One thought in love

Chapter 468 The Beginning of Dog Blood 2
"When I drank too much, I came back to beat people very old-fashionedly, beat me, and beat my mother. At that time, I was better. I was 14 years old, but I still had some strength, and I could block it twice. Although in the end The result is still being beaten by him all over the body, but it is much better than my mother."

"At that time, I wanted to protect my mother. I threw myself on my mother. At that time, I was more than 1.7 meters tall, which was enough, but on the contrary, it was my mother who insisted on protecting me."

"With such a fuss, it becomes the two of us being beaten by my dad together."

"He came back every day to beat people, and when he woke up in the morning, he went out to drink again, and the financial company came to make trouble. My mother finally couldn't stand it anymore, and left one day without saying a word."

"I still remember what she said to me before she left. I was 15 years old at the time, and she told me that I was already a big kid and I could take good care of myself, saying that she believed in me and could do it by myself."

"At that time, I had the ability to think independently. I knew what she meant when she said these words. I knew she was going to leave, and she couldn't bear it anymore." Luo Yi said in a low voice.

"But I didn't stop her. I know that it is impossible to stop a person from leaving. Now that I stop her, she will leave secretly sooner or later. Moreover, there is really no need to suffer like this. "

"At that time, for a moment, I hated her. After all, I was too young at that time. After experiencing these shocks suddenly, I was a little cynical. 15 years old, I was originally a rebellious age, and I didn't like everything."

"Hate my dad for being so useless, hate my mother for being so irresponsible. Hate her for being a housewife and not being able to afford a home at all. Hate God for being so unfair. Why did you let me suffer like this? Expect."

"I even prayed to God at that time, saying that I would never spend recklessly in the future, and I would be honest, down-to-earth, and do my duty. As long as I can get through this difficult time, I won't suffer from such suffering again. "

"I told God, I don't need to go back to the old days, even if I'm an ordinary family, I'm willing to live even a poorer life for ordinary people."

"But like this, it was a luxury for me at the time. My mother still left and didn't take me with her. She might think that taking me was a drag! After all, at my age, I can work, but they don't accept child labor. , but also to spend money to support me to go to school, think about the future is a gloomy."

"I hated her at the time. How could a mother be like this. When she was there before, my dad would come back and beat me up. Even though my mom couldn't do anything, I always felt that there was someone I could rely on, and that there was still someone else. Stay with me, you won't be so scared."

"At that time, even my mother was gone, and I felt that the whole world had abandoned me. During the day, I stayed in that cold basement, looking at the moldy and damp walls, and staring at the almost empty, unfurnished house. .”

"In the basement, there is only a [-]-watt light bulb hanging from the ceiling. This is the only electrical appliance. There is no TV, not even a telephone. There is a Simmons mat on the floor, which belongs to my parents. I just use a mattress. Sleep on the floor."

"Normally, there are only three square stools when they are put away. When we eat, we put the square stools together as a table, and then my mother and I squat down to eat, because my father doesn't come back to eat. He only comes back when he wants to hit us."

"But after my mother left, there was no sound in the room at all. I sat still on Simmons's cushion, and there was no sound of my mother's footsteps in the room. When it was time for dinner, there was no sound of cooking. Li Jing is terrifying, it’s so scary that I’m going crazy.”

"In the room, there is only the sound of my breathing, inhalation, and exhalation. Can you imagine that feeling? The silence forced me to keep breathing hard, trying to maximize the sound of breathing, so that I could It won't be too quiet."

"Then, I just talk to myself, to myself. Thinking about life situations that might change in the future, like the little match girl, can only be numb by indulging in my own fantasies. .”

"The day my mother just left, I was hungry and no one cooked for me, so I went to look for something to eat. Oh, yes, my house still has electrical appliances, a small refrigerator that reaches my thigh , was picked up from outside, and there is a fire stove."

"There were still a few slices of bread left in the refrigerator, so I just ate something to fill my stomach. I ate less and less every day, and finally my stomach was so hungry that I could support it with one meal a day. I rummaged through the refrigerator every day, vegetables I scalded it with water, didn’t put any seasoning, and just ate it that way, because I don’t know how to cook.”

"In the end, when I ran out of food in the refrigerator, I went to the market, picked up some vegetable leaves that the vendors didn't want, collected them, and continued to eat them hot when I came back. Sometimes I was lucky, and there were no small pieces of fat that had been peeled off. The restaurant came to collect it, so I asked the boss for it, and cooked it with the vegetable leaves when I came back."

"Actually, those days were okay. Even if I kept going on like that, I probably wouldn't starve to death. After a while, I got used to the days when I was alone. I even forgot that my dad hadn't come back for a long time. gone."

"It's also possible that I ignored it on purpose. I also forgot what I thought at the time. Anyway, I thought it would be good if he didn't come back. It doesn't matter if he died outside."

"Those days really tortured me insanely, and it was so merciless that even my parents wanted to curse me. I wouldn't feel a little bit uncomfortable after I died, even if it was sour."

"My dad won't come back, so I won't inquire about it, don't worry about it, maybe he ran away like my mother, maybe something happened and he really died? Anyway, the days when he doesn't come back are very peaceful, I like it very much." Luo Yi murmured.

Narrating that period of time, the voice is hoarse, it sounds so heavy, it is hard to bear.

"Until one day, people from the underground bank came to the door again. I said that my father is not here, and I am the only one at home. It is useless for you to come." Luo Yi said, suddenly smiled, but the smile did not reach his eyes. On the contrary, it is a little sour.

"But do you know what they said? They said that my father was dead, and the day after my mother left, he walked across the road with the blended wine in his hand, drank the last sip, and was poisoned by alcohol. Suddenly, he fell in the middle of the road."

"At the moment he fell, another car drove up and hit him before he had time to brake, and then he was killed."

"Isn't this very dramatic?" Luo Yi raised his eyebrows, "I was dumbfounded when I heard it, and my first reaction was, isn't this kidding me?"

"I just thought a few days ago that my dad might die outside, and now someone has come to tell me that he really died outside." Luo Yi said.

"No wonder he didn't come back. It's not that he forgot about us, nor did he run away. He's dead. Otherwise, how could he not come back and beat me one day?" Luo Yi chuckled helplessly.

"Then, the people in the underground bank said, my father died, and the debt was transferred to me. The father's debt is paid by the son, and I have to be responsible for repaying the debt. How can I have money! I looked at the group of people in front of me, thinking Thinking about how to escape, suddenly another group of people came."

"It was the person who sent my father to death. They said they would be responsible for my debts, and they would also pay for my schooling, tuition and living expenses until I graduated from college."

"Do you think this is a pie in the sky?" After Luo Yi finished speaking, he shook his head again, "It shouldn't be, because it was paid for by my father's death."

"I didn't understand it at the time, but I didn't want to give up on such a good thing, because I've had enough of that life. If I can get rid of my debts, relax, and let me continue to go to school, of course I will be happy, and I will do well. cherish."

"I thought at the time that God finally opened his eyes. Maybe God heard my begging and granted my wish." Luo Yi said, "I also thought that it would be good if my mother didn't leave."

"If she is willing to wait a little longer, my father will not come to torture us after he dies. My tuition and living expenses are covered, and we can all live a good life in the future. How good would it be if she waited a little longer?"

(End of this chapter)