the knife of love

Chapter 140 The Damage Is Irreversible
Tang Jingcheng couldn't change his habit of sleeping naked, so the first thing he did every morning when he woke up was to take a shower.

The warm water rushed over his body, washing away the sweat secreted in the night, and he stood refreshed in front of the floor-to-ceiling mirror.

She had no clothes on, and the water trickled down her hair, past her collarbone and the tip of her chest, and finally into her navel.

At that moment, Tang Jingcheng felt that the self in the mirror seemed to return to the past, transparent and clean, but how to go back?

She raised one arm, the cut on it was almost healed, the scab had faded, and only a few faint red marks were left in the deep place.

Since Qiu Qiguan left, her body has been tossed into disrepair. She should be thankful that she is not a scarred physique and has a relatively strong recovery ability, except for the hideous scar on her right shoulder.

When the bullet pierced through, the impact was extremely strong, and the bones inside were all broken. Now the skin and flesh have healed, but there are seams and marks on the bones and muscles.

Just like a piece of jade, no matter how expensive it is to repair it after it is broken, there will always be cracks on it.

Tang Jingcheng smiled coldly at himself in the mirror, twirled his fingers around the wet belly, and finally flicked the accumulated water in the navel.

Some damage is irreversible, she knows it!

But there are some things she can control and choose.

Tang Jingcheng wiped off the water on his body with a towel, fished out the medicine bottle on the sink, opened it, took one from it and swallowed it.

This is the third day since she came back from the hospital.

The temperature in Yunling soared all the way, officially entering the scorching summer.

Tang Jingcheng tied back his half-wet hair, changed into a light skirt and went out, drove by himself, went to the supermarket, bought fresh fruit and yogurt, and came back to put the beer and expired frozen food in the refrigerator Clean it all up.

When it was over, I called Aunt Luo again.

Since Tang Ji left, Aunt Luo hasn't looked for a job anymore, so she's vacant right now.

Tang Jingcheng never likes to accept new things. She has this kind of inertia in her character. After getting used to someone or something, she is too lazy to change it, so she promised to give Aunt Luo a salary increase of [-] on the phone, so that she Come back and take care of your own diet and daily life.

Baling Mountain is located in the suburbs. After summer, the top of the mountain is covered with pines and cypresses, and it looks lush in the distance.

Tang Jingcheng climbed up the stairs, and she walked half of the mountain road for a full hour, stopping and stopping, just to watch the scenery, and she finally reached the cemetery near noon.

The photo selected on the stele was taken by Qiu Qiguan about two years ago. He is wearing a white shirt, with short hair and a little stubble on his chin. He looks imposing.

It's very strange, Tang Jingcheng laughed at him before: "You are an artist anyway, why don't you have the temperament that an artist should have?"

"Artistic temperament? Tell me!"

"Just sloppy, or with long hair that falls to your shoulders, or you should grow a beard."

"Growing a beard can make you look like an artist?"

"At least pretend it, or you'll look like a second-generation capitalist!"

Qiu Qiguan really obeyed him, he hadn't shaved for a week, and there was a little blue stubble growing on his chin, Tang Jingcheng took this photo.

She smiled and squatted in front of the tombstone, touching the man in the photo with her fingers.

The only man she was willing to convert to in her life!
"Qingguan..."

"Qiu Qiguan..."

I haven't made any sound for more than half a month. The first call was his name, but unfortunately no one responded.

She didn't care, she was too tired from squatting, so she just sat on the steps in front of the tombstone.

"I'm sorry, I didn't come to see you on the day of your death. It just happened to be raining heavily that day. You know that I hate rainy days the most since you left... But originally I wanted you to wait for me, wait for me I went down to see you, but I didn't make it that day..."

Tang Jingcheng changed his posture and leaned his back gently on the wall of the stele. The light above his head pierced down hotly. Fortunately, there was wind in the mountains.

"Qiguan, do you blame me? I was so stupid before, and I misunderstood you for so long! I just thought, Yang Xi's little hoof is not one-ten-thousandth as good as mine, and you have to have sex with her." What about it? Heh... I'm still so upset about this...!"

Tang Jingcheng pouted unavoidably, she was just a child in front of Qiu Qiguan, she used to play jokes on him, half of her bad habits were spoiled by Tang Ji, and the rest was spoiled by Qiu Qiguan.

Both are gone now.

She covered her eyes with her arms, and her eye circles seemed to be red from the sun.

"Qiguan, my dad is gone too, I am finally the only one left in this world...I should see you sooner, right?..." Tang Jingcheng turned around to look at the man on the tombstone, feeling a little relieved suddenly "But now I've changed my mind, I don't want to die... Do you know why? Wait a minute, I'll show you something."

She took out a folded piece of paper from her skirt pocket, opened it, and there was a blurry image on it.

"The doctor said everything is normal, except that he is a little small and lacks nutrition, but one day he will grow up, and I will tell him when he grows up, his surname is Qiu, and his father is a very good craftsman jade carver, and then Every year on the death day, I will take him up the mountain to see you..."

Tang Jingcheng swept his eyes with his fingers.

There was a gentle breeze in the mountains, and she covered her lower abdomen with her hands.

"It took me a lot of courage to make this decision! Don't you always say that I am like a child who can't grow up? I can't do anything, I'm lazy, I'm an idiot, and I'm very dependent, but I want to be alone in the future Raise a child, a child, not a kitten or a dog, but a real child... How about it? Am I amazing?"

Tang Jingcheng chattered endlessly, and she amused herself first, her stomach ached from laughing, she quickly covered her stomach with her hands, turned around, took out a lighter and lit the B-ultrasound sheet...

"Qiguan, watch carefully from the sky, bless me and the child, safe and sound!"

It was almost evening when Tang Jingcheng went down the mountain, the car passed by the Guanzhai, and from a long distance, he saw that the leaves on the ginkgo road were already lush and lush, and the branches and leaves rustled when the wind blew.

It's summer again, and everything seems to have a new look.

Tang Jingcheng drove the car directly, without turning or stopping.

From now on, she will never have anything to do with this house or the man in the house!
It was already late when Tang Jingcheng returned to the urban area, and the Digital City was not yet closed. She parked the car and walked in, found a counter at random, and took out the mobile phone from her bag.

"With a battery."

The boss behind the counter took the phone and glanced at it: "Girl, your model is three or four years ago, and the battery has been discontinued long ago."

"Then what should I do if I turn on the phone?"

"Ten yuan, I'll give you a universal charger and try it out."

"Okay, thank you boss!"

Tang Jingcheng was about to take out the money when his cell phone rang again, it was Su Jue's number.

"Hello, Mr. Su."

Su Jue was taken aback: "Can you talk?"

"Yes, can you hear something different?"

"There's still some sand."

"That's probably how it will be in the future. The doctor said that the vocal cords are damaged and cannot return to their original voice."

Su Jue paused, serious: "Well, that's not bad, this kind of voice is popular now."

"Which?"

"magnetic!"

"Bah, that's a description of a man, and I haven't changed my gender!"

Only now did Su Jue laugh: "It sounds like I'm in a good mood."

"good."

"Then should I remind you that you still owe me a meal?"

Tang Jingcheng stood in front of the counter with his wallet in his hand and recalled: "Is there? When did it happen?"

"Just a while ago, you said that you would invite me to dinner after you were discharged from the hospital."

I go……

Tang Jingcheng couldn't help laughing: "Do you still remember this? I was saying that politely!"

"But I've always been serious!"

"..."

Well, she surrendered, this paralyzed face who always speaks and does things with a straight face.

Tang Jingcheng glanced at his watch: "Okay, how about tonight, do you have time?"

"Have!"

"Choose a place!"

"According to your!"

Tang Jingcheng thought for a while: "Then how about the small courtyard where you eat Yunnan cuisine?"

"Okay, see you later." Su Jue hung up the phone first.

Tang Jingcheng stood still for a while, until the boss behind the counter shouted: "Hey, girl, do you want the universal charger?"

"Yes, yes." She immediately took out the money and handed it over, putting the charger in her bag.

Tang Jingcheng drove the car directly into the alley, and saw Su Jue standing at the gate of the courtyard from afar.

"So early?" Tang Jingcheng asked, poking his head out of the car window.

Su Jue stood inside: "I came from the company after calling you."

"Oh, then wait for me, I'll park the car." Tang Jingcheng parked the car against the wall, and Su Jue couldn't help being taken aback when she watched her get out of the car and walk over.

"Hair cut?"

"It was too long before, so it was troublesome to wash." Tang Jingcheng explained casually, brushing the half-length hair that only reached the bottom with his hand, "How is it?"

"very good."

"The truth?"

"Heh..." He just laughed.

He is not good at boasting.

The Tang Jingcheng in front of me is really good, wearing a tooth-colored loose skirt, barefoot and a pair of flat lambskin round shoes, her white legs and feet look very beautiful in the night, and now even her hair has been cut short, soft and smooth The half-length hair hangs down to the chin, and the noodles in clear soup have a clean taste.

"Like..."

"like what?"

Su Jue smiled: "Like a child, who has never experienced anything in the world."

Tang Jingcheng was stunned for a bit, but it was very useful.

"Thank you, I'll just say this to you, I'll pay the bill tonight!"

"..."

The two went in, and the waiter and boss inside seemed to know Su Jue.

He was in charge of ordering, and Tang Jingcheng sat at the window and stared at the ginkgo tree in the yard in a daze.

Ginkgo trees all over the world should be green this season.

"Sorry, the pumpkin tofu is out."

"Huh? What?"

Su Jue repeated again: "The pumpkin tofu dish you like is gone."

"..." She quickly pinched the hair behind her ears with her hand, "Then don't eat it, change to something else."

The waiter immediately saw the opportunity to recommend new dishes, Su Jue frowned: "She doesn't like dishes that have never been tried."

"No, I can, just eat new dishes." Tang Jingcheng held the chopstick rest with his hand and smiled at Su Jue.

Su Jue felt that there was something deep in her smile: "I remember you don't like trying new things."

"Really? It may have been like this in the past, but people always have to change. From now on, everything will be a new beginning for me!"

(End of this chapter)