Eunuch's Declaration of Loyalty

Chapter 95 Qin Shu's Past Life Extra Story 3
People who walk alone will always be regarded as aliens. Qin Shu is this alien in the eyes of all the little eunuchs in the imperial dining room, but they dare not trouble Qin Shu because his eyes are as scary as ice knives. , Looking at him in the face unconsciously will give birth to fear from the heart.

That year, the master of the palace, the emperor, passed away.The situation in the court suddenly became a little tense, because Xiao Nan, the brother of the late emperor, and the prince were also eyeing the throne, and the crown prince was still such a child.The servants would chat about this in private. Qin Shu has always been a loner and never gossips with them, but he accidentally heard them talking about the new queen, the Miss Liu who has now become the queen mother, But the footsteps couldn't help but stopped.

"This empress has not been a long time, she became empress dowager, I heard she is only 15 years old, tsk tsk, from now on, she will be a widow for the rest of her life, I heard that the first emperor was ill in bed, and he and the empress did not see each other at all Let alone... that matter." The speaker lowered his voice, with an indescribable schadenfreude on his face.These people are always happy to see others have bad luck, and talk about it.

"Even if he was born in the Liu family, so what if the prince is her nephew, there is still a prince watching over him first, but in the future, it may not be what will happen."

Qin Shu didn't want to listen any more, so he walked away.He looked at the corner of the eaves of the palace in the distance, and remembered the empress he met back then.He couldn't see her face, but the voice kept falling into his dream for some reason, and she said, "Little guy, are you okay?" It was clear and sweet, with pure concern and a strong... fresh feeling.Qin Shu didn't know how to describe it, but just hearing her voice, he felt that it was a lively person, just the opposite of himself.

Masters are all aloof and cannot be disobeyed.They had understood this since they entered the palace, so Qin Shu didn't understand why that man cared about a little slave and covered his wound with a veil indifferently.

Qin Shu thought that no one in this world was willing to give him a little care and help, and he had obviously given up, but he taught him to meet such a high-ranking empress when he was in such a mess, and he got such a little kindness.While being flattered, some secret emotions that I didn't understand suddenly arose in my heart.

A few days later, the Empress Dowager held a night banquet. Everyone said that the Liu family was showing weakness to Xiao Nan and the prince. After all, Liu Guogong did not attend. There is only a weak woman Empress Dowager and a child prince, what can they do?
Qin Shu and other young eunuchs who passed on the meal went to the Hall of Ronghe with the imperial meal.They were all excited about the possibility of witnessing the transfer of power, but Qin Shu was only thinking about the empress dowager.

At that night banquet, Qin Shu clearly saw the Empress Dowager Liu Qingtang for the first time.She was beautiful, and among all the words Qin Shu knew at that time, except for this uncharacteristic and broad beautiful word, he couldn't find any words that could be used to describe that woman.I just feel that every part of that person seems to have been meticulously carved by the heavens, and every move, every word and deed is more attractive than others.

It's not that there are no women who look better than her, but Qin Shu subconsciously feels that this person is different.It was as if the moment I saw her, all the beauty in the world existed only because of her.But just seeing her from such a distance, Qin Shu also found it inconceivable, why was he so sure that that person was the most beautiful and the best in the world?However, some moods are like this, and you never know why it suddenly appeared at that moment.

Love is an unavoidable disaster, but people are willing to go through the difficulties and obstacles.

In this world, there will always be that one person. When you meet her, you will understand what is meant by "When the golden wind and jade dew meet, they will win but there are countless people in the world."

In that bloody night banquet where most people only saw Prince Xiao Nan and Yi faction were all beheaded, no one knew that there was such an inconspicuous little eunuch who saw a person in his eyes and in his heart.

In fact, it doesn't need to be so complicated, but Qin Shu took a look at the man and felt that he couldn't let go anymore.

When Liu Qingtang stabbed the sword into Xiao Nanhe's chest, and then pulled it out to look coldly at the courtiers below, Qin Shu didn't feel scared like the others, but felt a little uncomfortable for no reason, and suddenly appeared in his heart for some reason. After thinking about it, the empress dowager must be very sad now.Who would want to kill people if they were not forced to have no way out.

Qin Shu went back to the imperial dining room, and bumped into the empress dowager and her maid on the way.He didn't know what he was thinking, and subconsciously hid aside.

At this time, the Empress Dowager lost her firmness in the palace, she stood there, looking at her hands, she didn't know what to think.Her plain white hands were still stained with dried blood, and that hand had been carefully wiped by a servant to wipe the blood stains around the wound.

"Zuiyi, tell me, can I not be the same as before?" The empress dowager said these words normally, and there was no uncomfortable expression on her face, but Qin Shu, who was hiding and listening, felt distressed for no reason. , Burning and burning.It would be great if I could do something for her, Qin Shu thought.When the empress dowager left with her people, Qin Shu was still standing in the shadows in a daze.

When Qin Shu was 15 years old, he was finally transferred to Ci'an Palace as he wished, and became a little eunuch who ran errands.Every day, he would wait in the atrium early in the morning, and when his head was covered with dew, the man's phoenix would pass by.He took a look at it from a distance, and then he felt at ease, and then went back to work.That used to be the closest distance he imagined to that person.

Later... Later, he thought that it would be great if he could get closer, so he went up all the way, from a little eunuch who ran errands to a little steward in charge of more than a dozen little eunuchs, and finally at the age of 21, Qin Shu Became the youngest chief executive.Needless to say the hard work involved, but as long as he can see her, talk to her, and do something for her, Qin Shu feels that no matter what, all the hardships are worth it.

The empress dowager no longer remembers the blood-stained little eunuch she rescued when she first entered the palace. slave.Qin Shu knew in his heart that he would still feel uncomfortable.It's just that he never lets others see that he's sad, whether he's happy or not, he always has that face, a face that doesn't please the Empress Dowager.

Qin Shu heard many people say that his expression was gloomy and his eyes were too cold, but he never cared.However, the empress dowager didn't like it either, she didn't say anything, just a look that she didn't want to look at, completely broke Qin Shu's indifference, and made Qin Shu feel ashamed, and her straight waist couldn't help but go He bent down, as if trying to hide himself from that gaze.

She doesn't like it, and it's normal. Who would like someone like him.Qin Shu can only tell himself that it doesn't matter if she doesn't like him, he is by the side, waiting for her to use him, keeping quiet and not annoying her, that's all.

After becoming the chief executive, Qin Shu quietly put away all the waste papers written by the empress dowager, smoothed them one by one and put them away.Some of those papers were written on, and some were painted on, but they were all flawed and discarded.Qin Shu took them out one by one to read, looked at them for a while, and then practiced according to the words on them.

He still remembers that when he was very young, he thought that being able to read and read meant being promising, but later he realized that it was just a naive idea, so he gradually let go of it.Later, he became obsessed with literacy and reading again because of the empress dowager.He heard people say that the Empress Dowager can write very well in one hand and can also paint. A calligraphy and painting is hard to find.People like her, of course, don't like illiterate people.Qin Shu suddenly became terrified, fearing that he would be disgusted even more because of this incident, so he worked hard to study by himself.

Even if Qin Shu knew in his heart that the Empress Dowager would not care whether he, an unlovable servant, could read or write well.He is still practicing calligraphy day after day, just like those years of stubbornly waiting in the courtyard, just to catch a glimpse of the Empress Dowager from a distance.They are all hopeless, and they cannot be let go.

On that night many years ago when he saw the Queen Mother's hands covered with blood, Qin Shu thought that if one day he could do this kind of thing for her, it would be nice to not ask her to carry it by herself.So Manager Qin willingly became the knife in the Empress Dowager's hand, and solved one problem after another for her.

Whether it was a disobedient concubine, a servant with a different heart, or even some corrupt officials in the court, Qin Shu had killed them all.He was not afraid of killing people, but he was afraid that the empress dowager would not like his bloody smell. Before going to see her, he would take a bath several times, just afraid that she would frowned if she smelled some bloody smell.But in fact, every time he reported those things, he was far away from her, and he didn't know what to say anymore after he could say a few words, so he just stood there blankly, until in the long silence, the queen mother said One sentence: "I see, since you are fine, you can go down first."

He would leave there, stand at the door for a while, and then walk slowly back to his room.

In Qin Shu's impression, the empress dowager became more and more silent and serious year after year. From the very beginning, she forced herself, and later, some of her former qualities were worn away by time.She put all her energy on the government, on the young emperor, and didn't care much about herself.She seems to have forgotten that she is a delicate flower, and then grows into a tree that shelters people from wind and rain.

In the next few years, the Empress Dowager's health was not as good as before, and there were always many small problems.The imperial doctor said that it was because of too much work and overthinking in the early years, and the prescription of medicine did not help.When Qin Shu saw her haggard look, he was in a hurry. He secretly searched for all kinds of medicinal food to nourish the body, the best medicinal materials, and finally borrowed someone else's hand to deliver it, because he didn't like the queen mother. I was worried that she might not want to eat what I gave.

Qin Shu carefully hid that person in his heart for many years until death came.

In the 15th year of Yuanning, the emperor attacked the Liu family and gave the queen mother a cup of Jiujiu.Qin Shu had only one thought at that time, the empress dowager must not die.How could she die, she should be well held in the palm of someone's hand, protected and loved by others.So Qin Shu did the most daring thing in his life, preparing to send the empress dowager out of the palace when the emperor gave him poisoned wine.

When they were walking in the palace road one after the other, even though Qin Shu prayed in his heart that time would pass slowly, let him be with this person and look at her more, but his footsteps were in a hurry, and he did not dare to slow down. The last point, because he might not be able to save her if he was slow for a moment.He wanted to send her away from here, and when he parted, he didn't dare to say a word to her.

Maybe this farewell will be forever, Qin Shu thought that maybe the empress dowager would be able to live the life she wanted freely after she left the palace, and it didn't matter if he died in the palace.He entered the palace at the age of ten, and spent nearly 20 years in this palace. He never thought of going out. It used to be because there was no empress dowager outside the palace, but now it was because the empress dowager outside the palace no longer needed him.

Looking back on this life, when I was young, I hated my uncle's family. Later, I was asked to find out that his uncle fell into the river and drowned because of drunkenness within two years after he entered the palace. The cousin who had high hopes didn't finish his studies and became obsessed with gambling. He lingered in the gambling hall every day, ruined the family fortune, and would beat his mother when he was unhappy.If he didn't make a move, that family had already lived a miserable life, and the childhood knots were broken.

Later, being bullied by Eunuch Min, he made him crazy and drowned him with his own hands, the hatred also disappeared with the death of the old eunuch.

The hatred was gone, and all he had left was his love for the empress dowager, which had been buried in his heart for many years.

He is a disabled person, not even counted as a man, and he is ashamed to speak of love, so there is no need to let the empress dowager know such a bad thing, he has to hide it for a lifetime.

When being chased by those guards, Qin Shu didn't hesitate to lure them away, leaving a glimmer of life for the empress dowager.He has been abused for half his life, and what he is most afraid of is pain. When he fell down on the palace road covered in blood, all he thought about was whether the queen mother escaped or not.

But seeing the empress dowager walking over under the escort of a group of guards, his last hope was also dashed.It was him who was useless, and what he wanted to do for her in the end failed, and he failed to save her.Qin Shu looked at the people who were approaching gradually, and for some reason remembered the back of her leaving in bright red clothes when they met at the beginning of the year.His eyes were sore, tears slipped from the corner of one eye, and quickly disappeared into the temples without leaving a trace.

The empress dowager squatted beside him, looked at him seriously, and looked into his eyes.It's not the kind of eyes with a little alienation and dislike, or the eyes of contempt and strangeness, or the normal eyes, like looking at an ordinary man.Qin Shu suddenly felt that he had been waiting for this look for many years, and now that it finally arrived, he would have no regrets in his life.

"The slave is incompetent. He failed to save the empress dowager. In this life, he can no longer serve the empress. He only wishes to be an ox and a horse for the empress when he goes underground..."

Qin Shu thought, if in his next life, he could still meet this person and protect her for the rest of his life, that would be great.

(End of this chapter)