High cold is pretending to be excellent is true

Chapter 109

After passing the corner, Ye Wan saw Liu Ping leaning against the wall not far away, and when she heard their footsteps, she suddenly turned around and looked at him.

"I'll wait for you here, you have a good chat with your mother." Zuo Tianxiao, who was standing beside him, stopped after saying this.

Ye Wan heard the words and turned his head to look at Zuo Tianxiao. After seeing Zuo Tianxiao's encouraging eyes, he turned around and looked at his mother again. The two hands hanging by his sides could not help but clenched into fists. Then, he turned to his mother. walked over.

Although Ye Wan was tall and thin, her back was straight and straight. She didn't have the weakness of others, but instead showed a different kind of momentum and strength of character.He has good facial features, bright and round eyes, and a calm expression on his small face.His walking posture is very good, neither the feeling of kicking with his heels on the ground, nor the urgent instability of leaning forward... Liu Ping looked at the son she hadn't seen for many years but was still so good-looking walking towards her. , I can't help but feel some eye sockets are moist.

After Ye Wan stood still, Liu Ping smiled at him and asked, "Ye Wan, how are you doing outside these years? You haven't come back to see me, and I don't know if you're doing well alone. ..."

"Very good," Ye Wan replied lightly.

Although he kept telling himself in his heart that Zuo Tianxiao was enough for him, no matter what his mother thought about him, he still couldn't help but add a sentence to stimulate the thin woman in front of him.

"I'm afraid it's inconvenient for you when I come back to see you."

"Why is it inconvenient? Although I divorced your father, you are still my son."

The moment she heard these words, countless words gushed out of Ye Wan's stomach, trying to squirt them out of her throat.

I am your son?Then why did you give me to Ye Jianguo without even saying a word when you fought for custody?
I am your son?Then why when you asked me out for dinner, apart from complaining to me about my husband or my child, you didn't even ask me if I was full?
I am your son?Then why when you knew that I like men, you didn't even express your opinion after saying "really?"

Even if you scold me, it's better than not saying anything and silently paying me living expenses every month!

……

But these sentences were squeezed together at the same time, so not only didn't a single sentence jump out, but it blocked Ye Wan's throat tightly, making him feel a desperate suffocation.

He swallowed with difficulty, and after swallowing all these words, he said, "Got it."

"It's getting late, you should go back quickly. I've already come, so you don't have to come for me in the next few days." After all, there was so much resentment and dissatisfaction in Ye Wan's heart, it was inevitable that Ye Wan's words still had some thorns in them.

Liu Ping also paused when she heard it, and her face became even more embarrassed.Embarrassed, she looked up at her son who was much taller than herself, and explained: "Wan'er, don't think too much, I just said that, it's not from my heart, and it's not for you, don't go Go with your heart!"

Ye Wan looked at Liu Ping, who looked tired but was still busy explaining to herself, and felt a sense of powerlessness.

His mother, who was not treated kindly by life, finally got rid of her violent husband and started a new family, but now she has to bow her head in front of her ex-husband's son, which made Ye Wan feel guilty about being a bad person.

Forget it, who is better than whom?
Ye Wan slowed down her expression, smiled and said to his mother: "Mom, I know. You should go back and rest quickly. I will watch here for the next few days, so don't worry about it."

"Eh!"

Seeing what he said, Liu Ping finally let go of her hanging heart.She smiled again and said to Ye Wan: "Ye Wan, is that your boyfriend over there?"

"..." Ye Wan clenched the hand beside her again.

"When you told your mother back then, she didn't actually think about anything else. Because as long as it's what you like and can take care of you, it doesn't matter whether it's a man or a woman. But my mother is a little worried about you. After all, if you Living with boys, you can’t get married, so your relationship will lose a layer of protection—although these protections are sometimes useless... But I thought I had no position to say these things, so I didn’t It’s okay to say something.”

When Liu Ping said this, she curled her lips in a desolate way, and then continued: "But your friend looks pretty good to me, you two should be developing well now, right? Mom must still be unable to say anything now , I can only say one more thing, I hope you can keep going."

Hearing his mother's sudden long confession, Ye Wan opened his mouth, not knowing how to respond.

Some indignation still exists, some doubts have been resolved, and some guilt and self-blame have arisen in his heart, but the distance between him and his mother is also real and difficult to dissolve.

So after Ye Wan paused for a while, she just said "yes" in the end.

*
Liu Ping walked out of the path, smiled and nodded to Zuo Tianxiao, then turned around and left.

Zuo Tianxiao looked at the back of his boyfriend's mother for a while, then looked away, and smiled at Ye Wan who was walking towards him.

He didn't say anything, but after Ye Wan walked over, he squeezed his shoulder.

Ye Wan licked the corner of his mouth at him, and said, "Let's go."

"Ah."

Ye Wan's mood was relieved at first, because his mother left, and then he only needs to concentrate on dealing with the people on his father's side, that is, the people who are staying here now chatting and playing mahjong.This relief does not mean that the reduction of stress and irritability makes him feel comfortable, but that the source of irritability has changed from two to one.It’s as if you owe money to two people, and you ask one of them to borrow money to repay the money owed to the other person. Although you still owe so much money, there is only one creditor left, and then you will Feel a lot easier.

However, this sense of comfort didn't last long before it disappeared, when Ye Wan walked to the door of the mortuary and saw everyone's obvious or implicit inquiring gazes on him.

Ye Wan's footsteps paused slightly.

These eyes are not terrible in themselves, as far as Ye Wan's current psychological endurance level is concerned, if a group of strangers looked at him like this, he would definitely be able to pretend that he didn't see them, but these people are different... It doesn't matter whether Ye Wan is familiar with them or not , They all wore the symbol of "relative" on their heads, and this identity made their eyes hurt Ye Wan to a certain extent.

Ye Wan didn't understand for a moment, why on the Internet, those strangers who watched his live broadcast were tolerant to him, and even encouraged him, why these relatives who should be his closest relatives looked at him like a monster?
The information in the small town is blocked, and most of the elderly people present are closed-minded. It is not surprising that there is such a move, but... Ye Wan just can't accept it.What's more, Zuo Tianxiao was standing next to him, they could see him like this, but when he thought of Zuo Tianxiao was looking at these gazes with him, accepting other people's discussions and sarcasm, he was 1 unwilling.

He suppressed the turbulent emotions, and even resisted not turning his head to look at Zuo Tianxiao, walked through the crowd calmly, and walked into the small and low board room.As soon as he entered the door, Ye Wan saw the huge black and white portrait of the deceased, and several dishes on the table in front of the photograph, as well as the cut-off top filled with soil and incense. Cans.

Perhaps it was because of the black and white photos, or because he was no longer there. Ye Jianguo’s face in the photo looked much softer than his real face. He is addicted to alcohol and gambling.

However, no matter how retouched the photo was, when Ye Wan saw that pair of eyebrows, the memories from many years ago in Ye Wan's mind still rushed out very quickly.

Among them, he took a cigarette and puffed it up, making the whole room full of second-hand smoke.

There was the appearance of him coming back intoxicated after getting drunk, promising to the young Ye Wan that he would buy him an airplane in the future.

There were times when he came back to throw fire after losing a gamble, but because he was still in a bad mood, he quarreled with his mother.

What's more, he slapped his mother on the bed and hit his mother's thigh with his fist...

Ye Wan and his father in the photo looked at each other, then silently took out two sticks from a bundle of incense sticks on the side and inserted them, then took a step back and knelt down on the futon in front of the photo.

He recalled in his heart how his mother prayed for him when he was praying to the old man or something when he was a child, but he found that he couldn't say a suitable sentence, because what was in front of him was not something that seemed to be able to come true. man, but his father.

So Ye Wan held up the two incense sticks, without thinking about anything, silently bowed to the photo three times, then got up and put the incense sticks into the can.

After he got up, he said to his father's brothers who were standing next to him: "Big daddy, little uncle, please entertain me a little bit, I'm leaving today. Tell me the money that should be paid by me, and I'll transfer to you." Here you are. Then, when is the funeral?"

Xu did not expect that Ye Wan was about to leave as soon as she arrived, and the relatives who were close to her were a little taken aback.

Because usually this kind of thing, as an immediate family member, stay here for several days in a row, and don't leave without any major issues.

But his father and brother didn't say anything, and his elder brother said directly: "Okay, you can go first, we all know what to do, and we will be buried the day after tomorrow. We will be here for a few days. Take a look and find someone first Do you want to live somewhere, or go home? Do you have the key?"

The eldest father is a relatively loyal and tolerant person, and the series of inquiries at this moment are more cordial than his father's performance all the time.

Ye Wan pursed her lips, then nodded, and said, "Then... I'll go first."

After speaking, Ye Wan turned around and found Zuo Tianxiao standing by the door frame, so she smiled at him and led him away from this slightly messy but inexplicably desolate place.

*
"Let's go." Ye Wan got in the car and put on her seat belt.

"Where are you going?" Zuo Tianxiao started the car.

"Let's find a better hotel?" Ye Wan turned her head, "Why don't you go buy some clothes first? Have you brought them? I'll be buried in three days."

"Just go shopping tomorrow, I'll wear yours first."

"……Fine."

After driving for a while, Zuo Tianxiao couldn't hold back and said, "You... are you okay if you don't stay there?"

Ye Wan stopped fiddling with the phone, "I'll go there tomorrow morning."

"Actually, I can come out and find a hotel first, and then you tell me when you're done, and I can come pick you up again."

"...I don't want to see those people secretly looking at me secretly, as if I am an abnormal person." Ye Wan turned to look at him, with a look of loneliness in her eyes.

Zuo Tianxiao fell silent.

Naturally, he had seen those too, let alone Ye Wan, even he would feel a little uncomfortable being scrutinized in such a sneaky way.

"And the atmosphere there...I can't say, I just feel uncomfortable anyway. The house is so short and dilapidated, the ground is just a concrete floor, and there are cigarette butts thrown by men everywhere after smoking, and women are chattering inside. Chatting, being ordered by men from time to time to clean up things and wipe the floor... I don't think there is any point in staying there."

Zuo Tianxiao stretched out his hand and pinched the back of his neck, "Don't think too much, we'll go back when this matter is over, everything will be as usual."

"Zuo Tianxiao, I actually like this place quite a bit. Although it's small, the environment is very good, and it's very convenient to go anywhere. What's more, I spent a whole year of high school here with you. But I don't know why, as long as I meet you Things are related to my parents, I will feel out of breath, and I will wonder if the sky in the small town is much shorter than other cities, or why it makes people feel depressed and cramped..."

He wrapped his hands around his neck, grabbed Zuo Tianxiao's hand on the back of his neck and squeezed it gently, "Sometimes I wonder if I'm not very filial, because my dad always said that about me when he was alive, that I Those who don't know how to be grateful are white-eyed wolves..."

"You..." Zuo Tianxiao looked at Ye Wan in astonishment, and just wanted to comfort him, but stopped because of Ye Wan's expression.

He felt that Ye Wan might feel better by saying these words.

"But when I face him, I just don't feel happy at all, and I can't even feel comfortable. I don't know if I am a negligent son, but I think what I have done has made my son fearful and repulsive. I don’t even have a father, so I should...not be particularly competent, right? I don’t want to talk and do things against my will. I can only give back what he gives me, and there is really nothing else..."

Ye Wan's voice was trembling, Zuo Tianxiao saw that he couldn't hold back, big drops of tears rolled down his cheeks in an instant.

Zuo Tianxiao was agitated, and quickly reached out to wipe it off, but seeing Ye Wan tilt his head, he wiped it off immediately.

He sighed, "You didn't do anything wrong. Maybe there are many 'shoulds' in the world, but many of those 'shoulds' are just one-sided words of some one-sided positions. The most important thing is to be honest. You don’t need to pay attention to words and comments. And people who really understand you will know what kind of person you are, know your softness and kindness, know your hard work, and know your excellence... Wanwan, I don't know about the future, but right now, here, you only need to care about my own evaluation."

"..." Ye Wan looked at him silently, with hot tears welling up again in her eyes.

Seeing his touched expression, Zuo Tianxiao couldn't help but pursed his lips and sighed, leaned over and took out a tissue and handed it to Ye Wan.

After taking it, Ye Wan pressed the paper to her eyes, and cried, "Look at the way!"

"..." Zuo Tianxiao couldn't help laughing angrily.

Unsightly dog ​​thing!Fortunately, he still comforted him sincerely!
He turned his head to look at the road seriously, but said: "Wipe your nose, and it all flowed into your mouth."

Hearing this, Ye Wan shyly pulled out another piece of paper.

But after the sound of wiping his nose on the right disappeared, Zuo Tianxiao then heard a soft "thank you".

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It feels messy to write, alas!

(End of this chapter)