Derailment era

Chapter 22

I don't know how long it took, Jin Ge woke up from the nightmare, and was surprised that he hadn't had a dream for more than ten years, what happened today?I remember that in the dream, it seemed that I and Xin Yi were doing something, and they quarreled because of something. The quarrel was very violent, but I forgot the specific details. After sitting there for a while, he got up. , It was past two o'clock in the afternoon on the wall clock, and I felt a little hungry, so I went into the kitchen and scoured a handful of rice to make some porridge, and then ate two bowls with sugar.

What happened to Xin Yi?Are you ignoring me or are you inconvenient to care about me?Back to the sofa in the living room before going to bed, the disturbing thought came up again. By the way, if it was inconvenient, she would definitely feel uncomfortable because of her cold language just now, and she would definitely find a way to explain it to herself. After such a long time Even if it is inconvenient to call, she will explain it in other ways. Taking a step back, if she really doesn't want to be with her anymore, then she will say it to herself, so she won't even say hello Forget it, Xin Yi is not such a heartless woman, no, I have to take a look, thinking of this Jin Ge hurriedly got up and turned on the computer.

He first came to the public mailbox of the two of them, and there was a new letter in the inbox. Let me tell you, Xin Yi is not such a heartless person at all.Not only couldn't help but almost misunderstood her, he suppressed the ecstasy and opened the letter.However, when he finished browsing, his whole body suddenly seemed to fall into an ice cellar, and then his mind went blank... It took a long time to recover, why?Why?Why?Staring at the monitor, he didn't understand and was even more unconvinced.

From now on, don't call me if you don't have special matters. I will come here when I am free.

A short line of words, no name and no signature, what is this?Letter of resignation?Why?Why do you do this to me?Treat yourself like this?Treat the past like this?Jin Ge's heart was in pain, every word on the monitor was like a sharp knife, every word pierced his heart.I thought I was smart all day long, but I didn't expect that I was the stupidest fool in the world. I tried to think of thousands of endings with Xin Yi, but today's is not what I expected. Life is so fucking boring!
What is special and what is free?really interesting!Jin Ge leaned back, drooping his head on the back of the chair.Trying to recall the past, but his brain was in chaos, and everything couldn't be threaded. Jin Ge smiled wryly for a while, and his nose couldn't help but feel sour. He thought that there could be a beautiful story between himself and Xin Yi, but he didn't expect , I didn’t expect that in the end, the result would be the same as all similar stories in the world. It couldn’t be more vulgar than it could be. Everything is clear. In fact, if you want to blame, you can blame yourself.It's all self-inflicted...

After silently turning off the computer, Jin Ge lay down on the bed again. He has never experienced what death is like, but he feels that he is dead now.

At some point, Xin Yi's frowns and smiles and the past events with her clearly appeared in front of my eyes, no matter how I restrained them, I couldn't get rid of them, but when I thought about them, I couldn't remember them, but they just appeared again when I didn't need them, what a fucking of!Jin Ge cursed secretly, feeling stuffy in his heart and aching in his head for a moment.

Is this really the end of the matter?What else do you want to do if you don't end it?But no matter how you think about it, don’t you think it’s a taste?Why don't you think Xin Yi is such a woman?No, although I am not a stalker and a narrow-minded person, I still have to figure out the reason, and I have to understand the end, and I have to tell Xin Yi personally, even if she opens her mouth and doesn't tell the reason, Such a heart is reconciled, thinking of this, he made up his mind to call Xin Yi at work tomorrow.I have known Xin Yi for nearly seven months, so I will call once a month, a total of seven times, if she still does not answer, everything will be forgotten, and I will give up.

After having this idea, his heart began to calm down a little bit, but he still didn't want to move. It was already evening, but the girls hadn't come back yet. Jin Ge knew what he looked like without looking in the mirror. He planned to drink some wine , not to relieve worries, but to worry about Qu Wenhong seeing her face at this time, and at the same time feel that she has no face to see Qu Wenhong at this time.

Jin Ge never drinks alone when there are no guests on weekdays. There are still many bottles of liquor sent by his colleagues during the Spring Festival at home. He finds a bottle from the cabinet and pours it into two large bowls, and then he puts the empty wine bottle in Seeing that no one was downstairs, the packaging was thrown out of the window. Hearing the sound of "boom", the wine bottle fell to the ground, and couldn't help being startled.

Don't let Qu Wenhong know that she was drinking at home.

Looking at his watch, he knew that he had to hurry up, otherwise it would be bad for those girls to barge in and see. Thinking of this, he picked up a bowl of Gudong Gudong and drank it... After half a catty of wine, his face felt feverish and his head fainted It’s the first time in Jin Ge’s life to drink like this. It’s interesting to think about it. The 54-degree wine has a bit of a spicy throat, but it’s quite enjoyable. Take a few breaths and look at the remaining bowl. Jin Ge thinks it’s almost the same After thinking about it, I poured them into the urinal, not afraid that I drank too much, but worried that I really drank too much nonsense.After putting the two bowls back to their original positions, Jin Ge lay down on the bed again.

Look, your dad drank too much again, where and who did he drink with at noon?I don't know how long, Qu Wenhong's faint voice came from the ear, but the people below couldn't hear clearly, and Jin Ge fell asleep again with his head tilted.

the next day.Minutes and seconds finally came to the time, and Jin Ge dialed Xin Yi's mobile phone number as quickly as possible. He knew that she must have walked out of the house and was on her way to work at this time.The other end of the phone did not speak.Hello, after two seconds, Jin Ge stabilized his emotions and greeted them in the language they had just started and have been using.Xin Yi hummed.What happened at home?Or, or did your family know about the two of us?Jin Ge asked carefully.According to his judgment, Xin Yi must have encountered bad things in the past few days, otherwise she would not be so different from before, and the last question he asked was also the question he was most worried about. If her husband finds out about it, it is conceivable what she has suffered, how can a woman bear it alone.

No, something happened to a relative's house, Xin Yi replied flatly.That's it, Jin Ge breathed a sigh of relief, what could happen to relatives?How could something wrong with a relative affect her?What caused her to make a 180-degree turn in her attitude towards herself?
What happened?I got sick?Still— Jin Ge guessed.It's okay, everything is done, Xin Yi said loudly and then sighed, when she talked with Jin Ge in that tone yesterday, besides feeling uncomfortable, she also knew that she hurt Jin Ge, especially when writing letters in the mailbox Her heart was bleeding even more, but she knew that if she didn't swing the knife decisively, things would be endless and there would be big trouble sooner or later. Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, that's all.

Jin Ge remained silent, he was waiting, waiting for Xin Yi to give him a reasonable explanation.

It's nothing, I hung up, Xin Yi said, even though she said so, she didn't put down the phone.Xinyi, I don't know what happened to you, but I want to tell you that getting to know you is the happiest thing in my life. Really, if I cause you unnecessary trouble, then I would like to thank you You apologize, don't worry, I promise that these troubles will never appear again in the future, Jin Ge said.

As soon as he finished speaking, Xin Yi hung up the phone. The moment she put down the phone, she burst into tears. She couldn't continue listening. If she listened too much, she was worried that all the efforts she had made before would be in vain. The east flow.

Holding the phone in a daze for a while, Jin Ge put down his hands wordlessly, what happened to him? Since Xin Yi didn't say anything, she couldn't find out even if she asked. It doesn't matter because there's no reason for this thing at all.

I was unwilling not to make a phone call, but it was even more unpleasant after the call.

After thinking for a while, Jin Ge stood up and closed the door. At this time, he was not in the mood to do anything. After sitting back in the chair, he turned on the computer unconsciously. First, he came to the page where he posted the article. I browsed through her comments several times one by one. It used to be a place where I grazed my thoughts, and it was also a place to witness my emotions with Xin Yi. I got her appreciation, support and encouragement here, and it was because of her that I persisted all the way. Now it's all over.

After a while, Jin Ge entered his own Baidu space, which was not perfect, except for a profile picture and the link address of his novel, even this profile picture was also chosen by Xin Yi, when he started it The purpose is very simple, it is to chat with Xin Yi online, and the communication records with her were deleted after the chat because of fear of being seen by others. Looking at the familiar profile picture and the few remaining text messages, he immediately I felt my eyes becoming a little blurry.

Leaning his head on the back of the chair for a while, Jin Ge came to Xin Yi's space again, and the music he was so familiar with came into his ears again... To be honest, it was not the article that attracted him at the beginning, but it. The pictures, music, and head portraits, Xin Yi’s face and head portraits were often mixed together in my mind at that time, don’t fall in love with her and treat her as me, Xin Yi joked after hearing what he said.No, you are prettier and more temperamental than her, he smiled.Since then, every time Xin Yi wrote an article, he would leave a message behind him. Xin Yi's article became more and more beautiful, and his message became more and more exciting, and his singing and harmony aroused the envy, jealousy and speculation of many netizens...

Why is it different here?Suddenly Jin Ge felt that something was wrong. There were a lot fewer articles in Xin Yi's space. What's going on?He started reading from the beginning...all the articles with his comments disappeared, why did it have to be like this?Jin Ge's Adam's apple twitched twice. In order to completely delete her message, Xin Yi did not hesitate to discard her own article as well!Why?Why don't you even have a memory?Xin Yi, you are too, too good!

Jin Ge slapped the mouse on the table, and then kicked it hard again, okay, it's over, okay, what's the matter, thinking of this, he picked up the mouse and quickly opened the public mailbox between him and Xin Yi , You can delete me, so can I. He deleted all the letters in the mailbox in one go, including the revised novel manuscript and related materials that Xin Yi gave him.

Looking at the empty mailbox, Jin Ge not only did not feel happy and comfortable, but felt more melancholy and lost.

In the next two weeks, Jin Ge hid himself deeply. He didn't say what he could say, and he didn't do what he couldn't do. He tried to minimize the chance of making mistakes and pretended that nothing happened. In the middle of the night, the bone-piercing pain gnawed at his heart like a mouse.

The shadow of Xin Yi can no longer be seen in the space, the login time stays forever on that day, the SH sunshine has disappeared since then, and Xin Yi in QQ has also turned black for a long time, and no matter whether it is a mobile phone or a landline, that person has never appeared again. The exciting number even changed the tune of the music in the central square on the way home... In a blink of an eye, everything in the world returned to the way it was before, as if nothing had happened.

But Jin Ge's heart can never go back to the past.Every time the phone rings, his heart beats faster, and every time the door opens, he looks forward. He looks out the window again and again, praying that the familiar figure will suddenly appear on the playground. Even walking on the road, he always looks around, worried I will miss, QQ space mailbox, when he has nothing to do, he clicks and browses over and over again. In the bottom of his heart, Jin Ge longs to see Xin Yi again, even if they don't say anything to each other, but Xin Yi seems to have disappeared from the world. There was no news, but Jin Ge knew that she hadn't gone far. From the changes in the points of the public mailbox, she knew that she was paying attention there all the time, but she was just bored and didn't speak.

First, it's best not to meet each other, so you can't fall in love.The second best is not knowing each other, so can not Acacia.Third, it is best not to accompany each other, so you can not owe each other.Fourth, it is best not to cherish each other, so that you can not remember each other.Fifth, it is best not to love each other, so you can not abandon each other.Sixth best not relative, so can not meet.Seventh, it’s best not to make mistakes, so that they don’t make mistakes.The eighth is best not to agree, so it can be discontinued.Ninth best not dependent, so can not Xiang Wei.Tenth best not to meet, so can not meet.But once we meet, we know each other, how can we meet when we don’t see each other.Ande and Jun Xiangjue Jue, avoid teaching life and death as lovesickness.

Jin Ge left a poem by Cangyang Gyatso in the mailbox, and after two days, he finally saw Xin Yi's reply.

Hello brother!
It is my blessing to meet and get to know you in this life. I will remember all the good things in the past and thank you for everything you have brought me;
Falling in love with someone who can be loved at an age that shouldn't be loved is a mistake. If there is a mistake, it must be corrected, otherwise it will go further;

Doctor, brother, adult, classmate, girl, etc., you have called me many names-let's be brothers, shall we?
Jin Ge read this text message N times over and over again, and Xin Yi couldn't understand what she was thinking, because she had no choice but to be close friends with a certain distance in this life.No, I'm not!Jin Ge felt like his throat was blocked by something.

Back home again with a full heart.Jin Ge, what happened?Qu Wenhong winked at him.No, nothing happened, Jin Ge was very surprised why she asked such a question, and looked himself up and down, is there something wrong?Qu Wenhong shook her head and said affirmatively, no, your complexion has been bad for the past half month, let alone today, something must have happened to you.

Jin Ge touched his cheek subconsciously, and said with a flash of inspiration, about the work of the unit, General Affairs Lao Zhu and Li Bo from the language team started working today because of attendance, and even made a noise to the Municipal Education Bureau, which made me mad.

Have you started yet?Did it break?Is it over?Qu Wenhong asked eagerly.Jin Ge didn't want to say too much about this fictional story, and said flatly, nothing happened, just torn each other a few times, and it's all over, daughter-in-law, is the meal ready?

As for the teacher, how do you usually teach as the principal!Qu Wenhong snorted and turned and walked into the kitchen.

During this period of time, have I really been different from before?Is it different than when you made friends with Xin Yi?At that time, Qu Wenhong didn't see anything wrong. Could it be that the breakup with Xin Yi has really changed a lot?Jin Ge walked into the bathroom and was really shocked when he looked in the mirror. He couldn't think that the pale and bloodless person in the mirror could really be him. He sighed, it seemed that he had to get out of the matter as soon as possible, otherwise If this goes on for a long time, sooner or later Qu Wenhong will see through it.A solution to the pain should be found immediately.

After washing my hands, I went to the kitchen to eat.Daughter-in-law, the meal is well done, Jin Ge glanced at the table and smiled.Since arriving in the organization department, Qu Wenhong seldom cooks dinner at home. She is very busy every day, and she is busy studying recently.Hey, when will you chat with the leader?Let me tell you, if you don't hurry up, you don't have to follow, Qu Wenhong asked Jin Ge while giving her daughter chopsticks.Knowing that she was talking about the vice president of the college, Jin Ge thought to himself, how could he have such thoughts now, but he said, next week, I heard that Director Xia went to Chongqing and did not come back.What Chongqing, I have been back for several days, and I was having dinner with our leader at noon today. I said, Jin Ge, what are you thinking about every day?Qu Wenhong stopped and frowned.came back?Jin Ge pretended to be ignorant and let out a oh, then I will go to the office door to block him in the morning.

I don't care whether I want to find it or not, I can handle my own affairs, so Qu Wenhong turned around and went to serve the meal.

After dinner, Qu Wenhong asked Jin Ge, who was sitting on the sofa, to clean the kitchen with her.It's getting dark, so let's do it someday, Jin Ge doesn't want to do anything, just sits there without moving his place.Do you have to do it any day?What else can others do to help?As soon as you mention work, you will say, why are you so dirty? I wonder, why would a dirty person like you marry?Qu Wenhong is angry, hurry up, let me do it alone, you want to exhaust me to death!She stares.Who are you, do what you say!Jin Ge's forehead suddenly became hot, he stood up awkwardly, and glanced at Qu Wenhong, but in the end he secretly suppressed the fire.He knew that in such a time, if he wanted to keep the family harmonious and avoid unhappiness, nothing else would be of any use. There were only two things he could do. One was to shut up and stop talking, and the other was to follow what Qu Wenhong said. Do it, let's do it now, he walked to the kitchen.

Qu Wenhong brought two basins of water, and Jin Ge stepped on two stools and picked up a rag and began to wipe.There is a division of labor between husband and wife when cleaning the kitchen. Jin Ge is in charge of the ceiling and the upper half of the walls, and Qu Wenhong is in charge of the rest.

I don't know what she is doing at this time?After wiping, Xin Yi's image appeared in Jin Ge's mind again, and he remembered her text message in the mailbox, "Being brothers, what kind of brothers... How can a man and a woman be brothers?"If you fall in love with someone when you shouldn't love, then when is the right time to love?I wish I never met when I was single!Thinking of this, his mind was a little dazed. Just as he was feeling infinitely sentimental, the stool under his left foot slipped suddenly, and he subconsciously raised his hand... The two stools fell to the ground with a bang, Jin Ge staggered a few times and a half Kneeling and leaning against the wall.

What's wrong?Did it break?Qu Wenhong poked her head nervously. Jin Ge felt fine when he moved his hands and feet. He stood up and looked at the fallen stool and said, "It's okay, there is water under the stool, so I didn't pay much attention to it."

You are really good, people in their 30s need wages to do some work, Qu Wenhong said not without blame.Jin Ge didn't say anything, and silently helped the stool up.Hey, when you are cleaning the wall behind the table, take the rice and white flour bags aside first, so as not to spill them, Qu Wenhong warned worriedly, Jin Ge took a look and nodded.

The two continued to work... hey, what do you think?Why didn't you talk for a long time?After a while, Qu Wenhong turned her head and asked strangely.What to say?Not to mention that he fell just now, Jin Ge pretended to be working hard.Also said, did not say you are stupid, Qu Wenhong laughed.

After about 40 minutes, Qu Wenhong was really talking. When Jin Ge was moving the table, because he continued to think about the matter with Xin Yi, he turned his hand away in a daze, and the rice was scattered all over the floor.Just be careful, what else can you do if you don't put them away?Qu Wenhong turned her head and stared at the ground and complained loudly.Didn't I want to do it faster, just grab it without grabbing the mouth of the bag, Jin Ge was busy getting the broom while arguing.Are you going to throw them all away?You still believe in Buddhism, you don't know how to save money at all, you will have to beg for food in your next life, Qu Wenhong blamed heartily while looking at the rice scattered on the ground.Me, in my next life, I will entrust rice for others to eat!Jin Ge replied angrily while sweeping.No one will eat it even after it was born!Qu Wenhong turned around angrily.

Jin Ge picked up the rice that had been scattered on the ground and dumped it into the trash can. By the time he finished, Qu Wenhong's cleaning work had also finished. The two walked out of the kitchen with a breather. It was already past nine o'clock in the evening bell.The lights in Ning Ning's room were turned off. Qu Wenhong looked around and raised her face to ask Jin Ge if he was still watching TV. It was clear what she meant if Jin Ge was not stupid. After she said it, she remembered that she hadn't talked to him for a long time. The daughter-in-law made out, but there was no emotion in her heart. The little dragon in the crotch was as soft as a rope and lifeless. Daughter-in-law, go to sleep, I will watch for a while, and Jin Ge pressed the TV switch.What are you watching so late?Qu Wenhong snatched the remote control and clicked to turn off the power. Looking at his wife's aggrieved and stubborn eyes, a trace of guilt welled up in Jin Ge's heart. Let's go, daughter-in-law, let's go to bed. He took Qu Wenhong's hand and walked in. bedroom.

Jin Ge, we haven't done it for more than half a month. Qu Wenhong lifted her husband's quilt and squeezed into her body, while touching her husband's lower body with her hands.Have it?Not that long, Jin Ge deliberately pretended to be confused.Why not? The last time I was at my mother's house, it's been more than two weeks since I returned to the city. Qu Wenhong turned her face and stared at him.I thought something was wrong with you, Jin Ge had nothing else to say and had to play tricks.You don't know when I'll come, Qu Wenhong glanced at him.

After a while, under the pull of Qu Wenhong's fiery desire, Jin Ge's primitive instinct was activated, and he jumped up... Six or seven minutes later, just as Qu Wenhong was getting better, Jin Ge slammed Excuse me, daughter-in-law, how did you fix it?Jin Ge blamed himself for turning his head back and laying down. According to the past, he could fight for at least half an hour, but something happened today.Get old, Qu Wenhong joked.Yes, people who are almost 7 years old are not like you women, who are like wolves at thirty and forty like tigers, and men are more and more finished after forty, he said following his wife's words.

Jin Ge, I heard from some women in our unit that at the age of 35 and [-], we have to do it four or five times a week. Now we only have one time in half a month, which is not high quality, which is a bit abnormal. Qu Wen Hong turned over and stared closely at her husband's eyes.Jin Ge glanced at her and said, four or five times a week, which woman in your unit said it?
Jin Ge, what is there to say about this? Last year we paid back once a day. When we first got married, how many times a day did you say?At that time, you couldn’t tell me to stay away from me, Qu Wenhong said quietly.Why do you say that?Wasn't he young then!Jin Ge was a little impatient.Recently, I always feel that there is something wrong with you all day long, but I can't say anything. What happened to you?Qu Wenhong looked over again.Me, it hurts a little these two days, Jin Ge put his hand on his left chest, there is no way, in order to dispel Qu Wenhong's doubts, I can only follow her words now.Don't you still take the medicine for pleurisy every day?I'll accompany you to the hospital for another look when I have time, Qu Wenhong said nervously.

Jin Ge nodded, and Qu Wenhong thought about it, it's impossible to see a doctor without knowing someone. When we are free, we will go to the People's Hospital to find Director Xin.When Jin Ge saw her mentioning that Xin Yi was a little depressed, go to sleep, she has to go to work tomorrow, he turned around.

(End of this chapter)