Shocking Harem Road: The Legend of Concubine Yi

Chapter 117 Please Give Me a Chance 1
Ming Xuanyu knew that Xinyi moved to the British government on the 23rd, and he wanted to see her for the last time, maybe just to see her, because after she married Xuan Ting on the 28th, he would not be able to see her again.

So, on the morning of the 25th, he came to the British government in micro-clothes.The Duke of England is very clear about the matter between him and Xinyi, because the Empress Dowager did not allow the Emperor to meet with Xinyi, and the Duke of England did not dare to disobey the order.However, seeing the emperor's earnest words, the British official agreed to let them meet secretly in his study.

"You're going to be a bride, it seems you're really in a good mood!" He walked out of the room slowly and approached her.

She stood with her back to him, tears pattering down her clothes.

"You've only been away from the palace for a few days, and you're in a hurry to get married. Why, do you think I treat you badly?" He was already standing behind her.

I haven't seen him for more than two months, she really wanted to look back at him, but——

Why did he do this?Are you here to tease me?Blame me?
She lowered her head, tears hitting her hands.

At such a close distance, no matter how soft the sound of her tears was, he could hear her.

Silently, he stretched out his hand but took it back.

Suddenly, Xinyi felt that she was actually embraced by him, and she couldn't hold back any longer. All the doubts and grievances these days flowed out of her heart at this moment along with tears.

She burst into tears, and all the tears fell on his hands.

He didn't say a word, and even if she didn't say anything, he knew that her heart hadn't changed.

That's right, she didn't change her heart towards him when she was on the verge of life and death!
She turned around and fell into his arms, sobbing, beating his chest with both hands, but the movements of her hands became slower and slower, and finally stopped.

I can't bear it, I can't bear to beat him like this, even if my strength is very weak!

Because, because I love him so much, love him so much, even sacrifice my own life to love him!
The hand behind her gradually tightened, as if he wanted to rub her into his body, maybe that way they wouldn't be separated again, that's the only way!
"Why did you agree to Xuan Ting? Did I just let you down like that?" He wanted to know the reason, and wanted to know if she really loved him as much as he thought.

"Why did you agree? You asked me to marry!" She cried even more bitterly.

"If, if you still have me in your heart, if you still want to keep me, you won't agree, I, I—you know how much I hope you can refuse," she cried bitterly, "I really , I really have no confidence!"

"I don't know what you're thinking, I don't know what I am in your heart, I really, really can't take it anymore!"

"I'm not afraid of anything, but I'm afraid you don't want me!"

She could no longer bear the great grief in her heart, so she sat on the ground and cried bitterly with her eyes closed.

"Give me a chance, please?" He knelt down in front of her and kept wiping her tears, but he couldn't do anything.

"I'm really scared! I'm afraid that you treat me well, and I'm afraid that you don't treat me well. I'm afraid that you ignore me, and you don't want me. I'm really afraid of everything!"

"Ming Xuanyu, I hate you, I hate you! I hate you!"

Throwing herself into his arms again, she kept saying "hate you".

He knew how much he owed her, and it might be difficult to make up for it in his life.

How did he know that no matter how much he owed her, she only needed him to do a little, but it was easy but difficult to do that.

"Promise me, okay?" Holding her tearful face in his hands, he begged her, "As long as you promise me, I will end this marriage, okay?"

She just wept silently, but didn't say a word.

How happy she is, as long as his words are enough, she can love him like before and give everything for him, but, but——

She stopped crying, wiped away her tears and stood up, and he also stood up, expecting her affirmation wholeheartedly, but——

"I," she stared at him, but lowered her head again, "I, I can't!"

He stood there in a daze, his lips trembling: "You, you said, what did you say?"

She swallowed all her pain, raised her head and stared at his puzzled eyes: "I can't promise!"

"Why? You don't believe me that much?" He held her shoulders tightly and asked.

"It's because I don't believe in myself." After these days, I reflected on my relationship with him, from the wishful love to going through fire and water for him, thinking about his unpredictable feelings for myself, from doubt to conviction and then to death. From suspicion, until just now, she finally knew what she should do.

"When I am with you, no matter when I am, I have no confidence. In my heart, you are always close and far away. I can't predict whether you will abandon me in the next moment."

Yes, no self-confidence, no sense of security.

"For so long, I have never known what I am in your mind. I kept guessing. If you treat me well, I will be happy for several days; if you stay away from me, I don't know." How long you have to be sad, until the next time you get a little closer to me. How I feel is not controlled by me at all, it's all about your attitude. "

"I was caught and beaten by Zhou Ming, and I lost my child." At this point, both of them felt pain in their hearts. She paused for a moment, and then said, "I can bear even the loss of my child. The only thing I can't bear is you Feelings."

"Whether to approach or stay away, I am always in doubt, and I am anxious all day long."

"I expect too much from this relationship, and I want to get more, and I know that what I want will never be obtained. After all, it is just my own dream! Since it is a dream, I want to wake up early Come."

She didn't expect that she would say these things, she knew very well that this was their last chance, their last chance, if she let go, they would really meet each other speechlessly!

However, she was so unconfident, and she was always so humble in front of him.This humility is not because he is the emperor, but because I love him so much, love him beyond everything else.Her heart is full of only him, and it is precisely because of this that she is so humble, and it is so difficult to let go of her relationship with him.

There is no measuring instrument in this world that can measure who loves whom more, but, in fact, this more or less exists in reality.The person who loves the most is always the most vulnerable and the most likely to lose himself for the other person.

She was silent.

Happiness is like grains of sand, whether you hold it tightly or loosen it, it will flow away from your fingers.

He was also silent, and after a long time, he laughed at himself wryly and said: "So it's my fault, I gave you so much burden!"

She bowed her head and said nothing, but her heart had already been torn into pieces by herself, leaving only blood flowing continuously.

He dragged his feet, walked past her, and walked away from her step by step.Every step they take will make each other's heartache worse.

It's so quiet, so quiet, I can't even hear my breathing.

He just walked away and never looked back.

Closing his eyes, the tears rolled down his face again.

Such a spring day does not make people feel a little bit of warmth, but there is only endless grief.

Xinyi didn't know how she returned to her room, and how she would spend every day in the future!
Without him, would his world really collapse?Without him, is my life meaningless?

Ming Xuanyu went back to the palace and locked himself in the room, not seeing anyone or paying attention to anyone until the next day.

He didn't believe that it was like this, she left him like this, he thought he could redeem his fault, yes, his fault.However, only now did he realize that many mistakes were irreparable long ago.

Knowing that they love each other so much, they still have to separate like this, knowing that they have been integrated into one body long ago, but they are still torn apart like this.

How can such profound pain be described in words?
All these griefs were caused by himself, and it was he who made her leave, not external force.

From now on, she is someone else's wife, and the beauty that once belonged to her will be someone else's wealth, and I can only look at her from afar, watching others give her happiness.Even if they meet each other, there are only polite words left, what else is there?
If you can't give her happiness, then completely let go and let your brother give her the life she wants!No matter how painful your heart is, you have to endure it all.Isn't that how I have lived for so many years?Going out of existence, wearing a mask to act in a play, as time passes, even her true heart is lost.

Yes, I can't give what she wants, and I can't give her the simplest life of a woman: a wedding, whether it is grand and luxurious or simple and warm; a family, whether it is poor or rich; love for life, no matter who it is die first.

Originally, he wanted to ask her to wait for him, wait for him to finish the big things, and then he could be with her.

Big things, Jiangshan, are more important than her in my heart, more important than myself.If he calculates it this way, as long as he lives in the world, there is no guarantee when he can really accomplish the big things and when he can give her the life she wants.

Time passed day by day, and he also returned to normal, at least it seemed so to everyone, and he became the same Ming Xuanyu in the past, as if she had never appeared before.Only he himself knows that she, and everything in the past, are buried somewhere in his heart, where no one can pry.

On the 28th, King Yi Ming Xuanting came to the British government to marry his bride, and the welcoming team headed for Yi Wang's mansion.

Xinyi was sitting in a phoenix sedan chair, with a heavy phoenix crown on her head and a red hijab.She knew Xuan Ting was very happy, and that was enough.No matter how hard it is for me to give up the love in my heart, my existence makes the person who loves me happy, so that is enough!
Today is the most important day in my life, how can I cry?

She tried her best to maintain a calm mood, and tried her best to play the role of the bride well, keeping the past away.

The gongs and drums were blaring, and the firecrackers were blaring, but she couldn't hear anything in her ears, and she just saluted step by step.

He didn't come, because in the court hall two days later, the new couple would salute and toast the empress, so he didn't come today.However, all the officials of the DPRK and China were present.

She is like a puppet, after performing one ceremony after another, she sits in the bridal chamber and waits for the dark, waiting for the groom to come to perform the ceremony.

The scene of that day kept flashing back in her mind, did she regret it?She has no idea now.

(End of this chapter)