

Lu Qinghua said: "The mouse fell in love with the cat, so..."

My cell phone rang, and the sound of the phone seemed so abrupt.

"Hi, what's the matter?" I asked by pressing the answer button.

"Su...Tong, she...she...dead." Long Lei's voice was choked up and he said intermittently, as if he had changed into a different person.

"Who's dead?" I asked subconsciously.

"Go... Guan Yan." Long Lei cried.

My heart went cold in an instant, sadness flooded my mouth and nose like rising sea water, strangling my throat, suffocating as if I was about to die.

"Shang...guan...yan, dead?" How could it be possible?I patted her on the back the other day and said it's okay, everything will be fine.But now Long Lei told me that she is indeed dead.

"Long Lei, where are you now?" I asked tremblingly.I heard his voice on the phone.He said, "I don't know where I am either?"

Shangguan Yan died of swallowing sleeping pills, she swallowed the whole bottle.The forensic doctor identified that she was pregnant with a two-month-old child when she died, and it was a suicide.There were many discussions about Shangguan Yan's death, and the most controversial one was the child in her womb.Who is the father of the child, they say?We must find this man.But until Shangguan Yan's funeral was over, no one came out to admit who was the father of the child.They all said the man was a coward.But only I know that that man is no longer in this place, he has already flown to another country to pursue his career.

Both Long Lei and I attended Shangguan Yan's funeral.During the whole process, I kept holding Long Lei's hand, fearing that he would be too excited and rush forward.But Long Lei told me later that he didn't have the strength to make such a fuss at all.His whole body seemed to be dehydrated, and even his soul was shattered.

I disagree with his statement that he has no strength, because my hands are still wrapped in gauze.At that time, I was holding his hand, but he was grabbing desperately like a handrail. His nails were deeply embedded in my skin, which made me grin my teeth in pain.I turned my head and saw that Long Lei was trembling all over, without blinking his eyes, and then suddenly fell back and passed out.I thought that Long Lei was epileptic and insane, so I didn't care about the blood pouring out of his hands, and ran to the hospital behind his back.Halfway he woke up again and said something to me, so I changed direction and ran in another direction.

At that time, Long Lei lied on my back and said these words weakly. He said: "Su Tong, I want to drink." Then I ran to the restaurant with him on my back.

I carried Long Lei to Zhaocai Restaurant, where I ordered all the strongest wines in the store, and then accompanied him to drink to my heart's content.Later, the hotel owner was afraid of accidents and refused to sell us the wine, so I paid the money and carried Long Lei home.He slept on my bed for two days and two nights, and he didn't do anything except go to the toilet for two days.

At midnight the next day, Long Lei woke me up suddenly and said a word.He said, "Do you have porn here?"

I turned over and got out of bed, found the "32 Styles of Sex" from the box and handed it to him.Long Lei turned on the computer and played the content repeatedly. At the end, he hugged me and cried.I patted him on the back and kept saying, "It's okay, everything will be fine." I suddenly remembered that I had comforted the crying Shangguan Yan in the same way.But she had left us in just a few days.Outside the window, the heavy snow crushed the branches, making a crackling sound.I think it's all an illusion, that life is an illusion.

I used to think that life is a cluster of thriving rodent plants, which desperately absorb the nutrients in the land, lush and lush, then bloom and bear fruit, and finally wither and rot, so the cycle is endless.Therefore, life should be a long and tiresome process.However, the death of Shangguan Yan made me suddenly realize that life is just a pod of fireworks in the quiet night, so short that you have no time to see its colorful colors before it has disappeared without a trace.And the people living in this city are just passers-by who are shorter than fireworks.Everyone is just a passer-by in life, no one is an exception.

During the two days when Long Lei was sleeping in my house, Sun Ruohan came to look for me.She said she wanted to meet Long Lei, but I refused.

I said, "Sun Ruohan, let him go, I don't want him to be provoked again."

Sun Ruohan was sad, and said: "Su Tong, I was wrong to ask people to beat you. At the beginning, I just asked them to teach Long Lei a lesson. I didn't expect them to beat you too."

I said: "You are so good, even the 'turkey' can come to teach us a lesson for you. How many nights have you slept with him?" Then Sun Ruohan slapped me in the face.

She said, "Believe it or not, I have always liked Long Lei."

I felt stomach cramps looking at Sun Ruohan's seductive makeup.I said, "You really look like a dancing girl in a dance hall."

Sun Ruohan's hand slapped again, and I grabbed it.I smiled and said, "You can call turkey to beat me again, but please don't harass Long Lei in the future."

I shook off her hand and walked away without looking back.Sun Ruohan cried out from behind.

Zhuoying has been very quiet for the past two days, except that I can say a few words to her on the way to school with her, she stays in her room the rest of the time.Due to the snow, the flying pigeon can no longer ride.We both take the bus or taxi every day.

"Xiang Zhuoying, what do you think of Long Lei?" I was sitting in the bus, and Zhuoying sat beside me quietly.

Zhuo Ying thought for a while, then smiled and said, "Both of you are angry youths."

I can only shake my head and smile wryly. "I don't want to either."

"Skunk Sutong, you promised me that you didn't do a single thing."

"what's up?"

"Don't you remember? One night, you promised to teach me to ride a bicycle."

"Is there?" I thought for a while, but I didn't remember it. "I'm sorry, too many things happened recently, so I forgot about it."

"It's okay, I just remind you." Zhuo Ying smiled.

"Oh. May I teach you again when I have time?"

"it is good."

After getting off the bus, I told Zhuo Ying that I would wait for her to go home with her at the school gate after school.

Zhuo Ying said: "Okay. The final exam is coming soon, please review." After speaking, she raised her right hand and made an effort.

I also raised my right hand, "Come on!"

Watching Zhuo Ying disappear around the corner, I suddenly thought of Chu Chu.Was she also busy studying for the exam after leaving the hospital?

Long Lei said that Shangguan Yan's death made him understand the fragility of life, and also made him understand: death is not the opposite of life, but a part of life that lasts forever.I remember this sentence is the feeling of Watanabe-kun after Kizuki's death in "Norwegian Forest", but now he has moved it.I think that death is something that everyone will encounter. If someone still misses her after death, then this person is happy.

Long Lei said that when he was doing something, he would suddenly think of Shangguan Yan, and she would hold moon cakes and say to us: "Happy Mid-Autumn Festival!"; when she gave us a composition template, she said: "Maybe we are lucky enough to pass the exam." class topic!"...

When Long Lei said these words, his expression was calm and his eyes were clear, which made me sad for no reason.

"Long Lei." I said, "Do you want to know who the child in Shangguan Yan's stomach is?"

Long Lei leaned against the corridor, exhaled a smoke ring, looked at the mountains in the distance, and said, "So what if I know? Since Shangguan Yan is pregnant with his child, it means that she loves that man. Su Tong, I actually know You know who the man with Shangguan Yan is, but you never told me."

"Long Lei, I..."

"Don't say sorry to me." Long Lei looked at me and smiled faintly, "Brothers don't need to say sorry."

I suddenly couldn't see Long Lei's face clearly.Yes, there is no need to say sorry between brothers, just like there is no need to say thank you.But Long Lei, I didn't mean not to tell you, do you understand?

I saw the snow start to fall again, chaotic like poetry, flying like dancing.I heard Long Lei say: "There is so much snow this year!"

Final exams begin.

While others were too busy trying to cheat, I submitted a deferment request to the school, citing depression.I finally felt that I was sick, which is called schizophrenia in popular terms.

When I went to the hospital to see a doctor, the doctor asked me a few questions and said that I was not sick, but that I was under too much pressure.I smiled and said doctor, you really know how to joke, I have no pressure at all, how can I be too stressed?Then he forced him to prescribe a proof of depression and a lot of medicine.When I walked out of the hospital, I threw the medicine into the trash can, folded the certificate and put it in my pocket.

During these days when others are taking exams, I stayed at home and was busy typing to end my long essay.I coded day and night, and sometimes Zhuo Ying came home and entered my room without knowing it.By the time I found an extra cup of coffee or strong tea on the table, Zhuo Ying had already entered her room.

(End of this chapter)