Late at night, please give me half a cigarette

Chapter 290 Don't want to repeat the same mistakes
Zhang Yan looked at me helplessly, stretched out her hand, helped me smooth my frowning brows, and said softly: "Don't get excited, just take it as a rest for me, in fact, I've been really tired for so many years .”

"Sister Yan..." I held Zhang Yan's hand tightly, and looked at her with reluctance, "It's all my fault, I can't protect you..."

"He Qiu, you think too much." Zhang Yan smiled at me faintly, "This is my own problem, I need to solve them all by myself. I have already booked the ticket, today I will leave at night, you just think of me as a deserter who dare not face difficulties head-on, I really want to find a quiet place where there is no dispute, no public opinion, and no one knows my past to stay quietly for a while For a while."

Maybe Zhang Yan is really tired. For so many years, in my eyes, she has always been the big tree behind me that supports me unconditionally and protects me. There are many mottled scars on the tree.

In my subconscious mind, I have always thought that Zhang Yan is a strong person, a person who looks at the world coldly, but disdains how the world sees her.

But I was wrong, because no one in this world doesn't care what other people think of him.

"Sister Yan, I'll give you a vacation when you're tired. You can rest for as long as you want, and come back when you're done." I looked at Zhang Yan and said seriously.

"How can I leave with peace of mind when you're like this. If you don't have an assistant by your side, you can't handle many things by yourself." Zhang Yan said, "I'm going to go out and relax this time. When will I clear up my mood and when will I come back? So I now formally offer you my resignation."

As Zhang Yan said, she turned around and picked up an envelope from the table, and handed it to me.

"Where are you going, Zhang Yan? I'll book tickets now." Xue Tao, who was standing by, said anxiously seeing that I couldn't keep Zhang Yan anymore.

"Xue Tao..." Zhang Yan came back to her senses, faced Xue Tao, looked at his face, and said seriously: "Let me think about the matter between us first. Before I think it through, we'd better Do not meet."

"Zhang Yan, you have to believe me, I really have nothing to do with Tian Yulu!" Seeing what Zhang Yan said, Xue Tao stepped forward impatiently, grabbed Zhang Yan's hand, and hurriedly explained: "Now she treats me like this!" It’s nothing to say, the person I’m thinking about is you, you should be clear about that!”

"I know." Zhang Yan looked at Xue Tao and said lightly, "I believe in you. If you really have something with her, you don't have to worry about me. You have been with her a long time ago, right? But, what's wrong now It's me, I don't know if I still have the courage to continue loving, now because of me, the public opinion on the Internet has already started to attack you, I don't want to see this happen, although I don't know what I do What’s wrong with being so spurned and disgusted by them. So give me some time and space, I want to find a place to organize my thoughts.”

I looked at Zhang Yan at this time, the expression on her face was trying to smile, but it made people feel sad.

After hearing Zhang Yan's words, Xue Tao wanted to say something, but I quickly interrupted, I held Zhang Yan's hand tightly, and said to her: "Sister Yan, I have accepted your resignation letter, and I promise you If I resign, I will find another assistant to help take care of my life, so you don’t have to worry about the future, you can go wherever you want to relax, but remember to keep in touch, otherwise I will worry about you.”

Xue Tao also saw that I didn't want him to talk anymore, so he held back and didn't say any more.

Because of Zhang Yan's flight at night, I asked her to go home and pack her luggage.

Seeing Zhang Yan leave, Xue Tao hurriedly asked me why I stopped him from keeping Zhang Yan.

I looked at Xue Tao, then at the resignation letter in my hand, sighed deeply, and said, "Xue Tao, you know that I have suffered from depression, right?"

"I know." Xue Tao looked at me suspiciously and said, he may not quite understand why I mentioned my past illness when it comes to Zhang Yan.

"I was just in the entertainment industry at that time, I didn't know anything, and I didn't have enough mental preparation and ability to withstand pressure, so when I faced all kinds of sudden pressure, suspicion, abuse and insults, my whole body All collapsed, I really wanted to die at that time, I felt that my whole world collapsed, if Zhang Yan didn't pull me, I might have died a long time ago."

"So the feeling of despair and helplessness, feeling that no one in the world can understand me, I understand better than anyone else." At this point, I paused, looked at Xue Tao seriously, and said, "Just now, I have For a moment, I felt that Zhang Yan’s emotions seemed to be very similar to mine at that time. Maybe she realized it herself, so she was able to control her emotions as much as possible, and try to keep herself away from right and wrong, so as to resolve the backlog on her. pressure."

"You mean, Zhang Yan is now... Then I should be by her side." After hearing my explanation, Xue Tao seemed to have realized the seriousness of the matter, and hurriedly said to me.

"Since she chooses to tidy up alone, let's not bother her." I sighed, and said helplessly: "This matter itself may not be a big deal, isn't love free? Her past experience So what about all kinds of ups and downs, Zhang Yan didn't hurt others, she just wants to find a man who loves herself and can rely on herself. What do you think?"

"A lot of talk makes money, and accumulation destroys bones, so don't underestimate the power of public opinion." Xue Tao smiled helplessly, "After hearing what you said, I seem to understand Zhang Yan's thoughts, since she wants to be alone Jing, then I won't bother her."

I nodded in agreement.I also hope that Zhang Yan can adjust her mentality as soon as possible.

After understanding Zhang Yan's thoughts, I suddenly thought of what Ye Yaoyu said to me just now. I seemed to understand his intentions, but why did he always pretend to be indifferent, and he couldn't say good things well, even though he had good intentions? I have to say those things that excite me and hate me!

Logically speaking, if I understood the truth of the matter, I should apologize to Ye Yaoyu, but when I thought of his superior and tough attitude towards me just now, I felt uncomfortable.

So I hesitated and didn't go.

Zhang Yan was on an evening flight, and Xue Tao decided to see her off, so I was the only one left in the lounge.While scrolling through the news of various websites, while paying attention to the comments of netizens, the time passed without knowing it.

It wasn't until someone knocked on my lounge door that I realized it was getting dark outside.

I hurriedly got up to open the door, but was stunned the moment I opened it.

Ye Yaoyu stood at the door with a serious face, looked at me standing inside the door, and asked coldly: "Why don't you go back so late."

As he spoke, he raised his eyes to look inside the door and asked, "Only you? Where's Xue Tao?"

"Send Zhang Yan off..." I looked at Ye Yaoyu and murmured.

Ye Yaoyu withdrew his gaze, landed on me again, thought for a while and said, "Let's go, I'll take you back."

(End of this chapter)