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Chapter 506 She is not qualified, she is not worthy

For many years, the governor has been going to the court every day, and the time is strict. Except when he is not in the court, there is no slack or absence in the rest of the day.

But today he didn't come, and he didn't send anyone to inform him.

Something must have happened.

After the emperor came down to court, he asked the internal servant to send someone to the Dudu's mansion to inquire. The housekeeper said that the Dudu was in poor health, and the doctor who came to see the doctor had just left not long ago.

In the room, Yin Cong accompanied Wei Qing, and kept his eyes open from midnight waiting for the dawn.

After Wei Qing woke up, he looked at Yin Peng beside him, and said in a hoarse voice, "Isn't the governor of Yin going to the morning court? If you don't go, it may be too late."

Yin Peng stroked her head with his chin, and said, "It's time for the morning court."

"It's over." Wei Qing said.

After a while, Wei Qing said softly again: "I have been feeling very heavy for the past two days, but now it is better, no longer heavy, and relaxed."

Yin Jing tightened his arms and rubbed her into his arms hard.

Wei Qing also told him, "Before, I was flustered, but now I don't have to panic anymore."

"Wei Qing." Yin Yan called her in a low voice.

Wei Qing smiled palely and slowly, stretched out his hand to caress Yin Cong's skirt, and said, "There will be children in the future, right?"

Yin Xuan said, "Of course there will be."

"Yes, there will be more." She took a deep breath, and then tried her best to suppress the trembling in her bones, and said calmly, "I know, child, it's very likely that I won't be able to keep it. I knew it from the beginning. "

She said, "I was poisoned, and the residual poison remained in my body. If there is a fetus, it must be affected immediately. I know... I know..."

She buried her head in his arms, and then couldn't hold back, and finally let out a trembling.The trembling became more and more intense, and she tightly clutched Yin Peng's clothes in her hands, like the only piece of driftwood she could hold on to in the vast sea.

But her voice was still calm, she said: "I don't plan to have a child now, and I have never experienced the joy of being a mother. But every time I see Yilan, I can't help but think, why is she smiling so happily. She It's a wonderful feeling to say that the baby in the stomach can move.

"Suddenly there is a small thing in my stomach, which is really amazing. I am not afraid of the pain of medicine, and I am not afraid of vomiting after taking it. If I can save this little thing, it is nothing. I have to try it too.”

She took a few breaths, extremely suppressed the changed tone, and insisted on returning to her normal tone, saying: "Because that is my child and yours. No matter how inopportune he came, it is also my child and yours. I almost thought that I was able to save him, just barely."

Wei Qing was trembling badly, "It's my fault, I didn't know his existence, I wasn't careful enough, I wasn't fearful enough. Why should I be poisoned, why should I go to jail, why should I wait for others to prove my innocence , if I could have known earlier, wouldn't this be the case... I am not qualified, I am not worthy."

Wei Qing said, "I'm not worthy to be his mother."

That day, she buried her head tightly in Yin Xuan's arms, and her voice was terribly calm from beginning to end, not a single trembling or crying sound could be heard.

But only she and Yin Jing knew that under the skirt of her face, the dampness changed from warm to cool, then warm to cool again.

Every sentence is like a knife, piercing sharply in the hearts of the two of them.

Before they had time to possess it, they lost it in an instant.

Doesn't it hurt?
The pain seems indescribable.

Two days ago, Yin Jing asked anxiously, is the child good?He also said that the child will grow into a human form in a few months... Although it was not planned, God knows how much they look forward to seeing the day when the child becomes an adult.

The two self-restrained people were like bewildered and clueless children at that time. They could only hug each other tightly to get warmth and relieve the pain in their hearts.

Yin Jing followed her back, resting his head in the hollow of her shoulder, silently and suffocatingly rubbing her hard.

Wei Qing said, "I know why Yilan can smile so happily in just two days." She has been in panic and dare not relax, she wants this child...the first child of her and Yin Jing ...

"You can too," Yin Yan said in a low voice, "you are still young, and you will have a lot of time to have children in the future. One is not enough to have two, two is not enough to have four, you are their mother, Join me in teaching them to be human and raising them up."

Wei Qing smiled sullenly, but with tears streaming down his eyes, he said, "It's good to have two, a boy like you, a girl like me, or both you and me."

Yin Xuan said, "Okay."

Later, Wei Qing didn't eat a drop of rice for a day, and fell into a drowsy sleep.

When she woke up, the lamp was on in the room, but Yin Xuan was no longer by her side.

Yilan and Nanny Xie stayed in the room the whole time, seeing her wake up, they quickly stepped forward to help her, and put two soft pillows on the head of the bed for her to lean on.

Wei Qing looked at the darkening sky outside, and the first thing he said was: "I'm hungry."

Xie Momo's eyes were hot, she turned her back and wiped it off, and quickly responded: "The meal is ready, servant girl will go get it now."

Soon the porridge, food and side dishes were brought over, and Wei Qing ate them calmly.The medicine on the medicine stove outside is frying.

She is now pale and weak, and needs to be recuperated, eat and drink medicine on time, so that she can get better as soon as possible.

Perhaps to others, she is almost cold to the point of being ruthless.

This miscarriage, apart from the physical burden it caused to her, didn't seem to leave any expression of pain on her face.

But Yi Lan and Xie Nao, who took care of her closely, understood her because she was extremely tolerant.

Tears are useless, and grief to the point of madness is useless.

She has never been qualified to be willful, and the result of her willful way is either in exchange for the pity and sympathy of others, or in exchange for others' troubles.

But she doesn't want either.What she wants, she will get it herself.

She still eats when she should eat and sleeps when she should sleep.

On the way, Wei Qing asked Yin Jian, and Yi Lan said that he had something to go out in the afternoon, and he hasn't come back yet.

In the next few days, Yin Zhen was very busy and was away from home all day long, but he would always come back at night.

Sometimes he would come back in the middle of the night, wash off the wind and frost all over his body, and lie quietly beside Wei Qing, gently hugging her into his arms.

He never told her what he was busy with, nor did Wei Qing ask her.

The tacit understanding for a long time was fully reflected in the moment when she naturally snuggled into his arms.

Wei Qing's body needs to rest in bed now. Sometimes she seems to be asleep, but when Yin Cong got up before dawn and was about to leave, she silently held his hand, pressed it against her cheek, and kissed his palm again and again. Muttered: "Yin Xuan, be careful. I only have you now."

(End of this chapter)