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Chapter 257 Own Way (Re-interview)
Regarding the issue of pain, there are many conclusions, such as long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, long and short pain have their own methods, etc., each of which is a kind of truth, there is no right or wrong.It just depends on how people choose.

The entangled Su Lei thought for a long time in his heart, and finally made a decision, long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, he said.

"Dad, Mom, actually, I want to go my own way, I want to be a singer." Su Lei raised his head, took a deep breath and said.

As soon as the words were said, there was a thunderbolt from the blue sky, time seemed to stand still at this moment, and the expressions on the faces of Su's father and Su's mother froze. Of course, Su Lei's parents were not stopped by the stillness of time, they were surprised, surprised, and what they expected Su Lei knew that this surprise was the tranquility before the storm, a short period of tranquility, after which his parents should start preaching to him.At this moment, everyone can also understand that they are gaining momentum.

Pop, pop!
"Do you know what you're talking about? Did you go out to play and lost your head?" Su's father patted the table violently, and shouted to Su Lei, his voice was very severe, and the anger contained in it was not the slightest bit. cover up.

I don't want a bright and stable future, but I still want to be a singer, and I go out for a month to relax and come back, and the sky is turned upside down.

"Dad, I know what I'm talking about. I'm sober. I haven't been sober in all these years."

Now that the topic has been discussed, there is no turning back, so Su Lei decided to speak quickly.

Taking a deep breath, Su Lei continued with what he just said.

"Dad, I don't want to be a teacher anymore. I want to be a singer, which is what you call an actor in ancient times. Now a singer, although I don't guarantee that I can be a singer, but waiting is enough I am content with being a singer. Teacher, this job is very good and easy, the salary and benefits are quite good, and there are students from your second elder to help me go up, but the profession of teacher is not what I like after all. In ancient times, There are many scholars who died for their integrity, now I want to fight for my ideals, even if I have no fixed place to live in the future, I will not hesitate to find enough food."

Su Lei was a little excited as he spoke, his voice became a little higher involuntarily, his arms trembled involuntarily, and he couldn't help himself.

I wanted to hear Su Lei say, "Teacher is not what I like after all", and I wanted to reprimand him for liking Su's father who can be eaten as a meal. He was silent when he heard this. The husband and wife have talked about his pursuit of liking him for so long, and each time they talked about it several times, they consciously changed the topic after they stopped drinking, and now they actually said that they would not hesitate to do anything, that they wanted to The determination to do what to do has never appeared since he was determined to study hard because he took the last exam in the third grade. Could it be that something happened in Jiangnan?
"Life is a play, a play that cannot be repeated, because it is a play, so you have to take into account various rules and the faces and moods of many people, try your best not to violate the rules, and try to make yourself the best in the eyes of others. For the kind of person you two elders have in mind, a stable and decent person, I have been working silently, but I am really uncomfortable. I really don’t want to have a stable but mediocre life. You guys I have always said that the position of a teacher teaches peaches and plums all over the world, watching students succeed and become talents, making contributions to society, and supporting the family. However, I really can’t do it. I really can’t give enthusiasm for being a teacher. Director Li also told you about the performance of the book, according to the script, I follow the script every day, I don't want to live like this again, I..."

"It's better to follow the script than you wander around. Music, being a singer, being a star, hum, it sounds nice, just look at their appearance, have you seen their hard work? The superficial beauty, in fact, in that mixed entertainment The circle is not all looking at other people's faces. Although being a teacher is not as glamorous as them, it is glorious and stable. As long as you work hard, you don't need to look at anyone's faces. Moreover, the most dazzling stars are always only those few. Do you think you Su? Lei sings very well. There are many people in the entertainment industry who sing better than you, and how many of them are successful. Ah? Tell me, you still dream, you still like it. Can these be eaten? Become our hearts Such a person, becoming such a person in many people's minds, it is very uncomfortable, fart, people have a face, who is this face for, and it is not for others, in this society, people have to see, life is a scene Play, that's right, isn't play just for people to watch? Suffering, you have to endure it, not having enough to eat, losing face is the real suffering." Father Su interrupted Su Lei's words, and reprimanded loudly.

Living in this world, we have always lived in the eyes of others. We want to be a person who satisfies each of them in the eyes of our parents, relatives, friends, etc., but we want to be someone else. What kind of person you see in your eyes may turn out to be this kind of person or something else. No matter what kind of person you are, it doesn’t matter. The important thing is that no matter what, the inner suffering is certain. It will become something like a fishbone in the mouth outside the heart.

I don't want to swallow it, but I can't spit it out.I don't want to hide it, but I don't want to say it either.

"Yeah, Xiaolei, although what your father said is biased, it is very reasonable. It is good to be stable in this life. If you want to make music and become a singer, you don't have the talent, otherwise you have the talent." There should be a lot of people looking for you after the broadcast of this program, but now, it shows that your musical talent is not good, and some things cannot be forced. And even if you become a singer or star in the future, this industry is not stable after all. After a while, what should I do next? Let’s say that the very popular young man named Yu Wenfei two years ago, what’s going on now, at least I can’t find any news about him in the entertainment section of the newspaper One can't get dizzy for a while, dreams should be seen from the perspective of reality." Compared with Su's father's fury and reprimand, Su's mother seemed calmer, and softly persuaded Su Lei, with reasons and evidence, for example, To be reasonable, it really deserves to be called mathematics, and the regulations are quite clear.

"Dad, Mom, what you said is reasonable, but a person's life is too short, no matter how you live it is a lifetime, it is better to do something you like than to live a lifetime without knowing what you are doing. After the dream comes into reality, It should not be assimilated. Of course, if I have no singing ability at all, I will admit it. After all, what I think in my heart still needs some realistic basis, but parents, I think I have this ability. I am not Blindly chasing dreams and wanting to go my own way, I look at it on the basis of reality.” Su Lei, who was quite excited just now, was interrupted by his parents, he gradually calmed down, and after his parents finished speaking, he gradually calmed down. , after being stared and silent for a while by his parents, he calmly responded to what his parents said with a normal voice.

Originally thought that his son's silence was thinking about his earnest intentions and would give up that unrealistic dream. Su's father and Su's mother were very disappointed. What happened to the obedient and filial child in the south of the Yangtze River, and how did he become like this? , It can be said to be stubborn.

Su Lei didn't meet or experience many things in Jiangnan Jiangshui, but he sang on stage once, participated in discussions with Lin Feng and other producers several times, and seized the opportunity given by Lin Feng.

Generally speaking, it is really not much, but it is very important. Imagining standing on the stage and listening to the cheers and applause is definitely different from actually standing on the real stage to feel the cheers and applause. This really planted a heart in Su Lei's heart A seed, a seed that is likely to be silent or may bloom, listening to the producers' intense discussions in the conference room on the [-]th floor of the Jinhe Hotel, the shell that prevents the seed from germinating has gradually softened a lot, but Even if the shell is thin, the ungerminated seeds are still seeds, not trees. It is Lin Feng who makes this seed germinate in Su Lei's heart, and it is the opportunity, guidance, and confidence given by Lin Feng.

Can the germinated seeds return to the state of germination? No, once they break through the soil and germinate, they will never return to the state of seeds.

It's as if once something happens, it can never go back to the way it was before.

Although I don't know where Lin Feng's confidence in him comes from, but this does not prevent Su Lei from becoming more confident. People live in the eyes of others. No matter who the other person is, he or she has the approval and trust of others. A few are an incentive.Especially the encouragement, praise, admiration, and recognition of very powerful and famous people in this industry, the aura of big people will be contagious.Lin Feng has already assumed such a role without knowing it.

"For more than 20 years, I have been walking on the road arranged by you. Primary school, middle school, and university. It is very smooth and steady. There are no waves, ups and downs, and no deviations. But it is very monotonous. Many people say that life is colorful, but I have always seen only one color, white, not confused but monotonous white, I want to see other colors, even black. I want to go my own way, the way of music, no matter what How much unknown, I am willing to bear." Su Lei said as if summing up the past 20 years, his tone seemed to be without any waves, as light as water, but behind this lightness as water was a kind of determination that would not budge.Life is unbearable, as long as you are willing to bear it.

After hearing Su Lei's words, Su Lei's parents, who had reacted fiercely, fell silent, and Su Lei became more and more determined, leaving them at a loss as to what to do.When a child is determined to do something beyond their own expectations, what the parents think of from this is definitely beyond the imagination of the child.

The time of silence lasted for a long time, and the time was long at this moment, very long.

　The next two thousand, before twelve o'clock.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)