Because I love you

Chapter 10 The Boy and the Queen

Zou Yuxiang looked at Li Xiaoxian calmly, "It was the first semester of freshman year, and at that time, we had just separated."

"In order to relieve your own pain, go after a completely different person, to forget a person you like but can't be together."

Li Xiaoxian rolled his eyes, "Is that the case?"

"Yes."

Zou Yuxiang's sincerity made Li Xiaoxian not know what to do. Speaking of which, he still felt that Zou Yuxiang was wrong, but he also felt that he shouldn't accuse Zou Yuxiang of being wrong.

Or because of their own mood.

Not being able to be together is already sad enough, but looking at other couples every day, isn't it just as painful?
I looked at Zou Yuxiang, there was no expression on his face.Maybe it will be like this at this time, I also know Zou Yuxiang's sadness, but unfortunately I can't say a word, I don't know how to comfort Zou Yuxiang.

Zou Yuxiang raised his head and smiled at me after a while, "Li Xiaoxian, do you think I'm particularly bad?"

I paused, smiled and shook my head, "At least, you haven't changed your mind about your first love until now. I admire you very much. But the feeling may still be a little wrong."

"I know too."

Zou Yuxiang sighed, after all he raised his head and looked out melancholy, with a trace of sadness.

I also sighed, stood up and patted Zou Yuxiang on the shoulder, and walked out silently.At this moment, I am afraid that only Zou Yuxiang himself can turn over God, don't think about anything.But unfortunately, I still made a mistake.

I sat down in one place without thinking, but I didn't expect to go to the radio station. Maybe there is no one here except the dormitory. "Why are you here alone?" Li Le came in with something and saw me, obviously taken aback.

I was taken aback, looked up and saw Li Le, "Why are you here now?"

"Sorting out the materials of the student union."

Li Le looked at me like an idiot, "Are you okay?"

I shook my head, "You are just joking, how could something happen to me. Do you think I look like something is wrong?"

Li Le sat down and looked at me with a smirk, "What do you say yourself? If others say it's okay, I'll believe it, but if it's you, I'd rather believe it's a ghost, that's why you say that."

I stared at Li Le with wide eyes, "Hey, no matter what, I'm your senior sister. It's fine if you don't call me sister, but you still come to hurt me! Li Le, have you made a mistake!"

Li Le smiled alone, "Then what's the matter with you?"

I raised my head and didn't speak, and finally sighed, "Actually, it's hard to say, the main thing is that I promised not to say this, so I'm sorry."

"What does that matter."

Li Le smiled and turned to look at the computer, "I still have to finish these."

"Ah."

I replied casually, and suddenly remembered something, and rushed to Li Le, "Li Le, is there someone who is always in your heart? Is there anyone you can't let go of?" Li Le's body froze, inexplicably Looking at me, I laughed a bit, "Let me ask you, do you have any love stories?"

Li Le raised his head and a trace of loneliness flashed in his eyes.

I nodded, "There must be, then would you like to tell me?"

"I don't want to!" Li Le said cleanly.

I pouted and looked at Li Le, "It's really unreasonable."

"Hey, Li Xiaoxian, are you being unreasonable or I am being unreasonable!"

"Of course it's you! There's no one else here, so it's you, so it's me!" I rolled my eyes and sat down by the way.

Li Le pointed at me with staring eyes, "I'm being unreasonable!"

"I'm also a girl, right? How can you just say that you don't want to? You should be more tactful."

I smirked and raised my fingers.

Li Le looked at me suspiciously, "Then, what should I say?"

"You should say two words, you can't say no!" I induced Li Le, "So do you know how to say it?"

Li Le blinked, "You mean, you want me to say, yes?"

"Ah!" I jumped up in an instant, "You agreed? Okay, then tell me."

Li Le looked at me with black lines all over his head, "When did I say that?"

"Just now."

I pointed at Li Le as if grasping the handle, "Yes, you said it. I said just now that you are a man, so you can't keep your promises, right? Li Le, let me tell you, as a man, you should be patient. Live in loneliness and withstand temptation."

"All right."

Li Le raised his hand speechlessly, "Then I'll tell you my story. In fact, the very vulgar thing is just a secret love, and girls don't know it yet."

I groaned, and nodded to Li Le, "Actually, most of them had this thought in high school. Let me tell you why, the little girls at that time liked mature men, so at that time, their thoughts were all on the teacher. Now, who will pay attention to you little boys. As for you boys, you can't get anyone you like. "

Li Le nodded silently, "Isn't it all like this?"

"I do not know either."

I smiled and sat down in front of Li Le, "Then, tell me about your business?"

Li Le raised his head and thought for a while, "Actually, I don't know what to say, because I don't even remember when I started liking her. Maybe it's because I like her so much that I forget it."

"So, where is she now?"

Li Le lowered his head and smiled wryly, "She is already married."

I was taken aback, and smiled embarrassingly, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to ask. Don't be angry."

"fine."

Li Le smiled, "It's over."

I stick out my tongue, it is indeed passed by others, but it is obviously impossible to pass by you.Still talking hard in front of me.I rolled my eyes just in time to be seen by Li Le.Li Le lowered his head and smiled, but he didn't break my smile.

"It was also in the third year of high school. She and I sat not too far away, but I dared not tell her that I liked her, because her grades were particularly good, and I was the most inconspicuous one in the class with very good grades. I’m a poor person, so I usually have to think about it for a long time before I even dare to go there. Although I felt painful at that time, I also felt very hopeful in my heart. So I also read books well, and I can catch up with her footsteps.”

Li Long smiled sadly, "Do you think I'm very stupid?"

I shook my head, "Actually, it's not wrong to like someone no matter what, and it can't be said to be stupid, but you have made yourself so miserable."

Li Long looked at other places, "That's why I didn't dare to talk to her, I could only watch silently. I even remember the few words I said to her at that time, because there were not many words in total. I I feel very ridiculous to myself.”

"So you don't like to talk much now? Is it a problem that fell at that time or has it been like this for a long time?"

Li Long stared at me with wide eyes in surprise, "Why don't I talk anymore? Isn't it pretty good every time I talk to you? Where did you see that I don't talk much?"

I covered my mouth and smiled, "At first you just didn't want to talk, and I thought you hated me. Now it seems that you really hate me, otherwise, you wouldn't be silent like this."

"No, no, how could I hate you? It's just because you are too enthusiastic, so I don't know how to talk to you. I was misunderstood by you without thinking, should I say sorry?" Li Le smiled Look at me.

"I'm not so unmeasured, okay? Besides, I don't have that self-confidence."

Li Le held back his smile and looked at me, "The following is my story."

Li Le belonged to the kind of person in the class who didn't get very good grades, but worked hard slowly and didn't want to give up.So every time the teacher came over, Li Le was either reading a book or in a daze, basically there was no third state.

It's just that after entering the third year of high school, the discipline is much stricter, but the teacher doesn't care much. After all, so many students can't manage it. On the other hand, it's also because, at this time, it all depends on everyone's own consciousness.There is nothing to say.

three meters.In fact, it was only three meters away. Li Le raised his head and looked at Liu who was sitting in front of him. The distance between the two was three meters, but Li Le looked at it from a very long distance.

Even Li Le was not sure about many things, but with a distance of three meters, Li Le just didn't dare to say a word to Liu.Then three meters became the furthest distance in the world.

"I'm happy to tell everyone."

The old class leaned on the podium and looked at the students in the class with joy, "This time, Liu is No. 1 in our monthly exam. If you keep this score until the day of the college entrance examination, you will definitely be admitted to a good school. The other students It’s time to work hard.”

After Lao Ban finished speaking, he aimed at Li Le intentionally or unintentionally.

Li Le raised his head and looked at the place where Liu was sitting. It seemed that the gap of three meters seemed to be getting farther and farther away.

A man's masculinity seems to be innate, no matter what kind of man he is, he doesn't want a girl who is with him to be better than him.

If one day, a man has to rely on a woman to support him, even if the woman feels that it doesn't matter, the man will also feel that he has been insulted, and he can't hold his head up no matter what.Therefore, since ancient times, men have always been stronger than women, and they will feel a lot of comfort in their hearts.

That's why I said that I'm in the right family; that's why I said, wait, I'll come back to marry you after I pass the exam; that's why I said...

Li Le is full of such feelings now, even if he likes it, he dare not approach her.Even if it is a secret love, I dare not tell anyone.At a young age, machismo began.

Liu sat and wrote his homework very peacefully, this kind of praise was not once or twice, Liu had long been used to such scenes, and every time the test results came out, there would always be such a scene.

Praise and blows, chips of envy and jealousy.Liu's expressionless face is already Liu's most common expression. Perhaps it is because of the pressure of the third year of high school that has worn away all of Liu's thoughts. He just knows to study hard and accept everyone's envy or jealousy.

Seeing that Liu Lian's sitting posture did not change, Li Le knew Liu's indifference.Compared with Liu, I feel like I'm just messing around every day, looking forward to ending everything soon.

What about after the college entrance examination?

Li Le didn't even think about this question. This is his last exam, and he won't have it again in the future.Or it is also the chance to see Liu in the last few months. In this life, I can only hear about Liu from other students.

It's ridiculous and sad.A person I like, her news actually requires others to tell me.Li Le rested his chin and looked out the window, when the weather started to turn cold.

"Li Le, have you handed in your homework yet?" Liu frowned and looked at Li Le expressionlessly.

Li Le was taken aback, and hurriedly took out his homework book, but was stunned for a moment, "I haven't written it yet."

"It's you who make us unable to hand in our homework every time. Why don't we know how to fix this problem now."

Liu's tone was full of dissatisfaction, "Should I say that you are procrastinating or that you don't want to do your homework at all? Li Le, can you give me an explanation."

"I……"

Li Le didn't know how to explain.

"okay."

Liu casually threw a homework book to Li Le, "I know you don't know how to write at all, so hurry up and copy it so that I can take the homework to the teacher. It's only time for this class, so hurry up."

Liu turned around with a look of disdain on his lips, "It's a waste of my time."

Li Le held the homework book in his hand blankly, not knowing how to start copying.What Liu said was right, Li Le couldn't do the homework assigned by the teacher at all, or he couldn't even understand the meaning of the questions.

In other words, the only thing that can be understood is the Chinese characters in the title.It wasn't that Li Le deliberately delayed the handover, it was just that he didn't know how to hand it in.

Because I can't do the topic, I don't even have the desire to write.

It's a pity that Liu is so responsible, he won't let anyone off when collecting homework, and must hand in all of them.

In Li Le's heart, Liu is a strong woman.

"Are you so afraid of her?" Ouyang, Li Le's deskmate, looked at Li Le jokingly, "It's just homework. You see, she doesn't dare to accept my homework now. I haven't handed it in several times."

"But she came here and asked for her homework directly, and I can't help if I don't write it."

Ouyang approached Li Le strangely, "Do you like Liu?"

Li Le was taken aback, and looked at Ouyang in a panic, "No, how could I like her."

"Then why are you so afraid of her and still obey her. Could it be because Liu is the class representative?" Ouyang rubbed his head and looked at Li Le in puzzlement.

"I just feel that it's really not good not to hand in homework. I'm already in my third year of high school."

"What homework do you do when you're in the third year of high school? We'll graduate in a few months, and the teacher doesn't care about homework, so she's still busy collecting homework every time."

Ouyang curled his lips, "Didn't you see that all the girls in our class like Liu?"

Li Le looked at Ouyang suspiciously, "How is it possible? Liuren is pretty good."

Ouyang nodded thoughtfully, "Liu and we are not in the same way. She thinks that you don't talk much and feels that you are easy to bully, so she always treats you like this. When Liu and the monitor talk, Under what circumstances did you have such a face?"

Li Le smiled awkwardly, lowered his head and continued to copy homework.In fact, there was nothing wrong with what Ouyang said, but Li Le's thoughts were all on Liu, so he didn't notice what the classmates thought of Liu.

Although Li Le was not a good student, he basically kept his ears to the outside world.

It seems that those gossips really don't care about Li Le's affairs.

Ouyang watched Li Le bury his head in copying homework, sighed and did not speak.For an obsessed person, it seems futile to say anything now.At this time, you only need to wait for that person to wake up by himself before you can see clearly what happened around you.

The status of the goddess cannot be shaken.

When Li Le gave Liu his homework after class, Liu was eating.

"I finished my homework."

Li Le was a little flustered and didn't know what to do with his homework.

While eating, Liu nodded to his table, signaling Li Le to put down his homework.Li Le looked at Liu suspiciously, not knowing what Liu's gesture meant, so he stood there like an idiot without moving.

Liu frowned and looked at Li Le, "Do you have anything else to do?"

"Uh, no."

Li Le looked at Liu in bewilderment.

"Then you can leave after putting down your homework, what are you still standing here for?" Liu sneered, and reached out to grab the homework from Li Le's hand, "Okay, it's all right."

"Oh."

Li Le blushed and felt that he was an idiot, and returned to his seat with his head down in embarrassment.

Liu Leng snorted, sorted out and counted the homework, and knew who hadn't handed in, so he counted and wanted to send it to the teacher.

Suddenly looking back, the man was in the dimly lit place.

Li Le read the book and knew that this meant that he had been looking for someone for a long time, and when he couldn't hold on, he turned around and found that the person he was looking for was right behind him.

Is that really what you mean?Or, when you like someone, your eyes will always look at that person, unwilling to look away.Finally one day I was hurt all over by the person I like, so I will let go with distress.

Only when I calm down at this time will I suddenly realize that there is always someone who likes me behind me, silently waiting.

Many people misunderstand about love.

Or love itself has nothing to do with liking.

Like or love is just a feeling.But love is a kind of responsibility and waiting to be together forever.

I love you, three simple words contain too much content.

Many men can't afford to say these three words.

Li Le lay on the bed and woke up suddenly, it was six o'clock sharp again.It seems that this habit has been formed since I entered the third year of high school, and I will wake up at six o'clock every day for no reason.Then wearing the stars and wearing the moon never saw the sun again, it seemed that he suddenly lost sight of the light.

Just like his silent liking now, it seems that Li Le secretly understands in his heart that this kind of liking is death at the sight of light.

When Li Le is willing to say out loud what he likes, maybe the headline in the school the next day will be that Li Le is not afraid of death to confess his love to Liu.

Li Le smiled wryly, and continued his silence.When did I start to have this habit, and I couldn't even let go of talking.

Liu stood in front of the door with a notebook in his hand, smiled contemptuously, and lowered his head to write something on the notebook, "People in your area seem to be late every day. I should say that you are deliberately looking for trouble every day, or are you really studying?" I was too tired, so I got up late."

"There is also a traffic jam on the road."

Ouyang stood at the door and replied unceremoniously.

"Traffic jams are also a matter of cars. I guess you will never be able to afford to drive a car in traffic jams in your life."

Liu looked expressionlessly at Li Le, Ouyang and a few classmates who were late.

"A traffic jam is a car, but so are cars."

Ouyang paused, "The bus."

"Actually, you can come here by bicycle every day."

Liu looked at Ouyang with disdain, "Take the bus every day, and it will be several hundred by the time of the college entrance examination, right? It's enough to buy you a bicycle, and you won't be late."

Liu put away his notebook and looked proudly at the students who were late at the door, "I'm sorry, I have written down your names, please stand at the door and read early."

Liu raised his head to look at them, then turned around and entered the classroom with a snort.

Ouyang pointed at Liu's back, "Li Le, have you seen it? That's the kind of person she is, you say she is annoying."

Li Le lowered his head, not knowing why he still liked Liu very much.

I can't help myself like it.

Ouyang looked at Li Le's appearance, sighed alone, turned around and talked to other students, and didn't mean to talk to Li Le.

Li Le looked at Liu who was sitting in the classroom. Liu was indeed very proud, but Li Le felt that it was because he had the capital to be proud. If it was someone else, how could he not be proud with such capital.Li Le wondered if one day he could do it himself, would he be so arrogant.

It is sunny in the east and rainy in the west, but it is said that ruthless is sentient.

What should I say then?The teacher mentioned the meaning of the poem when he was speaking, Li Le thought, in fact, the author also likes that woman, right?Although doing such a thing that makes the woman feel hatred, it is actually to keep the woman's safety.It's a pity that women will never understand that there is deep love behind the seemingly ruthless.

It turns out that even if it is love, we can not be together.

Li Le raised his head and looked at Liu's place. How long is it before the college entrance examination starts?This year's Chinese New Year is very late, and there are only three months left to come back after the Chinese New Year.Li Le suddenly hoped that the Chinese New Year would not be so early.

"Does everyone know about this sports meeting?" Old Ban looked at everyone, "Is anyone participating?"

"Teacher, do we have to participate in the third year of high school?" The monitor raised his hand and asked, "Then how do we go to class?"

"The third year of high school will also participate, but not all of them will be present. At that time, only those who participated in the sports meeting will be able to attend. All the students in the first and second year of high school will be present."

The old class explained to everyone with a smile.

The class monitor nodded, "Then I would like to make a suggestion, let the students with poor grades participate, so as not to affect our study time."

Lao Ban was a little embarrassed, raised his head and looked at everyone, "What's your opinion?"

"Of course I agree."

Many students raised their hands in agreement.

Li Le watched Liu raise his hand helplessly, feeling a slight chill in his heart.

"Well."

The old class clapped their hands and ordered a few people, "Ouyang, Li Le, and the rest of you, sign up with the get out of class monitor after class to see what competitions you participate in. The ranking is not important, as long as there are people in our class to participate gone."

Ouyang snorted coldly, and continued to lie on the table and pretend to be dead.

Li Le looked at Liu's back, and Liu never looked back. In Li Le's impression, Liu never looked back, and this has become Liu's habit.

When a person forms a habit, it is difficult to change his habit, so Li Le is always comforting himself, don't care, she is still the goddess in his heart.

"I guessed that the old class just wanted to push us up."

Ouyang sighed, "Old Ban only thinks of our brothers at this time. Li Le, what are you participating in?"

"I do not know either."

Li Le lowered his head with a shy face, "I don't even know how it's better than that."

"There is no need for these, as long as you play at that time, who will care about our results." Ouyang shook his head, "Even if we won the first place, the old class will never mention it. "

"Then I'll take part in the sprint."

Li Le picked something he could still do.

"Then I will report you to the monitor."

Ouyang laughed and stood up.

Li Le hummed and didn't speak. Sometimes I felt that what Ouyang said was not bad at all, but Li Le was unwilling to give up on himself in his heart. Even if everyone in the world gave up on himself, he couldn't give up on himself.

Li Le seemed to be the least pessimistic among the group of students, but unfortunately he couldn't reach his goal every time.Every disappointment can't dispel the thoughts in Li Le's heart.

It was half good and half bad, but Li Le didn't dare to ask Liu even if he didn't know the question.Because there are too many not, Li Le feels like an idiot in front of Liu, which will damage his image in Liu's heart.

It's just the current image, so where is it going?

Feel bad every time.

"I've signed up for you, but the squad leader has already written your name on it."

Ouyang wiped his hands and looked very excited, "This time we can skip class justly. Anyway, we have our names."

"I don't want to skip class."

Li Le looked at Ouyang honestly, "I have never skipped class since I grew up."

"Then you have to pay attention, because this time is something that the old class knows, and you can't do it if you don't go."

Ouyang frowned, "Speaking of which, we're going to the sports meeting, but we don't even have a cheerleader."

"It would be a pretty good thing if I could buy water for you with the class fee."

Li Le is very self-aware.But when it comes to liking someone, Li Le can never see clearly.

Some people, even if they have self-knowledge, are still unwilling to see their own form clearly, even if they know the consequences, they still move forward and do their own things indifferently.

This kind of thinking may be courage.

Your eyes look straight ahead and it never occurs to you to stop and look back.Maybe when you look back, you know that there is someone who likes you behind you, waiting silently.

Li Le is writing a diary, which is strange to say. In the past, the diary was a homework assigned by the teacher, but he didn't want to write it in his heart, and just dealt with it as homework.

But now when the diary is not homework, I have written more, and the writing has a certain flavor, which is not like the plain and no memory space at the beginning.

When Li Le is free now, he likes to read his diary and think about what he has experienced.Then I felt that time passed so fast, but in the blink of an eye, it was already gone.

Li Le raised his head and looked at Liu's seat. In fact, it was only three meters away, but looking at you now, he couldn't get past it.Even if it is impossible, but when I think back, at least I know that I still had the feeling of liking at that time.Even if it's not the ending I want, at least I like someone deeply and understand the taste and bitter fruit.

Li Le is studying liberal arts, but the moment when his literary talent exploded was when he liked Liu, which didn't seem to be the case with his previous self.Li Le was taken aback when he thought of this, what was he like before?It seems to have been forgotten long ago.It's just why, for your liking, I can't even remember what I was like before.

Li Le held his head. Ever since he met Liu, since he started to like to write a diary, he said less and less. Li Le felt that he was about to close himself.Still can't get rid of it.

But what kind of ending do you want?Do they look at each other from a distance like this, or do they want Liu to know what he likes and then pursue it, and finally be together?Li Le felt that no matter what it was, it was extremely unrealistic.

Ouyang sighed and looked outside, "Li Le, Chinese New Year is coming soon."

"I know."

"what's your plan?"

"No."

Ouyang stared blankly at Li Le, "Actually, I don't have any plans. I feel like I'm going to die soon, but I don't know what to do."

Li Le also suddenly felt melancholy, and looked outside together with Ouyang, Ouyang sighed, "Why do you say that people study so well, in fact, you say, they are also under a lot of pressure."

Li Le suddenly thought of something, raised his head and looked at Liu sitting in front, "I heard that if a person is stressed, he can drink some milk every day to relieve it. Unfortunately, I am not blessed to enjoy milk."

"Can Milk Really Relieve Stress?"

Ouyang nodded, "I heard what others said."

Li Le looked at Liu, and a little thought slowly rose in his heart.

"oops."

Liu Yi was taken aback, and took out a pack of milk from the hole in the table, "Who put this in?"

Liu's colleague looked at her, and looked at Liu with a smile, "Maybe it's the person you like, otherwise who would be so thoughtful."

"Really?" Liu looked at the same person in surprise.

The same person laughed and teased Liu, "That's still fake."

Liu smiled and raised his head to look at the monitor on the other side of the classroom, smiled coquettishly, and put the milk in his hand without moving.But the whole morning was messed up, looking at the monitor from time to time.Reading is not so focused.

Li Le has been paying attention to Liu's expression, and when he sees Liu raising his head shyly, Li Le immediately lowers his head in panic, but at that moment, he sees that Liu's position is the monitor's seat.

Li Le was stunned for a moment, a bit of bitterness flickered at the corner of his mouth, if Liu could drink the milk, then no matter who Liu thought the milk belonged to, Li Le wouldn't care.Li Le's thoughts and friendship were overwhelmed by the moment Liu looked at the monitor's seat.

Every day is a dream, but when does the dream really wake up?
As long as the person you like is still by your side, you will dream.Even if I know something and see something, I still can't wake up.

Li Le wrapped himself in a very hard shell, as long as no one came to ruthlessly pry open that shell, he would live in a dream forever and would deceive himself.

How good, how cute, how understanding, how ladylike, and how good-tempered the goddess I like... I can't see myself clearly, and I can't see others too.

Li Le would bring a box of milk every day and put it quietly in Liu's table hole. It seemed that only in this way could he feel that he cared about Liu every day and did not leave.

After a long time, even Ouyang began to know about Li Le's milk.

May's nervousness exceeded any other time, and even Li Le himself felt a little restless and restless.

Liu Jiao walked into the classroom with a smile, but saw Li Le standing next to her desk, holding a box of milk in her hand. Liu immediately looked at Li Le with a blank expression, "What are you doing? Why did you come to me to get the class monitor?" Give me milk!"

"I……"

Li Le stared at Liu blankly, unable to say a word.

"What are you!" Liu raised his eyebrows and looked at Li Le, and stretched out his hand to snatch the milk from Li Le's hand. "It's really annoying. If you want to drink, won't you buy it yourself? Or if you just say it, I will What's the matter if you don't give it to you? You actually ran over and took it directly. Who do you think you are?"

Li Le stood there blankly, a little at a loss.

"Are you making a mistake?" Ouyang couldn't stand it anymore, and ran over to look at Liu angrily, "Why are you scolding Li Le? Let me tell you, you really thought that the monitor gave you the milk, but it wasn't. Li Le bought it for you for such a long time, and then put it in your table hole. The milk you drank for such a long time belongs to Li Le!"

Liu looked at Ouyang in disbelief, "Is what you said true?"

"Yes!"

(End of this chapter)