The Concubine's Survival Manual

Chapter 167

Qin Niangzi glanced at the garden again, and saw that there was no one in the small garden except the two young middle-aged people. Feng Ling didn't know where she had gone, so she raised an eyebrow at Feng Jin, and lowered her eyebrows while laughing. steps.

"Then there is Cousin Lao."

The two silently walked a few steps side by side in the garden.

Seventh Lady originally wanted to ask about Xu Fengjia's whereabouts, but she paused for a while, but she didn't ask: If Xu Fengjia hadn't obtained Xu Fengjia's consent, even the eunuch would not have brought her to this secret room to stay for so long.

Although this small garden is not big, the flowers and trees are sparse and exquisite. Feng Jin looked around and suddenly praised, "It's been a long time since I've had such a leisurely time. I can calm down and enjoy the spring scenery."

"My cousin has been running around all these years..." Qin Niangzi continued, "It's time to slow down."

Feng Jin looked at her and smiled, and said in a low voice, "Actually, it's better to tell the prince than to me."

The small door when they came in was almost the same as the wall from the outside, and Feng Jin didn't take her back from where she came from. Instead, she made a detour, entered the corridor, made a few turns, and walked to the small study room deep in the corridor. past.

"After all, the son already has a son." Seventh Lady said implicitly, "Even if my cousin doesn't want to get married for a while, it's for the sake of my aunt and cousin, and I should carry on the family line for the Feng family, so that my aunt and cousin have something to do."

What is the relationship between Feng Jin and the emperor, I am afraid that no one except the two of them knows.Even a celebrity in the palace like Liu Niangzi can't figure it out, and Qi Niangzi certainly won't seek the truth.It's just that Feng Jin is already 24 years old this year, and as a single heir, it's time for him to marry and have children to pass on the incense.

Feng Jin was slightly taken aback, and said calmly, "Since I joined Yanyunwei to work, only you, Shanheng, have spoken on this matter."

He just looked at Qin Niangzi with a smile, and there was a faint intimacy in his expression.

Qin Niangzi did not expect that Mrs. Feng would not even open her mouth. She lowered her head and thought for a while, then reminded Feng Jin, "My cousin is away all year round, my aunt's eyes are bad, and my cousin is unmarried after all. There is always someone in the house." Take care...Besides, I see that my aunt is not in good spirits, or that there are many children, and it is hard to explain the things that can comfort the elderly and talk about loneliness."

As the two talked, they had already entered the room. This small study looked very elegant and clean. Feng Jin pondered for a moment, and then turned the big vertical bottle in the corner. Suddenly, there was a sound of the clock, and a clean passage appeared after a while. After coming out, Qin Niangzi followed him into the room, and after walking a few steps, she opened the door and went out again: this exit is far away from the inverted south room, on the wall deep in the small garden.

"That garden is actually a clever way to hide the eyes. The closed space separated from our garden, the outside residents have no idea what's going on inside." Feng Jin explained a few words for Qin Niangzi with a smile, "Uncle Lian Shi has When the time comes, I will come and stay for a few days to meet some of my friends in the open.”

Since he didn't want to talk too much, Seventh Lady couldn't say anything more, she just responded with a few words, and asked Feng Jin, "Thank you cousin for leading the way—but how do I get to my cousin's boudoir from here?"

Feng Jin stood still.

He specially went into the small garden to pick up Qiniangzi, of course he couldn't just send her back.It's just that she didn't express it all the way, and Qin Niangzi didn't ask in detail.At this moment, she was not surprised to see that something was on the face of this handsome young man. She sat down leaning against the railing on the corridor, looked up at Feng Jin inquiringly, and said softly, "What's the matter, cousin? It's okay to say."

Although the two of them didn't have much contact, they were extremely comfortable when they got along, and there was a rare sense of brother and sister harmony.Even Brother Nine seldom gives Seventh Lady the feeling that she knows what's wrong with her, and Feng Jin will definitely help her out.Between the two, he was taking care of her more, but he didn't ask her for anything.

Being with Feng Jin is not only pleasing to the eye with pearls and jade by his side, but the best thing is this feeling of relaxation without stress.Qin Niangzi does not need to straighten her back, she is relaxed from her forehead to her toes.

Although men and women are very strong, even if they are related, it is not suitable for them to get along like this alone, but Feng Jin seems to be very natural in front of Qin Niangzi, and there is no needless restraint.He pondered for a moment, and then slowly asked Seventh Lady, "How is your life when you marry into Xu's family?"

Seventh Lady was slightly taken aback, but she didn't expect Feng Jin to start with this sentence.

"The elder son treats me well," she said frankly, "my mother-in-law treats me well. Even if there are some difficult sisters-in-law, it's not a big deal. After a year or so, the heel will be firm."

Feng Jin responded, and pondering appeared between his brows again.

After a long while, he smiled self-consciously—this smile made the flowers and plants in early spring lose their color again.

"Forget it, Shanheng you Lan Xinhui, my cousin just said it straight... Although we have formed a tacit understanding in private, no one will back down during this trip to Nanyang, but the emperor's attitude is also resolute, I'm afraid The outcome of this wrestling is only between five and five."

This is not good news anyway, a close person like Feng Jin certainly knows the emperor's determination best.Qin Niangzi's brows darkened involuntarily: In order to stabilize the court situation, I am afraid that the Nanyang march and the integration of land and land cannot go hand in hand at the same time. Since the emperor's attitude is so obvious, I am afraid that the old man's position in the cabinet will not be stable.When the Yang family went down, she and Liu Niangzi were most affected.

"Although Jiao Ge knows the general situation, he has always insisted on refusing to second the Nanyang march for the sake of national power. But the old man cannot understand the key points. Therefore, I am not optimistic about how much effect today's discussion will have. Yes. It is very likely that Mr. Jiao Ge won't be able to hold on for long, and he will let go after all... At that time, I am afraid that my cousin-in-law will go on a long journey again." Feng Jin lowered his eyes and looked at Qin Niangzi intently. "I heard from Shanjiu that, Shanheng, you married into Xu's family out of your own will. I'm afraid that because of your background, your natal family keeps a secret, and your cousin-in-law is not around. Life in your husband's family is very difficult... I want to ask What Shan Heng means is that if you get along well with your cousin-in-law, we will have some means to keep him in Beijing after all."

A warm current surged in Qin Niangzi's heart.

Feng Jin only told her once that he would protect her for the rest of her life. Although she was moved when she heard this, she let it go. She never expected that she could really get protection from anyone.

But he really took these words to heart, and when he encountered an opportunity, he sincerely offered his help.

"Then thank you cousin first." She didn't put on much pretense, and frankly admitted her need for Xu Fengjia. "My son is in Beijing, and my heart is always more secure."

"That's good." Feng Jin also seemed to be relieved, and a slight smile appeared on his jade-like face. "When I heard about Shan Heng's marriage, I was a little worried that you would come in as a continuation, and there might be a gap between you and your cousin-in-law. Now that the relationship is strong, it is of course the best."

From his reassuring tone, one could tell that Feng Jin was really happy for Seventh Lady.

Seventh Lady couldn't help sighing.

Halfway through her breath, she covered her mouth again, as if her breath had revealed some privacy.After a pause, he looked at Feng Jin with trepidation.

Under the warm sun of early spring, there seemed to be a slight halo on his face, which made people dare not look at him directly.But there was still a slight sourness in the smile on the corner of his lips.It seems that Qin Niangzi's happiness reminded Feng Jin of her regret.After a while, he seemed to realize the message in Qiniangzi's long sigh, and his joy dimmed.

"Cousin..." She hastened to strike first, "Isn't that man treating you well now?"

Feng Jin was stunned for a moment.

After a long time, he didn't turn his eyes away, and shook his head gently. "He treated me well."

Feng Jin said this sentence very lightly, and the words were even a little vague, but the turbulent loneliness in the words was almost gushing out.

Seventh Lady fell silent, staring at the delicate green brick floor of the corridor, waiting for Feng Jin's next words: Every relationship has its shortcomings, but Seventh Lady can tell many people about her problems with Xu Fengjia, However, Feng Jin's deep affection may only be confided to her.

Feng Jin was silent for a long time, so long that Qin Niangzi thought that he would no longer be able to answer this question, so he bent down and held up a thousand-mile incense that was about to be released.

"Shanheng and Shizi get along well." He didn't go on to talk about his own problems, but asked about Qin Niangzi. "But in your heart, how much affection and how much do you have for the son, is it a last resort?"

Seventh Lady couldn't answer.

Feng Jin glanced at her, smiled sympathetically, and patted Qiniangzi on the shoulder.

Wu Niangzi is really not wrong in love, she is an infatuated person, and she fell in love with, but she is also an infatuated person.

In this life, Seventh Lady actually only met two or three people who would involve love in marriage.When the rest of the people talk about important marriages, they always mention the right family, the backer, the relatives, the sister-in-law, the parents-in-law... But no one has ever asked whether one party in the marriage loves the other. party.And it wasn't until this moment when Feng Jin asked, that she seemed to be sure: Even in Daqin, there were always people who cared about love in marriage.

I heard Feng Jin ask again, "You don't want your son to go to Nanyang, is it because you can't bear him, or is it better for him to stay?"

Seventh Lady still couldn't answer.

If there is no Qiqiao... No, she should be more grateful to Qiqiao, Qiqiao proved that her deepest fear is not without purpose, and also proves that her resistance is not without meaning.She didn't underestimate Xu Fengjia, she shouldn't be emotionally invested in this marriage.

Feng Jin didn't chase after Seventh Lady to ask questions.

In his expression, there was an indelible regret. "In this world, each of us may bow our head sometimes. I am willing to bow my head in many things, but if it is not my intention... Shanheng don't laugh at me. If the one I like can't be with me all the time, I would rather lack .Since I think so, sometimes it is inevitable to be lonely, but I am somewhat happy with this loneliness."

At this moment, that lonely young man seemed to reveal a little bit of remnant behind this gentle young man again. Qin Niangzi looked at Feng Jin in a daze, and for the first time raised a wave of respect for her cousin: even in modern times , there are also many men who talk about sex with their bodies and love with their hearts. A man like Feng Jin who strives to achieve unity of body and mind is worthy of admiration no matter what era he is in.

However, countless words flashed through his mind: Feng Jinjie is self-sufficient, it cannot be said that it is not a good thing, but one day, the Feng family will need an heir.Even if he doesn't need it, Mrs. Feng and Feng Ling will also need it...

The next moment, she began to loathe her vulgarity again. Why did she only think about the ugly reality before such a pure and beautiful relationship?
Because reality cannot be changed after all.

She shook her head and said hoarsely, "But many times, we don't have a choice."

She thought of Jiu Yiniang, Wu Niangzi, Liu Niangzi, and even Grandma Min, Mrs. Eldest Young Lady, Feng Ling... They were either desperate in love, or rationally rejected the influence of love, Either voluntarily gave up the possibility of love, or made a compromise between love and the world.However, they were not very happy either.

And what about herself?
Does she still have the courage to make her own choice?Can she be like Feng Jin, who is only satisfied with "there is a person who treats me very well, and I treat him very well", and would rather let loneliness be with her all the time, and would rather be short than excessive?Or will Feng Jin have to compromise with reality one day, let the chastity he guarded for love be dusted, and produce an heir for the family?
After all, the power of reality is always the strongest.Even if she changed Xu Fengjia and forced him to be single-minded, would she still have to give in to reality one day in the future?
Qin Niangzi suddenly felt a little regretful, or the meeting with Eunuch Lian had messed her up, Feng Jin's few words simply made her heart twitch.

She took a deep breath, straightened her back again, got up slowly, followed Feng Jin's gaze, and looked at the budding Qianlixiang together.

With a little force, Feng Jin plucked the bright white flower and inserted it at the temple for Seventh Lady.

"There are flowers that are worthy of being folded." He looked at Qin Niangzi, and smiled slightly, the smile was full of warmth. "When I saw Shan Heng this time, I always felt that you were very unhappy in your heart. I don't know what's on your mind, but I think you don't want to tell me."

Seventh Lady couldn't help touching her cheeks before listening to Feng Jin continue. "It's just that life is short, no matter how much pain you feel in your heart, don't forget that there are countless buds on the branches beside you, which have withstood the wind, frost and rain, just waiting to bloom. For the fragrance of the moment of blooming, grow again and again The long wait and loneliness are finally worth it.”

This sentence seems to be comforting Seventh Lady, but also seems to be self-consolation.

And even though Qin Niangzi herself has become a mess, she has to admit that this moment is really Feng Jin's most beautiful moment.

At this moment, he is joyful, because he is in full bloom, and the joy in full bloom seems to have outweighed the downfall of the first 20 years of his life, and the infamy destined to be passed on behind him.

Feng Jin sighed again, smiled happily, and greeted Seventh Lady, "Go out from here, and it will be your cousin's boudoir."

Even though the conversation was over and there was no intense emotion, Feng Jin only said a few simple words to express his feelings.In the eyes of any Daqin person, this deed may be extremely nasty, extremely frivolous, and extremely irresponsible, but Qin Niangzi still feels that her whole life has been shaken by these words.

If even Feng Jin dared to eat pufferfish desperately, why is she always so restrained, whether she loves or hates?
Although she tried her best to cover it up, Qin Niangzi still fell into a trance after getting on the carriage for the return journey.

Her gaze shifted to Xu Fengjia from time to time.

If she could choose, Qin Niangzi was sure that she would never choose Xu Fengjia as the object of her love.Even she didn't know why she had indistinguishable fondness for Xu Fengjia.In front of him, she couldn't keep her mask off.

Although she behaved appropriately, she couldn't control her heart after all.

Xu Fengjia also seemed to have something on her mind, she kept her brows deep in thought along the way, and her heroic face was covered with deep frustration.

Seventh Lady endured it again and again, but she still couldn't hold it back: She shouldn't care about him, but she cared about him after all.

"The conversation with Uncle Lian Shi didn't go well?" She asked Xu Fengjia softly. "The emperor's side..."

Xu Fengjia shook his head.

He raised his eyes, his eyes were too thick to melt, and he looked directly at Qin Niangzi.

"I saw you talking with Feng Zixiu."

Xu Fengjia's words were full of despondency.

(End of this chapter)