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Chapter 198 As You Wish, Xin Ran
Su Xinran looked at him with wide eyes, full of disbelief.

"You never told me about this." She recovered and lowered her eyes, her voice was dry.

"I originally thought that all this would be done without you knowing, so that you would not be hurt." Ling Haochu smiled wryly, "But I didn't expect that you will be the one who will be hurt the most in the end. "

"No, Haochu," Su Xinran pursed her lips, "I'm not the innocent one, I'm the perpetrator..."

"This may be an endless loop." Ling Haochu said, "If I were to do it all over again, I might, I would do it again, and I would be straightforward and eliminate future troubles forever. In this way, you don't have to work so hard, we all I won’t go through the things that follow.”

"Although you will be unhappy if you say this, what I say is true. If your father did that to my father at the beginning, and I knew he would treat you like that later, I would never show mercy gone."

"It makes me feel like I've hurt you. But I also know that if I really do something to your father, maybe between us..."

Ling Haochu smiled wryly.

"I know you, Xinran. I don't want you to hate me. If I really do something to your father, we really can't even be friends."

Su Xinran lowered her eyes, unable to find any reason to refute him.

This has nothing to do with being soft-hearted, it's just that blood ties can't be broken no matter what.

Because of such an invisible bond of nothingness, she was bound tightly, unable to move.

She could only whisper: "Those are in the past...I can only apologize to you on behalf of my father."

"Well, it's all over." Ling Haochu said, "But Xinran, actually, I still feel very sad. I don't need your apology, because you didn't do anything wrong, even if you did something wrong, it was not on your own will I did it, so I understand you."

Su Xinran sighed and looked up at him: "Haochu, do you know that I liked you a long time ago."

Looking at Ling Haochu's expression that finally lost control, she twitched the corners of her mouth: "Actually, it can't be said that it was a long time ago, it's just... If that thing didn't happen... No..."

She closed her eyes and cleared her mind again: "I originally liked you very much. Since high school, even after so many years, you disappeared and then came back, I still like you."

"I've always been in love with you secretly, and I didn't dare to tell you. Later, when I grew up, when you came back, I still didn't dare to tell you. In fact, at that time, I was... not qualified to tell you."

"Because in my heart, you have always been that clean and gentle boy, and this has never changed."

Ling Haochu's eye circles turned red all of a sudden.

He rolled his throat and closed his eyes.

Is it clean and gentle?

He's already filthy.

"Haochu, let's put it down and start everything again." Su Xinran's voice was soft, "I'm leaving here, away from all these disputes."

"Your Ling family is also on the right track. You have fulfilled your father's wish and shouldered the responsibility and mission of this family. Everything is developing in a good direction."

"I think we should all cherish the life in front of us and stop dwelling on the past, okay?"

"Just as...I apologized to you and your father for my father before, is that enough?"

Su Xinran's voice was still a little nasal, but her eyes were bright, and she spoke to Ling Haochu seriously.

"Xinran... I'm sorry." Ling Haochu was filled with guilt when he thought of that incident back then, and he reached out to hold Su Xinran's hand.

"I don't blame you anymore, didn't I say, you are still that clean and gentle boy, in my heart." Su Xinran patted the back of his hand with the other hand.

"Why did you leave all of a sudden? Did he treat you badly?" Ling Haochu pulled back his hand and asked.

"It's not that he treats me badly. It's that I've been lying to him. There are only zero and countless times of lying. Once it is turned on, I can only keep telling new lies." Su Xinran said, "And he, has already See through my lies, all of them."

Ling Haochu sighed: "Xin Ran, if..."

"Haochu, you know, we can only be friends." Su Xinran bent his lips towards him, "Once something happens, it happens, and it cannot be reversed."

"But I'm still very happy to meet you, and I'm glad that I liked you when I was young."

Su Xinran's smile was clean and bright, and she suddenly sighed and said, "Yes, if I always like you and stay with you, that would be great."

Ling Hao Chu took a sip of the coffee that was no longer steaming on the table.

It is really bitter.

It has been flowing down his throat to his stomach, and then distributed to his heart.

"Haochu, let's just leave it like this, okay?" Su Xinran said, "Nothing happened, let go of all the past and start over."

Ling Haochu suddenly smiled softly: "Xin Ran, I suddenly feel very tired. I have been chasing after you for so many years, how could I end up like this in the end?"

The young man raised his eyes to look at her, and his eyes were full of confusion: "Why is it that in the end, all I have left is Ling? My father is gone, so are you going to leave me too?"

"I'm sorry, Haochu." The confusion and sadness in the young man's eyes stung Su Xinran's eyes, and she turned her eyes away, "Haochu, without me, your life would be happier and cleaner than it is now. It's even more exciting."

"Let's all look forward, don't dwell on those hatreds anymore, you know, hatreds will only go on in circles, and there will be no end to that day. If you think that one life is worth one life, then by Let me do it."

Ling Haochu looked at her with red eyes and smiled: "Xin Ran, you are too cunning, you clearly know that I don't want to part with you."

"I just..." Su Xinran said, "If you need it, I will."

"No need, Xinran." Ling Haochu said, "It's not important anymore."

Su Xinran looked at the young man: "I just want you to be happy, don't carry those shackles of hatred anymore, you can obviously live a happier and cleaner life."

Ling Hao looked at her fixedly for a long time, then raised his neck and drank the remaining coffee in the cup.

The young man stood up, bent down and stroked her hair, and said in a low voice, "Then it will be as you wish, Xin Ran."

The young man's palm was warm, and that heat was transmitted from the top of her head to her heart.

Su Xinran closed her eyes, silently remembering the warmth of this last moment.

The young man withdrew his hand, turned and left, his back straightened.

He went out without looking back, toward the light and the sun outside.

They didn't say goodbye.

I won't see you again.

Su Xinran watched Ling Haochu's back gradually disappear from sight, and her vision gradually blurred.

It seemed that this was the first time she cried because of Ling Haochu.

The boy she liked in her youth finally disappeared in the sunny afternoon and disappeared into her world.

……

Su Xinran returned home and sat alone for a long time.

She personally severed all connections between her and Ling Haochu.

Since then, the two have been strangers, and even if they saw each other on the street, they would just pass by.

The sky gradually darkened, and Su Xinran regained consciousness belatedly, and found that her face was already wet from crying.

She touched the tears on her face, but smiled slowly.

It's okay to leave, in this way, there will be no more worries.

The only one who is worried and the most difficult to let go is actually Yue Ze.

She just told Yue Ze that she would always be by his side, but she broke her promise not long after.

She owed too much to the Wen family.

She even regrets giving birth to Yue Ze now.

Since there is no way to give Yue Ze a happy and complete family, then she shouldn't have brought Yue Ze to this world and made him suffer like this.

Su Xinran sniffed and covered her face.

……

Su Xinran dialed Wen Zhai's phone number: "Hello, I'm Su Xinran, and I want to talk to Yue Ze."

The servant also sighed, obviously the young couple who had been glued to each other suddenly turned their faces for some reason, the wife moved out of the house, the atmosphere in the house became more and more dull, and it was not even as warm as before when the wife didn't come back.

The young master exudes a cold aura all day long, except for the young master, he has a good face.

Although the young master is becoming more and more well-behaved, she still prefers the young master who can act like a baby and is eccentric.

After thinking about it, she still called the young master to answer the phone.

Wen Yueze hugged the phone and called mother in a childish voice.

Su Xinran almost burst into tears when she was called out by her mother, but she still bit her lip to calm her breath, and then responded.

"Mom is finally willing to call me." Wen Yueze complained in a childish voice.

"Sorry baby, mom has been too busy recently." Su Xinran's heart was sore and bitter, "But didn't mom take the initiative to contact Yue Ze? As an apology, is Yue Ze going out to play with mom tomorrow?"

"Where are you going to play?" Wen Yueze asked.

He wanted to play, but he had to plan ahead.

After all, the time with his mother is so limited, he doesn't want to waste a second.

"Yue Ze can go wherever he wants, okay? Mom will be with Yue Ze all day tomorrow." Su Xinran said softly.

"Then mom will pick me up early tomorrow." Wen Yueze said, "Come pick me up at eight o'clock, okay? I want to stay with my mother for a while."

Su Xinran couldn't hold back her tears when she heard this, she bit her lip hard, tore her lower lip until it was bleeding, so she didn't let out the cry.

She replied: "Okay, mom will pick up Yue Ze on time tomorrow."

Yue Ze hung up the phone and didn't say anything to her.

After all, it has changed.

Su Xinran was thinking, hugging her knees and weeping silently.

(End of this chapter)