the knife of love

Chapter 188
The door to the bedroom on the second floor was left open.

When Ning Bo walked in, Guan Lue was leaning against the head of the bed, smoking, his shoes still on, and he was leaning half-cold on the soft cushion.

"Master Ninth, I have already asked someone to clean the room where Miss Shen lived in this afternoon."

Guan Lue seemed to stop smoking, and after waiting for a while, he heard a slight "hmm" in his snort.

Ning Bo paid attention to his expression, he was gloomy, as if he was thinking about something.

After all, he has been working in the house for 40 to [-] years. It's not that Ning Bo doesn't understand some things, but he just doesn't want to say more. He put the crescent-colored nightdress folded in his hand on Guan Lue's bedside.

"Miss Shen left in a hurry in the afternoon and didn't explain anything. When I asked someone to clean up the room in the afternoon, I saw this skirt. I remember that the skirt was something in the house, so I had it cleaned and ironed. It has been hanging in your closet before, Master Ninth, look..."

Ning Bo was still uncertain about some things, especially about Tang Jingcheng.

Guan slightly squeezed the cigarette and glanced at the nightdress.

"Leave it alone, I'll hang it in later by myself."

"Okay, then I'll leave this for you first." Ning Bo straightened up.

Guan Lue still leaned there and smoked. There was no window in the room, the lights were dim, and the air smelled choking.

Uncle Ning coughed: "Master Ninth, let me open the window for you to let in some air." Then he walked over and opened the closed curtains and windows on his own.

The cool wind from the suburbs poured in from the outside, Guan slightly felt a bit of coolness, turned his head and looked, just outside the window was a large piece of blue sky, the sky was far away, but there were only a few stars hanging there.

Star……

The corner of Guan Lue's lips curled into a smile suddenly.

"Axi fell asleep?"

"Sleep, just coaxed to sleep."

"Why is it so early today?"

"I didn't take a nap this afternoon." Uncle Ning sighed softly, "I don't know what kind of fate this child has with that Miss Shen. Miss Shen happened to be spotted by him when she was carrying her luggage and was about to leave in the afternoon, and then things went wrong. , hugged Miss Shen's leg tightly to prevent her from leaving, and called her Tang while crying..."

Ning Bo only uttered the word "Tang" and stopped immediately.

The three words "Tang Jingcheng" have been banned in the house for the past few years. Ning Bo realized that he was talking too much today, so he coughed again and stopped talking.

Guan Lue looked up, frowned, and smiled sadly: "Ah Xi treats her as someone else, so she is not willing to let her go."

"It should be for this reason, so after Miss Shen left, Axi cried and made a fuss for a long time, and the servants couldn't coax her no matter how hard she tried."

That is natural.

How to coax?
In the past three years, Axi has called "Aunt Tang" countless times in front of Guan Lue, and once asked him clearly, "Where is Aunt Tang? Why didn't you come to see Axi?"

Guan Lue is often reluctant to answer at this time.

Tang Jingcheng has been gone for three years, but in his heart he feels that she is always there.

The body can rot, and the bones can melt, but her spirit is still there.

And he never showed the slightest sadness in front of outsiders because he was unwilling to admit the fact that Tang Jingcheng had disappeared from this world.

Ah Xi didn't know that Tang Jingcheng had passed away, and Guan Lue had never mentioned it to him, so in his mind, Shen Chunguang was the Aunt Tang who carried him out to watch the fireworks three years ago.

This is the advantage of being a child. You have the right not to understand many things. You can laugh when you are happy and cry when you are sad.

How nice!

Seeing that Guan Lue had been silent, Ning Bo didn't stay any longer, and planned to go out, but turned back when he reached the door.

"By the way, Master Ninth, this is the address where Ms. Shen lived temporarily after she moved out. The driver brought it back to me in the afternoon. It looks like the name of the hotel."

Ning Bo handed over a piece of paper.

Guan slightly glanced at it, took the paper over and said, "Thank you."

"Then I'll go downstairs first, Young Master Ninth, you should go to bed earlier."

Ning Bo withdrew and closed the door for him by the way.

Guan Lue was the only person left on the second floor, and he casually placed the piece of paper with the hotel address on the crescent-colored nightdress.

One is the past and the other is the present.

It used to be gone, and now it is more than 30 kilometers away from him.

In the past few years, Guan Lue has also kept thinking about the hypothesis. If he hadn't watched Su Jue take Tang Jingcheng to Burma three years ago, would the ending have been different?
When Shen Chunguang arrived at the alley of the studio, Su Jue's car was already parked there, with the headlights on, and he was sitting in the car.

She deliberately walked over lightly.

"Hey!" Standing outside the car and knocking heavily on the window, Su Jue, who was in deep thought, was taken aback, turned his head, and saw Shen Chunguang's grinning face in the light outside the window.

He couldn't help but his heart skipped a beat, and his mood improved instantly. He opened the door and got out of the car. Shen Chunguang put his hands in the pockets of his jeans and swayed leisurely in front of him.

"How long has it been?"

"No, just arrived."

"Then what are you doing in the car alone?"

"Miss you!"

"..." Shen Chunguang was taken aback by him, what happened to this man tonight?It didn't sound right on the phone just now, why are you getting more and more hypocritical now?
"What happened?" she couldn't help asking.

"fine."

"It's okay, why did you become so sour all of a sudden?"

Su Jue smiled wryly: "It's rare to tell you the truth?"

"..."

Well, Shen Chunguang surrendered.

This man is still as unsmiling as he was three years ago, but his words are very sharp, and even a rare joke will definitely make you sour.

"Let's go, since you're here, come back to the studio with me to have a look."

"studio?"

"En." Shen Chunguang nodded, "It's been three years, and this is the place I've always wanted to come back to."

The two went in along the alley, and three years was neither long nor short.

Many old alleys and streets in Yunling have been remodeled, the roads have been widened, the surrounding old residential buildings have been demolished, and many places have been renovated beyond recognition.

Shen Chunguang walked all the way to the depths of the alley, and found that the originally clean alley has become much more lively. Many small and unique stores have been opened on both sides, from coffee shops to small bars, so that there are still many people hanging out in the alley at such a night tourists.

The whole alley has obviously been refurbished, new is new, but it lacks the original clean charm.

"This place is no longer what it used to be." Shen Chunguang's tone was somewhat disappointed.

Su Jue explained: "In the past few years, Yunling has been striving to create a civilized and hygienic city, and many places have been remodeled."

"I know that there are never many things in this world that remain the same."

"But your studio is still the same."

Because it is located at the end of the alley, the location is relatively remote, and no one has touched the studio.

Soon Su Jue accompanied Shen Chunguang to the door of the studio.

The bonsai in front of the courtyard, street lamps, bluestone slabs, and the wood-carved plaque, all of them are still the same as before.

The only difference is the state of mind.

Shen Chunguang stood there for a long time...

The locks on the door were already rusted, and the green plants in the pots had already withered.

She simply sat down on the steps at the gate of the courtyard: "Sit down."

Su Jue frowned: "Aren't you going in?"

"Don't go in!"

"No key?"

"Yes, no key!"

The key to the studio is still in the apartment in the urban area. She didn't bring it with her when she went to Myanmar. Originally, she just wanted to have a baby while waiting for the birth. At most, she would come back after the child was born, but who would have thought This walk is three years.

"But it doesn't matter." Shen Chunguang straightened his legs on the steps, his hands still in his trouser pockets, "I didn't come here to remember anything, even if many things haven't changed, I can't go back."

She said this in a normal way, and those who listened could not help feeling sad.

Su Jue lifted his trouser legs and simply sat beside her, and the two sat side by side, regardless of whether the steps were dirty or not.

Tang Jingcheng took a deep breath, looked up, and saw the old wall with grass growing in front of him, and further ahead, another row of buildings, high and low, seemed to be clustered together one by one.

This place is located in the crowded urban area of ​​Yunling, there are many buildings, the sky is very narrow, and the stars cannot be seen.

Su Jue looked into Shen Chunguang's eyes, and looked up slightly. She rested her face on her knees, her eyes were bright, bright, but cold.

In the past three years, he can no longer see any peace and warmth from her. Tang Jingcheng, who once stood at the gate of the Maha Gendeang Monastery to give alms, is dead. He used to bow to every Buddha statue with bare feet and hands Tang Jingcheng also died.

Su Jue has watched her get through these years and become what she is now. He knows that she has suffered a lot. Although he can't feel the same, Su Jue can understand this feeling.

Just like when he was taken back by Su Hongzhi when he was more than ten years old, from the first step into Su's house, a string has been stretched in his heart, and this string has forced him to keep moving forward, robbing, and destroying his conscience. , No compromises, even once he was willing to sacrifice marriage and happiness just to win the benefits he wanted.

Over the years, he has indeed obtained what he has always wanted, but he knows that he is not happy.

Every step is taken cautiously, step by step, not daring to breathe loudly, how can you be happy?
Shen Chunguang is the same now, or the law is like this.

When you are fighting for something, you must also give up or lose something. Who can tell which is more important?

But tonight Su Jue just felt tired. After so many years of fighting for it, it seemed that he never got what he wanted the most.

"Tang Tang..."

"Ok?"

"Do you have to stay with him?"

"what?"

Su Jue smiled bitterly: "If possible, I am willing to give up everything I have in Su Fan. You put down the hatred of the past, and we change places and start again together."

"restart?"

Shen Chunguang seemed to have heard a very funny joke: "How is it possible? You may be able to, but I can't! The most important people in my life are gone, Su Jue, I have spent the past three years just to return to Yunling Come down, otherwise I would have been gone three years ago, so you think I still have a chance to start over?"

"Yes, everything is in your heart, and you can choose your future life style."

"I chose. I chose to let go three years ago, but fate didn't allow it." Shen Chunguang's eyes suddenly became angry, "I don't have the courage to forgive again, and I have nothing left. I can't afford to lose."

She only had this life left, so she came back with this life.

"Su Jue, don't ask me such stupid questions again, let alone you! Can you let go of what you won from Su Fan? Can you just watch everything fall into Su Zhan's hands? Impossible , you can't let it go at all, we are actually the same kind of people, you were able to force yourself to love Yao Xiaotang in order to get the support of Defeng Bank, and I can also sell myself for revenge, everything in this world can be compared to a transaction , it’s just that you are doing it for profit and I am doing it for hatred!”

Shen Chunguang sat on the steps and refuted Su Jue word by word.

Su Jue could only laugh. Was she ever wrong?

He could sacrifice his marriage for the sake of profit. If Yao Xiaotang hadn't died, he would have to tell this lie for the rest of his life. How long?He has bet his whole life, is there anyone more ruthless than him?

"Okay, I'll take these words today as your temporary words, get up, and send me back." The coldness on Shen Chunguang's face disappeared instantly.

The only thing she's learned over the years is being able to hide her emotions with ease.

She patted the dust off her bottom and stood up.

Su Jue also stood up.

"Still living in the Guan family's old house?"

"No, I moved out this afternoon."

"Moved out?" Su Jue was surprised, "Why didn't you tell me?"

"I don't want you to worry."

"Then where do you live now?"

"There's a hotel not far ahead, about two streets away."

Su Jue drove her there, and the car stopped directly at the entrance of the hotel.

"Then I'll go first, good night!" Shen Chunguang jumped out of the car deftly.

"Wait!" Su Jue yelled, frowning and looking at the obviously old four-story building in front of the car, the light box with the name written on it at the entrance of the hotel was a bit broken.

"Anything else?"

"I'll go in with you to have a look."

"No need." Shen Chunguang understood his intention, but Su Jue was also a man of his word. He had already got out of the car and locked the door, holding his coat in his hand, "Let's go up together!"

"..."

Shen Chunguang did the same thing, he could only follow Su Jue into the hall.

After the two entered, there was a figure next to the light box at the door, the light flickered, a small piece of cigarette butt was thrown down, and the black leather shoes were stepped on it and crushed...

When Alai got the news, Guan Lue's car had already stopped at the gate of Thyme. He opened the door and got off the car, walked directly through the hall to the private room upstairs.

"Brother Nine, didn't Brother Mai say you wouldn't come tonight?" Alai started chasing him all the way up the stairs.

Guan slightly darkened his face, and did not answer, but asked, "Where are they?"

"It's on the third floor. It's already gone. I'll take you there."

Alai personally showed the way in front of him. The young master who knew Guan Lue and the waiter all stopped to say hello when they saw him coming. Guan Lue usually has no airs. When he is in a good mood, he will play with these people a few times, but today he Without saying a word, Alai felt the murderous look of the man behind him, and he seemed to have something serious to do.

"It's here, it's all inside."

Alai slightly opened the door for Guan.

The private room was quite noisy at first, some were singing, some were playing with the sieve, but when they saw who was coming, no one made a sound.

Lao Mai was also taken aback, he didn't expect Guan Lue to come running suddenly.

The rest of the strikers naturally dared not vent their anger.

Only Ye Tan who was sitting in the corner stood up from the sofa with a whoosh.

"Ninth Brother..."

(End of this chapter)