Aijia Kefu: Your Majesty, please avoid

Chapter 136 That Child Didn't Survive

When Su Qingyuan woke up from her drowsiness, the first thing she saw was a dark beam covered with tiny insect holes and cracked cracks.

It turns out that the beams of the house can be so short that they can be reached with one hand.

This is another world that Su Qingyuan has never touched.

After a moment of hesitation, Su Qingyuan came to her senses, and quickly reached out to touch her stomach.

Where are the children? !

She noticed the difference immediately.

The vague memory became clear little by little, like a strong wind blowing away the clouds—but even though the clouds cleared, she still couldn't see the child.

Her memory stopped abruptly after she escaped from the tunnel, and she couldn't find any useful clues.

Where are the children?
She struggled to stand up and looked around, but only saw the dark stove, the dark table, some dark old boxes and cages piled up in a mess, even the quilt covering her body was brown and dark Dark color——she looked in all directions and searched every corner of the quilt, but still found no sign of the child.

Su Qingyuan suddenly jumped off the bed, and ran outside.

Just two steps away, she suddenly felt darkness before her eyes, and fell to the ground for some reason.

The door creaked and opened.

A woman in coarse clothes walked into the door quickly, grabbed Su Qingyuan's arm and helped her up: "Who told you to get out of bed? You don't want to die?"

"My child... where is my child?" Su Qingyuan grabbed the woman's shoulder and asked in a hissing voice.

The woman half-supported and half-hugged her to the front of the bed, and pressed her to sit down: "Lie down obediently first, and let me tell you in detail!"

Ever since seeing that woman, Su Qingyuan has been staring into her eyes.Until this moment, she finally confirmed her guess:
"It turned out to be you—are you still alive?"

The woman's complexion sank, and she quickly returned to normal. She lifted the corner of the quilt and pushed Su Qingyuan in: "If you don't want to die, lie down in the quilt first! If you die just after giving birth, no one can save you." I can't miss you!"

Su Qingyuan refused to lie down properly, and stood up again to grab the woman's wrist: "Why did you paste your face like that? Even if you were burnt to ashes, I can still recognize you!"

The woman frowned and sat down on the edge of the bed: "Oh? Then tell me, who am I?"

Su Qingyuan raised her head and stared into her eyes: "Lin Miaoer, Mrs. Su, Aunt Nian—is it you?"

The woman reached out and grabbed Su Qingyuan's wrist, and sneered: "It seems that this useless broken bracelet really betrayed me."

Sure enough it was her!

Su Qingyuan secretly grabbed the corner of the quilt.

This woman really has some tricks. The Beiyan Posthouse set up such a big game for her, but she still survived!

Aunt Nian tightened her hand, and squeezed Su Qingyuan's wrist so painfully: "Since you recognize me, how dare you be so presumptuous? Your father has always taught you this way?"

Not to be outdone, Su Qingyuan stared at her eyes: "Everyone in the world knows that I have a life and no one to support me, why don't you know?"

Aunt Nian frowned, it was rare that she didn't get angry, but her face was really not pretty.

Su Qingyuan sat up leaning on the pillow: "Where did you get my child?"

She tried her best to pretend not to care, but her palms were already sweating from tension.

The moment she recognized the person in front of her, she had a very bad premonition: Her child, I'm afraid it's a bad luck!
Aunt Nian looked at her, and sighed after a long time: "Even if I don't say it, you probably know it in your own heart—that child didn't survive."

Su Qingyuan's eyes turned black again.

She tried her best not to fall down.

After a while, she heard her own hoarse voice: "Did it die when it was born, or did you kill it?"

Aunt Nian avoided her gaze, and said in a calm tone, "You have been in labor for a day and a night, fighting, running for your life, and falling asleep... That child is not made of iron! You have no ability to keep that child alive. Fate, now it's going to be my fault instead?"

"You should answer my question directly." Su Qingyuan narrowed her eyes, still staring at her.

Aunt Nian sneered mockingly: "I'll kill him? I'm afraid I'll get my hands dirty! He's just a bastard, he's dead when he dies. Do you think he's worth anything?"

Su Qingyuan looked at her fixedly.

Aunt Nian sat in silence for a while, her face softened, she stretched out her hand and patted the back of Su Qingyuan's hand comfortingly: "You are still young, it is not easy to want a child? That evil seed should not exist in the first place, you know it in your own mind. "

Su Qingyuan lowered her head and asked after a long time, "Is that a boy or a girl?"

"It's gone, so don't ask any more." Aunt Nian sighed.

Su Qingyuan clenched the corner of the quilt tightly, and continued to ask: "Where did you bury it?"

"Feed the dog." Aunt Nian said calmly.

"What about the dog?" Su Qingyuan refused to stop there.

Aunt Nian didn't expect her to ask this question, so she was speechless for a while.

Su Qingyuan raised her head to look at her, suddenly gave a "chi" laugh, and tears fell down at the same time.

Aunt Nian raised her hand to wipe the corner of her eyes, smiled wryly and shook her head: "You are really... I saved you from your father's minions with great difficulty, we are running for our lives now, where can I bury the child for you ? Throw it into the gutter, what do you do? Could it be that you still plan to settle accounts with me? Let me be your little bastard's companion?"

"I didn't even look at it..." Su Qingyuan retracted into the quilt and said in a low voice.

Aunt Nian stroked her hand and sighed softly: "I haven't seen it before! You may have seen how sincere Lu Li is to you now. Let me ask you, are you really willing to be tied up by his children?" Live forever? In ordinary people, most girls your age are still acting like a baby in the arms of their mothers. Think about what kind of life you have lived this year? Your suffering was brought to you by Lu Li, and you still praise it. Are you stupid to want to bear children for him?"

"What are you talking about now?" Su Qingyuan pulled the corner of the quilt to cover her face, and sighed shyly.

Aunt Nian patted the corner of the quilt lightly, and said softly: "I hope you can let go of it completely. From now on, you don't think about anything, take care of yourself obediently, and treat the past as a nightmare—— You have never been with Lu Li, and you have never given birth to him. You are still the delicate and savage young lady, and you are still a little girl who doesn't know the sufferings of the world..."

"What about the 'little girl'?" Su Qingyuan habitually put her hands on her stomach, and then remembered that the child was no longer there.

Aunt Nian held her hand and said with a smile, "You, you have been fooled by Lu Li for so many years, and you are so stupid! Who doesn't like a girl with snow skin and beautiful appearance? Don't say it is now, even if it is ten years later. In the past year, there will still be many men who want to marry you, so why did you hang yourself on Lu Li's tree?"

"You mean, I should change a few trees and try to die a few more times?" Su Qingyuan asked with wide-eyed eyes.

Aunt Nian patted her on the back of the hand heavily: "I kindly advise you, you are not in good shape! I think my worries are in vain, and you still have the mind to talk nonsense, so there is nothing to worry about!"

"Indeed, there's nothing you can't think about..." Su Qingyuan sighed lowly and smiled wryly.

"It seems that Lu Li has completely broken your heart this time." Aunt Nian sighed.

Su Qingyuan turned over and remained silent.

Aunt Nian simply lay down beside her, and put her arms around her shoulders: "I have persuaded you so many times, but you are always obsessed with obsession. Now you are sober, right? In the last two months, did that little bastard go to I’ve seen you? I heard that he and that noble concubine are inseparable, very good! You gave birth to him, and you have been shutting the door of hell for so long, did he ever take care of your life? Although he sent the concubine at the last moment The guy surnamed Duan came back to look for you, but do you know whether he came to save you or to kill you?"

"Stop talking." Su Qingyuan curled up irritably, covering her head with the corners of the quilt.

Aunt Nian smiled lightly: "Why, did it get to your heart?"

Su Qingyuan remained silent.

Aunt Nian sighed again: "Oh, I can't blame you... He wants something from you, so he naturally doesn't hesitate to talk sweetly in front of you. I can only blame you for being young and ignorant, and being deceived by him. Still foolishly thinking that I have found my beloved! Now that you think about it, is it worth doing so many things for him?"

Su Qingyuan still refused to answer.Aunt Nian sighed again: "Do you still remember Little Lizi?"

Su Qingyuan didn't make a sound, didn't move, and pretended to be dead.

Aunt Nian reached under the quilt and grabbed her hand, sighing: "Little Li is dead, do you know?"

Su Qingyuan wanted to say "good death", but held back.

Aunt Nian said with emotion: "That child, I was the one who felt sorry for him. At first I was eager to pull you out of the sea of ​​suffering, so I forced him to help me train you. Who knows that painting a tiger dog, instead of saving you, made you It created a rift against me and hurt him."

Su Qingyuan poked her head out, frowned, but didn't speak.

Aunt Nian reached out and rubbed her brows: "You want to ask how he died, don't you? That kid... well, do you still remember the burning man you saw when you escaped from the tunnel entrance?"

Su Qingyuan nodded.

Aunt Nian sighed: "That's him. The fire on him was lit by himself - he turned himself into a fireball just to disrupt the formation of the Iron Armored Army and give you a chance to escape... "

Su Qingyuan was stunned for a while, then gritted her teeth and said, "I don't believe it! You're not in the tunnel, how would you know?"

Aunt Nian stroked her hand and sighed: "Not only do I know this, I also know that after you passed out, it was Xiao Lizi who gave you the secret medicine 'Wuzhi Xuhun Pill' from their Shenque Kingdom. This saved your life. If it wasn't for that, how do you think you survived? Is it because of your small body that is dying of worry?"

Su Qingyuan slowly turned around.

Aunt Nian wiped the corners of her eyes for her, with a mournful expression on her face: "He was badly burned himself, he came out with his last breath and gave you the medicine, and then died - in fact, he could have taken the medicine by himself, But he chose to save you."

Su Qingyuan thought for a long time in a daze, but still felt unbelievable: "I didn't treat him well at all, I kept torturing him...he should hate me, how could he save me with his own life?"

Aunt Nian shook her head, as if a little bit aggrieved for Xiao Lizi: "Silly boy, because he loves you! He has you in his heart, so he is willing to exchange his life for yours, and he is willing to suffer no matter how much you suffer! You Think for yourself, if it were Lu Li, would he be able to do this for you?"

Su Qingyuan bit the corner of her lips, not wanting to answer this question.

She thought to herself: Even if Lu Li was willing to do such a thing for her, she would never agree.

But, would Lu Li do this?

Su Qingyuan had no answer in her heart.

Aunt Nian firmly grabbed her shoulders, as if she hated nothing but iron: "Are you still making excuses for Lu Li? Stop lying to yourself, he only has himself in his heart, and he has never really loved you! You Do you think he loves you by pampering you for a few days? How does he treat you differently from a parrot under the eaves or a civet cat by the hearth? You are just one of his playthings! Why did he treat you in the last two months? The reason why I didn't come to see you is because you are too old to serve him and satisfy his shameful desires! Think about it, when did Lu Li really try to please you? You don't know what other people look like , let’s compare it with Little Lizi, think about how Little Lizi serves you and pleases you? Can Lu Li do it?”

"That's different..." Su Qingyuan wrapped up the quilt again and covered herself.

Aunt Nian let out a long sigh: "Of course it's different! Who is sincere and who is fake, do you understand now?"

"I'm tired." Su Qingyuan didn't want to hear any more, so she had to choose to escape.

Aunt Nian embraced her shoulders again: "Death cannot be brought back to life, and what happened to Xiao Lizi is over. He just chose the path he wanted to take, so you don't have to be sad. I just hope you understand that men in the world are not They are all like Lu Li. You still have a long life to live in the future, you should choose to look forward, instead of turning yourself into a mournful woman for a man who doesn't love you at all !"

"Did father break through the city gate?" Seeing that she still refused to leave, Su Qingyuan simply changed the subject.

Aunt Nian frowned, and her face looked ugly: "Of course not. Beiyan's reinforcements didn't come, and he attacked the city rashly, it's just asking for trouble!"

Su Qingyuan carefully tasted her tone, secretly puzzled.

There are only a handful of people who know the secrets of the tunnel, and they are the people Lu Li trusts the most, and there is almost no possibility of betrayal.

In contrast, it is Aunt Nian herself who is most likely to reveal this secret.

Based on this inference, his old husband and wife should have hooked up...the reconciliation should be as good as before, but listening to Aunt Nian's tone, it doesn't seem to be the case!

What went wrong?

Su Qingyuan thought for a long time, and finally asked: "Where is this place? Is it father's barracks?"

Aunt Nian let out a "bah" and said with a sneer, "His barracks? You have a good idea! If you enter his barracks, it would be no wonder if he didn't tie you up, and let you lie on a high bed and rest on a soft pillow? "

Su Qingyuan patted the damp pillow full of wheat bran, curled her lips.

Well, high bed soft pillows.

Aunt Nian gave her a blank look: "Lu Li and your father are both arresting us. It would be nice if we escaped. You still want to enjoy life? Just bear with it!"

"They won't kill me." Su Qingyuan pouted.

Aunt Nian sneered: "I won't kill you? Do you think you are still useful? Your child is gone, can that little bastard Lu Li spare you? Your father is not blind, the little bastard doesn't want you anymore, he still keeps you What are you doing? Do you think the military rations are too much to finish?"

Su Qingyuan was speechless, so she could only ask: "You said earlier that you saved me from the Iron Armored Army? Why did you spoil my father's affairs? You..."

Aunt Nian waved her hand to stop Su Qingyuan's words, and sighed sadly for a long time: "You always only like to make trouble for me, but I can't ignore your life... Who told you that you are my biological daughter? I don’t know if you know about the hotel, but... for the sake of mother and daughter, I can only pretend that you don’t know. Yuan’er, you have to believe that as a mother, there is no real relationship with me in my heart. Children will not be able to pass."

"I don't understand these... After all, I don't know what it's like to be a mother." Su Qingyuan curled up under the blanket and thought for a long time, before biting the corner of her lips.

Aunt Nian let out a long sigh and sat up slowly.

Su Qingyuan looked up at her again: "What are you going to do next? You haven't finished your revenge, do you want to go back to the palace in the future? What do you need me to do for you?"

"Yuan'er, we are not going back to the palace." Aunt Nian sighed.

Su Qingyuan was puzzled.

Aunt Nian leaned down and looked at her: "For so many years, I have been thinking about revenge, but what happened? Lu Li is still alive and well, and the world of South Vietnam is still his Lu family's. I have spent 16 years in vain. Time... It's not worth it! Yuan'er, when you are healthy, mother will take you out of the capital! We can go down the river to see the beautiful mountains and rivers in this world, and see the area where our Wu people have lived for generations. Dashan...if you are tired, let's find a place to live; if you have a man you are interested in, you can also be bold and bravely pursue your happiness..."

Aunt Nian gently patted Su Qingyuan's quilt, wiped the corners of her eyes, turned and walked out.

When Su Qingyuan heard her close the door, she turned over and sat up immediately.

There was a burst of dizziness in front of my eyes, and my heart was even more confused.

Without Lu Li, without the child, without everything she used to be familiar with... She didn't know what to do with herself.

She didn't even know where she was.

Previously in the palace, no matter how flustered he was, at least he knew where to live, so he wouldn't be too flustered.

But now, catkins in the wind and duckweed in the water are nothing more than that.

As for Lu Li, she didn't want to see him anymore, but the child...

She still didn't want to believe it, why did such a good child disappear?

Even when she was so weak before the coma, she could still feel its restlessness, its desperate effort to come into the world - such a strong child, a child who survived so much and miraculously , How could it be possible to choose to give up at the last moment?
Is it because she is unlucky as a mother, or is someone else making trouble?
No matter what it is, Su Qingyuan is unwilling to believe it.

When the child was born, she didn't even look at it, how could she believe it was dead!

Having learned the lesson from last time, Su Qingyuan supported the edge of the bed and slowly slid down, and moved a little bit to the window with her shoes—it was said to be a window, but it was actually a crock with no bottom, leaking a cloud of skylight .

Su Qingyuan tiptoed over, bringing her eyes to the "window".

Outside is a straw shed, and inside there are a few white sheep gnawing hay leisurely.

Su Qingyuan changed several angles, and finally saw the distant scene through a gap in the thatched shed—but it was just an ordinary small courtyard.

There is nothing special about this yard, and Aunt Nian is dressed up as an ordinary old woman with chicken skin and white hair. Even if someone finds this place, they probably won't see any flaws.

This thought flashed in her mind, and Su Qingyuan laughed wryly at herself again.

Who is she expecting to rescue her?
Who else will come to her rescue?
Su Qingyuan turned around slowly and returned to the bed.

However, she was unwilling to lie down like this.

She can no longer go back to Lu Li's side, and she can give up the idea of ​​running away, but——

child!

Su Qingyuan walked quickly to the door, and opened the heavy wooden door nearly two inches thick with all her strength.

There was a harsh "creaking" sound from the door, but Su Qingyuan ignored it.

She gritted her teeth and stepped out of the threshold, only to see Aunt Nian standing by the courtyard gate, talking to a man who looked like a soldier.

Su Qingyuan recognized the color of the man's clothes, he was the golden armored guard in the palace.

She turned instinctively, trying to escape back into the room.

The soldier shouted, "Who is that woman?"

Su Qingyuan was a little flustered, but she heard Aunt Nian calmly said: "That's the old woman's daughter, she's still recovering from the cold, she's recuperating at home!"

Two golden armored soldiers pushed her away and rushed in without any explanation.

Su Qingyuan subconsciously covered her face - her face did not look like that of an ordinary daughter of a folk family, and she might reveal her secrets.

Unexpectedly, the two soldiers didn't even look at her, they went straight into the room, looked under the table, under the bed and in the cage, then turned around and walked out.

Aunt Nian followed with trembling legs, and said in a whisper: "The officials should be more careful, how can a criminal be hidden in such a small place as the old woman's house!"

The two soldiers pinched their noses and turned to the thatched shed for a look, then withdrew and stared at Su Qingyuan: "What are you doing so tightly wrapped?"

Aunt Nian apologized and said with a smile: "It's a cold, you need to pack it tightly to get better sooner! The family even pointed her to do needlework in exchange for money to buy rice, how can I let her be sick all day long and dodge my laziness!"

Su Qingyuan had hundreds of thoughts in her mind, but finally said nothing.

The two soldiers didn't become suspicious, they pushed each other and walked out impatiently.

Su Qingyuan touched her face suspiciously.

——She always thought that she was very good-looking, why didn't even the soldiers want to take a second look at her just changing her attire?
Aunt Nian waited for the two to go away, then closed the door, came back and said with a smile: "It seems that you have already figured it out in your heart."

Su Qingyuan turned her head away: "I won't go back to Lu Li again, but that doesn't mean I trust you. If one day I find out that you lied to me..."

At this time, there were two loud bangs at the gate, and someone shouted loudly outside: "Open the door!"

(End of this chapter)