In and out of marriage

Chapter 115 Must have another one (2)
Even though Shen Feifei is by her side now, it is her responsibility, and she does not want others to shoulder it for her.

Revenge is always her own.

In case she is really useless...

Zhang Xiaosha didn't dare to think about it anymore, and she didn't want to ask Shen Feifan again.

She knew that what Shen Feifei said must be: It's okay, it will be fine.

"What's wrong?" Shen Feifei's deep voice was hoarse and tired.

Zhang Xiaosha didn't know when he was lost in a daze, but after being told by Shen Feifei, he came back to his senses.

"It's okay." With the corners of his lips hooked, Zhang Xiaosha tried to make himself face Shen Feifan happily.

But, how could Shen Feifan not see it?
Recently, she has been in a daze more and more often, perhaps she has already gotten used to this action in the past four years.

Zhang Xiaochen said that she only smiles when she sees Zhang Xiaochen, and at other times, she is expressionless and in a daze with the expression of rejecting others thousands of miles away.

She didn't know how unhappy she had been in the past four years, but she just hoped that she would be happy when she was with him.

"Silly girl, you are by my side now, have you forgotten what I told you?" Shen Feifei squeezed Zhang Xiaosha's obviously stiff face with a smile, and said in a doting tone, "I want to see you Looking happy, you still can't believe me now? Huh?"

Zhang Xiaosha shook his head, denying Shen Feifei's words.

She believed, believed with all her heart.

It's just that more often, she still can't be happy.

The longer she suppressed the things in her heart, the more tired she felt.

"I just feel tired more often." This is the first time Zhang Xiaosha said the word tired to someone other than herself, just because the person opposite is a man she believes in wholeheartedly, " Really, I don't know how to get rid of this fatigue." "You and me." Shen Feifei patted her head.

After holding back the words for so long, Zhang Xiaosha suddenly wanted to speak out.

"For four years, I tried my best to suppress myself from thinking about you. I thought that I was performing a mission, and I let go of the man who loved me for a promise that was not agreed to, and went to have sex with another man. We lived together for four years." Zhang Xiaosha's hand was tightly held by Shen Feifan, and she held back, even tighter than Shen Feifan.

"However, you will never understand the feeling of deep guilt lingering in your heart. The pain is so painful that you want to give up all of this. But you can't, those terrible responsibilities, every time you dream about it in the middle of the night When I came back, I screamed desperately, always reminding me that I still have things to do."

"Actually, when I'm tired, I want to stand directly in the middle of the road and have a very serious car accident. Even if I can't die, I will lose my memory just like the one on TV, so that I can forget about those responsibilities and so-called hatred. But Why do I still have someone I can't let go of, even if I leave so selfishly, I still think that I will come back one day, and continue to return to him?"

"I'm so selfish that I despise myself, I'm so selfish that I feel shameless, I'm so selfish..."

Shen Feifei didn't want to continue listening. He didn't want to hear her slandering and belittling herself so much, so he simply took action to seal her mouth.

It wasn't until Zhang Xiaosha stopped talking that Shen Feifei left her lips.

Cursing his lips, Shen Feifei looked very relieved.

"Thank you for coming back." Sincerely, without a trace of falsehood, "You know how scared I am that you haven't thought about coming back, huh?"

"Shen Feifan..."

"You don't need to say anything, I understand." Touching her forehead, Shen Feifei said softly as if coaxing a child, "I told grandpa and the others today that they are very happy that you are back, and they said today Come and see you."

Zhang Xiaosha's eyes widened in surprise, his face full of disbelief.

"I……"

"Don't worry, no one will blame you. Everyone is worried about you. Grandpa and the others all came here like this. They must understand why you did this." Shen Feifei hooked Zhang Xiaosha's nose and said Words to reassure her.

What else can she say now?
Shen Feifei did everything that should be done, even though she was heinous, but in Shen Feifei's mouth, it was justifiable.

"En." Zhang Xiaosha hooked the corners of his lips and nodded.

She felt very sorry for Grandpa and Uncle He, both elders who loved her so much, but she...

Even if I believed what Shen Feifei said, no one meant to blame her, but they still blamed themselves.

This is human nature.

"How is your body feeling recently?" Shen Feifei was most concerned about Zhang Xiaosha's back injury.

"It's much better, but after such a long time, there will still be a piercing pain more often. I don't know what's going on. Have you talked to the doctor?" Since Shen Feifei asked, Zhang Xiaosha also directly asked the question in his heart.

"Don't worry, I just asked the doctor yesterday. Your back spine is a bit cracked, and it's not easy to recover from cracks, but the medicine is cured, take a good rest, and it's no problem to return to its original appearance." Shen Extraordinary comforted.

It's just that who doesn't know that it is impossible to restore the bone fracture to exactly the same as before.

Zhang Xiaosha obviously knew that Shen Feifei was comforting her.

Just comforting her is also good for her. Shen Feifei knows that Zhang Xiaosha is a person who is easy to think too much.

If the truth is told to her, she will worry about this and that again, and the gain outweighs the loss, so it's better to lie to her.

"You didn't lie to me?"

"How could I lie to you? Silly girl, don't think so much. The most important thing for you now is to lie on the bed and rest well, and be obedient. This way the injury will heal quickly, do you know?" Shen Feifei squeezed Zhang Xiaosha's nose.

Since when did this person like calling her a silly girl?Is she stupid?Looks like there is no?

rest?She had rested, and within half a month she had gained so much fat, which was even more fat than when Zhang Xiaochen was born in confinement.

"Did you notice that I gained a lot of fat?" Zhang Xiaosha turned to himself, a little disgusted.

"Is there? I think this is very good." Shen Feifei was obviously pretending to be confused, pinching Zhang Xiaosha's already fleshy face, "The fleshy face is so cute, and it feels more tactile."

Clearly pointing to something, Zhang Xiaosha admitted that Shen Feifei had indeed gone bad.

"It's much more fleshy than when I gave birth to my son!" Zhang Xiaosha pouted and retorted.

"Anyway, I didn't see it." Shen Feifei's tone was a little regretful. It was indeed Shen Feifei's great regret not to see his son from birth to growth with his own eyes, "Honey, you have to give me another one."

(End of this chapter)