There is a feeling called heartache

Chapter 9

My mother did not let me know that she was seriously ill twice, and I was suffering from the disease silently.In the heart of a mother, everything about her daughter is the most important.

I will never forget that my mother shed her last tear for me... 23 years ago, I was studying in a secondary professional school in the provincial capital.One day after evening self-study, my classmates and I walked back to the dormitory happily.When I was approaching the girls' dormitory, with the dim lights, I vaguely saw a jeep parked in front of the girls' dormitory building.When I walked to the car, I suddenly heard someone calling my nickname.I startled.Then saw one of my neighbors get out of the car.He said to me: "Quickly ask for leave and go home, your mother is dying!"

My mind went blank and tears filled my eyes.

I don't know how I got on the bus at that time, and how I asked the teacher for leave. I sat in the car for more than three hours in a daze before I got home.Before the car stopped, I jumped off in a hurry and rushed to my mother's bed in three steps.

It's too late, everything is too late.At this time, the mother's face was pale, her eyes were closed tightly, her breathing was weak, and she could no longer speak.I hugged my mother's head and cried non-stop.The sister-in-law at the side comforted me with tears and said:
"Sister, do you know? My mother has been able to persevere until now, all because of waiting for you." I saw my mother shed the last tear and leave me to die... I cried to death, I was that year.

My mother's illness was hemiplegia caused by high blood pressure, also known as hemiplegia.The first time my mother became ill was on the eve of my college entrance examination.My mother hadn't let me do a single piece of laundry since I was in high school.One Sunday morning, I came home with a big bag of dirty clothes. As soon as I walked in, my sister-in-law wiped my tears.I was puzzled and hurriedly asked what was going on?The sister-in-law said: "Go and see our mother, it's been a week, and her old man won't tell you, for fear of delaying your study."

I came to my mother's room and saw my mother's face twisted, her eyes blank, sitting on the bed, holding her right hand with her left hand.Not only did my mother not cry when she saw me, she smiled unnaturally and comforted me and said: "It's okay, I can still sit here, don't worry about preparing for the exam." A silent tear ran down the mother's neck.I stayed with my mother at home for one night, and the next morning, I wiped away my tears and went back to school.I don't want to disappoint my sick mother.Ten years of cold windows, in this one action, I can only helplessly hide my sadness in my heart.

After more than two months of intensive treatment, the mother's condition has improved and she can walk slowly with the aid of crutches.I also received the admission letter for the college entrance examination soon.The mother happily said to the whole family: "This is a double happiness, and it is worth celebrating." So, I specially asked my brother to buy two catties of pork that can only be eaten during the New Year, and made dumplings. a special day.

I started school on September [-]th.On the evening of September [-], the homeroom teacher suddenly informed all the students to leave the school within an hour.The reason was that the east side of the teaching building of the school collapsed and the situation was urgent.Overnight, the entire school was deserted.My classmates and I stayed at the station overnight, and we got on the bus to go home early the next morning. My father couldn't help being taken aback when he saw me coming home at this time.Father asked me:
"Didn't you just leave for half a month? Why are you home now? Do you know what's going on at home?" It was my turn to be puzzled again.I couldn't wait to ask my father: "What's wrong? What happened at home?" The father hesitated to speak, his face full of pain.Seeing my anxious expression, my father's eyes were red.

The old man said to me in a calm and relaxed tone as much as possible: "On the second day of your school, your brother took your mother to the county hospital for reexamination on a bicycle. Your mother accidentally fell off the bicycle and can't move now. " I said with tears in my eyes, "Then why didn't you tell me?" My father said:

"Your mother won't let you tell you anything, and she specifically asked the whole family to keep it secret from you, lest you worry about it and delay your studies."

Then, my father took a basin of water and a towel, and asked me to wash my face before going to see my mother.

I have been serving my mother at home for nearly a month. When my mother's condition improved slightly, I also received a notice to return to school. My mother urged me to leave quickly and not delay school.

My mother did not let me know that she was seriously ill twice, and I was suffering from the disease silently.In the heart of a mother, everything about her daughter is the most important.

Every time I started school, my mother always had tears in my eyes when I left home, exhorting and admonishing me, lest my daughter be wronged in the slightest.Now that I have a daughter and become a mother, I have a deeper understanding of the connotation of "a child travels a thousand miles and a mother worries".

I have a good job now, but my mother can't enjoy a day with me.The son wants to be filial but the relatives are not there. This is the greatest tragedy of being a child.

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