General's little girl

Chapter 139 Father is Broken Again (1)
She finally understood what he said when he knelt in front of the stele.

Yes, we watch our loved ones grow old, we are powerless, we suffer from that inner pain.But she is safe. In the future, when Ping An watches her grow old, she will definitely have this painful feeling, so her aching heart can be comforted and relieved a little.And what does he have?He has nothing. In this world, he has only one mother.

Without his mother, who else would he miss in this world?What else can he live on, what warmth can he rely on, what else can he rely on to smile?

The scene in my mind is full of scenes of him holding Ping An. When she was in confinement, he walked up and down in front of the bed holding Ping An and gently comforted the little baby. Still coaxing patiently and gently.No matter what happens every time, as long as he hugs Ping An, Ping An will stop crying immediately.She asked very strangely at that time, why did you hold Ping An and he stopped crying?He just winked at her and said, because you are stupid.Only later did she know that he had asked two or three nannies, especially how to hold the baby.Tears poured down like rain, and the pain was so painful that I couldn't breathe.

Only then did she realize how cruel she was, and how resolute that warm and smiling man was.

He clearly loved and liked Ping An more than she did, but she cruelly took away his last warmth.

There are so many people in such a big harem, but he is the only one. Looking at the colorful and lively sounds, he feels deeply lonely and cold in his heart.

What she took away was more than just a child, what she took away was his hope.

"When I came back from Daxia, I saw that you were suffering from illness, and every night I thought that you would leave me, and I would be alone after that, so I thought, if you really leave, I will go with you. If later, there is no You'er and Pingan, maybe I'm really gone now. Because of them, I always smile when I think of you. I always want to tell you how good and happy I am. There are such days, such comfortable and pleasant days..."

"Originally, I wanted to ask Yu'er to leave her to me safely, but after all, Ping An is her biological child, and it would be too cruel to let them separate. Now I finally understand why you had to wait until you saw that I had a child." Leave at ease, it turns out that you know yourself better than me, you know that I can't bear loneliness, and I will go with the wind if I have nothing to love in my life!"

He smiled and spoke softly like the wind, but because of those tears, her heart hurt like a knife.

She clutched her chest, unable to breathe, except for big drops of tears.

At that time, I didn't know how I got out of the imperial tomb, how I got out of the green leaves.There is only a buzzing sound in my ears, my mind is blank, and I am walking farther and farther step by step almost numbly.

That day, apart from his laughing tears and sad profile, she couldn't think of anything else in her mind.After that, I just didn't dare to think about it anymore, because when I thought about it, my heart hurt, and when I thought about it, I couldn't help but want to turn around and hug him tightly.I thought that what she remembered might be the stone tablet, the too cold and light wind, the green leaves, his sad and smiling side face, and the way his fingers caressed the stone tablet.But today, when tears fell drop by drop, she realized how clearly she remembered, every word of his, every breath, every expression, every vibrato, she remembered so clearly, so clearly.

And these clear memories made her unable to breathe.

It's like a wound that has been pressed for a long time, suddenly spurting blood at this moment.

How much I want to fly to him, hug him tightly and say, Wuji, I understand, I understand, I finally understand your sadness, powerlessness and despair that day.

I hate how I didn't understand your half-hearted heartache at that time, thinking that under your hippie appearance, you were heartless, it would hurt, but it wouldn't hurt for too long.

But now, I know what kind of despair it was.

As soon as Murong's sister-in-law finished drying the clothes, she turned around and found Murong You kneeling on the ground, and quickly asked, "What's wrong with you?" She ran to help her up, but she saw tears on her face, and her eyes were sore, staring blankly into the distance.

The sister-in-law helped her up worriedly and asked, "You'er, what's wrong with you? Why are you crying? Didn't you feel fine just now?"

Murong You suddenly pushed her away and ran out like crazy.

Murong's sister-in-law didn't know what was going on, and was afraid that something would happen to her, so she hurried in and told her husband.

Murong You ran all the way to the General's Mansion in one breath.In front of the majestic gate, looking at the two lifelike stone lions, she suddenly stood still again.The tears on her face had already turned into sweat. She stood there gasping for breath, but she didn't dare to take another step.

What is she going to do?Why is she running back in such a hurry and desperately?
Yes, she remembered, she was going to see Chu Wuji, and she wanted to go to see Chu Wuji with Ping An.She didn't want him to suffer alone and cry silently alone.She wanted to tell him that no matter how big the world is, when we live in it, we can always find a little bit of warmth, and then hold us back to live.

As long as she thought about it, every day after she left, he might look at Zhezi and lose his temper, and then he couldn't eat well, sleep well, and couldn't find anyone to talk to, and even had no one to chat with her when drinking. Facing the moonlight alone, the person may be so numb that he can't even shed tears. He is clearly alive, but he is as cold as a statue, with no breath of life.

She thought of him crying alone in sorrow and pain, and no one would comfort him, so she wanted to fly to her side desperately, but when she got here, in front of the general's mansion, she seemed to wake up, from the extreme pain In the midst of desperate emotions, he suddenly sobered up.

The font of the three words "General's Mansion" is extravagant and unrestrained.She remembered that time, Ye Qingcheng held on to her carriage, and said to her gently: "This is our home!"

That day when the sun shone on his face, it was golden and golden. She looked at his smiling chin, and thought he was so handsome and charming, and then she gently snuggled into his arms.

Three shadows were reflected on the ground, one tall, one petite, and one short.He, she, and their son, Ping An, held hands tightly.

(End of this chapter)