piecing together the soul

Chapter 91 54 The Feeling of Waking Up

I don't know what's going on, but I have the feeling of waking up.

I am a ghost, ghosts can't sleep, the feeling of waking up can only be felt when the soul reunites.But that kind of reunion is really painful, but the feeling now is very comfortable, a long-lost feeling.

where is thisI thought subconsciously, but didn't say it out loud.

There is a ceiling in front of my eyes, I don't know if I read it wrong, but there is a fragrance lingering.

"Are you almost awake?"

"I'll wake up right away, I've been resting for so long."

I heard the voices of Qingluan and Xiaohan, I did wake up a lot and said, "I'm awake."

They both looked at me with a look of relief on their faces.

"It feels like Brother Xiu's complexion has improved a lot," Qingluan said.

Xiao Han also said: "Of course. It seems that this method is not bad. In the future, when your parents go to work again during the day, you will burn incense and sprinkle powder, and let Xiuying rest for a few more days."

Qingluan said again: "Why didn't I know that you brought so many strange things here?"

"I just know that I can use it. A beauty-loving person like me took a lot of clothes for a change, just to settle you two."

I couldn't keep up with their rhythm, so I said, "Does the ghost still look good?"

"Why are you pretending to be stupid?" Xiao Han said, "I've been a ghost for so many years, don't you know how thick or light your soul is? You were so pale in the morning, and now you're wearing naked makeup."

"What a mess, what's wrong with me?" I'm not pretending to be stupid, but I don't quite understand what nude makeup is.

Xiao Han cut off the incense that was still lingering just now, and said: "Your soul is too scattered, so I let you rest. Don't always think that you are a ghost and pay no attention at all. I and Master Guo will help you like this. You also have to take yourself seriously. But don't kill yourself at that time, and we both will be in vain. "

Although I woke up, my mind was still a little confused, so I didn't talk anymore, just nodded silently.

"Brother Xiu, why doesn't he seem to be sober?" Qingluan said.

Xiao Han smiled: "Is the memory messed up? Let him be quiet for a while, and smooth it out slowly. Let's tidy up, and your parents will be back from get off work in a while."

They both went out, leaving me here alone.

It's not that my memory is messed up, it's that my mind was a little confused before falling asleep.Although I knew that Qingluan's mother's room was full of things to ward off evil spirits, I still went in by mistake. Seeing their young wedding photos hanging on the wall, I felt as if I had been hollowed out.

When Qingluan's mother was young, she really looked exactly like Si'er, and I couldn't help but imagine that the person next to the photo was me.Before, I naively thought that everything Si'er did for me was just because of abiding by the Three Obediences and Four Virtues.That day I heard that Si'er never left Beijing because of me, I knew it was because of me... I don't know what kind of suffering she suffered as she was lonely and old during the war.

I can't help but think that although those so-called old morals seem pedantic, sometimes those who follow them have real feelings in their hearts.A self-reliant and self-reliant female man like Qingluan is indeed very good, but it seems that we should also respect those good wives and mothers who are willing to take care of their husbands and children at home, right?After all, people are different. Everyone has different ideas, different paths, and different lives.

So, what about my life?Heh, my life is actually over long ago. To me, the past hundred years should be called ghost birth.But, to live my life like that, am I really willing?Do you want to listen to Xiao Han and let him try to revive me and live another life?
In fact, before telling Qingluan, Xiaohan had already told me his plan, which was to revive me, and then his plan to marry Qingluan.It was on the train going north, when Qingluan was asleep, as soon as he said it, I immediately agreed.Unexpectedly, after coming here, I will feel a little regretful.

For Qingluan, I really fell in love with her. Many people say that falling in love with someone is often because of a moment, but I think it is many moments.I also really want to be with her every day until she really gets bored of me.But, I really didn't expect Si'er to do so many things for me from the bottom of my heart.I don't know if she has been waiting for me after her death, refusing to reincarnate. If I fail to find Si'er, is it a kind of disappointment to her?
Of course, the reason for reincarnation is not only because of this, but also because I am a little tired of the current state.As an illusory ghost, I am useless except that I can start to play a role when encountering other ghosts.Since I was a child, I went out to work hard to earn money for my adoptive mother; when I eloped with my fourth son, she was the one who relied on me when I had no money; including when I returned to Peiping, I also relied on my own strength to start my own university almost from scratch. buy and sell.

But now?Even if I am resurrected, I am not familiar with the current society and the current era, and my physical condition cannot be very good. Maybe I can really only drag the two of them down.Am I still Wang Xiuying?

Countless thoughts whizzed in and out of my mind, and I really couldn't figure it out.

At night, when Qingluan's parents were asleep, Qingluan came over to chat with Xiaohan, but I hardly interrupted.To be honest, I don't speak much recently, because I don't know how to face them.

I don't talk nonsense until I make a decision.

Later, Qingluan also went to sleep, only me and Xiaohan were left, he looked at me with a smile, and said, "How is it? Are you clearer?"

"I'm awake. I just can't figure out something."

"Then let me make you more messy." Xiao Han said, her smile restrained.

I had a premonition that he was going to talk about something serious, so I nodded: "Anything else that I can't tell Qingluan?"

"Yeah." Xiao Han said, "Remember? I mentioned it to you on the train before. It's about my enemy."

Of course I do.His enemy's surname is Song, and he and Mr. Song were good friends before. If it weren't for Mr. Song's average looks, they might have developed into good friends.But then there was a heavy rainstorm in Beijing, and the two of them walked together. Mr. Song took advantage of Xiao Han's unpreparedness and pushed him into a drainage well.Xiao Han didn't say how he escaped, but he said that he was lucky not to be cheated of the secret recipe at home.From then on, he knew that Mr. Song's family was his enemy. When Mr. Song approached him at the beginning, he came for various secret recipes from his family, and the two of them turned against each other.To be honest, I admire Xiao Han's decisiveness from the bottom of my heart.

"The one surnamed Song?" I asked.

He nodded: "I just got the news. He seems to be making a big fuss this time, so after returning to Beijing, I still need you to help me."

(End of this chapter)