Because I love you

Chapter 3 Heartbreaking Despair

She looked at me very satisfied, as if she cared about what others thought of Zou Yuxiang.

I smiled and praised Zou Yuxiang, but she just looked at me with a smile, very satisfied, "At that time, it seemed that there were very few girls, or there were quite a few girls, but because there were slightly more children in the family, so girls The children are all working at home. So there are not many girls who come out to play. I looked up at Zou Yuxiang, his back was facing the sun and his body was full of the sun's light and shadow, looking at me was a little dazzling."

I sat at the table and looked at her calmly with the corners of my mouth raised.She is a very ladylike girl with a gentle smile on her face, "At that time Zou Yuxiang smiled very brightly when he saw me. I still don't understand how a child can have such a sunny smile, but he The sunshine instantly overwhelmed me there.”

"When he saw me alone there, he smiled softly and said, let's play together. Before I could react, I was pulled up by Zou Yuxiang. Pull it up, still staring at Zou Yuxiang blankly."

She laughed at herself, "Thinking about it, the first impression I gave Zou Yuxiang was that I was dumb, that's why he always laughed at me and called me a child."

I lowered my head and smiled, "I was so young at that time, if I don't have a deep memory or don't have a special memory, I must not be able to remember the expression at that time."

Her face darkened immediately, and she gave a wry smile, "That's not bad. Thinking about it now, I'm afraid Zou Yuxiang doesn't even remember the first time we met. Not to mention, it's my appearance at that time. "

I looked at her face and realized that I had said the wrong thing. I was thinking of comforting the girl in front of me, but I didn't expect that I was stimulated instead.It's just that I looked at her, but I couldn't think of words of comfort.Maybe it is, I am not a person who is good at comforting.

She calmed down for a while, then smiled at me, "I knew him at that time, and then I knew his name. Later, every time I went to my relative's house, I liked to visit him to play. Do you think this is a childhood sweetheart growing up?" ?”

I nodded to her, but I didn't dare to speak anymore, she smiled at me, "From then on, I really like to play with him, but because I like him, Zou Yuxiang and I are together , Actually, I also know that he just regards me as his sister. Although I know how he feels about me, I have been deceiving myself, telling myself that one day he will accept me, and he will look back and see I was always by his side."

She looked at me, "Actually, I also feel very stupid now. A person has no feelings for you at the beginning, how can he change in the future, how can he have feelings for me."

"We have always lived in peace, playing and fighting together. I worked hard to play the role of my little sister, hoping to be by his side for a longer time. And he, I don't know if he knows or really doesn't know. He has been I concealed it very well, saying that he is my elder brother and will take good care of me. I also concealed my thoughts very well, and stayed by his side all the time. Until..."

She closed her mouth and smiled at me, "Actually, there is nothing bad to say. When I was with Zou Yuxiang in high school, he suddenly talked about a girl very excitedly every day, and that girl's name appeared frequently. On his lips, it takes a long time to talk almost every time."

"Zou Yuxiang pays close attention to that girl, and Zou Yuxiang makes every move very clear. I knew that someone really appeared. I was caught off guard, and even I was not prepared. I was not prepared in my heart at all. I was not ready to watch He has someone he likes, and he's not ready to see him like this again in the future."

"Then, Zou Yuxiang was not like he used to be able to play with me for a long time. The time became less and less, and I realized that they were already together. But at that time, they were still in high school, so they were considered to be together , and there is no way for the family to know, and you should also know that if you fall in love early, you will be opposed by all the teachers and parents."

"So Zou Yuxiang and that girl were together in secret. I knew that I would feel very sad in the future, but I didn't dare to say anything, so I had to pretend that I didn't feel anything, and threatened Zou Yuxiang with a smile and asked me to eat candy. If you don’t invite me to eat candy, I’ll go and inform. In fact, he also knew that I was just talking, but he still bought me a lot of candy with a doting smile.”

"Being around him, I can only hide myself like this, so that it has become a habit now. I feel that I am not myself at all in front of him, as if I am completely relaxed when I am with others. At the same time, I was very afraid that I would make a mistake. People who know me say that is not me, but what am I like?"

She looked at other places in confusion, "I don't know myself. But I just dare not show my true appearance. But when I saw his girlfriend, I suddenly felt heartache because I know, in fact, I am like that, except for the appearance, there are many similarities in personality and temper."

(End of this chapter)