Late at night, please give me half a cigarette

Chapter 159 Feeling Covered by a Net
I felt as if I was pushed from the top of a high mountain to the abyss under my feet, and then fell into a deep pool and continued to sink.

The feeling of being surrounded by the feeling of despair makes me feel that maybe my existence is a mistake, why should I be reincarnated as a human being, obviously the children who are born are lucky, because they are given life and can experience all kinds of things in the world. Kind of nice.

But why didn't I, I lived so long that I didn't feel much warmth, but was pushed into the abyss again and again by others.

I am a person who has been hovering in the gray area. One step forward is light, and one step back is darkness.

In the future, I may not even be able to touch the edge of gray.

Zhang Yan was still calling my name over and over again in my ear, scolding me why I had to sign, she said what if she was photographed, so what if a finger was chopped off, anyway, her life It's already like this, she doesn't care how bad it is!But she said that I am different, I should have a bright future, I have a future, I should live in the light...

I didn't say anything, turned around and hugged Zhang Yan, hugged her thin body tightly in my arms, hugged her hard, then cried and said to her, I said sister Yan , I, He Qiu, the luckiest thing in my life is to know you. I said that I will not let you suffer anymore, not to mention that this matter has nothing to do with you, and I can no longer implicate you.

Zhang Yan didn't speak, but reached out and patted my back again and again, like a gentle mother comforting her child.

"Sister Yan, tell me why I was born..." I murmured and asked, "Is it because I suffered all this? Is it because I want to see how unfair, dark and painful this world is?"

"No, no..." Zhang Yan comforted softly in my ear, "Everyone has a meaning for being human, and so do you..."

After listening to her words, the emotions I had been imprisoned for a long time finally collapsed completely at this moment. Holding Zhang Yan, I burst into tears, crying and crying, I even forgot why I was crying, but the tears just couldn’t stop , I really feel that I am so wronged, I am so tired, I really want to just close my eyes and never open them for the rest of my life, so that my world will be sober, and I will never worry about these things again.

I don't know how long I cried, but when I came to my senses, I was lying on my bed with my eyes staring at the ceiling in a daze.

I had a terrible headache, my voice was hoarse from crying, and even my memory was fragmented. I couldn't remember many things and plots. I even felt in a trance that even the fact that I signed the deed of prostitution today was all my own imagination. from.

I got out of bed, opened the bedroom door, and saw Zhang Yan sitting on the sofa, carefully looking at the contract.

Seeing that I was awake, he asked me if I wanted some water.

I sat over and said that I was fine, I had cried enough, even if I vented, I have to continue living the next day.After saying that, I took the contract from her and read it myself from beginning to end.

"I did the math just now, and with the current capabilities of the two of us, we can only repay the above interest every month." Zhang Yan said softly, "Anyway, let's pay it back first, and then we will slowly figure out a way. "

"Sister Yan, I'm dragging you down again." I looked at Zhang Yan, my eyes became moist again, and I felt like I wanted to say thank you to her, but I didn't know what to say.

"What nonsense are you talking about. Didn't you say that the two of us will depend on each other for life in the future? I help myself when I help you." Zhang Yan said, reaching out to touch my head, "There is no hurdle in this world that cannot be overcome, and there is no obstacle that cannot be overcome. The river. So if you want to open it up, don’t do anything stupid.”

"Sister Yan, are you worried that I will commit suicide?" I looked at the worry in Zhang Yan's eyes and smiled helplessly, "Don't worry, I won't."

Zhang Yan just stared at me and didn't speak. I saw that she still didn't believe me, so I sighed and said, "Sister Yan, in fact, you wouldn't believe me if I said I didn't commit suicide. I committed suicide twice, but each time The deadly knife went down and cut on the skin, the pain and the instinctive desire to survive made me give up."

"I don't think I was dead at that time. Even if the day comes when I have to die now, I have to drag a few backs, otherwise I will be lucky." I tilted my head and looked at Zhang Yan with a smile.

"Just don't do anything stupid." Zhang Yan looked at me, sighed, and said, "I've always felt that this matter is very strange, as you said, it is impossible for the credit company to borrow money without proof. Zhao Jianping has so much money, he has no house mortgage, and secondly, he has no source of income, and the guarantor signed the contract without your consent, this matter is not easy."

"You suspect that there is someone behind Zhao Jianping?" I looked at Zhang Yan and asked.

"Not sure." Zhang Yan shook her head, "Because thinking about it now, besides Zhao Jianping, it seems that you don't have any enemies!"

After hearing Zhang Yan's words, I lowered my head and thought for a while, then said uncertainly: "If you want to say that there are people who hate me, besides Zhao Jianping, there is another..."

"Who?" Zhang Yan asked.

"Wang Yuetong."

"That former classmate of yours?" Zhang Yan asked me, "Why do you think of her?"

"Before I overheard her telling Zheng Lingling that she would take revenge on me, and Zheng Lingling also came to warn me, but I didn't take it seriously." I nestled on the sofa, then looked at the contract in my hand, and said, "If all of these It's terrible that she is behind the scenes."

"Too scary?" Zhang Yan asked puzzled.

"Yeah, because Wang Yuetong's family is also in decline now, and she doesn't have this ability at all. Even if she and Zhao Jianping join forces, it is impossible for her to have this ability." Then, I turned my head to look at Zhang Yan and said, "I always feel like Being covered by a net, and now the net seems to be closing a little bit, that feeling is really terrifying..."

Zhang Yan put her arms around my shoulders and said don't be afraid, let's deal with the matter in front of me first, as for the truth, it will be solved later.

In order to make more money, I told Zhang Yan that I would like to continue to work as a wine escort, because if this job is done well, I can earn a lot of money every month, and the tips from the guests are also very high.

Zhang Yan disagreed at first, but finally took me along.She is now the deputy manager of the sales department, so she has some rights, and it is very easy to put me in, and the basic salary is specially given to me at the highest level.

"After all, I've been away from this business for several years. Are you mentally prepared?" Zhang Yan asked, looking at me in a short skirt.

"Yes." I nodded, then straightened my clothes and said to Zhang Yan with a smile.

My dress today is very pure, a student uniform with a ponytail, but the skirt is much shorter than the normal school uniform, the kind where the thighs can be exposed when I sit down.

Zhang Yan told me a few more words, saying that if there is any danger, I must remember to look for her.

At this time, the girl named Feifei came over. When she saw me, she was surprised at first, then she smiled and put her arms around me and said, "We will be colleagues in the future. I never thought you would come to do this business." Then she moved closer I, whispered to my ear and asked curiously: "What kind do you make? Are you going to release it?"

(End of this chapter)