The struggle of the eight blessings of rebirth

Chapter 132 What Is Missing?
Minzhi was stunned by his tone, and even forgot to cry: "I, I didn't, I didn't let them find someone, I didn't..." Yinhu turned her back and didn't look at her at all, Minzhi panicked, even Forgot that he should be the most angry, angry at him for letting Muren do nothing.

"I, I drew his portrait. I think he resembles Muren. I just want to know who this person is, so... that's why I asked... Yintang and the others searched for this person, and I didn't know anything about it. I thought he wanted to take Muren back and sell him... how could he want to find this person? I wish he would leave soon!" Minzhi herself didn't know why she explained, and what she was explaining, it was just her intuition Talking haphazardly.

Until Yinhu interrupted her: "Shut up! I... don't want to listen to you now. You are sick. I will ask Huang Ama for leave for the eighth princess's wedding!" Zhi only felt a wave of fear rising deep in her soul, she stared blankly at Yinhu leaving with a flick of her sleeves, opened her mouth, but said nothing.

Both Qiu Ju and Tara Sister were guarding outside, and Yinhu ordered Fujin to stay alone, and no one could go in and disturb him.The two looked at each other, they were fine this morning, and the lord ordered Fujin to wake up half an hour later, why did they change their minds in the afternoon?The two looked inside worriedly, but they didn't dare to come in and take a look.

Minzhi sat alone at the table in the outer room, lying on the table, her eyes wide open in a daze, her mind went blank, she wanted to cry, but after Yinhu left, she couldn't even cry up.Isn't it very wronged?Aren't you worried?Aren't you very angry?Why can't I speak or cry?

Depressedly lying in front of the table, Yinhu's words suddenly exploded in his mind like thunder: "Is your mind full of grass?" "You let me down!" "You are sick, I will give Huang Ama asked for leave." Minzhi only felt her hands and feet were cold, and her eyes were dark, she remembered that after Yinreng took Yinhu hostage, Kangxi also said to her: "Yinreng is sick." Earlier, Yinxiang was also "ill." "Pass.Now, she is also "sick"?
Being sick means that she will be guarded, put under house arrest, refrigerated, and even "dead from illness." Minzhi stood up tremblingly, moved a few steps, and sat down again. She concealed the fact that Muren looks like Galdan from everyone, because when she knew about it, the seriousness of the matter made her dare not speak casually.

Why didn't Yinhu and Yin'e tell Yinhu that Ge Erdan Ince had appeared in the capital? How could she know? In short, the result is that except for Yinhu, the whole world knows that Muren has a problem with his appearance.God!How did things turn out like this!Minzhi was a little out of breath: Yinhu said just now that she asked Yintang Yin'er to find a strange man all over the world, but she kept it from him.

Minzhi felt like a dark cloud was covering the top, how could she forget that the one she had offended again and again was the emperor, the emperor wanted to give you small shoes to wear, even if you could walk lightly, you would still be caught by him , It's over, I'm back in the strange circle of history, and I'm disgusted by both Kangxi and Yinzhen at the same time, how do I know that Kangxi knows everything that happened on the street like the palm of his hand?How do I know that Nine and Ten didn't tell you that Geldan Inze was there?How can you blame me!
This kind of thought was fleeting in Minzhi's mind, and the next second, the words "You let me down so much" echoed in her mind over and over again like an answering machine being pressed the replay button.Minzhi covered her ears and shook her head desperately, trying to drive the voice out of her mind, but the voice kept lingering in her ears, and every sentence was a cold accusation, squeezing out all the original complaints in her mind.

Of course she knows what Yinhu cares about. If she still has resentment until now, she is completely deceiving herself. When she steps into the main hall and sees Yinhu and Muren kneeling, and Kangxi's face sinking like water, she will know something bad is going on. Apart from protecting Muren, she had no other thoughts in her mind for a moment. She knew that it was impossible to change Kangxi's decision by herself, but the child in front of her was Muren, how could she calm down?
Covering her face in pain, Minzhi felt that her outlook on life and values ​​had completely collapsed. As a result, she was still incompatible with this world. She had obeyed, surrendered, and lived according to the rules of this world, but her original heart, her Consciousness is still the lonely, idyllic Li Minzhi in the modern society 300 years later, who is difficult to integrate into the family and the collective.

She was once loved and tolerated, but there are so many negative scales on her body, no matter how much love and tolerance there is, there is a bottom line. The adoptive parents did not take her with them, is it because she still cannot fully identify with and integrate into their love? world?In her 25-year-old life, her id has been lonely, and she even regards this loneliness as a companion, persisting and guarding, and everything from the outside world has never really entered her inner world.

She is extremely persistent to certain people and things, does she also have the desire to control and possess?Minzhi had a splitting headache, this was the first time she faced a crisis, no matter how much Yinhu ignored her before, no matter how much Kangxi frightened her, compared with this time, it was nothing.

She really didn't want to admit it, but she couldn't deny it. Yinhu was angry because she did something wrong, although it was wrong and she felt wronged.

Minzhi kept thinking wildly in the tent until Qiu Ju came in and brought her some snacks. She opened her walnut eyes: "Qiu Ju..." Qiu Ju just said respectfully and gently, "My lord said that you are not feeling well. Eat some light food, so I specially ordered the kitchen to turn on the stove and cook porridge, and I told you to rest early when you run out! "

Minzhi was a little dazed: "Has the princess's wedding already started?" Qiu Ju stood with her hands down, "It's been more than an hour since I returned to Fujin, and I'm afraid the banquet will be on by now." Minzhi looked at the table floating Congee with chopped green onion and egg shreds, but did not move the chopsticks.Seeing her, Qiu Ju sighed: "Fu Jin doesn't need to worry about the master, the master will never lose his sense of proportion."

Minzhi was startled: "Never..." At this moment, Qiu Ju bowed and retreated outside the door.Qiu Ju used to be Yinhu's maidservant, but she never heard her talk about Yinhu. Minzhi always thought that she was a well-trained waiter, silent, obedient, and very active.

But what did she say just now?The master never lost his sense of proportion?Yinhu never loses control in front of outsiders. She has learned this a long time ago. Even if the steel wire is hung around her neck, people are already trembling with nervousness. When he comes back, he can calmly say: Second brother won't really hurt me.Such a person... Minzhi clasped his hands tightly, he always needed to express himself, and he was foolish enough to think that he was expressing something in front of him.

A self-deprecating smile floated up: What is clear about the law of female conservation? It's completely nonsense. Can one person change the world?Can one person fight against thousands of troops?Can one person challenge the imperial power?A person can't do anything, and can't do anything well.

Minzhi picked up the chopsticks and poked the porridge in front of him. He was still in the mood to care if he was hungry?On the Mongolian grasslands, can such a bowl of millet porridge be made?Also chopped green onion and shredded egg?Minzhi put the chopsticks into his mouth, the glutinous rice grains and the salty taste showed that the bowl of porridge was just right, he smiled wryly, yes, he never lost his sense of proportion, even when he was so angry that he waved his sleeves But when she went, she would carefully prepare a bowl of porridge for her.

He ate in small bites, but his stomach seemed to refuse to accept everything. It was obviously empty, and the porridge was obviously not bad, but Minzhi felt that every bite was very difficult.Are you at the princess's banquet now, are you flirting with princes and ministers?Only you can do it, the face that was still covered with clouds just now, as long as you go outside, the sky will be clear in an instant.

Yinhu's light smile flashed in front of Minzhi's eyes, no one could see clearly whether there was sadness or joy under this smile, and neither could she.Some dejectedly put down their chopsticks, stood up and walked towards the inner room.Standing in front of the mirror and looking at his own face, he was pale and bloodless, with swollen walnut eyes.

Li Minzhi, haven't you already accepted the identity of Guo Luo and Luo Caixuan?Why is it still so painful now?You are no longer Li Minzhi, you are Guo Luoluo Caixuan, if this continues, you will become schizophrenic.He, what they want is nothing but a woman who is completely dependent, like a dodder flower.And you, didn't you accept it long ago?A woman like that can do no wrong!
She patted her cheek vigorously, and removed all the hairpins and rings. Qiu Ju would not come in to help tonight, and she also decided early in the morning that she was wrong, it must be her Fujin, as early as when she first met Muren, she She was once dissuaded, and she was not allowed to get close to this child. She insisted on going her own way. She overestimated herself, and she simply did not have the ability to do anything independently.If there is no Yinhu brand, there is no his acquiescence.She will only be stripped of her muscles and bones like Dong Eshi, living without herself at all.

Thinking of the word "self", Minzhi almost wanted to laugh up to the sky, since when did the feudal heroine have a self?She asked Hanyin why the four virtues?But she forgot to ask herself, has she married her husband?No, never.Minzhi suddenly felt that there was a hand pinching her neck, making her breathless. She taught her children well, and she didn't even teach them how to write the word "Yinhu" until now, because she remembered that the ancients had to avoid taboos, especially It is the son who must be cautious to the father.

The ridiculous thing is that she never only remembered the form but forgot the real meaning behind the form.They are all people of this era, can't they see that her behavior is only superficial?Unable to awe the imperial power from the bottom of her heart and rely on her husband, there are only a handful of people she treats sincerely, even if she is a good concubine, ask yourself, do you really treat her like a daughter-in-law is filial and respectful to a mother-in-law?
No, no, I just sympathized with her and didn't respect her. It's just Concubine Liang's temperament that made her not care about these respects at all. If it were someone else, I'm afraid I would still be the one who did the wrong thing!
(End of this chapter)