A twin baby

Chapter 618 Careful Thoughts

"You've lost a lot of weight."

The two looked at each other in silence for a long time, and Xia Qingou was the first to break the silence.

His heart was astringent and painful.

Zhou Mi, who was once so beautiful, has lost a lot of weight now.

He couldn't imagine what Zhou Mi had gone through to become so thin. He could see that Zhou Mi's eyes were not as bright as before, and he seemed to be much weaker.

"If you know my situation, then you know that being thin is not a big deal for me. I need to get rid of my dependence on that drug. As long as I can succeed, I will always make up for it after eating."

After Zhou Mi finished speaking optimistically, she seemed to be in a good mood.

It turned out that after she really saw Xia Qingou, all those repressed misses came out instead, and she actually really missed this person.

"I will cure your secret, don't worry, you will leave that place, and then go shopping and travel like a normal person, you can play everywhere, you will never be coerced by others in the future, and you will never rely on these things again thing."

"Miss Tang told me, you are busy in the laboratory every day for my affairs, will it be very hard? In fact, I have always been sorry for you, and I have always insisted on going my own way. You don't have to do this."

Zhou Mi said this in a low voice, and Xia Qingou quickly spoke.

"I don't blame you for deceiving me at the beginning. Everyone has their own difficulties, but I don't care about the deception between the two of us. I just hope that your health will recover soon. You didn't feel sorry for me. It was me Not strong enough to make you unable to rely on me, so you can only deal with the problems you face in your own way, I am not tired at all, every day is very fulfilling, just like in the laboratory before, go to work during the day to do what you like You know, I don’t like entertainment at all. I used to read books at home even if I didn’t work so much in the laboratory. I just don’t have any entertainment time now, but I didn't hurt my body, you mustn't think that I can't take care of myself."

Zhou Mi suddenly felt uncomfortable, which made her lower her head. She felt that her eyes were a little sour, as if they were filled with tears, but she didn't want to expose her fragile expression in front of Xia Qingou.

"Actually, I often think about one thing. If I hadn't chosen you in the first place, wouldn't it have caused you so much trouble, and even brought you harm."

Zhou Mi lowered his head and spoke slowly.

"My growing environment is different from yours. I was an orphan when I was young. I grew up in the jungle of the jungle. Maybe I wasn't kind at all. You were unlucky to meet me. If you hadn't met Lord Qin back then, Maybe my life will become very bad and miserable, but he saved me and raised me. At that time, he was the best person to me, so I loyal to him to repay him, and did a lot of unbearable things for him. Never regretted it."

"Even if I was coerced later and forced to make excuses with Eric, I didn't regret choosing you at that time, but now I regret that I chose you as the target at the beginning. The more I see that you are kind to me, the more It’s because I see that you don’t care about the original things. In fact, I will be very uncomfortable. I don’t know what I’m struggling with, what’s hypocritical, but I just don’t know, how can I make up for the deception and harm I did to you at the beginning, even if you didn’t I don't mind."

This was Zhou Mi's inner voice, and it was also what she decided to say after thinking about it for a long time.

She wanted to clearly tell the person in front of her what was in her heart, and she wanted Xia Qingou to see clearly what kind of person she was.

"In your life, sometimes you will encounter a bad thing, but that doesn't mean it will ruin your life."

"I read a story before. There was a man who studied hard for 10 years in the imperial examination, and the family conditions were very difficult. He was in the process of taking the exam in Beijing, and suddenly encountered a mountain torrent, which blocked him on that road. He can no longer go to Beijing, and a poor man like him managed to raise dozens of taels of silver to go to Beijing to take the exam, but his 10-year hard work was ruined by this mountain torrent."

"That young man worked hard for a long time, but he still couldn't pass this road, and he couldn't find another road. He didn't return home until he heard the news in the capital that the exam was over. Then he started to be an apprentice, copying books, teaching teachers, and trying to pay off his debts, but half a year later, he heard the news that the people from his hometown had set off a while earlier than him, so they were not blocked by that mountain torrent. They passed that road early, but they didn't go to Beijing for the exam, because after they walked for a while, the village ahead had a plague, they were infected, and died in a foreign country not long after."

"The young man who had been complaining about himself suddenly realized that the pain he encountered at the beginning was just losing the imperial examination. I got an ideal ranking, I said this story is not boring?"

Zhou Mi didn't speak, Xia Qingou continued to speak.

"Mimi, your appearance was very sudden to me. You deceived me and hurt me. Our beginning was not good. It was mixed with many deceptions. This love was not perfect from the beginning, but you Do you know what one of my happiest things is?"

"I'm very happy, I got that chance to be deceived by you, because of this reason I met the love of my life, if you didn't choose to deceive me, maybe I will continue to concentrate on doing experiments in the laboratory for the rest of my life, until the day I die , I will leave alone, I never expect my life to be smooth sailing. I am afraid that I will never find the one I love in my whole life, and I will never know what it feels like to love someone.”

"But if you don't meet me, you may meet someone better, you may have a more perfect relationship, you may have someone you like happily with you, and then get married and have children, maybe because of me The appearance of her, on the contrary, ruined your happy marriage that might have appeared in the first place."

This time Zhou Mi raised his head and said this passage.

She always felt that her appearance brought disaster and pain to Xia Qingou.

Maybe without her, Xia Qingou's life would be happier.

"If there is regret medicine in this world or if it is possible, I hope that I will go to the orphanage to find you when I was very young, and then protect you. If I can make a choice, I will hurry up before I meet you." Research medicine so that you don't have to be harmed, if I can choose, I hope I can find someone to protect you when you are just born."

"You always think that I will meet better people if I do, but in fact, if I don't meet you, I may die alone. Why bother with such a problem that has never happened before? Maybe I didn't meet you, I even passed away in a car accident. Before I met you, I had never worked so hard. This time I lived a very solid and happy life. The feeling of working hard for my beloved is very fulfilling. In fact, this time , I am not uncomfortable, but feel very happy.”

This passage made Zhou Mi silent for a long time, she never expected that Xia Qingou's thoughts would be like this.

She was always worried that Xia Qingou would blame her at certain times, and blame her when he was sad. Maybe he really liked her, but her deception and hurt might make the two of them hurt each other more and more in the end.

However, Xia Qingou's thoughts were not what she guessed at all, he really didn't mind this matter anymore.

So, is she the only one who has been trapping herself in a world of tangled pain?
"Miss Tang said, you want to see me, Xia Qingou, maybe I think too much, so I can't believe it, you really don't mind what I did before, of course, I also mind that I am so miserable now Look, if you are really willing to wait for me. Wait until at least half of the treatment on my side is successful, and you can come to see me again. What am I doing, I hope I will never look unbearable and crazy in front of you, are you willing to wait for me?"

(End of this chapter)