The struggle of the eight blessings of rebirth

Chapter 352 The Extra Story of Hongzhe ([-])
I am Hongzhe, Wang Hongzhe of Duoluoling County. In the posthumous posthumous law, I am called Ling after not working hard. Huang Ama really knows his son very well.Isn't it just that I don't work hard to become famous?When Huang Ama gave me this title, she was already disappointed in me.

I'm also disappointed in myself, because I've been doing wrong things all my life, and I've never done a single thing right since I was a kid.I was mischievous when I was young, and every time my father noticed, I would grab my brother and let my father only punish my brother and forget about me. My brother was very good to me and never annoyed me for taking the blame for me. He should take the blame for his younger brother.

However, I am still unscrupulous. I hate that when I was young and didn't understand anything, I fell into Huang Mafa's eyes and became an experience I regret in my life.Huang Mafa doted on me, saying that I was cute and smart, quite like my father when he was a child, and used to show off my cuteness for rewards.If there is anything delicious and fun, just give it to me alone.

I used to be very proud, and I used it to show off to my brother, saying, look, Huang Ma likes me, but doesn't like you. My brother always looks at me enviously, but never jealous. He said that because he is a brother, my brother should Be good to my brother, because here, there are only two of us.

Soon, I understood what he meant, but unfortunately, it was too late to understand.We left our parents, we left our brothers, and even my mother almost died when she gave birth to my third brother, I don't know.If I hadn't been so fond of present, we might not have fallen to where we are today, I've always thought so.

However, it was too late. I was brought by Huang Mafa, and I was almost inseparable. My brother could only follow behind silently. Sometimes I didn't even have the chance to follow, so I could only stay in the Hall of Mental Cultivation alone.Does Huang Mafa really like me?I have been confused.I always remember my brother's words: "Here, there are only two of us." Therefore, I don't object to Huang Amado doting on me more, so that I can get more benefits for my brother.

In the end, I was wrong again. Everyone had only me in their eyes and no brother.The first time I heard rumors about the grandson of the emperor was a few days after Huang Mafa took me to see my second uncle.I can feel that the palace people look at me differently, nervous, respectful, and alienated.I eavesdropped on them saying: "From now on, His Royal Highness needs to be extra careful about his basic necessities of life, and he can no longer be as casual as he is with His Royal Highness."

I know that the His Highness and Second Highness they are talking about are me and my brother.That's what they call us in private.I was a hindsight, and only then did I realize that the second uncle in Xian'an Palace, didn't they also call him the Second Highness?Second Highness needs special treatment?Can you do whatever you want with your brother?

I ran to my brother's room, and my brother was reading a book. I never noticed it. The furnishings in my brother's room were so simple and monotonous. My brother only used a candle to read. Real Madrid can't say that reading like this will hurt your eyes.The clothes on my brother's body are not as good as those on my own.God what did I do?The elder brother is the eldest son of Ama Erniang. Huang Mafa has always said that the elders and children are orderly. He is the eldest son, but because of himself, Huang Mafa has forgotten him.

My brother said that there are only two of us here, but I forgot, leaving you alone, I was wrong.

But I knew my mistake but did not correct it. During that time, rumors about the emperor's grandson were rampant, but I felt that mere rumors would not affect the relationship between our brothers at all, and we still lived heartlessly under the huge halo.Until my brother left me and returned to my mother.As a result, those rumors intensified, saying that Huang Mafa had decided that I was the heir, so he no longer needed my brother to accompany him, so he was sent back.

From then on, I was the only one in the Hall of Mental Cultivation, and I began to realize that I drove my brother away, and all the reasons I enjoyed belonged to my brother.However, such a situation is beyond my control as a teenager.

What kind of grandson of the emperor, he is simply a pet that Huang Mafa keeps in his spare time, just like the parrot in front of Mama's hall.But those people who have no common sense think that I have taken advantage of it.Don't they all have brains?The elder brother Di Ama's eldest son is also the son of the legitimate son. Since ancient times, if the eldest son is established and the eldest son is established, if the elder is abandoned and the younger is established, he will be punished by heaven.

What's more, at that time, my father hadn't shown any signs of aspiring to be supreme, brother Hongxi already disliked me.Of course, I didn't realize that such rumors would actually hurt me.

Later, Huang Mafa got a new plaything, and I was sent back home. Ama Erniang and my elder brother were still as good to me, and my third brother.I worry that the gossip will alienate them, like the ladies-in-waiting.However, nothing happened.The third brother is weak, Eniang's whole heart is on him, and so is Ama.I found that my brother is still living in a corner that others turn a blind eye to.

I watched sadly as he ate alone, studied alone, and stood under the window alone.I remember him saying that there are only two of us left here.But when did I leave him alone?

I'm back, my brother said it's fine, Er Niang has always missed me the most, as long as I come back, Er Niang will be really happy.Er Niang will not be partial, I think so, in this family, Er Niang treats both of us the same except that she is very kind to her younger brother.

My brother and I went to say hello to Er Niang. When Er Niang asked questions, I would subconsciously ask my brother to answer.I know that he, like me, loves my mother the most.But Er Niang always looked at me sadly, as if I was getting farther and farther away from her.I want to say to her several times, no, I am here, I will never leave again, I will never make you sad again, so don’t keep looking at me like this, please look at my brother once in a while, he is right here By his side, I have no intention of stealing his limelight at all!

However, the matter did not end because I was sent home. Huang Mafa would still call me and my brother to my side every now and then, and my brother was still regarded as my accessory.Huang Mafa didn't even look at him.Every time I saw him turning away as if he didn't care, I felt very uncomfortable in my heart. I didn't think so at all.

Er Niang felt that I had changed, became indifferent, became stubborn and difficult to communicate with.When I made her sad, my heart was also bleeding. Why can't I make everyone happy? I'm afraid that my brother will become a transparent person because of my existence, but no matter what I do, there will always be someone who will be sad. And those are the people I can't afford to hurt.

I failed to be a son and made my mother sad, although my mother will always forgive me, look at me with such sad eyes, and say in the same sad and helpless tone, as long as you feel that this is the life you want, you can follow it. Live like that.I hate myself to hear that, but I can't stop my fear of where I live.

After Huang Ama came to the throne, my eldest brother and I were also named Baylor to leave the palace and build a mansion.Since then, I have been living in fear. Occasionally when I go out, I will hear someone saying: "This is the emperor's favorite grandson. The emperor raised him for more than ten years! Yes, I believe In comparison, Big Baylor is much worse, although the two brothers grew up together, everyone knows that Big Baylor is just a foil."

"Yes, yes, when the Holy Majesty was the prince, it was a good fortune. His sons came one after another, and all of them were smart and wise. Although the third elder brother's health is poor, he was born in the royal family. What do you want? This disease comes and goes. , maybe it will be well raised."

"That is to say, there are five sons of the emperor, and the choice is very rich! The most important thing about establishing a son and growing up is ability. Like the first emperor's son, it is because he is the only one who has no ability in the end. He was still kicked out of power, and now he has the current emperor. But in the Dezhao Dynasty, the situation has changed! Among the five princes, which one is not the dragon and phoenix among the people? Which one has never been touched by the dragon spirit of the previous emperor? In comparison , Big Baylor really has no chance of winning!"

"Hey, now, the ministers in the court are going to squeeze their heads again! They are all sons, Erbeile is obviously better, how good this is!"

"I hope there will be peace and nothing will happen. Big Baylor can take the initiative to let the virtuous. In the past, it was called the second dragon to grab the pearl. We ordinary people are not the ones who suffer?"

"Yeah, yeah, we think about the wiseness and martial arts of the sage, but it's hard to leave this matter in anyone's house! Both of them are biological sons, and they are also siblings of the same mother. How do you think this happened! Hey , Oh Amitabha, I hope you are safe and well!"

Such rumors are refurbished almost every day, and they linger in my ears every day, and I can't hide or escape.This torture almost broke me.

I believe that Huang Ama, Huang Erniang and her elder brother are aware of the existence of such rumors.Why do they look at me the same way as before?Is it true that, as the rumors say, I will be the one who takes everything?No, that's not the case.I will never touch anything that belongs to my brother, it belongs to my brother.My brother is better than me in everything, he is Huang Ama's qualified successor.

Calm and wise, the key is that he has a heart like Huang Ama who can keep smiling no matter what happens.I can't, I'm afraid of being lost, afraid of being lonely, more afraid of being noticed, afraid of being hurt, and even more afraid of hurting others.

I have already let Queen Mother down, I can no longer be a stumbling block to my brother, in this way, I will hate myself even more!I can only choose to escape endlessly, leave the capital, and stay away from the gossips that surround me like poisonous snakes.

However, what I did hurt the hearts of Ama and Erniang deeply. I am still that self-righteous child who can't do well at all times, and acts recklessly, constantly hurting those who love me.Huang Mama left, and my brother said that the last thing she said was my name when she left, but I didn't hear it.

Huang Erniang left, and Huang Ama said that the reason why the coffin was always in Fengxian Temple was because she was waiting for me, and when I came back, I confessed my mistake to her, and when I came back, I said that I would never go away again.Huang Ama said, can you promise her?Will you grant your mother's almost humble request?Do you know that every time you come to bid farewell, your empress mother has to stand at the gate of the palace until she can't see your back before turning around?Did you know that all her white hair was born for you? "

I know, I'm sorry for my mother, I'm sorry for Ama, I'm sorry for my brother, I'm sorry for Mama Huang, my life is a complete failure and a mess, I don't know what else I can do.I don't know what I can do to repay them. They love me so much and pamper me, but I do everything wrong.

(End of this chapter)