One thought in love

Chapter 263
Ning Wan sat back on the sofa again, but there was about half a person's distance between him and him.

Ning Wan looked at Xiao Yunqing, and after a while, she said, "Do you still remember the day I was kicked out of the house? That day was my birthday, and at that time, I was already pregnant for more than two months." Ning Wan looked at Xiao Yunqing and said.

Xiao Yunqing's shoulders visibly stiffened, and the hands on her legs clenched into fists.

"Actually, in those two months, because of what happened to you and Jianing, I was already in a bad mood, and I had no appetite at all. That time I found you and Jianing in the hospital, not because of any stomach upset, but It's for a pregnancy test."

"I want you to stay with me, but you were busy with Jianing back then." Ning Wan smiled, "But I was foolish enough to think that you were busy with work, so I thought very considerately, forget it, make sure Let me tell you!"

"But I didn't expect that when I was sure and wanted to tell you, I found out that you were with Jianing." Ning Wan twitched one corner of her lips ironically.

"Do you know how I felt at that time? The feeling of being cheated and betrayed." Ning Wan took a deep breath, "I trust you so much, I have never doubted you at all. Whatever you say, I will What do you believe in?"

"In the end, you guys told me how stupid my trust was. I started thinking about it, I started thinking about what happened to you and Carrian, what were you doing, when you were not around, you told me when you were at work , are you also accompanying Carrian?"

"I didn't have any sense of security at the time, and I didn't have any appetite," Ning Wan said. "I vomited whatever I ate. I ate desperately, trying to make up for what I vomited, but it didn't help at all."

"I vomited it up, vomited it up, and there was nothing left. In the end, it was the same as nothing. I started to force myself to eat Hesai, but it didn't work."

"Why didn't you tell me..." Xiao Yunqing blamed herself.

No wonder, at that time he saw her eating so much, but her body was getting thinner day by day.

"Is it useful to tell you? Do you have time to listen? You don't even have time to eat with me." Ning Wan said mockingly.

"I'm sorry..." Xiao Yunqing's voice was hoarse, her heart ached for her back then, and she hated her back then.

"On my birthday, I was bullied by Mrs. Ning and your mother, but I didn't ask for your help." Ning Wan said.

"Because I don't know what you will do, I have no confidence in you at all. I don't know how far you will keep your promise."

Xiao Yunqing's nails were embedded in the flesh of her palm, but she didn't feel any pain.

What a jerk he was then, Ning Wan couldn't even trust him at all!

He was in pain all over his body, tight pain, if he hadn't been so messed up, how could Ning Wan have left him for so long!

This is really self-inflicted!

Ning Wan smiled: "But I don't know, there are bombs waiting for me."

"I think you must be wondering how I'm alright?" Ning Wan asked, "It was Wei Ziqi who saved me."

"At the beginning, I did him a favor in exchange for a promise from him. He knew there was an explosion, so he asked He Yuanfang to save me." Ning Wan said, "I think, if He Yuanfang did it back then, a little If there is a slight mistake, Qingqing and I will not be here anymore."

"Every time I see Qingqing, I think of the scene at that time, and I break out in a cold sweat. This daughter was bought by me with great luck. Otherwise, even if the injury I suffered was serious, it might be just It’s okay to be able to barely keep myself, but I can’t keep Qingqing.”

"But even though Qingqing and I escaped from the explosion, my spirits are still not good. Because of you, because of my sudden change of identity, my original family members didn't recognize me, and I got depression."

"The doctor said, if I go on like this, the child will be gone."

With tears in her eyes, Ning Wan sniffed vigorously: "I can't be such an irresponsible mother, I can't kill my child with my own hands. So no matter how uncomfortable I am, I will force myself to heal."

"During the treatment, I was more serious than before. Although I vomited before, I could stuff food into my mouth and swallow it. But during that time, I felt like vomiting when I smelled food, let alone Put them in your mouth."

"At that time, I could only rely on infusion of nutrient solution to maintain it, but I couldn't do it all the time." Ning Wan said, "I worked hard to recover, and later, I gradually improved a lot, and I can eat normally."

"But I dare not come back, I am afraid that if I come back, I will encounter everything in T City again, and I will fall ill again. I can't even guarantee that when I fall ill again, will I have the courage to continue treatment, will I want to Just let it die!"

Ning Wan sniffed and choked up: "Because I really had the idea of ​​death at the beginning."

Xiao Yunqing gritted her teeth, he didn't know, he almost lost her!
But he didn't know it all the time, he didn't know anything!
He just thought she didn't forgive him, but he didn't know that she had suffered so much!

When she was so uncomfortable, so vulnerable, when she needed someone the most, he was not by her side.

What a jerk he is!

Total jerk!
He kept saying that he was doing her best and protecting her, but in the end, he was the one who hurt her the most!
He wanted to protect her, but he hurt her!

What's the difference between him like this and Ling Moyuan who he looked down on back then!
Xiao Yunqing clenched her fists forcefully, she couldn't even forgive herself.

His whole body tensed up forbearance, he really wanted to kill himself!
Even if he died thousands of times, he couldn't compare to the grievances Ning Wan suffered!
Nothing can make up for the harm Ning Wan suffered!
Ning Wan laughed at herself: "You know, people who suffer from depression usually choose to commit suicide when they get serious. But fortunately, the doctor said that I am still in the early stage and will be fine, and asked me to control my emotions. "

"For Qingqing, I tried my best to make myself think of happy things, but I found that I couldn't do it." Ning Wan said, "I was very happy when I was with you in the past, but every time I think of those happy things, the camera It will always turn to the matter between you and Jianing unconsciously."

"In this way, even if it is a happy thing, it will become unhappy." Ning Wan said lightly.

Looking at her calm expression, there was no wave in her eyes, as if what she was talking about was not her own business at all, and people could not see the pain she had suffered in the past from her expression.

But the more this happened, the more pain Xiao Yunqing felt in his heart.

Ning Wan said it lightly, but he could hear the suffering she had suffered in the past.

That kind of mental torture is far from the pain of poverty.Physical torture can't be compared.

It attacks people's spirits, and when they meet people who are a little weak, they can be defeated fundamentally, and they can't get back up again, just living in a muddle like that.

The more this understatement, the greater the pain she suffered in the past!

However, Ning Wan survived like this, and she was even more elegant!
From the inside to the outside, there is a self-confidence from the bone marrow that was not there before!

"Besides, another reason why I didn't come back is because I'm not sure." Ning Wan looked at him, and met his black eyes straight, looking so seriously that she wanted to look deep into his eyes.As if into his soul.

"I'm not sure if you can protect my child well. My Qingqing almost died in that explosion, but you have no defense at all. I don't know if there will be a second or third time !"

"I don't know, if Jianing deals with me and the child in my womb, if it's going to be bad for us mother and daughter, can you deal with her ruthlessly to protect us two."

"Still, just like before, like you have been doing now, take an indifferent attitude towards her, but don't hurt her. Give her the chance to hurt us again and again."

With a cold face, Ning Wan said in a cold voice: "One injury is enough! No one will know that there will be another series of injuries, and wait so loudly for the other party to hurt her! Such a person, Must be stupid!"

"So, no matter where I start, I can't go back. I closed all the information in T City, don't think about it, don't look at it, and I put aside all the people and things related to my past."

(End of this chapter)