i hate i love you

Chapter 21 February 2000, 1

Chapter 20 January 2000, 1

At the dinner table, apart from Xing Kai who felt awkward, Xing Yu and An Yao had a good chat.

"Do you usually live in such a big house? Isn't it troublesome to clean?" An Yao didn't feel that his brother and sister were pitiful, but envied them.

"Fortunately, the orderly will clean up the room regularly. You don't have to cook three meals a day, and you don't have to go out to buy daily necessities. If you make a list, the orderly will deliver it to your door. I only thought of cooking by myself when I knew you would come today." Xing Yu answer.

An Yao sighed in admiration, this is the life she dreamed of as a young mistress.

Xing Kai glanced at Xing Yu displeasedly, she couldn't possibly know that the guest was An Yao, so just pretend.But there was one thing that surprised him. Xing Yu, who used to be low-key, actually flaunted his family background in front of An Yao.

An Yao picked up a few vinegared shredded potatoes and put them on Xing Kai's dish: "Try it, I made this dish."

Xing Kai replied, nothing special, just shredded potatoes.

Seeing that Xing Kai didn't express his opinion, An Yao pouted and said coquettishly, "I cook for you, so please entertain me at least."

"..." Xing Kai laughed dryly: "Sweet and sour, delicious."

An Yao pursed her lips, smiled with satisfaction, picked up her rice bowl and continued to eat.

Xing Kai saw An Yao's frequent hints of affection to himself, but he, the instigator, made himself a little overwhelmed, so he quickly put the rice in his mouth, and when he was about to wipe his mouth and leave the table, Xing Yu quickly stood up , She said: "You can chat with An Yao for a while, I'm going out for a while. Don't worry about putting the dishes and chopsticks on the table." Then, she went to the door to change her shoes.Only then did Xing Kai notice that Xing Yushen had changed out of his clothes unknowingly.

"Where are you going?"

"Private business."

"Which private matter?" Xing Kai asked aggressively.

Xing Yu refused to respond, closed the door and walked out of the threshold.Xing Kai got up and wanted to chase after him, but An Yao, who was out of the situation, mistakenly thought that Xing Yu was going to see Deng Yangming, so she stopped Xing Kai's pace, tilted her head and smiled: "Girls always have some little secrets that they don't want to share with their relatives, you Don't treat your sister like a child. It doesn't matter if you don't want to chat with me, as long as I don't exist. "

Xing Kai looked towards the empty door and secretly clenched his fists.

……

However, after Xing Yu left, he didn't return home until three o'clock in the morning.

Xing Yu tiptoed to open the door, but she didn't turn on the light immediately, because in the dark living room, there was the faint sound of even breathing.

She grabbed a thick coat in the dark, quietly walked to the sofa, and gently covered Xing Kai's body.

Suddenly, the desk lamp flickered, and the light quickly shone on Xing Yu's cheeks...

Xing Yu covered the light and blinked slowly: "An Yao went back?"

"Are you going to stay overnight if you don't go back?..." Xing Kai rubbed his temples, and punched the back of the sofa violently: "You know that woman has a crush on me, but you f*ck deliberately created a chance for us to be alone ?! Let me ask you, may I ask you, are you testing my concentration or are you too confident in yourself?!"

Xing Yu frowned, and said helplessly, "I don't know why. An Yao was originally your guest."

"You!—" Xing Kai straightened up abruptly, almost hitting Xing Yu's cheek with his raised fist.

Xing Yu's attitude was calm, and he took off his scarf and gloves as he walked towards the bedroom.

Just when she was about to close the door, Xing Kai kicked the door open. Due to the excessive force, the edge of the door hit her back and slapped her heavily to the ground.

Seeing this, Xing Kai gasped, hurriedly helped Xing Yu up, and apologized repeatedly.

Xing Yu didn't say anything, so he rubbed his back, got up and walked towards the bed.

"Does it hurt? Let me see..." Xing Kai chased her steps, the anger in his heart had been extinguished by his own recklessness.

Xing Yu peeled off his fingers and smiled at him: "It's okay, it doesn't hurt at all, really, go to sleep."

Xing Kai looked sad, stared at her back and sank, then sat on the edge of the bed, pulled her into his arms, put his hands under her shirt, and gently massaged her back.

Xing Yu sat with her back to Xing Kai. She didn't know whether she was tired or her back hurt. She leaned back, resting her head on his shoulder, "enjoying" his unskilled massage techniques.

"Your hands are so warm..." She raised her lips slightly.

Xing Kai twisted her chin and rubbed his forehead against the tip of her frozen red nose.

"It's because your body is too cold, tell me... where did you go?"

"I went to the Book Building first. The Book Building is closed. I went to eat at the night market. After eating the night market, I watched a movie." Xing Yu looked tired and slowly closed his eyes.

"It's so rich, we should go together." Xing Kai held her hands in his palms and let out a sigh of relief.

"But I don't want to go with you, you will think the library building is boring; you will be picky about the roadside stalls; you will curse the movies for being boring."

Xing Kai thought for a while... "Maybe, but not necessarily..." He didn't say a word. In fact, with her, even boring things will become interesting.As long as she is willing to take him with her.

Xing Yu touched his cheek and said weakly: "Xing Kai, I want to live like an ordinary person, but living in a high-profile family, I often feel a lot of pressure..."

For the first time, the first time I heard Xing Yu say what was in his heart, but it was negative. Xing Kai really had mixed feelings in his heart.

"Stress? Who put pressure on you?"

"People around me, they spy on my life, count my journey home every day, if I go home late and don't report, the orderly will appear at the school gate immediately; everything I buy from outside will be inspected, sanitary napkins Also look; I wash underwear. They also want to help with 'enthusiasm', I..."

"Stop talking." Xing Kai interrupted her speech, wrapping his arms around her body tightly.Xing Kai always thought that he was the only one who felt inexplicably depressed, and it turned out that Xing Yu couldn't stand it either.However, as the children of high-ranking officials, this is the way of life they cannot change. If they want to escape from the current situation, they can only choose to sever ties or die.

From the moment Xing Yu moved into the Xing family, although others had no right to ask about Xing Yu's identity, she was regarded as the daughter-in-law of General Xing Fuguo in the eyes of others.Therefore, subordinates at all levels naturally paid attention to Xing Yu's every move.This concern is not only for her personal safety, but also her private life.To put it bluntly, she basically has no chance of "red apricot cheating".Moreover, Xing Fuguo handed over the task of taking care of Xing Kai to Xing Yu.Xing Yu replaced the duties of the soldiers. She would never give Xing Kai ideological education in a rigid manner. Instead, she became Xing Kai's punching bag and babysitter.Therefore, in the change of living conditions, Xing Kai must gain more freedom.

Thinking of this, Xing Kai lowered his eyes guiltily, he just thought about himself blindly, but never thought that she lived so tired.

"Now that you're back, they're finally 'relaxed' to me..." Xing Yu twitched his lips, turned around, wrapped his arms around Xing Kai's waist, and then said with a smile: "Don't get me wrong, I I am not blaming anyone. On the contrary, I would like to thank the Xing family for giving me everything. Your father is willing to take me in, let me live a good life without worrying about food and clothing, and at the same time create a good learning environment for me, so that I can pass the Ideal college. I'm just in a bad mood and whining."

Xing Kai really didn't know what to say to her. If he had the ability to change the status quo, he wouldn't be so distressed. Of course, he can also change, but it will take a lot of time to accumulate the capital to establish his own family, step by step, to break away from the high-ranking children of the Xing family The aura of love, become a man who can truly make decisions for himself and his lover.

"Xiaoyu, tell me when you are tired, I will take you out to relax, even if you can't escape for a lifetime, at least we can escape for a while, you can rely on me, lose your temper with me, act like a baby to me, why do you have to digest it yourself? These troubles?" He didn't want to tell her about his future plans, let alone create pressure on her.

"Are you really willing to save me?..." Xing Yu asked tentatively.

"of course."

"Then can you let me go?..."

"What do you mean?" Xing Kai gradually frowned.

"Promise me first not to get angry." Xing Yu broke away from Xing Kai's embrace and sat up straight.

"...Well." Xing Kai already felt that the situation was serious.

Xing Yu stood up calmly, and said solemnly: "I don't want to be paid attention to with the honorable title of grandma and the daughter-in-law of an army general, but I won't leave this house... shall we just be brothers and sisters?"

Xing Kai's lips parted slightly, and he blinked his eyelids dully. These words completely woke him up from his confusion, and it was undoubtedly a more powerful wound.At the same time, it proved that Xing Yu's tirade just now was just a foreshadowing for the current sentence.

He doesn't know what kind of expression and mood he has now, it should be very distorted.

"Since you have regarded me as a brother in the early morning!...Why are you still sleeping with me?..."

"Why not, we are not biological brothers and sisters."

"Fuck." Xing Kai sneered meaninglessly.He stood up, paced around the room aimlessly, and suddenly pointed at Xing Yu and asked, "Don't tell me that you are going to bed with me to repay the kindness of raising me!"

"Of course not, I would like to."

"If you say no, then what do you want TM?!"

"Calm down, okay?"

"I can't calm down! How do you tell me to calm down?!" Xing Kai pinched her shoulders, his eyes were bloodshot with anger: "I don't want a shitty sister, I want you to be my legitimate wife of Xing Kai!"

Xing Yu's eyes were also red, she raised her trembling fingers, stroked his bushy eyebrows, tilted her head, and forced a smile: "I will not leave this family, let alone marry someone other than you. Shall we keep the status quo? Now that you are free Xing Kai, you can find a woman you like at any time..."

"Are you crazy? Huh?..."

Xing Yu looked straight into his eyes, without dodging or hesitating, and smiled: "I have thought clearly, it's not your problem, it's because I can't accept my status after marriage, just treat me as selfish, I really can't marry you. "

"You thought about it when you moved into Xing's house? Or was it just because of external factors?..." Xing Kai was unwilling to accept this kind of answer. He was working hard and fighting for their future. Why was Xing Yu unwilling to give What time does he have? !

Xing Yu sighed leisurely: "You didn't intend to marry me back then, and even tried to drive me out of the Xing family, didn't you?"

One sentence choked Xing Kai, he really disliked her at the beginning, wishing she would disappear immediately.But her carefulness, her unique charm, her meek personality, and her sharp judgments have invisibly affected his views and changed his decadent life!
...Of course, when he changed from hating her to loving her, he didn't specifically notify her.

But now, Xing Kai's mind is in a mess, not to mention that he really can't refute every question she has right now.She finally confessed bloodyly, so she has been reluctant to say "love", because there is no such thing between them!

……

Xing Kai only felt dizzy and dizzy, yes, it was powerlessness. Gradually, he lowered his arms and walked out of the room slowly...

Years of doubts were resolved in his heart, but replaced by the ruthless truth. Now he regrets pressing her repeatedly, forcing her to have no choice but to tell the truth.He was sorry, very sorry.

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That night, Xing Kai got very drunk in the bar. I really hope that when I wake up, there is no woman named Xing Yu in the world. She treats his sincerity as trash and his farewell as a joke. It has been two years. She played with herself for two whole years.

Before he died of drunkenness, he casually dialed An Yao's phone number.

"Be my girlfriend..."

"Is it Xing Kai? Where are you? It's very noisy around..."

"Be my girlfriend..."

"Did you drink too much? You tell me where you are first, and I will pick you up."

"I asked you the fuck if you want to be my girlfriend?!"

"……willing."

There was a "squeak" noise from the phone, and soon the signal was cut off.

Xing Kai leaned against the bar counter, looked at the phone soaked in the wine glass, and smiled numbly.

Are you satisfied Xing Yu?As you wish, as you wish...

at the same time
Xing Yu sat on a stone chair opposite the bar, watching Xing Kai who was drunk.The biting cold wind blew through her thin body, but she no longer felt the cold.

When he walks out of the bar, she will take him back to a warm home...

Her smile is neither bitter nor sad, but a sincere blessing.

(End of this chapter)