deep palace cold girl

Chapter 122

Ordering Yun Lian to go to Tianshu Kingdom to escort the bride is also to give himself and him the last chance. If Yun Lian can recognize Shang'er as his beloved Xue Zixu at that time, then I will cancel the wedding and let them go far away.

However, he didn't recognize her because her veil was never lifted, and I don't think I would have recognized him if it wasn't for the painting.

In this way, she became my princess.

The night before the big wedding, I stayed in the concubine's room for a long time, and the memories of the past almost overwhelmed me. That kind of hatred is like a wild horse that has run wild, and I can't hold it back no matter what.

So on the wedding night, I knew that there was something wrong with the wine, and I knew that the people in the mansion wanted to blame her, so I drank it resolutely, but I also had a thought, because it was the wine given by her, so even if If it is poisonous, I will drink it too.

Her not being married to a king makes me angry, but there is no reason for it. After all, I am only in a political marriage with her, and there is a hatred she doesn't know. I shouldn't be moved, but I still feed her love poison, hoping that A heart can think of me one day.

Later, many things happened between me and her. I was always hurting, and while hurting, I hid in the study and got drunk alone, in great pain.

I don't want to hate, I also want to love her, but how do I let go of hate?I hated it for eight years, no, maybe longer, how can I just let it go?
Love is poisonous, whenever she thinks of Mu Shaoling, I can only hide and go crazy, and my temper becomes more and more irritable. It is always difficult to calm down when it comes to her.

I ignored her on purpose, let the concubines laugh at her, and find trouble with her, but I was the first to get tired.

I don't want to always secretly look into her eyes and find that there is no trace of me there, so I think again, in fact, there is another way to hate, to win her heart, and when she falls in love with me, I will be ruthless Abandoning her ruthlessly, making her miserable, this makes me happier than physical torture.

But only I know that the words I held her in my arms that night and said to her were all things I wanted to say in my heart, and what I hated was just my excuse, an excuse to convince myself.

I have never denied that I am an awkward person, let myself be entangled in pain in love and hate, I am a cocoon, and looking at her disgusted eyes, my heart will also hurt.

She cried and told me that she knelt down in front of me, begging me to let her go with her body covered in injuries, and only then did she know that something between her and her was irreparable.

I was scared and regretted, so I carefully stood by her side to make up for it. As long as she can stay, don't think about others anymore.

I am a selfish man, and I don't allow my woman to have others in her heart, even though in fact I have no right to ask her anything.

Laughing at herself, in fact, love and hate are just a thought, and she has understood this sentence for a long time. The impulsive and irritable character did not end the harm, and it intensified, and finally let her escape with death.

I was in pain, intoxicated with wine every day, and paralyzed myself with wine. Only then did I realize that there was no hatred for a long time, only love. Because I love too much, I always feel uneasy, and I always want to hold her tightly. Then, just It became a wound.

When I found her again, looking at her snow-white face on the bed in the inn, I couldn't believe the bulging belly, and I completely collapsed.

In the past six months, she has worked so hard and suffered so much to find her, but she has a child. Mu Shaoling said that it is a family of three...

I thought I was crazy, I was really going crazy, I was desperate to snatch her back, but what I faced was her relative stranger, I thought it was a lie that she wanted to escape from me, regardless of the fact that she just lost her child Pain, imprison her for two years!
What she didn't know was that I went to see her every day after she fell asleep, and added sedatives to her meals, because her mood was too unstable.

I numb myself with lust and want to tell myself that there are many women in the world, and I don’t need to cling to a woman whose heart is not in me, but I still can’t stop my heartache and longing.

But it was only after two years that I realized that everything was actually just my own stupidity, which ruined my child and the happiness that could have been obtained.

She said she would never see me again, she said she hated me, so I didn't dare to appear in front of her, I went to the door of Tingshui Pavilion several times a day for two months, but I never dared to step in, afraid, look To her hateful eyes.

When I entered the palace that day, the spies reported that Lianchengfu was going to invite her into the palace. I knew that Lianchengfu must be plotting against her, or trying to use her to threaten me, so I could only anxiously rush to the main entrance to stop her.

She must not know what kind of mood I felt when I saw her at that time, both ups and downs.

She didn't want to leave alone in the secret passage, although she still said stubbornly that she just didn't want me to die so happily, but I still thought that she must be moved by my heart, that heart is so happy, almost crazy!

However, it was still just my own wishful thinking. How could she forgive me so easily if she hated me so much?
Although I know Yun Lian won't hurt her, but how can I let her stay with Yun Lian, I must take her away, definitely...

However, before I could rush out of the stone gate, I was shot by an arrow stained with anesthesia, and woke up again, already in the palace, and I could never find her figure again.

Taking the overall situation into consideration, I can only postpone the date of finding her and start the war with Lianchengfu!

The mysterious power of Liancheng Fu is indeed powerful, but what I have is not only those holy dynasty soldiers who are useless, but also an elite team that was planned three years ago, and everyone is one of the best master.

With this power against the power of Lianchengfu, I have more confidence!

Since then, the ministers in the court have been divided into two factions, one belongs to my banner and supports Liancheng Jin, the son of King Nanlian, as emperor, and the other is bought by Lianchengfu and supports Lianchengfu.

Halfway through this war, I suddenly realized that what Liancheng Fu wanted was not status and imperial power, but destruction, complete destruction!

Until that day, in Lianchengfu's camp, I saw the woman I had been thinking about day and night, and saw Yun Lian standing behind her, who now appeared as the king and supported Lianchengfu, and watched her slowly raise her hand. When the arrow aimed at me standing on the distant city wall, my heart completely despaired.

(End of this chapter)