you are so nice lady

Chapter 1149 Transformation
He finally mentioned the word child, which was the first time the two of them mentioned that taboo topic before.

Ning Xiaoman suddenly stood up like crazy, and threw the divorce agreement in his face, "How could you do this to me? Do you want to see me suffer so much when you file for divorce at this time?"

Huo Shishen closed his eyes, and his hoarse voice seemed rough, "I never thought about it."

The last thing he even wanted to see was her sadness.

Ning Xiaoman couldn't listen to any words, a voice kept echoing in his mind, he doesn't love you anymore, he doesn't love you anymore, he doesn't love you, not because of him, but because of yourself, you are not good enough, you Not good enough for him to love is your own fault.

Ning Xiaoman suddenly grabbed her head and took a few steps back, tears kept falling. She sat on the sofa and curled herself up in a corner of the sofa, refusing to let Huo Shishen touch it.

I don't know how long it took before the man walked up to her, forcibly pulled her hand away, showed him the injured area on her knee, and after confirming that there were no other injuries, he carefully applied medicine to bandage her.

Ning Xiaoman wept expressionlessly, watching him do these things like a puppet doll, "I'm about to get divorced, why do you still treat me so well? Why?"

Huo Shishen looked at her, "I can accept an impure love, but I can't bear to let it go."

Ning Xiaoman laughed, and suddenly looked at him with some sadness. She would rather he said that he didn't love her anymore, or told her in some cold and heartless words, and she could still tell herself that Huo Shishen's sudden change must be true. It was because of some hidden secrets that he became so cold overnight.

He was so kind to her and had such deep feelings for her, it was impossible to let him go all of a sudden.

But Huo Shishen's half-reluctant and half-wanting-to-give-up appearance added to the authenticity of his words, indicating that he really wanted to separate...

With a hoarse voice, the man took the medicines back, squatted in front of Ning Xiaoman, didn't look her in the eyes, just looked at the ground, put his forehead on her knee and said to her, I want to give you the best, but now you But it's so bad, if being with me doesn't make you better, I'd rather let you go...

Ning Xiaoman finally closed his eyes, his scarlet eyes trembling violently, and after a while, he smiled coldly, "Don't even think about it."

Ever since she found out about the divorce agreement, Ning Xiaoman felt like a different person, and her originally stable mental state collapsed all of a sudden. Outsiders couldn't tell that her condition had worsened, but only she knew that he Her divorce has long been dilapidated, she has already died once, no, she has died twice, what is she afraid of?If she can't hold everything she wants in her hands, then what's the point of her living once?
It was as if she had been hypnotized and turned into another person.

Huo Shishen felt that he was selfish. If he had made this decision earlier, Ning Xiaoman wouldn't be so obsessed. He remembered what those psychiatrists told him. Ning Xiaoman was too dependent on him. If he wanted to Solving this problem can only make her independent, and one of the roots of independence is to keep her away from him.

Just like quitting smoking, the process is painful, but without this painful process, she will only become more and more depraved.

Grandpa also felt that the atmosphere in the villa was a bit weird recently. The two of them seemed to be in a better relationship, but both of them had deep exhaustion on their faces, but they both pretended to be okay, and their love remained the same every day.

Huo Shishen didn't mention the divorce agreement again, and Ning Xiaoman pretended it didn't happen, and the two of them still got along as before, only she knew that the distance between them was getting farther and farther.

Ning Xiaoman began to worry about gains and losses, worried all day long, could not help but lose his temper with Huo Shishen at the slightest sign of trouble, and he would accept everything patiently and gently every time.

But the more he behaved like this, Ning Xiaoman became more afraid, afraid that he would not be able to bear her like this next time, she gradually became a dark person, hiding in a shadowy corner, regretting and being afraid every day After spending time in the emotions, I began to loathe myself again.

Sometimes she even had the idea of ​​self-harm, and once when she was looking at Huo Shishen's sharp razor blades by the bathtub, she subconsciously picked them up, just when Huo Shishen went into the bathroom and saw them In one scene, the pupils shrank suddenly, he took a step forward and snatched the thing from her hand, and hugged her tightly.

The blade in Ning Xiaoman's hand fell to the ground, neither of them spoke, they just hugged like that for a long time.

After that, nothing sharp appeared in the house again.

Huo Shishen felt that he also had a mental illness. When he met with the psychiatrist, they told him that this was just a normal part of the withdrawal reaction. If you want her to be less dependent on you, you will definitely go through a very difficult time. Serious rebound, as long as she gets through this rebound, she will feel much better. How long will this period last? The psychiatrists looked at each other and shook their heads. There is no clear indicator for this.

The more she relies on you, the more she can't get out of this period of time, maybe the longer it will last, Mr. Huo has to be mentally prepared.

Huo Shishen didn't speak, he closed his eyes and leaned on the sofa behind him. Si Wen walked up to him and patted him on the shoulder. You are also doing it for her own good, so don't blame yourself too much.

Huo Shishen suddenly laughed at himself. In fact, I didn't take the initiative to divorce her early, not because she needed me, but because I also needed her. Divorcing her was not just because Ning Xiaoman could have a happy life. A very healthy personality prevents her from having such a deep dependence and allows her to have a normal mentality. It is also because of another thing. Only he, Ning Xiaoman, knows about the rebirth in this world, but there is another There is one thing that even Ning Xiaoman doesn't know, that is, he clearly remembers what happened after the death of Ning Xiaoman in his previous life.

The tragedies they experienced were not all accidental, but there was a pusher behind all these tragedies, first Tan Xinran, Liao Yangxu, Mu Yu, Li Yishuang, then Huo Yashi, Lin Yiran... and finally Pu Zimo, Simmons.

These people seem to be unrelated, but they all sent out more or less the same message when they left the field, that is, the game is far from over, and the main messenger behind it is definitely not just Simmons alone , There is also a behind-the-scenes black hand who caused Ning Xiaoman's death.

Before saving that person, he absolutely can't put Ning Xiaoman in any danger again. If he loses her again this time, he has no way to be sure that they can have another life, maybe this is the final outcome.

(End of this chapter)