i hate i love you

Chapter 18 An Yao (2)
Chapter 17 An Yao (2)
Deng Yangming knew in his heart that Xing Kai was not drunk, he was announcing Xing Yu's exclusive rights, Xing Yu was his woman, no one could occupy his current position, or forever, he planned to occupy it like this.

Deng Yangming breathed a sigh of relief. Through his observation of Xing Yu, he is now more worried about Xing Kai.

……

In Xing Kai's bedroom, the door was closed tightly, and the room was filled with the smell of alcohol and sweat. The air is very suitable for Xing Kai's current mood.

Xing Yu grasped Xing Kai's shoulders, stared at Xing Kai above his line of sight, and helped him wipe off the sweat from his forehead.

Xing Kaiyang smiled, and kissed her fingers. Alcohol is really a good thing, so that men can look at sex without any scruples. Her slightly painful moans were poured into the eardrums, and transformed into a pleasant aphrodisiac. The song made him want to stop even more.

He likes Xing Yu's slender fingers. These hands wash and cook for him. These hands make the room tidy. Occasionally, these hands are willing to touch his cheeks, as gentle as water.

"If I die like this, it's worth it, hey..." he said.

"What nonsense, you will live a long life." Xing Yu sullenly.

"real."

Xing Kai pressed close to her body, his lips rubbed against her skin, and he already felt an unprecedented pleasure. It was the feeling of happiness given by Xing Yu, the warm current was rushing, and the blood was boiling.He believed that Xing Yu was the only one who made him not only regard the matter on the bed as a hub to vent, to exaggerate, he would not regret drowning at this moment.

"Xiaoyu, I finally know how much I can't live without you."

Xing Kai leaned against her shoulders, Xing Yu knew what he wanted, whether it was physical or psychological, she always took care of everything, as if she was another brain of his, but in a different body , let him control everything that belongs to her... Except for the phrase "I love you", she is willing to do anything.

To be honest, a man can talk all kinds of good things to coax a woman into bed, and he will promise his life for a few seconds of pleasure, but he will not fantasize about past and present lives for no reason.But Xing Kai was thinking, have they known each other for hundreds of years?Did he accidentally forget her?
"Xiaoyu, just make me happy and say you love me." Xing Kai bit her lips lightly, put down his masculine pride, and begged her.

Xing Yu kissed him back, turned over and changed his position, straddling Xing Kai's lap.

Xing Kai couldn't restrain himself with a muffled snort, and lay back on the pillow exhaustedly: "Are you crazy?"

Tears were clearly hanging from the corners of her eyes, but she chose to use this method in exchange for three words.

"At the age of 20, you once again said that you can't live without me, but is there really anyone in this world who can't live without someone?..." Xing Yu smiled and said helplessly: "Don't force me to say those unrealistic things. Lie, you already have all of me, now you can put me anywhere, you don't have to think about my thoughts at all."

Xing Kai must feel angry when he heard this.She always perfunctory him with an indifferent attitude, thinking that all his confessions are ridiculous immaturity.But forget it, sooner or later, she will understand that he is not joking.

"The walking dead!..."

"That's a good description." She smiled.

"..."

* *

In the following ten days, Xing Kai "imprisoned" Xing Yu at home, and the two avoided visitors, living an intoxicated and corrupt life without black or white.He asked for it arbitrarily, exhausted all kinds of poses he could think of, had sex with her in every corner, took photos of her body, and saved the photos that could not be shared with others into the computer.Yes, Xing Kai tried to challenge Xing Yu's bottom line of tolerance.And she didn't resist or struggle, she was as gentle as a lamb.In the end, Xing Kai was forced to hold up the white flag because he couldn't bear it.

It wasn't until Xing Yu sent Xing Kai to the special car back to the military academy that their fifteen-day crazy "journey" ended.

……

And when Xing Yu returned to school, An Yao couldn't help asking questions.Xing Yu just told her - Xing Kai is about to graduate in one year, if An Yao is willing to wait, then wait and see, if he finds a better partner, let nature take its course.

An Yao is indeed a little attracted to Xing Kai. If appearance accounts for 40%, family background accounts for more than 55%.But she doesn't think this kind of distribution is too snobbish, happy life, happy life, how can there be happiness without money?

So she secretly decided to wait and see. Anyway, they are young, and no one lacks the time to "give it a go".

a month and a half later

As Xing Yu expected, she was pregnant.

Through insinuating inquiries, she found a small obstetrics and gynecology hospital and made an appointment.Abortion is not too late.

……

On Wednesday morning, Xing Yu got on the bus bound for the maternity hospital alone.But because of the bumpy road, her stomach kept rolling. During the ride, she rushed down the door again and again, and the intense pregnancy reaction made her more and more unbearable.

Xing Yu squatted under the big tree beside the road and retched. She put her hands on her lower abdomen and stroked it gently. After she felt more comfortable, she couldn't help but look at the blue sky. A ray of light pierced her eyes, and tears fell. down.

She sniffed, and simply chose to walk, and stay with the dying little life for a while longer.

Here, Deng Yangming followed her in the car, and has been following her since the moment she left the house. To be precise, since Xing Kai left, he has completed the tasks assigned by Xing Kai every day. Within two months, he secretly escorted her to and from school .

Deng Yangming knew the reason for this, although Xing Kai didn't tell the truth, but there were some things in front of him, Xing Yu was a worrying woman, a lunatic who was habitually pretentious.

Before Xing Kai returned to school, he had a long talk with Deng Yangming all night in distress.That night, Xing Kai asked Deng Yangming repeatedly as if he had a tuberculosis, what was Xing Yu thinking about, and what did he think of himself.

Xing Kai seems to have lost confidence in their future.

And Deng Yangming really didn't know how to answer Xing Kai. Everyone saw Xing Yu's concern for Xing Kai, but no one saw her overflowing happy smile.Not even for a moment.

……

Thinking about it, Deng Yangming was surprised to see Xing Yu walking into a small women's specialized hospital. He hurriedly parked the car beside the road and followed her into the hospital.

Xing Yu waited in front of the registration window. He didn't expect such a small hospital to be full of female patients, and at least two of every ten patients came for abortion.

"Do a B-ultrasound first." The obstetrician was stern, and even gave Xing Yu a glare.What are seventeen and eighteen-year-old girls thinking about these days?Are you kidding yourself with your life?
Xing Yu went back to the window to pay, had a B-ultrasound, paid again, had blood drawn, and had urine tested.Without the company of her family, without the care of her boyfriend, she had to handle all the procedures by herself.

She was lying in the B-ultrasound room, and the doctor pointed to the position of the fetus. She turned her head sideways, staring at the black spot on the scanner for a moment, and her thoughts flew to an untouchable hidden corner.

"First miscarriage?"

"Ah."

"It's not easy to fall off for the first time. I suggest you do an abortion. Has your family come? You need to sign."

Medication abortion is usually taken in three days. The first time you take the medicine, you need to observe in the hospital for 6 hours, and you can take the medicine home for the remaining two times under the doctor's advice.

"Medical abortion is fine, I don't want to make another appointment..." Xing Yu unconsciously raised his hand and touched in the direction of the black spot, as if he could feel the fetus wriggling slightly in her body, as if he was blaming her irresponsible mother.

After finishing the examination, she was sitting in the disinfection room with two medicines in her palm... She pinched one of them into her mouth and unscrewed the cap of the mineral water bottle. At this moment, Deng Yangming opened the curtain and forced his way in. Seeing this, Xing Yu raised his neck and swallowed the pill without hesitation.

Deng Yangming glared angrily, grabbed Xing Yu's wrist and dragged him out of the room.

The medical staff stopped him one step at a time and warned: "The patient has just taken the abortion drug, so he can't leave at will, or he will die!"

Hearing this, Deng Yangming looked at Xing Yu in disbelief. He naively thought that she just went to the hospital to make sure if she was pregnant, but he didn't expect her to be so ruthless.

"Brother Yang Ming... you go out first." Xing Yu pulled his wrist from his hand and returned to the seat silently.

After all, Deng Yangming is still a boy under 20 years old, he can't deal with this sudden situation calmly.

He looked melancholy, and slowly squatted in front of Xing Yu's legs, begging her: "Is there still time to keep the child? What happens after it is born? It's not that I can't afford it..."

"Don't tell Xing Kai...he will be sad." Xing Yu made up his mind.

Deng Yangming didn't understand the reason for her calmness. Suddenly, he pinched her shoulders, and his expression became very excited. He asked: "You know he will be sad and still do this?! You know why I appear here, he I was afraid that you would abort the child without permission, so I asked me to follow you! Now how do you ask me to explain to Xing Kai?!"

"Hey, please keep quiet! You'd better go out now, and go home to talk about the housework!" The medical staff were rude and even pushed and shoved Deng Yangming.

Deng Yangming got angry a long time ago, pointed at the nurse, and said angrily: "Who did you get the approval to give her an abortion?! Believe it or not, I blocked this outpatient department with a single call?!"

"Hehe, then seal it up, young people nowadays are bragging so much..."

Deng Yang grinned coldly, took out his mobile phone, and dialed the number of the office of the Secretary-General of the Deputy Secretary of the Commission for Discipline Inspection (Deng's father's secretary).

Of course Xing Yu knew that Deng Yangming could do what he said, so she endured the pain and pressed the button of Deng Yangming's cell phone: "Brother Yangming, I don't want to have a baby, I don't want to be a mother so early, you just pretend you didn't see anything Please? Brother Yangming..."

Deng Yangming didn't want to pay attention to it, but when he looked up, he saw tears in her eyes.He paused with his fingertips, and finally lowered the phone slowly.You don't need to make phone calls, but he still can't forgive Xing Yu's actions, which makes her worry even more.He breathed a sigh of relief and said dejectedly: "No matter what decision you make, you should discuss it with Xing Kai first. I think he will respect your decision. Do you know how hurtful your current actions are?"

"I said young man, hit you, let me see how capable you are..." At this moment, the medical staff interjected recklessly.

Xing Yu frowned, and said: "His father is a ministerial cadre. To put it bluntly, if any illegal operation is found out, the hospital can be closed for inspection. Please don't provoke trouble. Now, I hope you go out for a while."

"..." Although the medical staff was dubious, they would rather believe what they had or not, so they bowed and apologized, and slipped away.

At this time, a burst of colic hit, and Xing Yu bent over and squatted down, sweating profusely in an instant.

Deng Yangming hurriedly carried her to the hospital bed, pulled a chair and sat on the edge of the bed, tightly clutching her cold little hands, seeing her in so much pain, but he couldn't help at all.

Xing Yu was in so much pain that he held Deng Yangming's fingers tightly, trying not to let the tears fall again... "Brother Yang Ming, don't tell Xing Kai, he will hate me because of this, he will definitely..."

"Do you know how much Xing Kai values ​​you?"

"Know……"

"Then why are you still torturing him, and also tormenting... me." Deng Yangming didn't swallow the words, sometimes he wondered, is Xing Yu manipulating a game?An emotional circuitous battle that made him unable to completely give up?
Xing Yu gasped weakly: "What did you say just now?..."

Deng Yangming put Xing Yu's fingers on his forehead and moved his lips weakly: "It's nothing..."

Xing Yu withdrew his hand, tried his best to pull up the corner of his mouth and smiled: "Xing Kai is really lucky to have such a good friend like you."

What else could Deng Yangming say, he could only smile bitterly.

"Xiao Yu, if one day..."

Xing Yu made a silent gesture: "If there is no if, just walk every day."

Deng Yangming breathed a sigh of relief, and responded meaninglessly.

……

On the way home, Xing Yu leaned on the back seat of the car and stared out the window for a long time.

Deng Yangming looked at her expression through the rearview mirror. She did not shed tears, but a relieved smile reflected in her eyes, as if she had completed a task that she had to complete, and she was relieved?
"Come to eat at home tomorrow, thank you for keeping it secret for me."

"Forget it, I can't swallow this meal." Deng Yangming was ashamed of his entrustment to Xing Kai, and finally chose to conceal the truth.

Xing Yu didn't say anything else, she made a blueprint for her future, if she can follow the track she designed step by step, she believes that there will be the most perfect ending, of course, she also knows that it is just a hypothesis.

She stroked her aching belly...Xing Kai, I'm sorry.

(End of this chapter)