the knife of love

Chapter 86 Drunk, She Confided Her Heart
Su Jue drove to Tang Jingcheng's studio. There was no light in the alley. He took the invitation card and got out of the car, only to find that the courtyard door of the studio was partially covered, and there was a faint yellow light peeking through the crack of the door. come out.

Su Jue opened the door and entered, and at a glance Tang Jingcheng was sitting curled up under the ginkgo tree, wearing a red skirt, the skirt was spread on the fallen leaves, his knees were bent together, and his face was resting on the arms of his knees.

A hanging lamp happened to be hung on the branch above the head, and the dim light came out from under the lampshade, forming a circle of light on the ground full of fallen leaves, and Tang Jingcheng was surrounded by the light.

The moonlight was hazy, and this scene was frozen in Su Jue's mind. After that, he thought of it countless times, thinking of this woman who always appeared in his life in bright red dresses.

In various ways of appearance, he was unexpected.

"Tang Jingcheng..." Su Jue walked over.

The people on the ground did not move at all.

"Hello..." Su Jue yelled again, approaching, the huddled figure finally moved, raised his head from his knees, his wet red eyes narrowed into a crescent moon.

"Have you been drinking?" Su Jue could smell the alcohol on her half a meter away.

Tang Jingcheng sniffed, but asked, "Why are you here?"

"I was on the phone with you just now."

"Oh..." She still squinted her eyes and swayed her body, "And then, did you come to see me for something?"

Su Jue took a breath calmly, and handed her the invitation that had been clutching in her hand.

"Tangtang and I will get engaged in a few days. She mentioned it to you at dinner last time. She hopes you can go too." Su Jue's tone was tepid, as if she didn't want Tang Jingcheng to go .

Tang Jingcheng's thoughts were all set on the invitation.

The bright red and gold inlays, the traditional and generous design, look festive.

That's great, in just a few hours tonight, two couples have already told her that they are going to get married.

"Hey..." Tang Jingcheng swayed and suddenly smiled, "Can I ask a question, is it a very happy thing to marry someone you like?"

"..." Su Jue felt that there was something wrong with her expression.

Don't speak for a while.

Tang Jingcheng leaned against the tree pole and began to talk to himself: "I know it even if you don't tell me. I have also had this experience. He proposed to me, but I didn't dare to agree. At that time, I felt that the sky was going to collapse. How is it possible? How could such a happy thing happen to me?... The man I have loved for so many years is actually going to marry me. I will be his wife from now on, and I can be with him justifiably... ...No one can separate us, we can stick together, stick together, stick together forever..."

Tang Jingcheng hugged his knees to recall, his eyes dimmed under the shadow of the lamp, as if he had drifted far away.

"But then... then my innocence collapsed, he had a car accident, and I didn't even have the chance to see him one last time...he was gone...I loved him for so many years, he taught me everything, from youth to ignorance To become his woman, but he actually said that it will be gone... Can you understand this feeling?... It's like having a nightmare at night, I thought he was still by my side when I woke up, but the dream was so long, I I don't want to wake up..."

Su Jue stood under the ginkgo tree and listened to Tang Jingcheng finish the speech.

He had seen her feelings for that man firsthand.

At that time, she hadn't become famous, her hair hadn't been permed yet, she didn't wear makeup, and she rarely wore skirts. She stumbled after the man and shouted: "Teacher Qiu, I like you!"

The sound almost resounded throughout the corridor of the inpatient ward.

"Tang Jingcheng, you are drunk."

"I know, I know I'm drunk, but only when I'm drunk can I dare to be sober."

For Tang Jingcheng, Qiu Qiguan was a mentor, a lover, and the only man in her life who could make her cry and laugh before she was 26 years old, but this man betrayed her in the end.

"Have you ever chased a person silently, you stand behind him, step on his shadow to go forward, he goes left and you go left, he goes right and you go right, you look forward to the day this People will turn back... When you wait, he finally turns back because he can't get rid of you, and then you get your wish and hear him say that he loves you. You thought everything was perfect, but it turned out not to be like this. He can love you, and he can love you Others...you are not his only...he has children with other women without telling you, here, here, here..."

Tang Jingcheng was already incoherent, pointing his fingers tremblingly at the place in his heart: "My place has been emptied out, I used to be full of his place, but in the end I found out that he has no me at all... no me... ..."

She fell in love with Qiu Qiguan at the age of 16, because he learned jade carving, because he was admitted to the Academy of Fine Arts, because he was so in love with him that he ran out of ammunition and food, and defended a city, but finally found that she had been abandoned.

Tang Jingcheng was already crying until his whole body shrank together.

Su Jue stood a few steps away from her, neither speaking nor approaching her.

Tang Jingcheng hugged his knees and cried for a long time. It's been a long time since I shed so many tears. When was the last time I cried?The bullet pierced Chi Feng's shoulder bone, and she cried in Guan Lue's arms.

Yes, she was crying in Guan Lue's arms.

In this life, apart from Qiu Qiguan, she only shed tears in that man's arms, not because of the pain in the wound, but because she was abandoned again.

"Give me the invitation." Tang Jingcheng raised his head, and the grief just now seemed to have subsided a lot.

Without saying a word, Su Jue handed her the crumpled invitation card.

Holding it in his hand, Tang Jingcheng changed the topic suddenly: "Congratulations, although I know that you are going to get married sooner or later, I still feel a little sad to hear it with my own ears today. Will you laugh at me?... I am not qualified to say these things , it was impossible for us to have a further relationship..."

Tang Jingcheng tried to stand up while supporting the tree pole, but Su Jue supported her.

The two were so close that he looked into her eyes.

"Tang Jingcheng, do you know what you are talking about?"

"I know..." She put her hands on his shoulders and laughed out loud, "You are going to marry her soon, I... Forget it, fate is determined by God, some people may not be able to be together if they fall in love, but We can be together..." She suddenly raised her head and looked at Su Jue seriously, her eyes were as bright as stars, but her body was sprained unsteadily, and she pointed to the position of his heart.

"If we can be together, you here... must cherish it."

At that moment, Su Jue felt his heart skip a beat. He knew that the woman was talking nonsense, but he lost control for such a moment.

"Then have you ever thought that there may be another possibility, that is, the one you get together in the end may not be what you really want?"

"Impossible!" Tang Jingcheng denied it lying in his arms, "Marriage is so beautiful, how can you be willing to waste it with someone you don't love."

Su Jue could only smile wryly.

Yes, marriage is so beautiful, how could he be willing to waste it with someone he doesn't love.

"Tang Jingcheng, do you know that if I take your words seriously, it may change a lot of things."

"Then I don't want it anymore." She lay on Su Jue's body, shrunk her shoulders and smiled, tapped his chin with her finger, and blew at him and continued: "Then I don't want it anymore, I don't want you anymore... Let's go to sleep , do it, do it, but you are not allowed to cross the distance, now you go and marry me...Did you hear? Go get married...leave me alone..."

Tang Jingcheng became more and more confused as he talked, he stretched out his hand and pushed Su Jue away.

She lifted the hem of her skirt and walked forward, but after taking two steps, she staggered and was about to fall.

"Tang Jingcheng!" Su Jue hugged her from behind, "Don't go too far!"

"Where did I go too far? Ah? Where did I go too far?" She turned around in Su Jue's arms drunkenly, her arms wrapped around his neck, "Look at me, did you see that we are two people at all! You can't let her go, And I can't get rid of the past... I only like your body, the way you make me feel in bed, and the rest... the rest..."

She suddenly stopped talking.

There was nothing but coldness in Su Jue's eyes.

"The rest?"

Tang Jingcheng looked at the fallen leaves on the ground, yellow and withered, just like her relationship with that man.

"Any cigarettes?"

"..."

Su Jue breathed a sigh of relief, this woman changed the topic too quickly when she was drunk.

"Is there any smoke? Huh?" She urged again.

He habitually leaned on her: "Yes, there is in the car, you wait for me here!"

Su Jue supported her against the tree pole, turned around and went out, and brought in cigarettes from the car, but Tang Jingcheng was already sitting under the tree and fell asleep.

To be precise, she passed out drunk after drinking.

Su Jue bent down and pushed Tang Jingcheng's shoulder: "Hey...!"

But the people on the ground refused to wake up, so Su Jue could only take off his coat and wrap it around her shoulders, and then hugged the people on the ground by the waist.

Because of the experience of being caught when he took her to the hotel last time, Su Jue took Tang Jingcheng directly to his apartment this time.

The car stopped downstairs, and Tang Jingcheng showed no sign of waking up.

Su Jue didn't get out of the car immediately either, he knew that he was going to marry Yao Xiaotang soon, and it was impossible to have any other relationship with this woman in the future, but at this moment the car was quiet and she was beside him, so it was rare for him to indulge himself once .

"Tang Jingcheng..." He said the name silently in the dark, allowing himself to turn around...

Tang Jingcheng's overcoat had slipped off at some point, revealing her graceful bustline and collarbone.

Su Jue is not a saint, he will have plans, but his eyes are like torches, sweeping across her sleeping face, his heart is so peaceful at this moment.

"You asked me just now, have you ever silently chased someone, stood behind her, walked forward in her shadow, I will answer you now, yes, but I don't expect her to turn around..."

There are some words that he will never say out, and keep in his heart, this is a secret that only belongs to him.

Su Jue leaned over, smiled lightly, and wanted to put the strands of hair hanging from Tang Jingcheng's cheeks behind her ears, but when she got closer, she found that the earrings on her earlobes, violet drop-shaped emeralds, were borrowed by him. The pair that Yao Xiaotang gave her.

At that moment, everything seemed to be relieved.

Su Jue felt that this was enough.

He covered Tang Jingcheng's shoulders with the coat that had slipped off, but the cell phone in her handbag rang, and the ringing continued, so Su Jue could only answer it for her.

The mobile phone was taken out of her handbag, and an unfamiliar number was displayed on the screen.

"Hello, where are you?" Guan Lue's voice.

Su Jue smiled inexplicably: "She is with me."

There was a long pause: "Can you let her answer the phone?"

"Sorry, she's already asleep."

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(End of this chapter)