i hate i love you

Chapter 40 March 2005 Years

Chapter 38 January 2005

It has been almost a year since Xing Kai left.During this year, no matter how busy or tired he was, he would call Xing Yu to inform him of his safety before going to bed.Of course, reporting safety was just a cover for him to hide his emotions.He wanted to hear Xing Yu's voice, to hear her laughter, healthy laughter.

During this year, he would often wake up in nightmares, and he would always break out in a cold sweat after waking up.In fact, he is not a person who is easy to dream. People often say that people who are easy to dream are optimistic and positive, with rich imagination.However, other than death or blood in his dream, or it was pitch black, there was nothing worth imagining.

Now, he is used to putting a glass of boiled water on the bedside table, with sleeping pills next to the water glass. If he has something to do the next day, he can only take the medicine and force sleep.If it's okay, he won't go to sleep, go to the balcony to blow some air, make a cup of tea, light a cigarette, and recall the little things between him and Xing Yu.Sometimes smirking, sometimes melancholy, like an old man who can only live the rest of his life on memories, sitting in a rocking chair, fantasizing about an unrealistic future.

When it comes to being unrealistic, it's not that he doesn't want to work hard, it's just that if Xing Yu leaves this world early, everything will be in vain.

How he wished to go back to their warm home and eat a bowl of Xing Yu's boiled eggplant noodles.But Xing Yu didn't allow him to spoil his future.So he will convince himself that if this is her wish, he will help her make it come true.

Now he finally understands his father's feelings, which is the important reason why his father would rather drag him to grow up alone than marry again after his mother passed away.Although he basically has no impression of his biological mother, he can be sure that her mother and Xing Yu belong to the same kind of woman, quiet, gentle, and virtuous.

They know how to do what they can, and know that what men lack the most is caring, so they don't nag, don't make noise, and are willing to fill the vacancy in the man's heart, and fill that fragile place with various methods they think are right.Usually this kind of woman is not enchanting and charming enough, and she doesn't like to dress up, but she can firmly grasp the heart of a man like a magnet.

Every time he thinks about this, Xing Kai raises his lips unconsciously, and looks towards the direction of the motherland... Xiaoyu, you said, wait for me to triumph, and I will do what I said.

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China.

Xing Yu is busy as always, sometimes she doesn't know what she is busy with, maybe she is just busy falling asleep, waking up, going to work, busy leaving get off work, busy waiting, waiting for Xing Kai to call home Every call.

Xing Kai calls home at [-] o'clock every night on time. If she works overtime and returns late, the call will go to the emergency room.

But tonight's situation is special. A construction worker who accidentally fell from the building was pushed in the emergency room. She had no time to answer Xing Kai's phone call, and she was busy until three o'clock in the morning.

After taking a shower, she sat in front of the writing desk, brushed her hair, and looked at the alarm clock on the table... Although she felt tired, she didn't feel sleepy at all. It seemed that she was going to suffer from insomnia tonight, so Xing Yu simply turned on the computer to check the information.

She hesitated for a moment, and logged into QQ. This is a chat tool Xing Kai installed for her. It can be invisible and pretend to be absent, or it can light up its profile picture to prove that it is online.There was only one man she knew very well in the column of her friends, so she chose to log in invisibly.

What she didn't expect was that the QQ avatar used by Xing Kai was flashing, and Xing Yu was taken aback. Is he still asleep?

So, she opened the dialog box and saw a series of messages from Xing Kai who seemed to be talking to herself.

Article [-]

Xing Kai: I know you're asleep, so don't bother with me, I'm just having fun.

Second

Xing Kai: But, I didn't hear your voice today, maybe I'm used to it, and I really didn't get used to it for a while.

Article 3

Xing Kai: Why don't you turn on your phone?Not done yet?
Article 4

Xing Kai: By the way, I just dreamed that you were carried away by a big lion. At that time, I was so anxious, I chased and chased desperately, but I couldn't catch up with the damned lion.But then guess what?You actually slaughtered a lion with your bare hands and asked me if I would like to eat roast lion meat together.Hey, you said you were so capable in your dreams, what else should I worry about, right?
The fifth

Xing Kai: So what, I ate fried rice with spicy cabbage tonight, maybe it was so spicy that I got up in the middle of the night to drink water, and chat with you by the way, nothing special...

Article [-]

Xing Kai: Xiaoyu, I really have nothing to do, don't think about it, I just... miss you.

Article [-]

Xing Kai: Oh, I'm sleepy, I fell asleep, you should go to bed early too.If you also dream of a big lion, don't be afraid, I will tell you with a pat on the chest, you can definitely beat it!Hey, see you tomorrow.

……

Xing Yu slid the mouse, flipped through the message over and over again, and smiled with his eyes wet.

Tomorrow no matter what, I have to go home on time to answer Xing Kai's call.Ok?No, if I get busy, I might not be able to leave. Forget it, I will ask for leave and not go to work tomorrow.

Thinking of this, she suddenly stood up and walked straight to the kitchen.Raise the dough, knead the dough, peel the eggplant, mince the meat, light the stove...

Although it was midnight, the Xing family's living room was filled with the aroma of marinated eggplant.

She is not hungry, not at all, she just hopes that this familiar smell can float farther, farther away.

How she wished she could fly to Xing Kai's side immediately.Although she can't give him any help in work, at least she can give him a meal that suits his taste.

Xing Kai, if you are tired from flying, stop and rest.No one is forcing you, really, even if someone is forcing you, that person must not be me. My only wish is to wait for you to go home.

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At noon the next day, when Xing Yu was standing on the balcony to dry clothes, Deng Yangming called her from his balcony.

"Xiaoyu, you didn't go to the hospital today?"

"Well, I slept too late yesterday, so I took a day off. Come to eat at noon, Brother Yangming."

The bright sunshine reflected on Xing Yu's smiling face, which made Deng Yangming startled. If he remembered correctly, since Xing Kai went abroad, he hadn't seen her smile for a long time.

"It seems that you are in a good mood today. The hospital wants to raise your salary?" Deng Yangming joked.

"No, no matter how high the salary rises, Xing Kai will laugh at him." Xing Yu tilted his head and smiled.

Deng Yangming couldn't laugh, because through a few words of conversation, he knew that Xing Yu's good mood came from Xing Kai.Of course, this doesn't mean that he likes food, but that he doesn't understand what Xing Yu really wants.Since Xing Kai can control her emotions, why would she push Xing Kai into the arms of other women?
But Xing Kai is definitely not the poorest man in the world, at least luckier than himself.

He, Deng Yangming, kept a promise to his buddies, looked at a relationship that did not belong to him, and waited year after year.It seems that if Xing Yu doesn't reveal who her heart belongs to, he won't be able to let himself completely give up.

Alas, in the final analysis, the most tormenting people are nothing more than those emotions - can't let go, can't bear, can't forget.

Deng Yangming thought about the past. In fact, Xing Yu really never provoked him, and he was still so polite after ten years of getting along with him, but why did he get so caught up in the horns?
After Xing Yu finished drying the clothes, seeing Deng Yangming standing there panicked, she repeated it again and asked him to come home for dinner.

Deng Yangming responded, although he has been thinking about Xing Yu for a long time, but he will still keep his promise and will never be a treacherous person.Thinking of this, he led the golden retriever Dayu out for a walk for a few laps, and then walked into Xing's house when he felt that it was almost time.

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"Auntie Deng told me a few days ago that she found a new partner for you and showed me the photos. That girl is very beautiful, and her family is also a cadre. Have you met her yet?" Xing Yu helped He chatted while eating.

"Huh? ... Oh, we have an appointment to meet on the weekend." Deng Yangming replied perfunctorily.

"Well, don't make Auntie Deng anxious. Be filial to the old man. Every time Auntie mentions you, she will have a migraine." Xing Yu smiled and said, "Eat first, Brother Yangming, I'll get you a bowl." soup."

Deng Yangming got up and grabbed Xing Yu, and said helplessly, "I told you to take it easy. I'm not an outsider, and I can serve soup myself."

Seeing him grabbing his wrist, Xing Yu suppressed his smile and withdrew his hand directly.

And she withdrew her hand like this, neither tactful nor following the trend, which directly made Deng Yangming feel very embarrassed.

"Xiaoyu... I have no other meaning."

"..." Xing Yu also felt that she had overreacted, she smiled brightly, and said disapprovingly, "I know, the main reason is that I haven't had time to wash my hands after cooking, and I'm afraid of staining your shirt."

Deng Yangming twitched the corners of his mouth, thinking that he would let it go, but he didn't know which muscle was wrongly placed, so he asked the root cause: "We have known each other for ten years, Xiaoyu, tell the truth today, is it right? Besides Xing Kai, you will feel disgusted by any man who touches your body, whether it is intentional or unintentional?...Then what, don't think too much, I don't mean to be angry at all, just curious."

"..." Xing Yu was silent for a long time before replying, "It's not disgusting, it's just that I'm not used to it."

"That's the same meaning." Deng Yangming said casually.

Xing Yu took this matter very seriously, she looked serious, and tried her best to correct: "Of course not, disgust is disgust, how could I hate brother Yang Ming? Don't others know that I don't know? Brother Yang Ming is Xing Yu Kai's best friend always thinks of Xing Kai, fortunately he was accompanied by brother Yang Ming in his childhood, otherwise he may not know what he will become."

Deng Yangming stared at her without saying anything, maybe he was relieved, maybe he was helpless, he shook his head with a smile, sat back at the table, and picked up his rice bowl to eat.Yes, he is a fan of the authorities, not pretending to be confused.He really didn't have to wait any longer, he couldn't wait in his life.

In fact, if you think about it carefully, in the past ten years, whenever his relationship with Xing Yu was about to take a step forward, Xing Yu would mention Xing Kai over and over again in his ears, and then entrusted himself to a "love sincerity" Valuable, the price of friendship is higher".

Why didn't he figure it out until today?

Boom, Deng Yangming slapped the chopsticks on the table.

"After Xing Kai comes back, you should hurry up and finish the marriage. Obedient Xiaoyu, you know better than anyone how Xing Kai treats you. Don't bother Xing Kai, okay?!"

"..." Xing Yu chewed the rice grains in his mouth, and said silently, "I'm sorry Brother Yang Ming, I don't plan to marry Xing Kai."

"Why? Can you tell me why?"

"Let's talk about it when he comes back. I believe Xing Kai will agree with my point of view." Xing Yu smiled lightly.

Deng Yangming let out a breath, Xing Kai and Xing Yu, these two people compete with each other with stubborn eyes!In other words, he must have had an indistinct relationship with them in his previous life. It is likely that one wanted to kill him and the other wanted to save him. !
Xing Kai, Uncle Xing!Come back soon!
(End of this chapter)