i hate i love you

Chapter 24 February 2000, 2

Chapter 23 January 2000, 2

In a blink of an eye, a month has passed

During Xing Kai's loneliest days, An Yao's careful care and love filled the emptiness in his heart.He thought, there must be a pessimistic shadow living in his body, that shadow is afraid of being alone, afraid of being abandoned, and afraid of losing the courage to live.

He often asks himself, who owns money, sports cars, mansions, and love, what else is he lacking? ...

On the eve of the Spring Festival, Xing Fuguo went home to see his son. When firecrackers were everywhere, Xing Kai had an in-depth conversation with his father in a dull mood.

"Dad, I can fulfill your wish. Through continuous hard work, I will join the party. If you ask me to join the party, I will join the party. If you ask me to leave the army, I will leave the army. You can go to study wherever you want. Just...don't force me Marry Xing Yu. I hope you will respect my opinion." Xing Kai smoked in front of his father for the first time, and he had had enough, enough of Xing Yu's indifference.He just needs an ordinary woman, a woman who is willing to take into account his feelings and who is willing to say the word "love".

Father and son bonded, Xing Fuguo did not scold his son, although it was difficult for him to understand what Xing Yu did not do well enough.

Back then, Xing Fuguo brought Xing Yu home to raise him, just to find a companion for his son to talk to, hoping that his son would stop causing trouble everywhere.Today, my son not only has excellent grades in various subjects, but has even become proficient in several foreign languages ​​in a very short period of time. He has changed from a bad boy who was ignorant and incompetent to a good example praised by his colleagues and neighbors.His son is promising, and he also tastes the taste of pride. The goal has been achieved, but how should he explain to Xing Yu?
Xing Fuguo sighed, and said: "Love can't be forced. After all, we have to live together for a lifetime. Dad can understand your feelings. Don't worry about this matter. Dad will talk to Xing Yu, just because he is afraid that the child won't be able to bear the blow. Although Xiao Yu It wasn’t originally based on…”

Xing Kai interrupted: "You don't have to worry about this, what I said also represents her heart."

Xing Fuguo was startled: "Xiaoyu said she doesn't want to marry you, but it's not that you don't want to marry her?"

"She doesn't want to marry, and I don't want to marry either. We all feel that being a family member is more suitable than being a husband and wife..." Xing Kai admitted reluctantly, forced the corners of his mouth to smile, and asked, "Dad, why did you marry Mom in the first place? "

Thinking of his wife who passed away more than ten years ago, Xing Fuguo felt sour. When Xing Yu's mother left, Xing Kai was not yet three years old, and he even thought about remarrying for his son.He also looked for it, but he couldn't find a woman who could take the place of his wife.

"Your mother is a woman of few words. She is gentle, skillful, kind, and beautiful. It is the luckiest thing in Dad's life to marry a wife like your mother. However, when your mother was pregnant with you, your mother didn't know I have a serious heart disease. Medicine was not developed enough at that time. The doctor advised her to abort the child, otherwise her life would be in danger. I also advised her not to have one, but your mother refused to listen and insisted on having one, because my father was the only child. Your mother thinks that marrying me is the obligation to continue the incense for the Xing family. I don’t want to listen to her... Sigh! Dad has no choice but to force your mother to the operating table for abortion. Your mother cried very sadly, crazy Pushing the nurse away, kneeling in front of me, begging me over and over again, begging me to let her give birth to you..."

Xing Fuguo suppressed his eye sockets, no matter how strong a man is, there are still weaknesses that cannot be touched. That scene was engraved in his heart, and he wanted to feel pain again and again, and feel warm again and again.

Xing Kai never knew that his mother sacrificed his life for his birth...

He handed his father a cigarette and patted his father on the back.Xing Fuguo stabilized his mood, lit a cigarette, told his son that he was fine with a smile, and said with a smile: "When Dad heard the words 'mother and child are safe', Dad cried very hopelessly. Weeping loudly, the doctors and nurses were so scared that I thought I was bewitched, huh..."

"Even though your mother gave birth to you smoothly, your mother still feels indebted to me, because she is destined to take the first step, so your mother learned to wait, no matter what time father comes home, she will stay at home and wait, and cook me a bowl Hot wontons, sitting on the sidelines and watching me eat wontons, looking at me with a smile...People in our era were more reserved, and they didn’t talk about love like you every day. But what I want to tell you Yes, even though Dad and your mother have been together for less than half a year, Dad really loves your mother." Xing Fuguo raised his trembling hand and slowly pointed to his heart: "Your mother lives here , no one can take it away. Dad hopes that you can also experience that indescribable sense of happiness."

Xing Kai didn't know why he shed tears, maybe there was a warm atmosphere surrounding their father and son, it was very sad and kind, as if the mother came back to see them, hugging her husband, rubbing ears and temples, whispering her love for him missing.

Xing Kai held up the photo of his mother, caressed it, and laughed: "Dad... I suddenly discovered that Xing Yu looks a bit like my mother..."

Xing Fuguo took the photo, took out a handkerchief, and carefully wiped the edge of the photo frame. At the same time, a smile appeared on his lips: "Yes, when Dad saw Xing Yu for the first time, his heart was shocked, as if he saw you When my mother was young, she was also quiet and blinked her big watery eyes. Xing Yu didn't want to be brought up by his father, but his father took her back after putting down his old face. You brat doesn't understand Cherish it, it was a waste of father's hard work!"

"Huh? . . . You never said anything about her. Tell me."

"On the way my father went to the army to condolences to the soldiers that day, it was raining heavily. A little girl rushed out and stopped my car. If the driver hadn't reacted quickly, he might have knocked her into the air. Dad must have gotten out of the car angrily and scolded her. Dad was very angry at the time, but she wasn't afraid at all, and she didn't say a word, she just stared straight at the military rank on Dad's shoulder, until when Dad got into the car, she grabbed Dad's clothes, and she said she wanted to be a military doctor, begging I will definitely let her join the army."

Xing Kai was slightly taken aback, this is why Xing Yu applied for the medical university, right?
Xing Fuguo took a sip of his tea, and said, "Father definitely can't let a little girl of unknown origin go to the army, but Dad can't leave either. She was stuck by the car door with one hand, and he wouldn't let go even if he threatened her. You know what happened afterwards. , her parents were both soldiers, who died in the line of duty because of fighting against floods. The country has always given preferential treatment to the families of martyrs, and has arranged for her future life, but she insists on being a military doctor. Dad likes her stubborn temper, of course, because she looks a little bit Like your mother, so Dad brought her back. As for the idea of ​​becoming your wife, Xiaoyu learned about it at the same time as you, she was very sensible, and did not refute Dad's decision on the spot."

"Not on the spot?!...You mean to talk to you later?" Xing Kai was confused.

Xing Fuguo shook his head: "I thought she would talk to me, but two years have passed, and she never mentioned that matter, and even took care of you in every possible way, Dad thought she acquiesced. Who knows that you two have your own ideas , co-authoring, dad is poor and happy alone!"

"..." Xing Kai couldn't help feeling mixed emotions in his heart. It turned out that Xing Yu never agreed to marry him from the beginning to the end, let alone pretending to be his fiancée.As for their father and son, the old man treats her as a daughter-in-law, and the son treats her as a child bride-in-law, and they come and go when they call Xing Yu.Needless to say, the father and son are really close to each other.

However, after hearing these words, Xing Kai felt much better, at least the feeling of being teased was gone.And, he should say sorry to Xing Yu.

At this time, Xing Yu knocked on the door, holding a hanging firecracker in his hand, tilting his head and smiling sweetly.

"Dad, it's rare for you to come back and set off a bunch of firecrackers to make it lively."

Xing Fuguo and Xing Kai looked at each other and smiled at each other. Xing Kai got up first and took the five thousand firecrackers from Xing Yu's hand: "Xing Yu, go and take out the stock, let's put enough tonight."

"Hey!" Xing Yu responded crisply, and ran towards the warehouse with a smile.

After a while, the Xing family compound was very lively.Xing Kai lit a large row of fireworks at the same time, and Xing Fuguo lit a string of firecrackers. Accompanied by the deafening sound of dancing, the fireworks soared into the sky, and the fireworks lit up the dark night sky. .

Xing Yu looked up at the sky and cheered happily.

Seeing the smoke and dust from the fireworks, Xing Kai pulled Xing Yu behind him.

"Xing Yu, sister... Happy Chinese New Year."

Xing Yu blinked, smiling like a flower.

"Xing Kai, brother! Happy Chinese New Year."

The flickering colored light sources are reflected on each other's sincere smiling faces, and it seems that everything is so relieved.

"Move back home."

"Well, I'll go back and pack my things tomorrow."

"Okay, I'll be your porter tomorrow."

"Okay, I'll also ride in an expensive sports car." Xing Yu was rarely playful.

"It's fine to drive it for you, if it crashes, it's mine."

Xing Yu pursed his lips and nodded happily.

Xing Kai touched the top of her head, like a brother pampering his sister. However, he must admit that he was still a little sad. After all, she was the woman he really loved, but he believed that the wound would heal slowly. , it is only a matter of time.

"Dad, just in time for you to come back, I'm going to make dumplings. Did we mention thirty?" Xing Yu ran to the door of the house.

"Good idea! Dad is here to roll out the dough." Xing Fuguo rolled up his cuffs, and he was so happy that he couldn't close his mouth from ear to ear.

Happy to be happy, Xing Fuguo sighed helplessly in his heart, his younger sister and elder brother called, which proved that these two people really had nothing to do.

But there is one thing to be happy about, no matter which lucky person Xing Yu will marry in the end, she will always be the daughter of the Xing family.

"Come on, Xing Kai, you have to work today, come in and wash the vegetables—"

"Come on, don't rely on me if you don't wash it clean."

Xing Kai walked towards the door with a smile on his face. When he turned to close the door, the fireworks in the courtyard of the other house happened to fly into the clouds. He looked at the colorful fireworks in the sky, and the corners of his mouth slightly raised. The unreachable beauty may be the most beautiful.

Dad, mom, sister, happy new year.

(End of this chapter)