Chapter 297
"Slow down." I walked too fast, and there was a thumping sound when I stepped on the stairs. Jiang Moyan hurried out of the kitchen when he heard the movement, and greeted him, "What's the matter, so anxious?"
"I...he..." I pointed to the direction of the apartment in the back, and wondered if Jiang Moyan didn't know that Mu Beichuan lived in the back, and he hesitated for a long time without saying anything.
Jiang Moyan's rhinoceros eyes were tightly locked on my face, I lowered my eyelids a little guilty, raised my head after a while, and chuckled at him, "It's snowing outside, I'll go out and have a look."
"You also know that it's snowing." Jiang Moyan looked at my lower abdomen where there was no sign of pregnancy under the loose top, and the meaning in his heart was very clear.
"I'll be very careful, I'm hungry, you hurry up and cook." I tried my best to calm down and pushed the tall body in front of me.
Jiang Moyan grabbed my hand and frowned, "If you're very hungry, I'll help you get a bowl of noodles first. After eating, let's go out together."
"Oh, I'm not a toddler, so I don't fall so easily. I'll go out and have a look. I'll be back in 5 minutes." I always feel that something happened to Mu Beichuan, and the back view of him leaving at the end is in my mind It left a deep imprint, and touched my hard but occasionally hypocritical heart from time to time. I was a little anxious, and my tone naturally brought some impatience.
I kept pushing him into the kitchen, pulled my face down on purpose, and ordered like an evil landlady, "Hurry up and cook, I'll be right back for dinner!"
Jiang Moyan was about to speak, but the soup in the casserole began to rise, and when he heard the sound of water falling on the stove, he hurriedly turned around and turned on the fire to clean up the mess.
Seeing him in a hurry, I gloated and walked out with a smile. It was snowing heavily outside. When I came out of the warm living room, the cold wind went straight to my neck. When Mo Yan heard me sneeze, I covered my mouth in a hurry, pulled the zipper to the top, put on the hat on the down jacket, wrapped my hands around my body and walked out of the courtyard.
The snow turned into goose feathers, blowing erratically with the wind, and fell on my bare face. Sometimes I want Jiang Moyan to take me away from Wencheng and find a place where there is no cold to live, but My parents are old, and I can't let go. Even if the child is born in the future, if I go out for a walk, I will not stay outside for a long time.
The snow fell on the road and turned into water in an instant. I didn't dare to walk too fast. I watched from a distance a few cars parked in front of Mu Beichuan's apartment, and there were some people in the open living room. quarrel.
When I got closer, I vaguely recognized Mu Beihai and Mu Beiyang, and my brows were tightly frowned.
The Mu family was already defeated two years ago after being tormented by Mu Beichuan. I occasionally listened to gossip about Qianhui. They don't want to go out to look at people's faces to make a living, but they are forced by life, they can only go out to find a job. Generally, such a poor young master with a high degree of education would not look down on others to provide him with a job. In addition, they have been entrenched in Wencheng for a long time before, and there are many people who have offended them. As the saying goes, when the wall is overthrown by everyone, they will definitely be suppressed when they are down. You have to endure other people's cynicism from time to time, you can imagine how much they hate Mu Beichuan, and it really surprises me that they will appear here today.
The sound of their quarrel became clearer as I approached the open iron gate. I stood there frowning, moved my hat, and listened to their quarrel with bated breath.
Words and sentences were interleaved, and from these scattered words, I heard the outline of the matter.
As I thought, Mu Beichuan was seriously ill when he came back this time. Once a person is on the verge of death, he will always think of the many wrong things he did before. Out of guilt, he gathered all the members of the Mu family together and prepared to give them some The money was used as compensation, but the news was somehow known to the family who had been raising the little Kong Shutong, and they rushed over.
No, the two families started arguing endlessly because of the property issue, and they got into a big fight.
Cold, a bone-piercing sadness spread from the bottom of my heart to my limbs, I shuddered greatly, I felt sad for Mu Beichuan, fell in love with a woman I shouldn't love, lost my career, betrayed all relatives, and now I'm about to He died, but no one cared about his life and death when he wanted to atone for his sins, only cared about his money.
This is his family business, I have no right to intervene.It's just that I wanted to see him very much, so I raised my foot and put it back. I felt that it was inappropriate for me to go in because they were here, so I stepped on the vaguely piled snow on the ground, turned and entered the apartment.
I lowered my head, thinking about my thoughts, and unexpectedly fell into a warm embrace. Jiang Moyan just frowned slightly, brushed the snowflakes off my hat, and embraced me into the living room.
The hot food was already set on the dining table, I sat down in front of the dining table in silence, fiddling with the rice absent-mindedly.
"Aren't you hungry? Eat more." Jiang Moyan put a piece of fungus into my bowl, and I poked it resentfully. I hate black fungus so much, Jiang Moyan obviously did it on purpose.
"Mu Beichuan lives in the apartment behind us."
Hearing this, Jiang Moyan's elegant eating movements stopped abruptly, his face darkened instantly, and the raging chill swept through his glistening eyes, and the hand holding the chopsticks gradually exerted force, so much force, as if he was going to shake the chopsticks in his hand. Chopsticks are generally broken.
"I also found out two days ago. However, you don't have to react so much. I just learned that he has a physical problem. Maybe he won't live long."
If it weren't for the terminal illness, the Mu family, who knew Mu Beichuan's character clearly, wouldn't be so blatantly making noise in the apartment, the past, good or bad, kept flashing through his mind, and the food in his mouth was inexplicably tasteless.
"Maybe he is lying to you to win sympathy?" Jiang Moyan put down the bowls and chopsticks in his hand, his deep eyes were full of mixed emotions.
"I don't think it's possible. Even if he wants to lie to me, it's impossible for the Mu family and the Kong family to act realistically for me."
Besides, how did he know I would notice what was going on at the apartment and be curious to check it out.If it is as Jiang Moyan said, Mu Beichuan's thoughts cannot be described as human beings at all.
Jiang Moyan lowered his eyebrows in silence, and pursed his thin lips lightly.
"This is a good thing for us. We don't have to worry about him appearing to pester us after he dies." After a while, Jiang Moyan picked up the bowl and chopsticks and started eating. He knocked on my bowl, " Eat well, if you don’t eat what’s in your stomach, you should eat.”
"Suddenly I feel a little pitiful for him." I stuffed a piece of fish into my mouth, "I just heard a small cry, think about the seven-year-old child who is the same age as Yaya, but the things he has experienced are much more miserable than Yaya. "I put my hand on my lower abdomen and kept rubbing it. If I don't feel sorry for my child, how can others cherish it.
"There are so many miserable people in the world, and you don't have time to feel sorry for them." Jiang Moyan saw that I was eating slowly, so he simply sat beside me and stuffed food into my mouth, which made my cheeks bulge of.
"Jiang Moyan, you're going to choke me to death!" I said vaguely, gave him a hard look, and turned my face away to avoid his feeding again.
"This is your punishment for thinking of other men in front of me!" Jiang Moyan took a spoonful of soup and put it near my mouth, "Drink it."
Without fussing with him, I grabbed the bowl from his hand and quickly ate it by myself.
"I'm tired, I'll go upstairs to sleep first." In a bad mood, I swallowed my last bite of food and went upstairs sullenly.
"If you want to see him, wait for those people to leave later, and I will take you there."
Jiang Moyan, who was clearing the table, spoke slowly, I stopped where I was, raised my eyebrows and turned my head.
"Jiang Moyan, to be honest, you want to see him yourself."
Jiang Moyan and Mu Beichuan have known each other for so many years. It should be said that in each other's memory, each other occupies an indelible place. When parting from life and death, they should have a lot of heartfelt feelings to confide in each other.
"I'm here to satisfy your overflowing sympathy from time to time. Otherwise, I don't want to see an enemy who wants to cramp and chop bones again in this life!" Jiang Moyan gave me a look like you are dreaming, and went into the kitchen with a plate .
I curled my lips, sometimes Jiang Moyan is a bit like Gu Yan, they are both dead ducks with a hard mouth.When I went up to the second floor, I changed direction by accident and came to the balcony. Unexpectedly, I saw Mu Beichuan with a haggard face here. , he lowered his head, raised his weak hands, and moved his chapped lips lightly. The man behind him who I've seen several times glanced at me and put his ear on it.Nod your head and push the wheelchair.
"Mu Beichuan, you..."
"The boss said he won't show up here in the future. This is the last time." The person who pushed the wheelchair turned his head and nodded to me, and closed the glass window beside him. in sight.
I sighed softly, leaning lightly on the cold and heavy glass window, the past is over, my hatred for Mu Beichuan seems to be buried in the long snow at this moment, disappearing without a trace.
Hearing footsteps, I turned around and glanced at the empty balcony, and walked towards the bedroom.
Jiang Moyan frowned slightly, and stepped forward to tug at my fattening cheek.
"A pregnant woman must maintain a good mood. Otherwise, the child born will be sentimental."
"There's nothing wrong with being sentimental." I slapped his hand off, "Go and see if those people are gone." I always feel that Mu Beichuan's life may end at any moment, seeing how pitiful his life is, I want to see him before he leaves When I told him that I no longer hated him, maybe he could go away with more peace of mind.
"No." Jiang Moyan replied crisply, "Why do I think you care about him so much?" The jealousy in his voice forced me into the room regardless of my resistance.
"Jiang Moyan, stop making trouble. It has nothing to do with caring. He said before that he came here because he wanted to atone for his sins. It is conceivable that his last wish is for me to forgive him. I don't want to wait until I get old and recall the present There are regrets in my heart. We are so happy now, let’s let go of what should be let go.” I looked at Jiang Moyan with a serious expression, and seeing him standing still, I gently pushed him a few times, “Go and see , it should be regarded as doing a good deed to accumulate virtue for our children.”
"You, since I was pregnant with the child, my heart has become as soft as before." Jiang Moyan squeezed my nose hard, "If you want me to say, the thing I want to do the most is to let him die without regret!"
Although Jiang Moyan gritted his teeth, he still helped me sit by the bed, "Wait."
He came and went in a hurry. When he entered the bedroom, there were some crystals hanging on his straight hair and some drops of water on his face. As soon as he entered the door, he took out a heavy windbreaker from the closet without saying a word and put it on me. body.
"The snow is getting heavier, and it's cold outside."
As soon as I went out, a gust of cold wind blew over, mixed with snowflakes and slapped my face, bringing a burst of cold pain, I quickly buried my face in front of Jiang Moyan, fearing that I would fall, Jiang Moyan hugged me horizontally When I got up, I heard the sound of stepping on the snow, and I tilted my head slightly.
It was a vast expanse of whiteness, and the biting cold wind carried the goose-feather-like snow flakes flying in the black-stained sky. Birth, old age, sickness, death, hurt and parting are indispensable experiences in life, but in my opinion, every time I experience it, I It's like getting a little older.
The iron gate wall was covered with snowflakes, the leaving ruts were filled with glaring white snowflakes, and the dimly lit apartment gave off a sense of desolation in the dark night.
I raised my hand and pressed the doorbell a few times, but no one came out of the apartment for a long time, I frowned and pressed it a few more times, this time a little more eagerly than before, as if if I didn't hurry up, I wouldn't be able to say goodbye to him.
Just as the doorbell rang, the living room door opened, and the man who had been taking care of Mu Beichuan walked out quickly.
"Who are you looking for?" His tone revealed a hint of unkindness, "If it's the boss's relatives, you can go back. The boss has already rested, so come back another day."
"We are his...friends." I poked my head out of Jiang Moyan's arms, thinking about whether to use friends to describe our relationship.
"Please come in." When he saw my face clearly, surprise and joy were revealed in his eyes, his tense face eased, and he hurriedly opened the iron gate for us.
Jiang Moyan kept silent and didn't greet him. He asked me to hide my face in his arms and strode towards the living room.
In the living room, the heating is in full swing, and the charcoal fire in the fireplace is burning vigorously, dispelling the cold air around him, and wrapping his whole body in warmth.
Jiang Moyan put me on the ground, I briefly looked around the living room, and my eyes fell on Mu Beichuan who was sitting quietly in front of the fireplace, the red firelight reflected on his face, which made his face look better , He kept his eyes closed, as if he had fallen asleep.
"I'm Li Ang, the boss's assistant. Please sit down and wait for a while. The boss has been suffering from illness for the past two days and hasn't even had a good night's sleep." He bowed to us apologetically, "What do you want to drink? ? Coffee or tea?"
"No need." Jiang Moyan crossed his legs and leaned halfway on the sofa, his sharp eyes fell on Mu Beichuan who was quietly sitting in the wheelchair.
"What's wrong with him?"
"The boss's leg injury was not treated well in the early stage. It has been deteriorating before, but it is already in the advanced stage of bone cancer. Now he has given up treatment. To put it bluntly, he is waiting to die."
"Did he not get treatment before?" If he had both legs amputated before, maybe he could still be saved.
"The first time the boss went to the hospital, the result of the examination was that the bone cancer was in the middle stage. At that time, the cancer cells had already spread in his body. He had chemotherapy, but it didn't have much effect."
Hearing this, my eyes fell on his hat, no wonder he was always wearing a hat the first time I saw him.
"His hands?" Since the hat was worn to cover up the hair that fell out due to chemotherapy, there should be a reason for the leather gloves on his hands.
"I don't know that. I never saw him take off his gloves."
Li Ang shook his head. During the conversation, Mu Beichuan's head moved slightly, and his whole face wrinkled together in pain. I knew he was suffering from illness. Li Ang picked up the cup on the table in three steps at the same time. Cup, picked up the medicine and came to his side, quickly put the medicine on his mouth, Mu Beichuan, who was moaning from the pain, swallowed the medicine with the water Li Ang handed before his eyes were fully opened.
"Boss, do you want something to eat?"
In my eyes, Li Ang is a dedicated employee, at least much better than Mu Beichuan's relatives who only care about his money.
Mu Beichuan shook his head lightly, just about to close his eyes again, when he caught sight of us sitting on the sofa from the corner of his eye, his eyes suddenly widened, and the expression on his face instantly froze.
"They came to see you and saw that you were sleeping soundly, so they didn't call you."
Mu Beichuan nodded his head lightly, slowly raised his weak hand and waved at Li Ang, Li Ang exited the living room knowingly.
"It's great that you can still come and see me."
His voice was so feeble that we would not have heard it, were it not for the fact that the room was nothing but the faint crackle of the coals.
I thought that when I saw him in the hospital a few days ago, although he looked a little sick, his overall mental state was still good. I didn't expect his body to be so unbearable in just a few days.
"I'm not that kind. I heard that you're sick. Let me see if you're dead." The expression on Jiang Moyan's face was the same, and his black eyes were even less turbulent, as if Mu Beichuan opposite was a stranger.
Mu Beichuan smiled bitterly, "You can say that, it means that you have let go of the bastard thing I did in your heart." This sentence was a bit long, he was a little panting, I got up and poured him a glass of water and handed it to him. past.
"Why did you give up treatment?"
Until now, Jiang Moyan is still afraid that he will hurt me. Seeing me approaching, Mu Beichuan hastily followed me and held me in his arms. I can clearly feel the tension in his heart.
Mu Beichuan took the water and sipped lightly, with a bitter smile on his lips.
"I did so many wrong things back then, and my sins were serious. Whenever I was tortured by illness and couldn't sleep, their faces would appear in front of me. The guilt, guilt and illness have exhausted me physically and mentally. I I don't want to live like this anymore, and death is a kind of relief."
He spoke very slowly, so slowly that I thought he would be broken at any time. Fortunately, his willpower is very strong.As the words fell, his chest heaved violently. I never thought that he would be so weak. I felt mixed feelings in my heart.
"It's better to be alive than to be dead. Xiaoxiao cried very pitifully today." His body is already in this state, and I said that these things can't produce a miracle of his survival.
Mu Beichuan closed his eyes lightly and didn't speak, it seemed that he was also very reluctant in his heart.
The charcoal fire gradually became weaker, and I added some charcoal to it in the past.
"Mu Beichuan should go to the hospital. Even if your disease cannot be cured, the pain will always be reduced." I haven't heard of a case of bone cancer that has been cured so far, but even if this is the case, I think he is better in the hospital. It's better to die at home.
"Seeing that you are living a good life, I feel less guilty. Xiao Xiaojing is taken care of. There are not many things in the world for me to miss. Let the illness torture me so much, and reduce the deep sins on my body." Bar."
Mu Beichuan never opened his eyes again, "After you leave, close the door for me, thank you."
The fluttering voice disappeared in the living room. I stood behind him, feeling a dull pain in my heart. Things in the world are often like this. When you realize that you have lost your way and repented, it is often the end of your life. when.
"Mu Beichuan, I don't hate you anymore. Perhaps because of your existence, Jiang Moyan and I can cherish each other even more after going through many hardships."
The corner of Mu Beichuan's mouth was even more bitter, "Mo Yan, I'm sorry. We grew up together, and we didn't feel anything when we were young. Until the moment when we fell into the sea two years ago, I envy you so much. I envy you that you can get someone who loves you sincerely. Woman. I have been obsessed with love all my life, and in the end all I got was use or use.” Two lines of tears of regret slid down his face, “I have thought too much in the past two years, if God gives me another chance, I will Maybe I will still fall in love with Shutong. But I will definitely not be as paranoid as before, in order to get her love, I can violate ethics and morality, and I can do any bad things."
His hand with the leather glove tightened slowly, and his Adam's apple kept rolling, "If I can really live my life again, I will be the first to stand up and protect Xiaoxi in my arms when you hurt her, maybe It's not you who can have her."
"Mu Beichuan, you haven't given up yet!" Jiang Moyan heard the words, his face was so dark that ink dripped out.
"Give up, I gave up three years ago. Otherwise, I wouldn't tell you this, maybe when I saw you for the first time, I would kill her and let her accompany you I left this world together."
"You're quite honest!" Even though what Mu Beichuan said was possible, Jiang Moyan's expression turned ugly for an instant. He walked towards Mu Beichuan quickly, and I hurriedly stopped in front of him.
"He just said it casually. It's already this time, why are you still fussing about him so much?"
Jiang Moyan's excited mood calmed down little by little under my comfort.
"Let's go home." He quietly grabbed my hand, as if he was afraid that Mu Beichuan would suddenly get up from the wheelchair and kill me.
"Home, the place I used to yearn for the most. I haven't been able to have a home that belongs to me in my whole life. Goodbye." After the words fell, Mu Beichuan coughed violently, his face turned pale, and I wanted to go forward but was caught by Jiang Mo. hold on.
Li Ang hurried into the living room and helped him to calm down.
"Mu Beichuan, stop torturing yourself. Even so, the people you killed will not come back to life. Now that you know your time is short, treat yourself better and leave with peace of mind."
Unable to bear to see his bloodless face tossed by the illness again, I took Jiang Moyan's hand and walked outside.
"Thank you for forgiving me."
I didn't stop, and the snow was still outside. As soon as I walked out of the living room, I shivered all over, and the sweat oozing from my nose disappeared at that moment because the room was too warm.Jiang Moyan still held me in his arms like when he came, and I didn't say a word until I got home.
That night, I suffered from insomnia for the first time since I was pregnant, and I didn't dare to move around, for fear of disturbing Jiang Moyan. Even so, he still found something wrong with me.
"Everyone has to die one day, he's just a little earlier than us." Jiang Moyan hugged me, rubbing his hands gently on my stomach, "The mood swings too much, it's not good for him. Be good , listen to me, close your eyes, breathe slowly, let go of the things in your mind, and you can fall asleep in a while." Under the comfort of Jiang Moyan's magnetic voice, I took a deep breath and let it out slowly, accompanied by him as if Humming a lullaby, I fell asleep unconsciously.
The next day, when it was still dawn, there were noisy voices outside, and I was not sleeping very deeply. I wrinkled my face and moaned displeasedly, and Jiang Moyan patted my back lightly.
The noise outside was particularly harsh in the quiet morning, and it was getting louder and louder. I suddenly sat up in a jerk, startling Jiang Moyan who was comforting me.
"what happened?"
"Could it be that something happened to Mu Beichuan?" He kept waving at me in his dream last night, and I called him a few times but found that I couldn't make a sound.He stood in the distance and looked at me for a while, then slowly turned and walked away from me. I moved my legs to chase him, but my legs didn't listen to me, and I just froze in place, unable to move a little bit. , I can only watch him disappear from my sight.
It is always said that dreams are the opposite of reality, but last night's dream was so real that I couldn't tell the difference between reality and dream.
Jiang Moyan shook his head to express that he didn't know, then got up and dressed silently.
"Lie down for a while, don't go out, I'll be back later." Jiang Moyan said uneasy instructions, and I nodded swearingly.
I raised my head and looked out the window, the snow had stopped, and there was a glaring white in the gray. It seemed that it should have snowed all night last night.
I unconsciously rubbed my lower abdomen with my hand, the snowy road was slippery, I would definitely not joke around with the child in my stomach.
I haven't heard the sound of the door for a long time, I got up, the living room was empty, I scratched my hair a little irritably, and paced in the living room.
"How is it?" Steady footsteps came, and I came to the door anxiously, just in time to meet Jiang Moyan who was pushing the door.
"He's gone." Jiang Moyan looked at me for half a minute, then parted his thin lips lightly, "Li Ang said that he left in the middle of the night yesterday, and he was very peaceful when he left, with a faint smile on his face all the time. "
Jiang Moyan hugged me lightly, "Promise me, don't be sad for someone who is not worth it, I will feel bad."
"Do you love the child, or do you love me!"
In his still cold embrace, I slowly digested the meaning of his words, and I even breathed a sigh of relief when I was sad.It would be a relief for him to think about his painful appearance last night, or to leave.
"What do you think!" Jiang Moyan suddenly pushed me away from his embrace, looked at me viciously, and squeezed my cheeks, "Song Xiaoxi, are you just mad at me?"
"You let go!" With his cheeks squeezed like this, I slurred my words, and slapped his relaxed hand, "Why do I feel like you are nervous about the child every time!" I pursed my mouth and comforted each time Whether it's me, or persuading me to eat something I don't like, they are all using the child as an excuse. Over time, I feel that I exist because of the child.Maybe it's because pregnant women are too sensitive that I have such unreasonable thoughts.
"You think I would care about this guy without you!" Jiang Moyan's eyes fell on my stomach in resentment, as if resenting him as the culprit for making me misunderstand him.
"Don't look at it with such eyes." I covered my stomach with my hands to block his sight.
Jiang Moyan cast a sideways glance at me and went into the kitchen, and poked his head out after a while.
"Don't think about going to the apartment at the back. It's very messy over there now. I'm afraid I'll touch it..." When Jiang Moyan said this, he remembered the conversation between the two of us just now, and immediately stopped talking and continued. cook his meal.
I pouted, went upstairs, stood on the balcony on the second floor, looked at the noisy apartment, I could imagine the scene where Mu's family and Kong's family were having a lot of trouble.
I glanced at the chairs quietly placed on the balcony, and a few pots of bright green potted plants. Their new owner took care of them and left in just a few days. I don’t know if their future new owners will keep them. .
Sometimes people can only guess the most superficial things. For example, now, I can only imagine that two families are fighting for property, but I never dreamed that Li Ang's unintentional and simple words would give us more than ten years later. What a catastrophe it brought home.
The weather has not cleared up, and the snow has been falling intermittently, so Mu Beichuan's funeral is extremely simple.That day Jiang Moyan just took me to watch from a distance, and didn't go to participate.
The Kong family insisted on letting Mu Beichuan and Kong Shutong be buried together, but the Mu family stopped them because they had not registered their marriage. The two families who disliked each other because of the unequal distribution of Mu Beichuan's will and inheritance almost had a relationship at the funeral. hands up.
In the end, it was Li Ang who came forward and said Mu Beichuan's last wish, that he didn't want to be buried with anyone, he just wanted to occupy a small part of the cemetery quietly, and sleep under the earth without any dispute with the world.
With Mu Beichuan's arrangement at the time of his death, the two families finally lived in peace.
Sitting in the car, my eyes kept falling on the little figure kneeling on the ground. She was so quiet, unlike the heart-piercing crying I heard when I stood in front of the apartment a few days ago, like two people at war. The family affairs have nothing to do with her. From her handsome profile, I can see a rare maturity.
I frowned slightly. Mu Beichuan's departure should leave an indelible mark on her little heart. I hope her future life can be peaceful and peaceful, just as Mu Beichuan envisioned. it is good.
It's just that God will always play tricks on us unexpectedly, the more you want it to achieve, it will often go against the road.
The grievances and grievances between us and Mu Beichuan disappeared completely with his departure, and my mood was depressed for a few days. With Jiang Moyan's diligent guidance and care, I, a difficult pregnant woman, finally recovered.
A few days later, the weather finally cleared up. Jiang Moyan moved me a recliner and sat down in front of the living room door, while he was busy working alone in the thick snow in the courtyard. appear in my line of sight.
"Jiang Moyan, how old are you, and you still play with these things." I thought he would surround me with three layers inside and three layers outside, just to wake me up, but I didn't expect that he just piled up four simple ones. The snowman is coming.
"Because I'm with you, no matter what I do, I find it very interesting." Jiang Moyan ignored my eyes at all, "The snow scene is very beautiful, I really want to have a wedding with you in the snow, but You are too afraid of the cold, I am reluctant to put you in the iceberg and snow cave, I can only use this method to make you imagine."
Hearing this, I chuckled, "Jiang Moyan, I think this is pretty good now, why are you only obsessed with one ceremony?"
Since I was pregnant, I have returned to being sentimental. I was afraid that just holding a wedding would bring bad luck. I thought it would be fine. Although there will be some regrets in life, I will never regret it if I can continue to be happy like this.
"It's not just a matter of ceremony, my purpose is to let people in the whole of Wencheng see the scene where you put on my wedding dress, and I hope to get their blessings."
I know his temper best. As long as I become stubborn, I can't change his mind even if I wear my mouth. I half-closed my eyes and looked at the four snowmen of different shapes standing quietly in the sun.It doesn't matter whether I get the blessing or not, anyway, I will go on like this for the rest of my life.
Five months later, Yuanqi Hospital.
A week ago, Jiang Moyan, who was more nervous than me, persuaded me to be admitted to the hospital together with An Qinger.
Afraid that I would give birth suddenly, the two of them have been taking turns guarding my side. Seeing them like this, I was speechless. The situation when I gave birth was much more special than it is now. I was not as scared as the two of them. Not to mention that the doctor said that the situation is very good, the placenta has matured, and if I choose to have a caesarean section, it can be performed immediately.
Jiang Moyan and An Qinger, who were worried, looked at me eagerly, hoping that I could agree.I shook my head slowly under their pleading eyes. I was an obstetrician and gynecologist, and I clearly know that it is better for a child to give birth naturally.
Knowing that it is impossible for the child in my womb to survive for eight months, it is impossible to give birth naturally, but I still want to be willful for a while and wait for the signs of labor to come in.
The two of them couldn't convince me, and they didn't force me. I lived in the VIP ward, and when I was bored, I would occasionally go out to chat with other mothers. Watching others rushing around to take care of their children made my heart soft involuntarily.
Jiang Moyan, who goes out with me almost every time, always takes a few extra glances by their side.
"Are you stealing a teacher to learn art? Are you going to be a baby daddy for the little guy?" Jiang Moyan would go up and ask humbly when he didn't understand. Every time I saw him like that, I wanted to laugh. Who would have thought that plastic A high-ranking CEO will ask others, why does the child have to be held upright for a while after drinking milk?How do you know when your child has peed and it's time for a diaper change?
I don't know if this is spread out, it will shock many people's jaws.
"What's wrong with being a baby daddy." Jiang Moyan didn't care about this mixed word at all, he gently stroked my not-so-big belly.
"It's quite contradictory. I want him to come out quickly, but I don't want to see you suffer."
"What are you thinking about so much, just let it be..."
There was a pain in my abdomen, I hugged my stomach nervously, and bent my body.
"Do you feel that you are about to give birth?" Jiang Moyan grabbed my arm nervously, and under my nod, quickly picked me up and ran to the obstetrics department.
He looked anxious, but his steps were very steady, without any disorder.
After the pain came without warning, the pain began to come one after another, and my whole body began to convulse. I gritted my teeth and held on to Jiang Moyan's clothes tightly, and the cold sweat on my forehead kept slipping.
While Jiang Moyan was anxious, his forehead was covered with sweat like mine. Jiang Moyan carried me into the operating room and did not go out. The doctor was making preparations before the operation began.
I didn't leave my hand from my stomach, and as soon as I let go of my teeth, a groan came out of my mouth like that.
"Let me make you trouble again, I will teach you a good lesson when I come out." Seeing that I was suffering, Jiang Moyan said viciously to my stomach, seeing him like this, the pain in my body seemed to be a little better.The sight was the familiar operating room, and the fear in my heart disappeared little by little.
"You go out, I'm fine, the baby will be born safely after a while." The labor pains are getting worse and worse, which is a sign of labor. My body is special, and the baby spends less time in the mother's womb than other children Above, such labor pains indicate that a normal delivery is possible.
Natural birth is better for the baby, I want to take the risk and see if it works.If the challenge fails and he has to have a caesarean section, he will definitely feel very uncomfortable if he witnesses the bloody process of giving birth.
"No, I didn't stay by your side for the last child, but I must be with you for this one from the very beginning to the present."
This was his hospital, and no one dared to throw him out of the operation, so they could only let him stand aside.
The natural delivery was not smooth. Without anesthesia, I felt tearing pain all over my body, and my lower body was hot. I knew that the amniotic fluid had broken. I followed the doctor's instructions and continued to exert force over and over again, but the child seemed to be entrenched in my body. It's normal in the stomach, and I don't want to come out.
My voice was a little hoarse, I clenched my body tightly, and saw the worry in the eyes of the doctor and Jiang Moyan, I told myself to hold on for a while, and if I still can't give birth, I will give up the idea of a natural delivery.
(End of this chapter)
"Slow down." I walked too fast, and there was a thumping sound when I stepped on the stairs. Jiang Moyan hurried out of the kitchen when he heard the movement, and greeted him, "What's the matter, so anxious?"
"I...he..." I pointed to the direction of the apartment in the back, and wondered if Jiang Moyan didn't know that Mu Beichuan lived in the back, and he hesitated for a long time without saying anything.
Jiang Moyan's rhinoceros eyes were tightly locked on my face, I lowered my eyelids a little guilty, raised my head after a while, and chuckled at him, "It's snowing outside, I'll go out and have a look."
"You also know that it's snowing." Jiang Moyan looked at my lower abdomen where there was no sign of pregnancy under the loose top, and the meaning in his heart was very clear.
"I'll be very careful, I'm hungry, you hurry up and cook." I tried my best to calm down and pushed the tall body in front of me.
Jiang Moyan grabbed my hand and frowned, "If you're very hungry, I'll help you get a bowl of noodles first. After eating, let's go out together."
"Oh, I'm not a toddler, so I don't fall so easily. I'll go out and have a look. I'll be back in 5 minutes." I always feel that something happened to Mu Beichuan, and the back view of him leaving at the end is in my mind It left a deep imprint, and touched my hard but occasionally hypocritical heart from time to time. I was a little anxious, and my tone naturally brought some impatience.
I kept pushing him into the kitchen, pulled my face down on purpose, and ordered like an evil landlady, "Hurry up and cook, I'll be right back for dinner!"
Jiang Moyan was about to speak, but the soup in the casserole began to rise, and when he heard the sound of water falling on the stove, he hurriedly turned around and turned on the fire to clean up the mess.
Seeing him in a hurry, I gloated and walked out with a smile. It was snowing heavily outside. When I came out of the warm living room, the cold wind went straight to my neck. When Mo Yan heard me sneeze, I covered my mouth in a hurry, pulled the zipper to the top, put on the hat on the down jacket, wrapped my hands around my body and walked out of the courtyard.
The snow turned into goose feathers, blowing erratically with the wind, and fell on my bare face. Sometimes I want Jiang Moyan to take me away from Wencheng and find a place where there is no cold to live, but My parents are old, and I can't let go. Even if the child is born in the future, if I go out for a walk, I will not stay outside for a long time.
The snow fell on the road and turned into water in an instant. I didn't dare to walk too fast. I watched from a distance a few cars parked in front of Mu Beichuan's apartment, and there were some people in the open living room. quarrel.
When I got closer, I vaguely recognized Mu Beihai and Mu Beiyang, and my brows were tightly frowned.
The Mu family was already defeated two years ago after being tormented by Mu Beichuan. I occasionally listened to gossip about Qianhui. They don't want to go out to look at people's faces to make a living, but they are forced by life, they can only go out to find a job. Generally, such a poor young master with a high degree of education would not look down on others to provide him with a job. In addition, they have been entrenched in Wencheng for a long time before, and there are many people who have offended them. As the saying goes, when the wall is overthrown by everyone, they will definitely be suppressed when they are down. You have to endure other people's cynicism from time to time, you can imagine how much they hate Mu Beichuan, and it really surprises me that they will appear here today.
The sound of their quarrel became clearer as I approached the open iron gate. I stood there frowning, moved my hat, and listened to their quarrel with bated breath.
Words and sentences were interleaved, and from these scattered words, I heard the outline of the matter.
As I thought, Mu Beichuan was seriously ill when he came back this time. Once a person is on the verge of death, he will always think of the many wrong things he did before. Out of guilt, he gathered all the members of the Mu family together and prepared to give them some The money was used as compensation, but the news was somehow known to the family who had been raising the little Kong Shutong, and they rushed over.
No, the two families started arguing endlessly because of the property issue, and they got into a big fight.
Cold, a bone-piercing sadness spread from the bottom of my heart to my limbs, I shuddered greatly, I felt sad for Mu Beichuan, fell in love with a woman I shouldn't love, lost my career, betrayed all relatives, and now I'm about to He died, but no one cared about his life and death when he wanted to atone for his sins, only cared about his money.
This is his family business, I have no right to intervene.It's just that I wanted to see him very much, so I raised my foot and put it back. I felt that it was inappropriate for me to go in because they were here, so I stepped on the vaguely piled snow on the ground, turned and entered the apartment.
I lowered my head, thinking about my thoughts, and unexpectedly fell into a warm embrace. Jiang Moyan just frowned slightly, brushed the snowflakes off my hat, and embraced me into the living room.
The hot food was already set on the dining table, I sat down in front of the dining table in silence, fiddling with the rice absent-mindedly.
"Aren't you hungry? Eat more." Jiang Moyan put a piece of fungus into my bowl, and I poked it resentfully. I hate black fungus so much, Jiang Moyan obviously did it on purpose.
"Mu Beichuan lives in the apartment behind us."
Hearing this, Jiang Moyan's elegant eating movements stopped abruptly, his face darkened instantly, and the raging chill swept through his glistening eyes, and the hand holding the chopsticks gradually exerted force, so much force, as if he was going to shake the chopsticks in his hand. Chopsticks are generally broken.
"I also found out two days ago. However, you don't have to react so much. I just learned that he has a physical problem. Maybe he won't live long."
If it weren't for the terminal illness, the Mu family, who knew Mu Beichuan's character clearly, wouldn't be so blatantly making noise in the apartment, the past, good or bad, kept flashing through his mind, and the food in his mouth was inexplicably tasteless.
"Maybe he is lying to you to win sympathy?" Jiang Moyan put down the bowls and chopsticks in his hand, his deep eyes were full of mixed emotions.
"I don't think it's possible. Even if he wants to lie to me, it's impossible for the Mu family and the Kong family to act realistically for me."
Besides, how did he know I would notice what was going on at the apartment and be curious to check it out.If it is as Jiang Moyan said, Mu Beichuan's thoughts cannot be described as human beings at all.
Jiang Moyan lowered his eyebrows in silence, and pursed his thin lips lightly.
"This is a good thing for us. We don't have to worry about him appearing to pester us after he dies." After a while, Jiang Moyan picked up the bowl and chopsticks and started eating. He knocked on my bowl, " Eat well, if you don’t eat what’s in your stomach, you should eat.”
"Suddenly I feel a little pitiful for him." I stuffed a piece of fish into my mouth, "I just heard a small cry, think about the seven-year-old child who is the same age as Yaya, but the things he has experienced are much more miserable than Yaya. "I put my hand on my lower abdomen and kept rubbing it. If I don't feel sorry for my child, how can others cherish it.
"There are so many miserable people in the world, and you don't have time to feel sorry for them." Jiang Moyan saw that I was eating slowly, so he simply sat beside me and stuffed food into my mouth, which made my cheeks bulge of.
"Jiang Moyan, you're going to choke me to death!" I said vaguely, gave him a hard look, and turned my face away to avoid his feeding again.
"This is your punishment for thinking of other men in front of me!" Jiang Moyan took a spoonful of soup and put it near my mouth, "Drink it."
Without fussing with him, I grabbed the bowl from his hand and quickly ate it by myself.
"I'm tired, I'll go upstairs to sleep first." In a bad mood, I swallowed my last bite of food and went upstairs sullenly.
"If you want to see him, wait for those people to leave later, and I will take you there."
Jiang Moyan, who was clearing the table, spoke slowly, I stopped where I was, raised my eyebrows and turned my head.
"Jiang Moyan, to be honest, you want to see him yourself."
Jiang Moyan and Mu Beichuan have known each other for so many years. It should be said that in each other's memory, each other occupies an indelible place. When parting from life and death, they should have a lot of heartfelt feelings to confide in each other.
"I'm here to satisfy your overflowing sympathy from time to time. Otherwise, I don't want to see an enemy who wants to cramp and chop bones again in this life!" Jiang Moyan gave me a look like you are dreaming, and went into the kitchen with a plate .
I curled my lips, sometimes Jiang Moyan is a bit like Gu Yan, they are both dead ducks with a hard mouth.When I went up to the second floor, I changed direction by accident and came to the balcony. Unexpectedly, I saw Mu Beichuan with a haggard face here. , he lowered his head, raised his weak hands, and moved his chapped lips lightly. The man behind him who I've seen several times glanced at me and put his ear on it.Nod your head and push the wheelchair.
"Mu Beichuan, you..."
"The boss said he won't show up here in the future. This is the last time." The person who pushed the wheelchair turned his head and nodded to me, and closed the glass window beside him. in sight.
I sighed softly, leaning lightly on the cold and heavy glass window, the past is over, my hatred for Mu Beichuan seems to be buried in the long snow at this moment, disappearing without a trace.
Hearing footsteps, I turned around and glanced at the empty balcony, and walked towards the bedroom.
Jiang Moyan frowned slightly, and stepped forward to tug at my fattening cheek.
"A pregnant woman must maintain a good mood. Otherwise, the child born will be sentimental."
"There's nothing wrong with being sentimental." I slapped his hand off, "Go and see if those people are gone." I always feel that Mu Beichuan's life may end at any moment, seeing how pitiful his life is, I want to see him before he leaves When I told him that I no longer hated him, maybe he could go away with more peace of mind.
"No." Jiang Moyan replied crisply, "Why do I think you care about him so much?" The jealousy in his voice forced me into the room regardless of my resistance.
"Jiang Moyan, stop making trouble. It has nothing to do with caring. He said before that he came here because he wanted to atone for his sins. It is conceivable that his last wish is for me to forgive him. I don't want to wait until I get old and recall the present There are regrets in my heart. We are so happy now, let’s let go of what should be let go.” I looked at Jiang Moyan with a serious expression, and seeing him standing still, I gently pushed him a few times, “Go and see , it should be regarded as doing a good deed to accumulate virtue for our children.”
"You, since I was pregnant with the child, my heart has become as soft as before." Jiang Moyan squeezed my nose hard, "If you want me to say, the thing I want to do the most is to let him die without regret!"
Although Jiang Moyan gritted his teeth, he still helped me sit by the bed, "Wait."
He came and went in a hurry. When he entered the bedroom, there were some crystals hanging on his straight hair and some drops of water on his face. As soon as he entered the door, he took out a heavy windbreaker from the closet without saying a word and put it on me. body.
"The snow is getting heavier, and it's cold outside."
As soon as I went out, a gust of cold wind blew over, mixed with snowflakes and slapped my face, bringing a burst of cold pain, I quickly buried my face in front of Jiang Moyan, fearing that I would fall, Jiang Moyan hugged me horizontally When I got up, I heard the sound of stepping on the snow, and I tilted my head slightly.
It was a vast expanse of whiteness, and the biting cold wind carried the goose-feather-like snow flakes flying in the black-stained sky. Birth, old age, sickness, death, hurt and parting are indispensable experiences in life, but in my opinion, every time I experience it, I It's like getting a little older.
The iron gate wall was covered with snowflakes, the leaving ruts were filled with glaring white snowflakes, and the dimly lit apartment gave off a sense of desolation in the dark night.
I raised my hand and pressed the doorbell a few times, but no one came out of the apartment for a long time, I frowned and pressed it a few more times, this time a little more eagerly than before, as if if I didn't hurry up, I wouldn't be able to say goodbye to him.
Just as the doorbell rang, the living room door opened, and the man who had been taking care of Mu Beichuan walked out quickly.
"Who are you looking for?" His tone revealed a hint of unkindness, "If it's the boss's relatives, you can go back. The boss has already rested, so come back another day."
"We are his...friends." I poked my head out of Jiang Moyan's arms, thinking about whether to use friends to describe our relationship.
"Please come in." When he saw my face clearly, surprise and joy were revealed in his eyes, his tense face eased, and he hurriedly opened the iron gate for us.
Jiang Moyan kept silent and didn't greet him. He asked me to hide my face in his arms and strode towards the living room.
In the living room, the heating is in full swing, and the charcoal fire in the fireplace is burning vigorously, dispelling the cold air around him, and wrapping his whole body in warmth.
Jiang Moyan put me on the ground, I briefly looked around the living room, and my eyes fell on Mu Beichuan who was sitting quietly in front of the fireplace, the red firelight reflected on his face, which made his face look better , He kept his eyes closed, as if he had fallen asleep.
"I'm Li Ang, the boss's assistant. Please sit down and wait for a while. The boss has been suffering from illness for the past two days and hasn't even had a good night's sleep." He bowed to us apologetically, "What do you want to drink? ? Coffee or tea?"
"No need." Jiang Moyan crossed his legs and leaned halfway on the sofa, his sharp eyes fell on Mu Beichuan who was quietly sitting in the wheelchair.
"What's wrong with him?"
"The boss's leg injury was not treated well in the early stage. It has been deteriorating before, but it is already in the advanced stage of bone cancer. Now he has given up treatment. To put it bluntly, he is waiting to die."
"Did he not get treatment before?" If he had both legs amputated before, maybe he could still be saved.
"The first time the boss went to the hospital, the result of the examination was that the bone cancer was in the middle stage. At that time, the cancer cells had already spread in his body. He had chemotherapy, but it didn't have much effect."
Hearing this, my eyes fell on his hat, no wonder he was always wearing a hat the first time I saw him.
"His hands?" Since the hat was worn to cover up the hair that fell out due to chemotherapy, there should be a reason for the leather gloves on his hands.
"I don't know that. I never saw him take off his gloves."
Li Ang shook his head. During the conversation, Mu Beichuan's head moved slightly, and his whole face wrinkled together in pain. I knew he was suffering from illness. Li Ang picked up the cup on the table in three steps at the same time. Cup, picked up the medicine and came to his side, quickly put the medicine on his mouth, Mu Beichuan, who was moaning from the pain, swallowed the medicine with the water Li Ang handed before his eyes were fully opened.
"Boss, do you want something to eat?"
In my eyes, Li Ang is a dedicated employee, at least much better than Mu Beichuan's relatives who only care about his money.
Mu Beichuan shook his head lightly, just about to close his eyes again, when he caught sight of us sitting on the sofa from the corner of his eye, his eyes suddenly widened, and the expression on his face instantly froze.
"They came to see you and saw that you were sleeping soundly, so they didn't call you."
Mu Beichuan nodded his head lightly, slowly raised his weak hand and waved at Li Ang, Li Ang exited the living room knowingly.
"It's great that you can still come and see me."
His voice was so feeble that we would not have heard it, were it not for the fact that the room was nothing but the faint crackle of the coals.
I thought that when I saw him in the hospital a few days ago, although he looked a little sick, his overall mental state was still good. I didn't expect his body to be so unbearable in just a few days.
"I'm not that kind. I heard that you're sick. Let me see if you're dead." The expression on Jiang Moyan's face was the same, and his black eyes were even less turbulent, as if Mu Beichuan opposite was a stranger.
Mu Beichuan smiled bitterly, "You can say that, it means that you have let go of the bastard thing I did in your heart." This sentence was a bit long, he was a little panting, I got up and poured him a glass of water and handed it to him. past.
"Why did you give up treatment?"
Until now, Jiang Moyan is still afraid that he will hurt me. Seeing me approaching, Mu Beichuan hastily followed me and held me in his arms. I can clearly feel the tension in his heart.
Mu Beichuan took the water and sipped lightly, with a bitter smile on his lips.
"I did so many wrong things back then, and my sins were serious. Whenever I was tortured by illness and couldn't sleep, their faces would appear in front of me. The guilt, guilt and illness have exhausted me physically and mentally. I I don't want to live like this anymore, and death is a kind of relief."
He spoke very slowly, so slowly that I thought he would be broken at any time. Fortunately, his willpower is very strong.As the words fell, his chest heaved violently. I never thought that he would be so weak. I felt mixed feelings in my heart.
"It's better to be alive than to be dead. Xiaoxiao cried very pitifully today." His body is already in this state, and I said that these things can't produce a miracle of his survival.
Mu Beichuan closed his eyes lightly and didn't speak, it seemed that he was also very reluctant in his heart.
The charcoal fire gradually became weaker, and I added some charcoal to it in the past.
"Mu Beichuan should go to the hospital. Even if your disease cannot be cured, the pain will always be reduced." I haven't heard of a case of bone cancer that has been cured so far, but even if this is the case, I think he is better in the hospital. It's better to die at home.
"Seeing that you are living a good life, I feel less guilty. Xiao Xiaojing is taken care of. There are not many things in the world for me to miss. Let the illness torture me so much, and reduce the deep sins on my body." Bar."
Mu Beichuan never opened his eyes again, "After you leave, close the door for me, thank you."
The fluttering voice disappeared in the living room. I stood behind him, feeling a dull pain in my heart. Things in the world are often like this. When you realize that you have lost your way and repented, it is often the end of your life. when.
"Mu Beichuan, I don't hate you anymore. Perhaps because of your existence, Jiang Moyan and I can cherish each other even more after going through many hardships."
The corner of Mu Beichuan's mouth was even more bitter, "Mo Yan, I'm sorry. We grew up together, and we didn't feel anything when we were young. Until the moment when we fell into the sea two years ago, I envy you so much. I envy you that you can get someone who loves you sincerely. Woman. I have been obsessed with love all my life, and in the end all I got was use or use.” Two lines of tears of regret slid down his face, “I have thought too much in the past two years, if God gives me another chance, I will Maybe I will still fall in love with Shutong. But I will definitely not be as paranoid as before, in order to get her love, I can violate ethics and morality, and I can do any bad things."
His hand with the leather glove tightened slowly, and his Adam's apple kept rolling, "If I can really live my life again, I will be the first to stand up and protect Xiaoxi in my arms when you hurt her, maybe It's not you who can have her."
"Mu Beichuan, you haven't given up yet!" Jiang Moyan heard the words, his face was so dark that ink dripped out.
"Give up, I gave up three years ago. Otherwise, I wouldn't tell you this, maybe when I saw you for the first time, I would kill her and let her accompany you I left this world together."
"You're quite honest!" Even though what Mu Beichuan said was possible, Jiang Moyan's expression turned ugly for an instant. He walked towards Mu Beichuan quickly, and I hurriedly stopped in front of him.
"He just said it casually. It's already this time, why are you still fussing about him so much?"
Jiang Moyan's excited mood calmed down little by little under my comfort.
"Let's go home." He quietly grabbed my hand, as if he was afraid that Mu Beichuan would suddenly get up from the wheelchair and kill me.
"Home, the place I used to yearn for the most. I haven't been able to have a home that belongs to me in my whole life. Goodbye." After the words fell, Mu Beichuan coughed violently, his face turned pale, and I wanted to go forward but was caught by Jiang Mo. hold on.
Li Ang hurried into the living room and helped him to calm down.
"Mu Beichuan, stop torturing yourself. Even so, the people you killed will not come back to life. Now that you know your time is short, treat yourself better and leave with peace of mind."
Unable to bear to see his bloodless face tossed by the illness again, I took Jiang Moyan's hand and walked outside.
"Thank you for forgiving me."
I didn't stop, and the snow was still outside. As soon as I walked out of the living room, I shivered all over, and the sweat oozing from my nose disappeared at that moment because the room was too warm.Jiang Moyan still held me in his arms like when he came, and I didn't say a word until I got home.
That night, I suffered from insomnia for the first time since I was pregnant, and I didn't dare to move around, for fear of disturbing Jiang Moyan. Even so, he still found something wrong with me.
"Everyone has to die one day, he's just a little earlier than us." Jiang Moyan hugged me, rubbing his hands gently on my stomach, "The mood swings too much, it's not good for him. Be good , listen to me, close your eyes, breathe slowly, let go of the things in your mind, and you can fall asleep in a while." Under the comfort of Jiang Moyan's magnetic voice, I took a deep breath and let it out slowly, accompanied by him as if Humming a lullaby, I fell asleep unconsciously.
The next day, when it was still dawn, there were noisy voices outside, and I was not sleeping very deeply. I wrinkled my face and moaned displeasedly, and Jiang Moyan patted my back lightly.
The noise outside was particularly harsh in the quiet morning, and it was getting louder and louder. I suddenly sat up in a jerk, startling Jiang Moyan who was comforting me.
"what happened?"
"Could it be that something happened to Mu Beichuan?" He kept waving at me in his dream last night, and I called him a few times but found that I couldn't make a sound.He stood in the distance and looked at me for a while, then slowly turned and walked away from me. I moved my legs to chase him, but my legs didn't listen to me, and I just froze in place, unable to move a little bit. , I can only watch him disappear from my sight.
It is always said that dreams are the opposite of reality, but last night's dream was so real that I couldn't tell the difference between reality and dream.
Jiang Moyan shook his head to express that he didn't know, then got up and dressed silently.
"Lie down for a while, don't go out, I'll be back later." Jiang Moyan said uneasy instructions, and I nodded swearingly.
I raised my head and looked out the window, the snow had stopped, and there was a glaring white in the gray. It seemed that it should have snowed all night last night.
I unconsciously rubbed my lower abdomen with my hand, the snowy road was slippery, I would definitely not joke around with the child in my stomach.
I haven't heard the sound of the door for a long time, I got up, the living room was empty, I scratched my hair a little irritably, and paced in the living room.
"How is it?" Steady footsteps came, and I came to the door anxiously, just in time to meet Jiang Moyan who was pushing the door.
"He's gone." Jiang Moyan looked at me for half a minute, then parted his thin lips lightly, "Li Ang said that he left in the middle of the night yesterday, and he was very peaceful when he left, with a faint smile on his face all the time. "
Jiang Moyan hugged me lightly, "Promise me, don't be sad for someone who is not worth it, I will feel bad."
"Do you love the child, or do you love me!"
In his still cold embrace, I slowly digested the meaning of his words, and I even breathed a sigh of relief when I was sad.It would be a relief for him to think about his painful appearance last night, or to leave.
"What do you think!" Jiang Moyan suddenly pushed me away from his embrace, looked at me viciously, and squeezed my cheeks, "Song Xiaoxi, are you just mad at me?"
"You let go!" With his cheeks squeezed like this, I slurred my words, and slapped his relaxed hand, "Why do I feel like you are nervous about the child every time!" I pursed my mouth and comforted each time Whether it's me, or persuading me to eat something I don't like, they are all using the child as an excuse. Over time, I feel that I exist because of the child.Maybe it's because pregnant women are too sensitive that I have such unreasonable thoughts.
"You think I would care about this guy without you!" Jiang Moyan's eyes fell on my stomach in resentment, as if resenting him as the culprit for making me misunderstand him.
"Don't look at it with such eyes." I covered my stomach with my hands to block his sight.
Jiang Moyan cast a sideways glance at me and went into the kitchen, and poked his head out after a while.
"Don't think about going to the apartment at the back. It's very messy over there now. I'm afraid I'll touch it..." When Jiang Moyan said this, he remembered the conversation between the two of us just now, and immediately stopped talking and continued. cook his meal.
I pouted, went upstairs, stood on the balcony on the second floor, looked at the noisy apartment, I could imagine the scene where Mu's family and Kong's family were having a lot of trouble.
I glanced at the chairs quietly placed on the balcony, and a few pots of bright green potted plants. Their new owner took care of them and left in just a few days. I don’t know if their future new owners will keep them. .
Sometimes people can only guess the most superficial things. For example, now, I can only imagine that two families are fighting for property, but I never dreamed that Li Ang's unintentional and simple words would give us more than ten years later. What a catastrophe it brought home.
The weather has not cleared up, and the snow has been falling intermittently, so Mu Beichuan's funeral is extremely simple.That day Jiang Moyan just took me to watch from a distance, and didn't go to participate.
The Kong family insisted on letting Mu Beichuan and Kong Shutong be buried together, but the Mu family stopped them because they had not registered their marriage. The two families who disliked each other because of the unequal distribution of Mu Beichuan's will and inheritance almost had a relationship at the funeral. hands up.
In the end, it was Li Ang who came forward and said Mu Beichuan's last wish, that he didn't want to be buried with anyone, he just wanted to occupy a small part of the cemetery quietly, and sleep under the earth without any dispute with the world.
With Mu Beichuan's arrangement at the time of his death, the two families finally lived in peace.
Sitting in the car, my eyes kept falling on the little figure kneeling on the ground. She was so quiet, unlike the heart-piercing crying I heard when I stood in front of the apartment a few days ago, like two people at war. The family affairs have nothing to do with her. From her handsome profile, I can see a rare maturity.
I frowned slightly. Mu Beichuan's departure should leave an indelible mark on her little heart. I hope her future life can be peaceful and peaceful, just as Mu Beichuan envisioned. it is good.
It's just that God will always play tricks on us unexpectedly, the more you want it to achieve, it will often go against the road.
The grievances and grievances between us and Mu Beichuan disappeared completely with his departure, and my mood was depressed for a few days. With Jiang Moyan's diligent guidance and care, I, a difficult pregnant woman, finally recovered.
A few days later, the weather finally cleared up. Jiang Moyan moved me a recliner and sat down in front of the living room door, while he was busy working alone in the thick snow in the courtyard. appear in my line of sight.
"Jiang Moyan, how old are you, and you still play with these things." I thought he would surround me with three layers inside and three layers outside, just to wake me up, but I didn't expect that he just piled up four simple ones. The snowman is coming.
"Because I'm with you, no matter what I do, I find it very interesting." Jiang Moyan ignored my eyes at all, "The snow scene is very beautiful, I really want to have a wedding with you in the snow, but You are too afraid of the cold, I am reluctant to put you in the iceberg and snow cave, I can only use this method to make you imagine."
Hearing this, I chuckled, "Jiang Moyan, I think this is pretty good now, why are you only obsessed with one ceremony?"
Since I was pregnant, I have returned to being sentimental. I was afraid that just holding a wedding would bring bad luck. I thought it would be fine. Although there will be some regrets in life, I will never regret it if I can continue to be happy like this.
"It's not just a matter of ceremony, my purpose is to let people in the whole of Wencheng see the scene where you put on my wedding dress, and I hope to get their blessings."
I know his temper best. As long as I become stubborn, I can't change his mind even if I wear my mouth. I half-closed my eyes and looked at the four snowmen of different shapes standing quietly in the sun.It doesn't matter whether I get the blessing or not, anyway, I will go on like this for the rest of my life.
Five months later, Yuanqi Hospital.
A week ago, Jiang Moyan, who was more nervous than me, persuaded me to be admitted to the hospital together with An Qinger.
Afraid that I would give birth suddenly, the two of them have been taking turns guarding my side. Seeing them like this, I was speechless. The situation when I gave birth was much more special than it is now. I was not as scared as the two of them. Not to mention that the doctor said that the situation is very good, the placenta has matured, and if I choose to have a caesarean section, it can be performed immediately.
Jiang Moyan and An Qinger, who were worried, looked at me eagerly, hoping that I could agree.I shook my head slowly under their pleading eyes. I was an obstetrician and gynecologist, and I clearly know that it is better for a child to give birth naturally.
Knowing that it is impossible for the child in my womb to survive for eight months, it is impossible to give birth naturally, but I still want to be willful for a while and wait for the signs of labor to come in.
The two of them couldn't convince me, and they didn't force me. I lived in the VIP ward, and when I was bored, I would occasionally go out to chat with other mothers. Watching others rushing around to take care of their children made my heart soft involuntarily.
Jiang Moyan, who goes out with me almost every time, always takes a few extra glances by their side.
"Are you stealing a teacher to learn art? Are you going to be a baby daddy for the little guy?" Jiang Moyan would go up and ask humbly when he didn't understand. Every time I saw him like that, I wanted to laugh. Who would have thought that plastic A high-ranking CEO will ask others, why does the child have to be held upright for a while after drinking milk?How do you know when your child has peed and it's time for a diaper change?
I don't know if this is spread out, it will shock many people's jaws.
"What's wrong with being a baby daddy." Jiang Moyan didn't care about this mixed word at all, he gently stroked my not-so-big belly.
"It's quite contradictory. I want him to come out quickly, but I don't want to see you suffer."
"What are you thinking about so much, just let it be..."
There was a pain in my abdomen, I hugged my stomach nervously, and bent my body.
"Do you feel that you are about to give birth?" Jiang Moyan grabbed my arm nervously, and under my nod, quickly picked me up and ran to the obstetrics department.
He looked anxious, but his steps were very steady, without any disorder.
After the pain came without warning, the pain began to come one after another, and my whole body began to convulse. I gritted my teeth and held on to Jiang Moyan's clothes tightly, and the cold sweat on my forehead kept slipping.
While Jiang Moyan was anxious, his forehead was covered with sweat like mine. Jiang Moyan carried me into the operating room and did not go out. The doctor was making preparations before the operation began.
I didn't leave my hand from my stomach, and as soon as I let go of my teeth, a groan came out of my mouth like that.
"Let me make you trouble again, I will teach you a good lesson when I come out." Seeing that I was suffering, Jiang Moyan said viciously to my stomach, seeing him like this, the pain in my body seemed to be a little better.The sight was the familiar operating room, and the fear in my heart disappeared little by little.
"You go out, I'm fine, the baby will be born safely after a while." The labor pains are getting worse and worse, which is a sign of labor. My body is special, and the baby spends less time in the mother's womb than other children Above, such labor pains indicate that a normal delivery is possible.
Natural birth is better for the baby, I want to take the risk and see if it works.If the challenge fails and he has to have a caesarean section, he will definitely feel very uncomfortable if he witnesses the bloody process of giving birth.
"No, I didn't stay by your side for the last child, but I must be with you for this one from the very beginning to the present."
This was his hospital, and no one dared to throw him out of the operation, so they could only let him stand aside.
The natural delivery was not smooth. Without anesthesia, I felt tearing pain all over my body, and my lower body was hot. I knew that the amniotic fluid had broken. I followed the doctor's instructions and continued to exert force over and over again, but the child seemed to be entrenched in my body. It's normal in the stomach, and I don't want to come out.
My voice was a little hoarse, I clenched my body tightly, and saw the worry in the eyes of the doctor and Jiang Moyan, I told myself to hold on for a while, and if I still can't give birth, I will give up the idea of a natural delivery.
(End of this chapter)
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