Wang Junkai in whose landscape are you in?

Chapter 302 [Kay Me] Treat you the same (17)

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In the end, I still haven't said too much.

1
Today is the rare first downpour of the year in this city. When I woke up, I was only accompanied by the sound of rain outside the window, and everyone who should have been in the dormitory had disappeared at this moment.

I've been a bit busy with my studies recently, and I didn't finish work until one o'clock in the morning last night. I threw my body on the bed so hard that I slept very deeply, but none of them were good dreams.

today is my birthday.

I sat on the bed and looked at the blurred scenery outside the window, I pursed my lips but Xu Luo's smiling eyes appeared in my mind, and I suddenly felt sad.It seems that I haven't contacted her for a long time, and now I will never know the news about her, good or bad.A while ago, Wang Junkai contacted me to ask me about Xu Luo, but now I really don't know anything.Her phone number was changed quietly before I knew it, and even the avatars of her writing platform and the software she often played were all replaced with blanks during the days when I cared about the absence.

Facing his persecution, I could only remain silent.

It's not that I concealed it deliberately, it's that I wanted to say something but I didn't know anything, so I was kicked out of her world by her inexplicably.

Now I start to regret my answer day and night. If I put it another way, maybe it won't be like this now.

But before I said it, I didn't have time to think about the future.

2
The rain outside the window didn't want to stop for a moment, I sat on the bed and shook my head.My roommates always say that I am absent-minded recently. If I pour a cup of coffee, I can burn my hands. If I ask me to buy hand sanitizer, I bought shampoo. From this point of view, I am indeed a little out of mind recently.

Recently, my heart is always filled with an unknown fear, and I often feel anxious or have a headache.

Lunch and breakfast are eaten together, but they are just filling their stomachs casually in a restaurant. Occasionally, a few people come to strike up a conversation, but after a few in-depth chats, they feel that I am bored and leave my son, who is not accompanying me, and leave angrily. I looked at those people It's a little funny to get closer and then leave.

I stayed alone for a long time, then got up and left quickly.

I walked around this busy city all the time, from the first commodity store on this road to the last one, from the first clothing store on that street to the last one, and I even went to my usual favorite shop. It's a snack street, but I feel aggrieved inexplicably.

Probably because Xu Luo is not by my side for today's birthday.

At one o'clock in the afternoon, I received a text message on my mobile phone. I glanced at it indifferently and wanted to delete it, but the moment I saw the content clearly, I suddenly found that the string that had been tense in my heart was getting tighter and tighter. .

That text message was lying on my phone for years afterwards.

I can imagine Xu Luo's sadness when he edited that text message. There were not many sad words in that text message, but it made my eyes sore. It said in a nonchalant and indifferent tone:

Ah Jiu.I'm sorry for being absent for a while. You always understand that people like me are so stubborn that they won't admit that they are wrong, but this time I really feel that I am wrong.I selfishly thought that doing this would be good for both of us, because both of us needed time to settle down, but at this time I realized that maybe I wouldn’t be so regretful if I didn’t have this blank period.

I'm a little sleepy and want to have a good rest.

I'm sorry, I still can't walk with you, but even so, I still hope that on the long road of life in the future, in the days without me, you can be safe every year.

She finally left.

In this season when the rain begins to flood.

3
That day I took the last flight back to the city where Xu Luo lived. When I arrived at Xu Luo's house, there was no one else but the housekeeper.

I asked anxiously, but the housekeeper turned a deaf ear to it, just kept looking at me and repeated blankly, "Miss Ajiu, you are finally here."

Yeah yeah, I'm finally here.

But what about Xu Luo?

But where is Xu Luo?

I still haven't seen the last side of Xu Luo.

The next day I went to Xu Luo's house again, and I heard from my uncle that Xu Luo died peacefully. The sunlight outside the window shone on her body, and the corners of her mouth raised a beautiful arc. At that moment, the years seemed to be gentle. down.

Jun En kept making trouble, asking where my sister was, I shook my head and pursed my lips, not knowing how to comfort her.

When I was leaving, my uncle solemnly handed over the gift that Xu Luo had prepared for me, and asked me with a sigh, "She will be buried in two days, you and her have been the best for so many years, will you come?"

I nodded heavily, turned my face away, but tears fell heavily on the ground.

Even though the gift is so light, I feel it is heavier than Mount Tai.

It finally started to rain in this city, and an unknown heavy feeling swept over me, and finally, it overwhelmed me.

I always thought that losing someone was probably just a painless feeling of missing out.

But when I experienced it personally, I found that I was so sad that I forgot to shed tears. It was just uncomfortable and a heavy feeling that I couldn’t express even if I wanted to.

This feeling of losing everything, I should have thought about it.

4
Xu Luo's funeral was held in a simple and hasty manner. When I arrived at the scene, there were only a few people. I hesitated to open the phone book, and touched the cold screen with my fingers. Finally, I hesitated after seeing the three words Wang Junkai.

I pressed his number, and as expected, there was a busy tone.

When the burial began, the sky suddenly began to drizzle, and at this time the mobile phone rang unexpectedly.

"Hello, Ah Jiu? What's the matter?" Wang Junkai's side was a little noisy. I guessed that some lively event was being held. I pursed my lips and thought for a moment, "Xu Luo's funeral, are you coming?"

The world seemed to stand still for a moment.

It was a long, long time before I heard an unreal voice from the other end of the phone, with a heavy feeling that could not be erased. "When did it happen?"

"Now." As I said that, I reported the address, and I clearly heard Wang Junkai's out of breath on the other end of the phone, mixed with the noise, which added a touch of sadness.

5
When Wang Junkai came, Wang Yuan and Yi Yangqianxi followed behind him. Their eyes were a little cold, but more of them were distressed.

In Wang Yuan's hand was holding a bouquet of roses that should not have bloomed in this season, the red was dazzling.

I clearly saw that Wang Junkai's clear eyes were covered with a thick layer of fog at the moment, which was as thick as espresso and could not be melted away.Seeing his desperate look at this moment, I suddenly wanted to cover my mouth and cry, but in fact I just walked in front of Wang Junkai, trying to comfort him as an outsider.

"Condolences."

He didn't pay attention to me, and his eyes didn't even bother to fall on me. He looked far away, and I didn't know what he was looking at.

"so."

"That's why she left me?" He turned around and glanced at me as he spoke, smiling desolately.But that kind of icy and biting voice and tone of complaint was like a sudden snowfall in summer, which not only could not drive away the heat, but even brought more severe cold.

I didn't speak, at least I twitched the corners of my mouth and nodded sourly.

Wang Junkai's figure became thinner and thinner, his knuckles were distinct, and his clenched fist made his hands slightly blue.

Overnight, I actually felt that he had aged a lot.Probably because my heart hurts too much, so I only have a sad face.

Wang Junkai turned his face away, "It's my fault."

The rain that day seemed to never end.

6
Xu Luo's father seemed to have turned gray overnight. For this funeral, he did it himself, hiding his tears all the time.

Jun En, who has always been mischievous, also understood that this atmosphere was not right, and even became silent.When my uncle saw Wang Junkai, he just glanced hastily, and said in a nonchalant voice, "You're here."

It doesn't mean to blame half of it.

"I'm late."

"It's okay." Uncle finished the last thing on hand, raised his head and looked at Wang Junkai seriously, every word and every word weighed heavily, "Thank you for letting her like it so much. But young people, the road ahead Still keep smiling."

"In this way, she will be happy when she sees it." He said and patted Wang Junkai on the back as comfort.

The cold voice of the master of ceremonies finally sounded in this place, announcing the end of a life with a blank face.

I listened quietly, but it was harsh. I wished I could not hear or see, so that I could relax when I was so sad.

There are too many stories in this world that have nothing to do with me.

This ends, and that continues.It is not so regrettable that a person can be remembered by a few people in his life so hastily.

Finally, everyone finally dispersed.

Me, Wang Yuan, and Qian Xi stood not far away and looked at Wang Junkai in front of me. I saw him kneeling down with my own eyes, repeatedly.

Uncomfortable, full of depression.

7
I have never lied to Xu Luo, I know she doesn't like to hear the truth, but as a friend, I really don't need to hide it.

I really liked Wang Junkai. During those days in high school, everyone would have a beautiful first love, and Wang Junkai at that time was undoubtedly the best candidate.

But I forgot to tell her that I didn't like it a long time ago.

But, she didn't have time to hear it.

Because no matter how much I like it, those years have passed.

8
Before I left, I remembered that my uncle finally gave Wang Junkai a note with Xu Luojuanxiu's handwriting on it:
The traveler will not return at the next stop, and I hope you will be with me all the way.

Probably this is the blessing that Xu Luo wants to give Wang Junkai the most: I only hope that someone treats you as before.

[Phase [-]/Original Work: Min Luo/To be continued]
　The traveler will not return at the next stop, and I hope you will be with me all the way.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)