Wang Junkai in whose landscape are you in?

Chapter 66#凯我#〖How many miles around (Kay’s perspective)〗

#Fangyuanjili#
【Kay perspective】

【Extra story】

I am Wang Junkai.

It has been a year since the [-]th anniversary concert, but the scenes that happened at that time are still clearly in my mind.

In the personal solo session, when singing "How Many Miles Around" and "Sunny Day", I still couldn't hold back the tears swirling in my eyes. Before I turned around and left the stage, I let it overflow on my face.

I've always been reluctant to hype things like this, but it's still inevitable that I'll get all kinds of headlines.

"Ah... It's just that I have seen a lot of things, and I have a deeper understanding of this song..." Faced with the interview, I gave the same answer, saying that I was numb to this question.

Hey, if she saw these interviews, wouldn't she misunderstand me again?She should understand, she recommended "How many miles around me" to make me cry in the audition, and the song "Sunny Day" that we listened to and sang together. "Interview she must be able to see.

I have been quietly following her Weibo, and she occasionally likes our personal or group Weibo, or reposts it, but when she reposts, she doesn’t say anything, and she can’t see her emotions.

Once again, what made me unable to hold back my emotions was seeing her like the videos of my covers of "Fang Yuan Ji Li" and "Sunny Day".

I was wrong, she is not a liar, she has really been with us for ten years, and she is still a little transparent fan silently until now.

Is that the only relationship we have left?Can everything in the past ten years between us be regarded as never happening?
Then I thought, we should at least still be friends, right?Just the kind of friends you haven't seen in a long time.I didn't agree with that kind of statement before. I still want to be friends after breaking up, or I haven't loved, or I can't let go.

But now it seems that I am the latter.In a quiet afternoon, when I heard an old song from many years ago and burst into tears, I was finally willing to admit it to myself.

"Learn to let go of our previous desires, our beliefs, how difficult it is to forget..."

"Fantasy years ago, forgiveness years later..."

"Surrender if you can't forget that person."

hi, why am i crying?I am a man and cannot cry.

I remember a few years ago, when we finally stopped releasing some salivary songs, the three of us liked "Young" and "Imperfect Child".

But recently, I suddenly fell in love with the song "Firefly".Isn't it strange to listen to the songs that I and they sang many years ago every day?It's just that I suddenly have a different understanding of the lyrics.

At that time, you let me find my direction when I got lost in the dark occasionally, and gave me the courage to move forward.I thought we could go far, far away. Ironically, this song tells me now that the farthest place is by your side.

I'm still not a person who is good at expressing feelings, I don't like provocative sweet words, and I think things like vows to eachother are naive.

Maybe I didn't say the vows that couples would say at the time, so you won't think I'm a liar later, right?
As a person like me, people who are familiar with me will be very excited, and people who are not familiar with me will talk very little and can only be polite.After staying in this circle for so many years, I still haven't been able to change this.

Perhaps for work, this is a weakness.I really don't know what happened that day, but I was so enthusiastic and took the initiative to lend my hat to you who I don't know.I didn't believe in fate before, but maybe this is fate.

If the fate of two people is really destined, is the ending also?You told me triumphantly at that time, the painting style reflects the character of the characters, and even the ending of the story.

It's just that our life is not a cartoon, there are not so many well-designed plots, and if we don't try our best, we will get our wish.

In fact, looking back now, you were really a "little philosopher." You always told me some big truths when I was sad.

However, these principles are still very useful. Up to now, I can still memorize them like texts.

When I was the only trainee in the first batch, I always missed the days when everyone trained together, at least someone worked hard for the same goal as you before.

You told me at that time, "Memory does not allow us to stay in the past and stop moving forward, but to turn the beauty of the past into a force that supports us to go further."

You see, I listened to your words, and slowly freed myself from self-struggle, turning the beauty we once had into the strength to move forward.

It's just that I will still let the memories flood like sea water at a certain quiet moment.

When I first met you, broadband was not installed at home.Contacting you is almost always texting.At that time, non-smart phones could only store hundreds of text messages in their inboxes.Every time I am reminded that my inbox is full, I have to choose which text messages to keep.

I really can't keep so much, and I will copy some words in a notebook.This is probably the most secondary thing I have ever done in my life.

In fact, sometimes I am quite jealous of Ye Lin and Han Yu, although I know that you are just buddies.

They can be there for you at any time and do things that I can't.So at that time, I still called myself a primary school bully, eager to be needed, and let you ask me first if you have any questions you don’t know.

Although generally you don't know the questions, it's unlikely that I will. In the end, you still have to ask Han Yu.

Say the whole world has betrayed you, I will stand by your side, not on impulse.

Your willingness to come to Beijing for university was also the biggest motivation for me to confess my love later.Knowing that you are handicapped and occasionally mentally retarded, and can't learn to cook, I have already made plans to cook for you for the rest of my life.

It's just that when you finally pushed me away, I knew that I had no chance to betray the whole world for you.In fact, how much I wanted to drag you back at that time, no matter how hard you tried to break free, I would hold you tight.

Just thinking about it, what's the point?What you said are all cold facts before me, facts that I may not be able to change now and in the future.I am not qualified to keep you.

That day I squatted there until my legs were numb and I didn’t know it. When Wang Yuan’er and Qian Xi found me and pulled me up, I fell directly on top of them.

Afraid that the manager and staff would be worried, they simply took off my makeup with wet wipes, and sat with me in the stadium until they really urged me to go back.

I don't want to mention what happened after that.Because of this, our memories will only be beautiful, just like you in my heart.

You always said that you did not participate in my life, but the important things in my life, such as acting, studying, the two of you, family and friends, almost everything in my life has left your mark.

I would rather stay a few miles around you, or at least feel your sorrows and joys, and be with you when you need me.

Ziyi, come back.

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[The fourth issue, to be continued]

【Author: NH Nanhe】

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　If you can't forget that person, you will surrender.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)