Aijia Kefu: Your Majesty, please avoid

Chapter 103 Is he still alive?
Su Qingyuan's face turned slightly red.

Seeing that Lu Junnuo had slipped out safely, she raised her head and tried to be calm: "Jun'er is my son, what's wrong?"

Lu Li habitually stretched out his hand to wrap around her waist: "You are getting more and more confused! Isn't our son still here?"

Su Qingyuan immediately broke free from his hand, her face was ugly.

Lu Li was startled, and frowned: "What's wrong?"

Su Qingyuan avoided his gaze, and said lightly: "It's okay. Jun'er is just learning from others, so don't take it to heart. Those rumors outside won't be successful for a while..."

"Yuan, you have something on your mind." Lu Li stretched out his hand again, but Su Qingyuan dodged it without any surprise.

Su Qingyuan lowered her head, her tone was flat: "There's nothing on my mind. I'm just a little tired."

Lu Li felt a little angry: "I'm not tired when I see Su Qingluan, I'm not tired when I see Concubine Xian, I'm not tired when I see Jun'er, but I'm tired when I see me?"

"I think you don't have time to see me right now." Su Qingyuan leaned on the pillow, still refusing to meet Lu Li's gaze.

Lu Li leaned down and put his arms around her shoulders: "It was my fault that I neglected you because of political affairs. Now I have left everything to those meddling old men. From now on, I will only be with you every day. .”

Su Qingyuan shrank her shoulders and avoided his hand for the third time.

This time, Lu Li was really annoyed.

Su Qingyuan simply retracted into the quilt, and said in a muffled voice: "It's an eventful time, wasting time to accompany me is the most unwise choice. Now there are Xiliang and Beiyan staring at me outside, my father's wolf ambition inside, and there is an unreasonable one in the palace." Aunt Nian who knows where it is hidden... There are too many things that need to worry about you. I can't help you, at least you should work on the witchcraft, maybe you can cure the cancer hidden in the palace. unplug..."

"In short, you just don't like me being with you." Lu Li concluded for her.

Su Qingyuan hugged her shoulders under the quilt, without speaking.

Lu Li's expression immediately darkened.

What do you mean by not talking?default? !
"Come out!" Lu Li violently lifted the corner of the quilt, and grabbed Su Qingyuan's shoulder.

Su Qingyuan suddenly let out a scream, curled up and shrank into a corner.

Lu Li frowned, put down the quilt in his hand, "A Yuan?"

Su Qingyuan closed her eyes and exhaled slowly: "Don't come here."

Lu Li stood by the bed for a long time, and finally sighed: "Concubine Xian is a fortune teller, she invited me over last night just because of the divination, there is no other reason."

"I know." Su Qingyuan's voice trembled slightly.

Lu Li frowned even tighter: "As for Su Qingluan - I think you should trust me more. Your girl should have told you what kind of person your sister is."

"I know." Su Qingyuan still had those three words.

Lu Li leaned forward, and sure enough, he saw Su Qingyuan shrank into a corner again.

He sighed in frustration: "Other than that, I really can't think of anything else that might offend you. If you're worried about Jun'er... Since I let him go, I won't take it easy in the future." Get your hands on him—what the hell are you fussing about?"

"You didn't offend me," Su Qingyuan raised her head, "It's my fault."

"Come here." Lu Li stretched out his hand.

Su Qingyuan refused to move, but Lu Li kept stretching out his hand, looking at her.

After hesitating for a long time, Su Qingyuan finally stretched out her hand.

Lu Li pulled her out from that corner, holding her tightly: "What nonsense did you hear again? Concubine Xian's divination skills are not perfect, she can only see that you and I are in danger of being separated in the future , but didn’t say that we are doomed to be separated from others—what are you afraid of?”

Su Qingyuan tried to explain with a bitter face: "It has nothing to do with Concubine Xian's divination, I just think..."

"You just think it's an eventful time, and you and I have more important things to do?" Lu Li continued for her.

Su Qingyuan nodded in a daze.

Lu Li used all his strength to pull Su Qingyuan into his arms: "You think I'm stupid? You don't allow me to hug you, you don't allow me to touch you, and you have to hesitate for so long even to hold hands—it's really just because you're busy." '?"

Su Qingyuan was speechless, and lowered her head guiltily.

Being held in Lu Li's arms, her whole body was stiff.

Lu Li deliberately inserted his finger into her shirt, drawing circles on her waist and eyes.

The little guy in her stomach moved restlessly a few times, but Su Qingyuan just tensed her body and did not dare to move.

Lu Li deliberately lowered his head, and narrowly touched Su Qingyuan's forehead with the tip of his nose, and as expected, he noticed that she was clenching the corners of the quilt in a panic.

After all, he didn't have the heart to scare her anymore, so he hugged her quietly, without saying a word for a long time.

Su Qingyuan gradually relaxed.

She let go of the corner of the quilt, grabbed Lu Li's sleeve again, and rubbed it unconsciously.

Lu Li hugged her and lay down together, tried his best to soften his voice: "What happened, can we tell now?"

Su Qingyuan was silent for a long time, and finally sighed in a low voice: "I remember it."

Startled, Lu Li sat up straight: "Remember?"

Su Qingyuan looked at him and nodded.

Lu Li hesitated, and asked uncertainly: "So, you resisted me like this because you were annoyed that I treated you badly earlier?"

Su Qingyuan shook her head slowly.

"Then..." Lu Li didn't know where to ask.

Su Qingyuan turned over and nestled into Lu Li's arms.

Lu Li quietly breathed a sigh of relief.

However, the problem is still not resolved.

He clearly felt that Su Qingyuan was afraid.

She was afraid, but it had nothing to do with Cheng Ruoshui's divination, nor Su Qingluan's scheming.

Lu Li thought hard for a long time, and suddenly a clear idea popped up.

He grabbed Su Qingyuan's wrist: "Are you afraid of me? Is it because of Aunt Nian? A Yuan, you shouldn't believe her! She can't be your mother. She took you away and forced you to practice those inexplicable things." Spells are all for some ulterior purpose... Think about what she did to you in the past, which mother has the heart to treat her daughter like that? You have always been sober and rational, but now you remember everything , how could you be confused instead? What did she say to you?"

Su Qingyuan raised her head and glanced at Lu Li, then lowered her head again: "I understand all these principles."

"Then you..." Lu Li became more and more puzzled.

Su Qingyuan tightly grabbed the hem of his clothes, hesitated for a long time, still didn't know how to speak.

Lu Li lowered his head to meet her gaze, feeling sore in his heart, he hurriedly said, "Don't think about it yet."

Su Qingyuan bit the corner of her lips, shedding tears in a daze.

Lu Li gripped her wrist tightly, but he didn't dare to ask.

Su Qingyuan didn't say a word, she just pressed her hand to her heart, weeping uncontrollably.

Those things that had already been forgotten were like the tides in the dark night. The waves came rushing in, with overwhelming suffocation and coldness, leaving no room for her to escape.

Last time, she could lose her memory, she could go crazy, and she could treat those things as a nightmare and muddle through.

But this time, she was helplessly awake.

The only person he could turn to for help was Lu Li.But……

How can you tell him such a terrible thing?
It's not that she doesn't believe him, it's just that she has suffered enough by herself, should she make him suffer along with her?

What's more, a scar that has already healed, it really doesn't make sense to look at it again.

In Su Qingyuan's heart, she didn't want to say it.

But if she didn't say it, how would she explain to Lu Li her abnormality today, and what reason should she find to resist his approach?
The few days in the tunnel have become Su Qingyuan's heart disease, and it doesn't mean that it will be cured if it is good.Reason is one thing, subconscious instinctive reaction is another matter.

Su Qingyuan still couldn't find a solution, so she raised her head and looked at Lu Li pitifully.

Lu Li sighed, hugged her and stood up, "Did you not eat properly again? I heard your stomach growling."

Su Qingyuan's face flushed, but her heart was not so blocked.

She reluctantly pulled the corners of her lips: "I didn't have any appetite at lunch, and I forgot about it later..."

"You're starving the child." Lu Li squeezed her waist and said with a smile.

Su Qingyuan glared at him, sat up straight and shouted outside: "Luoxia, send me dinner!"

Lu Li had no choice but to get up with her, and when the little eunuchs put the food on the table one after another, he picked out a few of her usual favorites and put them in front of her.

Su Qingyuan wiped the corners of her eyes, and said with a smile: "You actually want to bother the emperor to prepare vegetables for me, it really frustrates me!"

Lu Li gave her a blank look, and sat down beside her: "Let me know that you don't eat well, and you won't be able to eat for the next meal!"

Su Qingyuan looked aggrieved, and Lu Li didn't try to comfort her. He just put on a straight face and kept serving her vegetables.

Unexpectedly, this dinner was still restless.

A little eunuch was clamoring outside to see Lu Li, saying that Concubine Liang had developed a high fever again and asked him to go and see.

Su Qingyuan put down her chopsticks, raised her head and persuaded: "Even if she is wrong, she has already suffered so much after all, so you should go and have a look."

"Are you so anxious to push me out?" Lu Li's face was gloomy.

Su Qingyuan shook her head hastily: "I'm not trying to push you out, it's just that... Although Jing Zhaoyin's official position is small, it is very important to the peace of the capital. Now the envoys are about to enter the capital, and you need a stable and peaceful capital; and General Zhenbei defends the peace of the frontier, and now is the time to win over...Liang Concubine is guilty and has been punished, why don't you take this opportunity to give her another sweet date to avoid trouble..."

"You know how to weigh the pros and cons now!" Lu Li complimented coldly, without any sign of joy.

Su Qingyuan had no choice but to lower her head, and said in a muffled voice: "I just advised you to go and see her, and I didn't say that you are not allowed to come back..."

Lu Li couldn't hold back his face, and smiled again: "You can advance and retreat freely! Why, do you really think that no one will take me in?"

Su Qingyuan glanced at him, pouted her lips and sneered: "You are the only sweet potato in the palace, of course someone takes you in! I was just taken away by the bad guys, and the hot bed in Yuxiu Palace is waiting for you. I don't know!"

Lu Li immediately reached out and grabbed her wrist: "Who told you this?"

Su Qingyuan shook off his hand and lowered her head: "Go and see Concubine Liang first, and we'll talk about other things later."

Lu Li quickly grabbed her shoulders again, with a dignified expression, "A Yuan, we can't stand misunderstanding and suspicion between you and me, I hope you make it clear!"

Su Qingyuan gave a wry smile: "No one imitated me, I saw it with my own eyes and heard it with my own ears! That morning when you got up from Yuxiu Palace and turned your head, it wasn't the name that made the sound behind the screen. The wolf dog calling 'Huzi', but me with my arms twisted and my mouth covered—do you understand?"

Lu Li's hands clenched suddenly.

Behind the screen of Yuxiu Palace, a tunnel entrance was indeed found later, could it be...

Su Qingyuan wiped the corners of her eyes with her hand, raised her head and looked hard at the carvings on the beams.

She didn't want to recall it anymore, but the heart-wrenching helplessness still haunted her.

She still couldn't figure out how Lu Li could be so casually affectionate with other women when her life and death were uncertain.
The reason why she was easily controlled by Aunt Nian later was undoubtedly a very important factor.

But now, she no longer has the confidence to blame Lu Li.

Su Qingyuan raised her head and smiled wryly: "I know I can't blame you, but... forget it, don't mention it anymore."

Lu Li became impatient: "Why don't you mention it again? Ah Yuan, are you still planning to use the words 'no right to be angry' to persuade yourself, and then condemn me in your heart, and reject me from now on? outside?"

"I didn't..." Su Qingyuan felt a little wronged.

Lu Li was even more annoyed: "Nothing? Not angry? Or didn't you resist me in your heart? A Yuan, what you did just now is clearly resisting me! If you didn't say it, how would I know...Damn it , At that time, you must wish to kill me, don't you!"

Su Qingyuan avoided his gaze and said in a low voice: "I desperately asked you for help, but you didn't hear me...I was really sad at that time, but it's all over now."

She had been trying to be sensible, but Lu Li obviously didn't buy it, "You're just sad because I failed to save you, nothing else?"

Su Qingyuan knew what he wanted to ask.She hesitated for a while, and finally nodded: "There is nothing else. In the end, you saved me, so my sadness at that time is not worth mentioning."

Lu Li was silent for a long time, and finally nodded: "I see."

He let go of his hand, and Su Qingyuan sat down.

Lu Li walked away without saying a word.

Luoxia frowned, and came forward: "Why bother to make the emperor angry again? The truth may not be what you see... The emperor is clearly willing to explain to you, how can you let him continue by pretending not to care like this?"

"Is the fact important?" Su Qingyuan raised her head and asked.

Luoxia doesn't understand.

Su Qingyuan herself didn't understand either.

She picked up the rice bowl and ate it seriously, chewing slowly, a bowl of rice consumed a full hour.

Lu Li didn't come back.

Su Qingyuan smiled wryly at herself, and stood up: "Xiao Lizi is still alive in Yeting Palace?"

Luoxia was stunned for a moment, then hurriedly said: "I didn't hear the news, it's probably alive."

"Ask someone to bring him here." Su Qingyuan turned back to the hall and sat down on the edge of the bed.

Luoxia showed a look of embarrassment: "Xiao Lizi was disposed of by the emperor, if you brought him here rashly, the emperor might be angry."

Su Qingyuan only looked up at her and said nothing.

Luoxia finally asked someone to bring Xiao Lizi over.

And Lu Li still didn't show up.

Xiao Lizi knelt down in front of Su Qingyuan and kowtowed three times.

Su Qingyuan noticed that his right hand was gone, and gauze was wrapped around his wrist.

When he raised his head, his eyes were still bright, but his originally upright face was frighteningly thin, and his cheeks were red and chapped by the wind, which was already ugly.

When he met Su Qingyuan's eyes, he dodged and lowered his head.

Su Qingyuan raised the corners of her lips, and looked at him mockingly: "Life is still hard, I haven't died after so many days in Ye Ting Palace!"

Little Lizi was speechless, but buried her head deeply.

Su Qingyuan got up and got out of bed, walked slowly in front of Xiao Lizi, and squatted down.

It is not accurate to say "squat down".Her stomach was already in the way, so squatting like this, with her knees almost touching the ground, was no different from kneeling.

Xiao Lizi raised his head, looking worried.

At this moment, Su Qingyuan pulled out the hairpin from her head, aimed at his shoulder and stabbed it fiercely.

Xiao Lizi only frowned slightly, but didn't make a sound.

But Danyue next to her covered her mouth and let out an exclamation.

Su Qingyuan supported Xiao Lizi's shoulders, and looked at him fixedly: "What are you doing alive? Do you want to avenge your God Sparrow Kingdom? Or do you still want to help that old witch do more evil things? I told you You, an obedient dog like you, the old hag has thousands of them! You are useless, the old hag will never help you sincerely, and you will not be able to avenge the God of Sparrow Kingdom in your next life—why don’t you die? ? Just to hang around like wild dogs day after day?"

Xiao Lizi raised his head with a sad expression on his face.

When Su Qingyuan saw his face, she felt angry again, and stabbed the hairpin in her hand again.

Danyue couldn't help rushing over, trying to snatch her hairpin: "You should send me to do this kind of hard work!"

Su Qingyuan clutched the hairpin tightly, refusing to give it to her.

Danyue was a little at a loss, kneeling beside her and persuading her earnestly: "You look like this, are you teaching the slaves a lesson, or are you torturing yourself? How can the child in your stomach bear it if you are tossing around like this for three days!"

Su Qingyuan still ignored it, withdrew her hand and stabbed Xiao Lizi's back with another hairpin.

Luoxia came over and helped Danyue up, and pulled her out together.

Xiao Lizi stared at Su Qingyuan blankly, opened his mouth to speak, but made no sound.

In the end, he just shook his head slowly and closed his eyes sadly.

In Su Qingyuan's heart, the anger became more and more intense.

The strength in his hand gradually weakened.

She suddenly stood up, walked quickly to the dressing table, found the small silver scissors for cutting candles, and greeted Xiao Lizi's cheeks and neck without thinking.

Xiao Lizi let out a low whimper, stretched out his arms to hug Su Qingyuan's legs, leaned over and touched his forehead heavily to the ground.

Su Qingyuan couldn't break free, and the anger in her heart became more intense. The silver scissors in her hands stabbed Xiao Lizi's back, shoulders and even the back of her head, and her hands were soon covered with blood.

The smell of blood spread, and Su Qingyuan suddenly laughed.

Xiao Lizi made an "ahhh" sound from his throat, hugged Su Qingyuan's legs, and kept shaking his head.

"A Yuan!" Lu Li walked in quickly, seeing this scene, his eyes were red.

Su Qingyuan stopped her hand, looked down at the silver scissors she was holding tightly in her hand, and was stunned.

Lu Li came over and hugged her, and kicked Xiao Lizi away: "Get lost!"

Su Qingyuan shivered, and the small silver scissors in her hand fell to the ground with a "ding".

Lu Li grabbed her hand.

Su Qingyuan tried her best to break free, but failed.

In the end, the hands and cuffs of the two were covered with scarlet blood.

Ignoring Su Qingyuan's struggle, Lu Li forcefully carried her back to the bed to hold her down, and looked at her angrily, "I remember I told you before, don't get angry easily, and leave all laborious things to the slaves! How many times can your body withstand the torment? You actually do such a stupid thing with a big belly!"

Su Qingyuan clutched his sleeve, raised her head and looked at him hard through tears: "Don't you ask me why I tortured that slave?"

"If you don't want to tell me, I won't ask." After all, Lu Li couldn't get angry, so he could only sigh helplessly, and pressed her hand.

Su Qingyuan let out a whimper, half crying and half laughing.

Lu Li stretched out his hand to pull her into his arms, and sighed in a low voice, "It's been so long, why bother to torture yourself? That servant is also controlled by others, and you can't help yourself; you are even more unconscious, and even lost your memory It's... a nightmare, why worry about it?"

Su Qingyuan stared at him blankly, even forgot to shed tears.

Lu Li wiped the corners of her eyes for her, hugged her trembling body, and sighed in a hoarse voice, "You have to step over this hurdle! A Yuan, you can't just rely on being crazy and amnesia to escape the pain, like you did just now. Torturing him will only make you look down on yourself even more... You are not a lunatic, why do you have to use a lunatic's way to solve the problem?"

"Do you...know all of them?" Su Qingyuan looked away, not daring to look at him again.

Lu Li was sad for a long time, and finally nodded: "I can probably guess it. The time I saw you in the dream, you also mentioned...you were humiliated at the hands of seductresses and eunuchs, I know!"

Su Qingyuan trembled, instinctively wanting to push him away.

Lu Li tightened his arms, not allowing her to break free: "A Yuan, you didn't do anything wrong! I failed to protect you, it's my fault..."

Su Qingyuan bit the corner of his clothes, sobbing.

Lu Li patted her on the back lightly, and softened his voice: "You've put too much burden on yourself! A Yuan, you said before that in life, you only want to be worthy of your heart—your heart is always the same. , there is no need to feel guilty, why don't you let yourself go? Do you think that I will punish you twice because of the suffering you have suffered? When did your confidence in me become so less? "

(End of this chapter)