you are so nice lady

Chapter 1059 But I Haven't Cried Yet

It would be fine if she just acted like a baby and pretended to cry, but the problem was that she cried so pear-like and rainy, and now she had delicate makeup on her face, which made her look even more coquettish and flowery, and this demeanor made her look even more squeamish.

Huo Shishen's anger was completely extinguished by her one or two tears.

Seeing that her eyes were red with tears at the end of her eyes, she sighed and pulled her into her arms helplessly, "I'm not angry, why are you crying, huh?"

When Ning Xiaoman heard his words, he sobbed twice and looked up at him aggrievedly, "But I haven't cried yet."

Huo Shishen pressed her forehead, looked at her serious rebuttal and lowered his head to laugh, "Then I should wait for you to cry first, and then come to coax you?"

Ning Xiaoman groaned twice, then lowered his eyes again, "If you don't get angry, then I won't cry."

Seeing that she still refused to look up into his eyes, Huo Shi frowned deeply, and raised her chin with his hand, "Why are you hiding from me? Afraid of me?"

Ning Xiaoman glanced at him secretly, then quickly looked away, and said in a low voice, "No, I'm not afraid."

"Tell the truth." The man's voice sank, with a hint of seriousness, only to realize that the person in his arms seemed to be trembling, sighed, and his voice immediately softened, "Don't be afraid, it's me, what's the matter?" Scary?"

His voice was very gentle, with a bewitching taste, as if she really shouldn't be afraid of him.

Ning Xiaoman was emboldened by him, looked up at him, blinked, and subconsciously said: "Can I tell the truth?"

"of course."

"Actually, I'm still a little afraid of you..."

Huo Shi paused for a moment, then sighed softly again, let go of his hand, and rubbed the corner of her mouth, "I shouldn't have hurt you just now, don't be afraid, huh?"

Whether in Beicheng or other places, there are too many people who are afraid of him, like crucian carp crossing the river. This is actually a good thing for him. A person's prestige and reputation in the mall are as important as ability. Some caring people were excluded from the beginning, at least those who dared to cooperate with him would not have any other intentions to plot against him, because they knew his means and abilities, and knew how far he would go.

Therefore, Huo Shishen never felt that there was anything wrong with being afraid of others before. It is human instinct to be afraid of the strong.

But he just didn't want to scare the idiot in front of him.

Ning Xiaoman pursed his lips, looked at him bravely and said, "Actually, I'm not afraid of you, so sometimes I'm afraid that you will get angry, but I just don't like seeing your cold face. I'm not afraid of you. But I am afraid that one day I will be abandoned again..."

She doesn't know why she has such worries. She should trust Huo Shishen, but since she became pregnant, she doesn't know why she always fantasizes about Huo Shishen abandoning herself, and sometimes she dreams of it Some pretty scary scenes.

But she knew that such a thing would not happen, but she still couldn't restrain her wild thoughts.

Huo Shishen paused for a moment, his pupils narrowed and he looked at the woman in front of him inexplicably, not knowing that she still had such thoughts in her heart.

He knew that he was not a perfect lover, but he thought that he had done a good job, at least he should have given Ning Xiaoman the sense of security she should have, instead of making her worry about gains and losses like she is now.

She is still worried about whether she will be abandoned. What is he not doing well enough?
Ning Xiaoman didn't notice the man's thoughts, but continued to say: "I know you have always been very kind to me, whether you picked me up from the garbage dump from the very beginning, or gave me a treat in such a cold winter. Family, even indulged me a bit, or later...married me, I am also very grateful, and treated you and grandpa as my family, but..."

She paused, pursed her lips hard, and finally she was willing to tell him how she had been feeling all along: "But the difference between you and me is too great, no matter in terms of status, ability, or family background, Even just individuals, the difference between the two of us is really too big, if a man like you wants to abandon me, it is easier than just throwing away a piece of trash, just like you picked me up, without any effort on your part , but if I were to let you go, it would be harder than giving up my life..."

In her previous life, she had been unwilling to accept Huo Shishen's kindness to her. Apart from her own inferiority complex, she also had other considerations, that is, she was afraid that she would really fall into it.

The disparity between her and Huo Shishen is too great, she has no sense of security, and is afraid that once she starts to like Huo Shishen, she will fall into the abyss of eternal doom, and she will never be able to climb out again.

But the facts proved that she really had no way to resist this man. After being reborn, she almost fell into his fire pit headlong. All she could think about was to hold him firmly. This life and the previous life fell into two extremes. .

She also knew what was wrong with her, but she just couldn't control it.

Her words stopped abruptly, she didn't say anything about her rebirth, she just told Huo Shishen her innermost thoughts.

Huo Shishen looked at her with a hoarse voice, "I will never abandon you, don't you know my intentions?"

Although his tone was very light, it was loud, and Ning Xiaoman's eyes trembled a little when he heard his word-by-word promise, and there was a surge of warmth.

But she suddenly thought of something again, and lowered her eyes, "But I am an orphan, if even the parents can say without hesitation that I don't want me, doesn't that mean that I don't have any?" What reasons make people unswervingly choose?"

Even if one day Huo Shishen no longer loves her, she will not think it is Huo Shishen's problem, because she herself is not a person worthy of being loved.

She knows how good Huo Shishen is to her, almost wanting the stars not to give the moon, but even so, she still feels insecure here, paranoid, brings trouble to him every day, hypocritical to death, just here at every turn Not happy not happy there.

When he said this, Ning Xiaoman couldn't help but choked up.

Why do I feel worthless?As if she really wasn't worthy of his love, how could she stand by his side openly like this?

Every time I am ambitious, I want to make myself better, but no matter how hard I try, I still can't see Huo Shishen's back.

Seeing how she was so eager to deny him, Huo Shi's heart ached, he didn't speak, and let her continue.

(End of this chapter)